Larry Is Back :)

Larry is back :)

I love that fly, he is literally my best friend right now

I'm so tireddd.

But I can't sleep. I just wanna sleep. Having a sleeping disorder sucks. And now it's already to late to take my meds because if I do now I'll be exhausted all day long tomorrow...

I just wanna sleeeeeep. Please?

I think I need to cuddle with someone and hear them breathing to fall asleep now...

Thinking about this one guy on summer camp which made me feel right.

He would sing to me. He would hold me when I was to drunk to walk. He would stargaze with me. He would go on midnight swims with me. He would build little gobling houses out of stickes and stones and moss with me. He would hold and cuddle me for hours.

He was everything.

He made me feel like I didn't have to pretend.

He showed me unconditional kindness. I asked him how and why and he hugged me and explained that I deserved it.

I miss him. I'd really like to be in his arms and have him sing to me right now.

I'm ashamed. I feel so guilty. I am so gross. I don't know. I don't know why I am like this...

I think I need more social interactions, I just talked to a fly for 15 minutes. I just talked to it like:

Me: what are you doing here?

Fly: bzzzzzz

Me: you are so pretty, what a pretty fly you are!

Fly: bzzzzzz

So yeah, I think I really need to talk to humans again...

I think my biggest sin is that I wanted to be loved.

Creatures like me never get a happy ending.