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Can we please for a moment talk about how real a Drarry endgame actually would be?
‘Cause I refuse to believe I would look at someone I hate the way Draco does when he sees Harry. You can literally see his face light up like the sun just came up. Just-
Not to mention the fact that Draco was also literally checking him out!
Also… seeking for attention? Like really the whole damn time? And one time Draco doesn’t try to get Harry‘s attention Harry is like: wtf is happening? Why doesn’t Draco try to get my attention by annoying me or whatever?
*sees Draco in the great hall turning around and walking away* oh nope- YOU BETTER COME BACK HERE AND AT LEAST LOOK AT MEH!
Yeah, that must be pure hatred. *cough*
you know what’s also funny? when i said november last year when it was the first time i watched harry potter in forever well that same night i stared reading harry potter fanfics and that’s when i started shipping drarry fun fact here i knew drarry was a thing before i watched harry potter again in a long while but are you ready for what i’m about to say? i never used to not ship drarry again i knew the ship was a thing but i never shipped them actually i never cared for enemies to lovers then i was like how did people ship draco and harry didn’t they hate each other? well that night when i was going though harry potter fanfics to read i decided you know what lim just gonna try and read a drarry fanfic give it a try see what the hype is all about if it don’t interest me then oh well but we’ll it did interest me i forgot what the first drarry fanfic i read but whatever fic it was i feel in love i loved it then i read drarry fic after another after a nother after a nother and was like i can see why people love drarry fanfiction then i download the harry potter movies on my laptop for free so i can watch the harry potter movies whenever i want if it’s not on tv not only the fanfics made me ship drarry the movies did to after watching the movies a million times because i can and i still do😂 i started paying attention to scenes between harry and draco even though their Conversation are snarky remarks and all but their body language and their tension just screams oh yea they are definitely secretly in love with each other like i can name drarry scenes that says draco you are so in love with harry and harry you are so in love with draco okay starting with prisoner of azkaban when hagrid was teaching class before draco taunted harry about the dementors draco walked up to harry and biting his lip also in prisoner of azkaban when snape was teaching class about werewolf’s draco drew that drawing of harry and made into a bird swan origami and blew it to him like a blowing a kiss and in the deathly hallows part 1 draco did not reveal to his parents and bellatrix that that was harry when harry face was unrecognizable by that stinging jinx spell like draco did recognize him and knew it was him but did not want to give him up to voldemort and in the last movie the deathly hallows part 2 one scene was cut still pissed about btw is when draco gave harry his wand so harry can defeat voldemort and the same movie deathly hallows part 2 most all drarry fan can agree on this and still freak out over when harry saved draco life in the room of requirement when it was set on fire by goyle so draco saved harry’s life twice one by not giving him up to voldemort and second saving his life by giving his wand to harry so harry can save himself and everyone by defending voldemort mind you harry never had his own wand with him when killing voldemort no one else gave harry their wand draco did the movie just showed you and thought the wand harry killed voldemort with was his because like i said the scene that shows draco giving harry his wand was cut from the movie it’s a deleted scene that scene should of never been cut from the movie at all but that scene also showed draco redemption arc i still really hate the creators for cutting draco redemption arc and the drarry scene there’s so many great drarry moments in each movie but it will take too long to write and post this post is long enough i just want to let everyone know how i started shipping drarry the same night i started watching harry potter again in so long last year of november the morning after thanksgiving❤️
Oh my god this means so much. Thank you for the kind words, for reading and for sharing. I’m actually quite speechless that someone read my little fic.
Only Connect by InNoodleWeTrust
Summary:
Harry is a dark-wizard catcher. Seven years after the war, nearly all of Lord Voldemort’s followers have been captured, tried, and imprisoned. Or else, presumed dead. There isn’t much left to do for an Auror whose glory days are behind him. Isn’t that what Rita Skeeter wrote in her latest column, that Harry Potter has become irrelevant?
Meanwhile… Lucius Malfoy and his son have turned themselves in. The question in the newspaper and on Harry’s mind is: Why?
Word Count: 25970 Rating: Teen
Link to Fic: https://archiveofourown.org/works/42521544/chapters/106801083
My Thoughts: This fic kept me warm through a rainy weekend. Even though I didn’t go out, this story let me travel and relish the joy of sightseeing with my favorite ship. I loved the writing. Every sentence had such clarity and beauty, and the each scene built onto each other so smoothly. Only Connect is a truly tender and lovely fic.
What do you love about Drarry?
This ask has been sitting in my inbox (and wriggling around in my brain) for some months. Others have answered it, very eloquently, and I didn’t know that I had more to say. But I do. Thanks for asking.
