Tw/sh Talk

⚠️Tw/sh talk ⚠️

I want to cut so bad but also I don't want to move

I don't want to undress to find perfect place

I don't have energy to look for razors

I don't have energy to wait for cuts to stop bleeding

I don't have energy to hide those cuts

I don't have energy to cut

I just don't

My dude, your parents did not TRAIN YOU, literally all parents get you to do things like come over to them when they call you. That’s a basic biological thing most mammal parents do lmao!! Go outside! Stop whining on the internet and see a therapist!

Therapist is not helping that's why I stopped seeing her

What I meant was that I leave everything and go to the because I am fucking scared that if I don't come something bad will happen to me

And they don't even have to call me....I hear the gate opening or the door and I am downstairs.... without them calling me or so

Do you ever think of visiting a Psychiatrist? I use Tumblr for venting too but I might need someone to actually talk to. No idea if this will help or stress me more but this idea comes up a lot recently

I had a psychiatrist and psychologist but I gave up on them after seeing their help wasn't helpful

But without visiting one you won't know if he/she helps you

Some people find comfort in those visits and maybe it will help you too

Try it

I wanna disappear

I just relapsed....

Why?

Just because

Because I felt like it

Because I'm a fucking failure

Because I can

Are we even friends ?

I don't expect you to text me everyday but once in a while will be enough

I don't want to be the only one to start the conversation

If I don't start there won't be any

"If I stop texting them first I'll never hear from them again"

And asking me questions to get to know me is so hard ?

Giving me this kind of hope for anything

I don't want that

When I catch myself smiling at your texts I want to bump my head on the wall, to kick something just to get rid of this feeling

I don't want to get too attached (I probably am already)

Take it from me