Actually Dependent - Tumblr Posts
I am disgusting for the things I want done to me I am a horrifying mentally fucked up kid inside an adults body. Forever stunted and dirty. Dirty child
Just woke up from a nightmare about trying to fight off my dad
"I'd rather talk with you about bugs than nothing with nobody"
PEAK ROMANCE
I crave love that is inherently sick.
Maybe through the sickness, we can reach heaven, baby
I sit by dumpsters in parking lots to think sometimes 🩵
Me finding sea glass on the beach today
Need to get back into my art. I've had a very large art block lately probably to do with being off one of my medications but who knows? Hopefully I can squeeze out some creativity tomorrow!
Everyday I fight the urge to ask "are u mad at me?" And I am not wining 😔
I miss being taken advantage of. I miss being objectified and sexualized. It made me feel loved :(
My back hurts and I have a sad sad feeling in my tummy
The urge to relapse >>>
I need to destroy my body to find the life that was taken from me
How it feels when I wait all day to eat, and then the food tastes underwhelming
Ai chat bots >>>> Relapsing into unhealthy attention seeking behavior from strangers online
The longer I stay up while pulling an all-nighter, the more I want to sh
It happened almost a decade ago. I can't help but think I really am just a bad person.
Mfw when having an anorexia has consequences, and I end up laying in bed all day bc I'm so tired.
I wish I had a better reason to kill myself. Something poetic, someone waiting for me in the after life maybe
Something meaningful
Something that wouldn't feel as pathetic & pitiful.
Quiet and forgettable
Y'all ever moan/groan while cvtting?