Again, Today Is One Of Those Days When I Don't Know Who I Am Anymore....

Again, today is one of those days when I don't know who I am anymore....

Like....am I human ?

Am I really alive ?

If so then who I am ?

Male ? Female ? A kid ? An adult ?

Am I only one in the body or are there more of 'us' ?

Who is there ?

Can we be happy ?

Shall we die ?

I don't know anymore.....

Is it even worth it ?

Is trying worth anything ?

Is trying harder worth ?

Will trying change anything ?

Will any effort change anything ?

Probably not....

Then why try ?

Why put any kind of effort when other side does nothing in return ? When other side puts no fucking effort.

Is living worth it ?

Is death worth it ?

Is love worth it ?

Is anything worth anything ?

I really hate it when my "mum" keeps looking at my scars and says "I can't look at them."

Then stop geezz..... it's not that hard

And her nagging about "what will you tell the doctor if he/she asks ?" (I am preparing for a driving licence course and I have to meet the doctor first) What can I tell her ? The truth what else ?

I hate that my "dad" wants me to get rid of the scars no matter what... He says that I should use collagen to get rid of them....I don't want to....

Them being scared of other people and their thoughts....

When you made 'Sunoo's move' on someone the same way he did on Sunghoon and you're kinda friends but not really because you're the only one who makes effort and....and...and...

I don't know man .... The situation is fucked up....

Any tips ?

Yesterday I relapsed after 4 fucking months....

Promises are made to be broken, right ?

Me after 9 shots (I'm not used to any drinking over 2 shots), sliding on the bed and being like "ooppss!"

Really I was saying "ops" whenever I slid on the sheets