Disassociative Identity Disorder - Tumblr Posts

The pipeline of "I'm a writer who knows their characters inside out" to ✨DID (or OSDD) diagnosis✨ is one I've seen one too many times.

If you have a character version does this make you an interject? (just kidding I've been around longer than the character)

Host & Protector Amber on host's journey to accepting their system (a rather bitsy post)

(colours used to differentiate who said what)

Host: it's been a long road, and I'm nowhere near done but… One of the hardest things to accept when I realised I have a system was accepting that DID isn't bad. DID systems aren't inherently dangerous. They're not any more likely to be abusers than the general population.

I knew so in theory from watching documentaries, researching, listening to podcast and reading people's experiences with DID. However.. personal experience often outweighs rationed research.

TW, talk of sexual assault, harassment, grooming, abuse, abusers using DID as a scapegoat

I was groomed extensively by a person who claimed to have DID.

Host: I knew they'd tried to SA me however I was told, by them, that they never got to the point of actually doing it, and that their “primary protector” had stopped "their bad alter" from raping me. [Amber: our trauma holders have things to be said about that]

but in doing so, their likely faking of DID, and hiding under a guise of "that wasn't me" "my bad alter did that" "we have bad alters!" lead to me developing a deep-rooted fear of anyone who said they had DID/OSDD, including to the point of denying any possiblity we could have it.

[Amber: when I did call them out on touching us inappropriately, they blamed it on one of their other alters.]

I didn't need Split to scare me into believing DID systems were bad, I had someone I knew, and at the time, respected, do it for me.

From my perspective, everything in my life fell apart.

It was only after I had vanished into our internal world for several months did I start to feel safe to ask questions. I started writing to Amber and everyone else.

Amber: I wrote back pretty much as soon as I saw host had written to me - they'd addressed me by name, so I wrote back and explained my role. And they flipped out even further. We didn't see our host for months.

Not only did they disappear in headspace, but they wouldn't float in and out of the fronting space like they did previously. They wouldn't front, or track in Simply Plural, write, or comment on anything. I thought they'd gone dormant for a while.

Eventually they fronted, and asked myself and a couple of our friends, “Is there anyone in our system who would hurt anyone?”

I and one of our best friends explained that there wasn't. Luckily for us, our host trusts that friend implicitly and combined with my note of "everyone in our system would rather kill themselves than hurt anyone else" they started to believe us. Slowly but surely they started relaxing, and believing me, and being willing to speak in therapy.

And in return, our brain has finally let them appear solidly enough in the internal world that some of us can see and interact with them.

I finally got to hug them.

All I can say right now, I am so fucking proud of how far our host has come in the last couple of years. They've grown, matured and fought through so much shit lately, I couldn't be prouder. I feel like an older sister saying so, but it's so true.

Moral of the story; fakers suck ass. Hosts take time to come around to being in systems. Do your research.

And most importantly, be kind to your hosts and your system members. Take care of them. They may not front the most, they may not be the bravest people on the planet, they may not even know anything about the system, but our role as system members is to love and support our hosts and other sys members, come hell or high water.

Don't be afraid to reach out to people. You don't have to do this with just your system. <3

fun fact, according to the DSM-IV, DID Specific Culture, Age, and Gender Features: "Females tend to have more identities than do males, averaging 15 or more, whereas males average approximately 8 identities." so to all my afab system friends, have fun with your 15+ alters! :DDD

Hey! Saw your post about Octacon, just wondering what your experience with it is/if it's worth checking out as an alternative to Simply plural? We're just not personally fans of Sp's layout and have only just heard of Octacon

It's 100% a viable alternative to SimplyPlural if you're on android - it's not on iOS yet, last I heard iOS is in development and aiming to be launched in late 2024/early 2025. Octocon doesn't have the web app version (yet) so if that's something you use a lot then it may not work out as well.

SP vs Octo layout

If you find SP's layout pesky, definitely give Octo a go! Currently, Octo doesn't have quite as many features as SimplyPlural but it's a very new app atm and it's improving very quickly :)

If you use discord a lot; it also has a baked in set of features, similar to TupperBox and PluralKit that allow for proxy messaging

There's a lot of information available octo's discord if you're curious: link (https://discord.com/invite/octocon)

[and a little reminder that octo is aimed at CDDs but they aren't banning any systems with other origins from using it — full details of post in alt text]

Plus, Octo has a minecraft server for Patreon supporters if that's something you're into XD

We have another post explaining our personal usage of SP if anyone is curious

Does anyone have any suggestions for flying with a wheelchair, disabilities and a severe disassociative disorder (possibly flying international).

Literally anything welcome, if we're going I'm planning on taking noise cancelling headphones and my hidden disabilities lanyard, and making sure it's all in my booking info, but man am I scareddd

I keep hearing hell stories of people's wheelchairs getting absolutely battered, and broken in transit and I'm a little worried about mine 🫠 it's a folding manual model if that changes anything :)

Thanks in advance!

I dislike the puzzle piece symbolism for autism due to its connotations with AutismSpeaks and the way it suggests autistic people need to be solved....

but it's a possible take for DID; viewing your system as little pieces of greater whole? maybe?

We're whole on our own, as individuals.. but simultaneously, we're disassociated pieces but we do make a greater picture.? Hmm

I do prefer the venn diagram in a larger circle because it shows individually whole pieces that make up a greater whole. One of our sys says it's time to go try make a system logo/symbol haha

I think for now we'll stick to constellations for our own system, but what do y'all think? What's your favourite system symbolism and why?

//this post is aimed at CDD/traumagenic systems//