Again, Today Is One Of Those Days When I Don't Know Who I Am Anymore....

Again, today is one of those days when I don't know who I am anymore....

Like....am I human ?

Am I really alive ?

If so then who I am ?

Male ? Female ? A kid ? An adult ?

Am I only one in the body or are there more of 'us' ?

Who is there ?

Can we be happy ?

Shall we die ?

I don't know anymore.....

please reblog this if it is okay to anonymously confess something to you.

When you're texting someone and you're having really good time but suddenly they leave because they found someone better and you're like....ummm okay whatever....

Yeah I love that shit

I just realized that my "parents", especially my "dad", 'trained' me....

The front doors open, I run downstairs

They call my name, I run downstairs or to them without any questions

Whatever they say, I agree and nod

They trained me really good so if someone in the future decides to make me their dumb puppy know that I am already well-trained, just change some commands

I know I am learning

I know I am not supposed to know it

I know I have time to learn

But....

I am a Virgo

I am INTP

I need to be good at it before I even start it

I have to be perfect in it

I have to know it

I really hate it when my "mum" keeps looking at my scars and says "I can't look at them."

Then stop geezz..... it's not that hard

And her nagging about "what will you tell the doctor if he/she asks ?" (I am preparing for a driving licence course and I have to meet the doctor first) What can I tell her ? The truth what else ?

I hate that my "dad" wants me to get rid of the scars no matter what... He says that I should use collagen to get rid of them....I don't want to....

Them being scared of other people and their thoughts....