I love Drarry because of how completely, and how instantly, the characters transcended their original narratives. How the community finished reading Deathly Hallows in July 2007, said “hmm,” closed the book, and promptly started tagging fanworks with EWE (Epilogue, What Epilogue?).
Because we all saw that epilogue for what it was: the kind of future that we might imagine for ourselves in grade school, doodling the name of our cutest classmate in our notebook and making up names for our kids. Or the kind of future some parents would write for us, where we marry their friends’ children and never leave our hometown and never disappoint or surprise our elders.
But my hunch is that most of us, here in this space, have lived lives where we scrapped our own pre-written epilogues.
Whatever that has looked like for each of us — whether we came out, or got divorced, or left our religions, or had the baby too soon, or never had the babies, or have climbed mental health mountains, or picked a path less pristine — we chose different things to believe in.
I’ll be honest: I rarely return to the books that started it all. By now I know them enough. They live a bit in the same mental spaces as my own childhood. I love my childhood because I desperately love the smaller version of me who had so much to figure out! She was trying so hard and learning so much. But I don’t spend undue time reliving the particular traumas that got me here.
And most of the guides I trusted back then, who tried to shape me into a particular ideal of what my future should be? I have left them behind. It’s complicated. I could feel bad that their investment in me did not pan out the way they hoped, but I don’t owe them who I am becoming.
Likewise, I love these kids that went to magic wizard school and went through unspeakable horror, often at the explicit maneuvering and brainwashing of their elders. I observe the ways in which they were manipulated and shaped to have certain futures.
And then I free them from their author. I let them grow up to be something different. The child I was recognizes the child they were, and then together we agree to go forward to messier, wider, more true stories.
I think this is why I can keep reading & writing Drarry even as their original author spirals into hateful existence. To me it’s like the “okay, well then, I’m your mom now” response to a disowned trans kid or a pregnant sixteen-year-old.
We collectively see these (fucked up, and for good reason) characters and say, “okay! Well then, we’re your authors now. Get in. We've got places to go."
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i will say this once so dont rat on me. dramione draco is different from drarry draco and i recognize it immediately
Fandom: Harry Potter
Sample Size: 223,163 stories
Source: AO3
What do you love about Drarry?
This ask has been sitting in my inbox (and wriggling around in my brain) for some months. Others have answered it, very eloquently, and I didn’t know that I had more to say. But I do. Thanks for asking.
I love Drarry because of how completely, and how instantly, the characters transcended their original narratives. How the community finished reading Deathly Hallows in July 2007, said “hmm,” closed the book, and promptly started tagging fanworks with EWE (Epilogue, What Epilogue?).
Because we all saw that epilogue for what it was: the kind of future that we might imagine for ourselves in grade school, doodling the name of our cutest classmate in our notebook and making up names for our kids. Or the kind of future some parents would write for us, where we marry their friends’ children and never leave our hometown and never disappoint or surprise our elders.
But my hunch is that most of us, here in this space, have lived lives where we scrapped our own pre-written epilogues.
Whatever that has looked like for each of us — whether we came out, or got divorced, or left our religions, or had the baby too soon, or never had the babies, or have climbed mental health mountains, or picked a path less pristine — we chose different things to believe in.
I’ll be honest: I rarely return to the books that started it all. By now I know them enough. They live a bit in the same mental spaces as my own childhood. I love my childhood because I desperately love the smaller version of me who had so much to figure out! She was trying so hard and learning so much. But I don’t spend undue time reliving the particular traumas that got me here.
And most of the guides I trusted back then, who tried to shape me into a particular ideal of what my future should be? I have left them behind. It’s complicated. I could feel bad that their investment in me did not pan out the way they hoped, but I don’t owe them who I am becoming.
Likewise, I love these kids that went to magic wizard school and went through unspeakable horror, often at the explicit maneuvering and brainwashing of their elders. I observe the ways in which they were manipulated and shaped to have certain futures.
And then I free them from their author. I let them grow up to be something different. The child I was recognizes the child they were, and then together we agree to go forward to messier, wider, more true stories.
I think this is why I can keep reading & writing Drarry even as their original author spirals into hateful existence. To me it’s like the “okay, well then, I’m your mom now” response to a disowned trans kid or a pregnant sixteen-year-old.
We collectively see these (fucked up, and for good reason) characters and say, “okay! Well then, we’re your authors now. Get in. We've got places to go."
