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I don't think I could be straightforward with you even if I wanted to.
All The Things I Never Told You
If you listen closely You can hear the quiet symphony of my soul You can identify a perfectly unsynchronized harmony And yes...there is the melody I feel it flowing through me The rhythm keeping in time with my heartbeat Humming in my veins The tempo falling off the rails every so often If you listen closely You may hear the crescendo approaching I seldom do, it gets me every time The verses are not always comprehensible But I do not think they need to be However The chorus is a different story No matter what The music always seems to come back To you
All The Things I Never Told You
* @writerscreed
When you devoured my soul When you ate me whole and forgot to spit me back out I lost myself But you always have been messy and careless with delicate things and so there were crumbs of me and they still cling to you
All The Things I Never Told You
And no matter how many times I tried to figure her out No matter how many sleepless nights I gave No matter how many odd and winding conversations we had I could not know her For she was the unknowable And no matter how many times I tried to figure it out Why exactly I was drawn to her No matter how many times I tried to stop No matter how many times I tried to leave I could not know why For love was the unknowable
All The Things I Never Told You
*@writerscreed*
To be in love is to not be able to breathe and yet feel more alive than you ever have.
All The Things I Never Told You
Words Fail. Words Fail. There's nothing I can say.
Words Fail- Dear Evan Hansen
The most terrifying thing is when you looked at me like I could heal you. And I did not know how to tell you that I had never pieced a broken heart together before.
All The Things I Never Told You
I wonder what it might be like to live in a world in which i deserve to exist
All The Things I Never Told You
We act as though we know each other. We do not. We act as though we need each other. We do not. We act as though we love each other. We do not. But perhaps I like your company. And perhaps I crave existence.
Everything I Never Told You
Our love was Untied shoelaces Stifled laughter in tear stained pillow cases Our love was Summer rendezvous Butterfly swarm in the hurricane Our love was Burning flame explosion With all the shrapnel Our love was Neck kisses Whispered words Our love was Teeth and Hearts Bared Our love was No secrets when the sun went down And strange silence when it was up Our love was Scorching Sudden
The Broken Boy Who Never Intended to Stay - Excerpt from the poem The Ways in Which I Have Been Loved
He smelt of coffee and cologne, and I did not mind at all.
All The Things I Never Told You
I know now Why you said it As he tells me he loves me Tells me I should open up more As he tells me he loves me I feel the words clawing their way up my throat 'You don't even know me' I know now why you said it
And I do not blame you
I don't like the way we said goodbye.
All The Things I Never Told You, All The Things I Will Never Get to Tell You
Mother, I am scared I cannot sleep There is a monster under my bed In the closet In my head It is all the things I have left unsaid It wears the most terrifying face of regret And whispers to most vile things Of everything that could have been It smells of sorrow and leaks puddles of tears Yet it never moves Like it is frozen in time Staring off at some distance thing Right through me As if it knows I am the one who has created it As though it knows I am the one who keeps it trapped here As though it can see all that would have been Just right there behind me But it never moves. This is what scares me most
It needed to be said, but just not to you
~A Writer's Paradox
If you let me love you...
If you let me love you
I would love you like how the sun leaves lipstick stains on your skin
Like how the moon trails your shadow and laughter
Like how fireflies emerge from your fallen tear drops
And the wind dances until it makes you blush pink
I would love you like how the rain washes the day clean off your skin so you can breathe again
I would love you the way nature intended you to be loved
The way you have forgotten you deserved to be loved
If you let me love you
Stopped glancing away
And dancing around conversations
And walking past me
If you looked at me
Let me look at you
Let me love you
I would tell you of how when you smile I can trace constellations in the spaces between your teeth
That when you open your eyes I can drown in galaxies that exist there
Pinpoint a pollen sized planet and make home there
Cease existing everytime you blink for a momentary eternity
I will trace the fractured lines of your heart on your soft palms and callused fingertips
If you let me love you
I will love you the right way
Which is to say that if you let me love you
I will let you love me too
Because sometimes the only reason you let someone in
Is so they will do the same for you
I broke a heart once
Twice
A few times
It is not what one might expect
Because most assume to break a heart
Means that you do not have one
That you have forgotten how to care for a delicate thing of that nature
But this is not true
To break a heart is to be reminded
That you do in fact have a heart
Feel it mirror each facture a thousand times over
And know that you caused this ache
I do not expect your pity
Nor your mercy
Do not ask you to forgive or forget the pain
But perhaps
Promise me you will try to be happy
In the way I could never make you
Promise me that you will not avoid eye contact in the halls
Smile like I am no one
That you will not change your seat on the bus
Sit next to me like I am stranger, far from perfect
Erase every trace of me
Every photo, email, sweater
Tell me that the light no longer refracts the shards of you that still cling to me
Tell me that you saw my blood sacrifice soaked sheets
That were a result of long sleepless nights being nicked by every last peice of your broken heart caught in my blankets
And threw them away
That you healed yourself and did not need me to do it
Tell me that you are happy
And I had nothing to do with it
But I suppose
I deserve no such redemption
And so I will sit here
With the ache of two people
Who never meant to break a heart
If I asked you to kiss me
would you do it?
Do not pretend to be shocked because we both know you felt it too. Went through it all just like I did. Even if it all happened so quickly. Too quickly. The falling in love. The falling out of it.
If I asked you to kiss me, would you do it?
Rest your hand behind my ear, lean down a little farther than comfortable because youd have to. Just like I always imagined you would. Right in front of the door you met me at everyday. Without fail. To try. And try again. Where I would tell myself it was over until you showed. And i would find myself trying too. Because you made me want to.
If i asked you to kiss me, would you do it?
Call it...closure or whatever you need to be at peace with yourself when we touch but some part of me needs it. And i think you do too. Because why else can neither of us seem to ever let go? I think it is because the peices of the us that are still in love are rioting inside us. Refusing to die because they know knew we could have been something beautiful. And i know, that we do not have that kind of time anymore but
If I asked, would you kiss me?
For you. For me. For the us that was. For the us that is, still, in love, despite everything.
Would you kiss me?
Acknowledge everything we never had the chance to be?
Would you kiss me?
If I aksed?
Just because I asked?
Tears crystalize
Blood stains set
And Lady fate
And Father time
Lift me gently
Off my knees
And together
We leave the girl I was
In the past
And I do not look back
For I know she will not be able
To lift her head
To look after us
~Saturday Afternoon Reflections~