Did System - Tumblr Posts - Page 2

🗺 - What is your headspace like? (If you have one)

It's a very complex place and it's huge

It's decided by layers but I only have access to one and knowledge about like 5? I'm not super into that because that's not my role and I don't usually go there

In the main later there is a store and many random places that are more specific for system function and some houses

💫🧡💗 for the ask game!!!

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Ask game here

💫 - what's your headcount (if you know)?

More than 1300 but like 70% of them are fragments lol

🧡 - do you source-identify?

Kind of, it depends on many factors because in some things I do source-identify and in other I don't

💗 - do you dress up the body in a certain way when you front, or do you not mind how it's already dressed?

Normally we dress up in ways that we like but some alters do little modifications in the appearance to be more comfortable

I'm feeling so fucking bad for a lot of reasons, one of the reasons will probably read this post

Thanks to multiple factors my blogs will be in an undefined hiatus, there's a lot going on in my life and I need to prioritize myself, not leaving Tumblr because I want to but because I don't have the mind to be social and with them seeing my posts I don't even feel comfortable posting like I was before

I will keep posting in three specific blogs that are the userbox, coining and emojis blogs, also I'll be reposting in the systober blog, outside those blogs I won't be posting, even this blog will be on hiatus

Maybe I'll be answering some asks that appear in my inbox of this blog, if I don't see them bad I will answer them because I like Tumblr at the end of the day so feel free to use the inbox here, but don't expect an answer as it will depend on my mood

Mutuals can DM and chat with me but don't expect fast answers as I'm gonna be pretty inactive on Tumblr thanks to fucking paranoia and other personal problems

So yeah this is a bye... Maybe in December or even the next year I'll be fully back(? I'm not sure at this point, I need to feel safe and with social battery first

I'm gonna leave a small post on all my more active blogs about the hiatus so you can expect them to so closing inbox TT

Idk what more to say... See ya

Hiii!! This might be a kinda weird ask, but we remember your answer to an ask game a while ago where you mentioned having different levels of the fragment->alter scale and we were just really curious and were wondering if you’d be willing to share more in depth abt that?? /nf ofc, just wondering cause it sounds like a really neat form of organization!! :3

-Kinito (it/he/they) 💾 <33

Oh yeah sure, I'm not going to go in super in depth here because personal preference but if you find interesting enough what I say here and you want to know more about you can totally ask in dm

We have two main categories for seeing formation here, we have the persmos and the canvas, I'm gonna explain both categories in a simple way, just that canvas will not have a very good explanation

The persmos are divided on 7 sections that are:

Alter-1A = Formed 90-100%

Alter-1B = Formed 75-90%

Demifragter-2A = Formed 55-75%

Demifragter-2B = Formed 45-55%

Demifragter-2C = Formed 30-45%

Fragment-3A = Formed 20-30%

Fragment-3B = Formed 5-20%

We tend to only recognize this ones as the only important enough to register them in our simply plural or acknowledge their existence, so after that we don't tend to keep a register of the rest

After the persmo category all the ones that have a 5 or less formation are put in the canvas category which have their own specification depending on many factors

For personal comfort we're not gonna dive in depth on how the canvas category works outside that they're fragments that don't even tend to have their own conscious neither being aware they exists and therefore are classified depending on how they help or what they can do for the system function

Hope this answered and sorry for taking so fucking long to answer this lmao

I didn't expect this but here we go

We actually have multiple front rooms tho we just know good about the main front room as it is... Well the main one lol

It's just a huge room with a super big console, some chairs and other specific rooms like extensions, idk it's very strange to explain it

Idk who to tag, however that wants to do it go ahead 😭

system tag game ! :D

endos do not interact !!

do you have a fronting room ? if so , what does it look like ? how does each headmate feel about the fronting room ?

@rigormortisangel @fangsinyourheart @munebat @sacryficing /nf , and uhhh any other sys mutuals i’m blanking sorry fellas

my fronting room is a giant cardboard box , details are to be figured out i guess ?? i think its really silly /pos , oscar loves it because it likes closed spaces , mordu thinks it’s stupid , i don’t know crash’s opinions , and idk if zephyr’s even been here lol !

Hey yall, Jack Kelly fictive here, just wanted to let yall know my boyfriend, a spot conlon fictive, FUCKING MISREAD WILLIAM RANDOLF HEARST AS FUCKING WHITECLAW?????? LITERALLY BROOKLYNS LEADER AND CANT EVEN FUCKING READ /T /LH

last sunday my friend brainmate fellow host got me something really cool that he was trying to keep secret but i found out about really fast and it arrived today

ITS A TINY SUNNYY :D 🦁

but i have to put her together so this is her so far

i'm gonna be putting up more photos here when i get more done!

UPDATE on tiny Sunny

her figure head made me very nostalgic and happy/sad feeling

i keep getting impatient and frustrated with the stickers and messing them up i might later on take them off and just paint instead (when and if i can find the paint)

SHES MOSTLY DONE! haven't put the stickers on her sails yet! i was up until past 3 in the morning putting her together last night it was fun

tiny crew! they look so funny in there

I took a walk today and sat in a park! I also talked to a stranger that was fun too but I made a bug friend who sat on my arm the whole time I was in the park! :D

Man i found something that suck so much . You problably know by now that i'm in a did system and since this alter can pop out of nowhere... guess what happened . We did a whole plan that worked and now we have to start again bc there is a New alter and that alter need to learn how to live in society. I don't blame them of course i blam my brain for needing a person who can't live yet among People bc it suck to have to contain them like some sort of animal ,even if they act like one . And i believed it was probably over with the creation of new alters .

If you ask they look like this and called themselves thing

The different types of dissociative amnesia;

(This is important information that I feel should be spread around, however the blog on which I found it, mentioned in, and tagged the post with things such as "endo safe" and "multiorigin" so this one is for those who do not want to associate with those)

Blackout: there is no memory, just a gap of time. This can range from a few minutes, hours, days, months, and even years.

Greyout: This is like you remember somewhat, just not super well. This is kind of a spectrum. It can range from barely remembering something, to having a decent amount, but it’s still very blurry and details are missing.

Emotional: This refers to you can remember it, but it doesn’t feel like it was you. Like a movie you watched.

Any system can experience amnesia, though not every system will.

appreciation post for the systems who

don't care ab being in system communities and don't interact with other systems.

need validation from system communities and interact lots with other systems.

systems who are neutral about the system community

systems who are actively trying to make the system community better

systems who switch between these points

Experiences I have related to DID that I forget are literally because I have DID

- Feeling like my identity / sense of self is fluid & ever changing

- Being absolute ass at a specific thing and then being good at it later

- Thoughts / inside voices being fuzzy , distant , like a distant conversation

- Having fluctuating feelings toward friends/families/my partner

- Getting suddenly dizzy and finding it hard to move

- Realizing I’m not wearing what I originally put on

- Feeling zero emotions or feeling every possible emotion amplified 100x

- A lot more that I can’t remember right now, also because of DID

Me after realizing everything I do and feel is related to having this dissociative disorder 😦😦😦😦😦

not every system has a gatekeeper.

not every system has a set host.

not every osdd system has less than 50 alters.

not every polyfrag system has more than 1000 alters.

not every system has an innerworld.

not every system can access their innerworld.

not every system hates their system.

not every system knows everything about themselves.

not every system knows nothing about themselves.

not every system sees themselves in the same way.

everyone’s system is different. everyone deals with their systemhood differently and has different views on systemhood.

you are not broken or wrong or faking for not being like someone else. you’re just different, like every system is <3