enoughdonegone

It's Not Fine.

Abuse and trauma survivor - these are my stories in no particular order. Content warnings and triggers everywhere. Adult blog; 18+ only.

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Muscle Memory

Exhaustion is a trigger. It makes my body think that I'm going to see him. It vibrates lightly with fretful anticipation and dread.

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6 years ago

Streak Over

I was just thinking to myself the other day how it has been at least a month since I have cried properly. Yesterday I went to a movie and it triggered something fierce.

I wish I'd done what I normally do and read the plot ahead of time to be prepared.

I'm actually torn between sending a warning about it and spoiling the movie. .

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6 years ago

Mother of the Year

His sister really struggled with depression and suicidal ideation in her early teens. It was very inconvenient for his parents.

His mother made him check on his sister sometimes “to make sure she hadn’t killed herself” because she just “couldn’t stomach it” anymore.

I .. just... what?

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6 years ago

The first time I ever heard the n word used in person, it was at his family’s dinner table.

I was dumbfounded.

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dinner time conversation I wish I had been more vocal but his dad was kind of terrifying origin story creating an abuser origins in laws horrible things racism abusive ex abusive in laws bigot

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6 years ago

He used to put his hands around my waist and tell me “you’re so small!”

My broken brain was thrilled by this ‘compliment.’ In hindsight, it was a threat: “I could break you so easily.”

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6 years ago

When my phone rings, i get tense. If it's a number I don't recognize, I panic.

Another one of those things people think I should just be 'over.'

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symptoms PTSD cptsd recovery healing oh shit No don't call me abuse harrassment trauma traumatized well that's healthy not healed yet

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