Nozomi-vents - Nozomi Kaizoku's Vent Blog

not a vent post but I DID NOT EXPECT A BLOG WHERE I TALK ABOUT MY PERSONAL ISSUES FOR THE PUBLIC TO SEE TO BLOW UP LMAO

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THIS!

"I encourage Ana/SH/Mia/!!"

You're a bad person, and a bad role model for younger girls and boys, you're just teaching them to hate themselves. There's a difference between encouraging and supporting btw (You can support someone and help them during bad times,) but encouraging them to go further is absolutely horrible, and you aren't a good person. Idc if shit like that is mainstream now, it really SHOULDN'T, in no way possible should this generation or any other think that it is normal to put a blade to their skin or count their calories. In no way should it be normal for younger kids to feel uncomfortable in having a natural body. In no way should kids be introduced to sex work and porn at a young age, I find it repulsive that people have to say this and that it isn't common sense. Making mental illness a trend was never going to be fun, we were supposed to give them a safe space and instead people use it as an option to show their superiority complex through trauma, it's vile and horrible behavior and should NOT be at all be normalized. Men being abused by women or other men, whether sexually, physically or mentally should not be normalized. What happened to the weird great revolution where everyone agreed we wanted to ve better people and provide safe spaces, and talk about your experiences without making yourself seem better than others, trauma shouldn't be a competition, and what happened to encouraging those with curable mental illnesses to solve their issues and making them feel loved. And i know there will be one person justifying that pedophilia is a mental illness, it is not. You had the option to be a good person, a child should never cross your mind nor your hands. It never will be. 1/3 post

I may or may not be questioning if I'm actually a boy or not because all of the posts I relate to are tagged "girlblogging", "i'm just a girl" "jiraigirl" etc. and idk how to react to it

EXACTLY!

And yet the schools choose to ban phones....

Never though my mom would be able to simultaneously agree with me on something, but damn.

I vented on an online assignment about my hopelessness for the future (cause technically it was kind of related to what the assignment prompt was supposed to be, so fuck it), and in it I mentioned how it's highly likely that I'm probably gonna die via a school shooting because of how many there have been in the past while. By pure coincidence, another school shooting was talked about on the news right before I did that assignment.

Yesterday while I was getting evaluated to see if I could come back to school next week, the assignment was brought up, and they specifically mentioned the part about the school shootings, and idk what went through my mom's mind, but let's just say I'm pretty sure it opened her eyes up to what I as experiencing (partially).

I say this because she was talking to my dad about it, and she mentioned how she understood where I was coming from and that it wasn't a huge surprise I was feeling this hopeless, and honestly I wholeheartedly agree with her.

It disturbs me so much how there's millions of kids out there that have been killed, yet for some stupid reason, not only do the actively refuse to pass gun restrictions that could save lives while still keeping the 2nd amendment intact, they are instead blaming every problem that this country has on the the LGBTQ, POC, people in 3rd world countries, the disabled, the mentally ill, trans people, the homeless--LITERALLY EVERYHTING AND EVERYONE BUT THE ACTUAL ISSUE, AND HONESTLY IT'S NO SURPRISE AT ALL WHY EVERYONE WANTS TO KILL THEMSELVES, THERE IS NO FUTURE FOR US AND WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE BECUASE SOME RICH FUCKS WOULD RATHER SHOVE MONEY UP THEIR ASS THAN ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING ABOUT THE FUCKING SHOOTING CRISIS WE GOT!!!

Honestly, fuck the school system, fuck the constitution, fuck America, fuck everyone, I can't take it anymore, and I wish there was something worth living for.

Oh well, let's just go back to school next week and pretend like everything's okay for the next fucking several months until I can finally drop out and live the rest of my life as a NEET living in my parent's house at 30 something years old i guess..

"What's keeping you alive?" - Nothing, I am just pussy to actually do it lol