I Hate Being Single

I hate being single

Like i wanna send random stuff to a s/o

I wanna hold some1

I wanna feel loved

I’m a threat to more than myself, I’ll ruin someone else’s day without even realizing it. By simply existing.

CW: VENT, SUICIDE MENTIONS

Why can't I just fucking mean something to someone?

I'm tired of being cooped up in my house all day long and never actually getting to hang out with any of my friends, while also never getting a single bit of attention online outside of people being a dick to me and shaming me for having a different opinion than theirs, and atp, i'm giving up.

I stopped asking my friends if they want to hang out, I stopped trying to rack up conversations with people, and I just don't care anymore.

I'm only still active on social media anymore because even with the isolation I still have this stupid ass internet addiction that's never gonna go away and I just-... (honestly it wouldn't matter what I post anyway considering my reputation's already ruined by some stupid actions I did years ago.

I just wish someone actually needed me in their life. Like they literally depend on my attention so that they don't kill themselves. That way I wouldn't be so damn lonely all the time.

TW: DRUG MENTIONS

Fuck mood stabilizers. Someone just please give me some fucking heroin so I can snort that shit up my nose. I can't take it anymore.

bpd culture is being comfortable with being aromantic in all areas until it comes to your fp because they’ve got a partner and they’ll never, ever ever ever love you more than them because what’s platonic love to romantic love? nothing. you’ll never be above them. you’re a second choice once again, just when you felt you finally found someone who understood. so fun!

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