Colouredyoublu - Coloured You Blu

back to becoming strangers. back to a beginning where no love was formed. back to just pretending.

what’s the use in being in a relationship when you can’t artistically challenge yourself? i feel like lovers should naturally stimulate one another to constantly push forward.

what would the world look like if loving one another was simple? no games, no multitude of options to confuse our intentions and desires. just love without the mess of it all?

what am i to do? experiencing these intense emotions of unrequited love. i assure you this too is an ailment of the heart. if i dare speak aloud my torment — they will paint me as deranged. “focus on yourself” these are the words they sing with no melody. but how can i? how do i explain that there is no self without you? surely, i understand the foolishness of my words … but that does not negate the fact that they are rooted in truth. the moment you stepped afoot in my life, you affectionately sowed seeds of love that until this very day i have been unable to uproot. you made it so that i am unable to distinguish self from you. you from me. how can they not grasp that by letting you go, i am surrendering myself to defeat? a death so slow, a death so cruel — that i would not even dare to wish this curse upon my enemies.

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