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Little jars of love
Prompt used- kissing others brows | I couldn't think of a way to make the particular prompt but wrote about kissing the eyes | Posts now on AO3 | fluff, angst, hurt/comfort |
It was a beautiful sight to spent the rest of his night with, away from everyone, drowning in melancholy with reminiscents of the past. Harry spent his time looking forward remembering each and every single one of them. How was it that everyone had somehow moved on but he couldn't ? Why did he feel as if he was the only one drowning in the painful memories. 2 years ago albus dumbledore had fallen off the tower after being hit by the curse and that tainted memory is still seems so fatally real. Harry sighed remembering dumbledore's last words as he held his Chocolate frog card, vanishing just like he had came. 6 years was all he got with that man and yet here he was, yet again crying over someone's death.
" thought I'd find you here" a soft Whisper came from behind him. He immediately wiped his tears from the back of his sleeves, sniffing before turning around to look at him, the silver blonde who had just like him stood here 2 years ago with a wand held in his hands, yet failed to kill the man.
Draco gave Harry a small smile as he pushed his hands out of his pockets and sat down next to harry, Their legs hanging off the astronomy tower.
" I hate this place " Draco whispered looking forward.
Harry understood why he should, and so should Harry hate it but he never could find the courage to hate such a beautiful place even if it was tainted with murder.
" Ron and Hermione are looking for you by the way. Told them off but won't be long before they find us here "
Harry still didn't utter a word. There was serenity in the silence that was lingering but there was pain, a pain that both were aware of what other felt but couldn't reciprocate or reiterate. What they felt was completely their own but pain have so many faces that it was ripping them apart piece by piece in different ways.
" you remember his last words ? " Harry finally asked, his voice straining from not having spoken in long.
" Severus, please " Draco answered, his face twitching as if it was replaying right there in front of him.
" that day I thought snape had betrayed dumbledore " Harry told him.
" he didn't?" It only hit Harry then that nobody knew of Severus the way Harry did. Nobody saw his memories but him. Most people still thought snape was Voldemort's loyal servant.
" he- it was planned. All of it. He was loyal to Voldemort till before my mum died. He played a double agent kind of thing " Harry explained.
" always knew something was up with him" Draco gave a small smile and finally turned to look at harry.
" I should leave-"
" no - stay " Harry interjected. Draco looked at harry for a moment before he crossed his legs and remained still, right there with harry.
" do you want to talk about it ?" Draco asked carefully
Harry chewed his bottom lip, a part of him controlling his tears and other part wondering if he should just let it out. It seemed like a good decision to let it out, to break free, but would he feel free ?
" someday's I wonder if I'm broken or-"
" I don't think you're broken Harry " Draco frowned
" I think I am " Harry huffed pulling his legs back and crossing them just like Draco and facing him " I didn't had parents growing up. I never thought I would have them but when I came here, this world, I felt like I belonged, like I was worth more than whatever I had lived up until I was 11. I know you wonder why couldn't I had just shook your hand the first day on the train but Ron was the first friend I made and I didn't wanted to screw up the only thing I thought I would have. But then so much changed. You know that feeling when you have everything but there's always something missing ?" Harry paused waiting for a reaction but Draco didn't had any, not Because he couldn't agree or he couldn't deny but because he just didn't had an answer.
" well I felt like that everyday. I remember standing in front of mirror of erised and seeing my parents for the first time, it felt like I had everything but it was taken away when I realised it wasn't real. I spent days looking at that mirror, maybe thinking that one day it'd become real but I knew it'd never and then professor dumbledore told me that The happiest man on earth If stood before the mirror, he would look into it and see himself exactly as he is, that it showed us our deepest desires. That was the first time I felt like there was someone after all who cared about me. And he really did. It was my parents, then Sirius, then dumbledore ,moody, Fred, lupin, tonks. One after the other and I- I couldn't even stop them. I didn't wanted anyone to die for me but each time I got close with anyone, they were ripped apart from me. I can't stand to lose anyone else Draco, it's hard- jus- every night I -"
" shush, come here " Draco opened his arms with tears in his eyes " it's alright now, no-one is going away from you anymore. They're all here, right where you are with who you belong " Draco Whispered softly in Harry's ear allowing him to tear stain his white shirt.
" but I didn't wanted any do them to die for me " Harry Whimpered
" they didn't harry. They're here you see, right here " Draco palmed Harry's heart between Their bodies, as if showing him that none of them were ever gone.
Harry sobbed harder on his shoulder, finding it hard to just his emotions kill him on the inside.
" you Harry- are the strongest person I've ever met " and Draco meant it. The universe had taken away so much from Harry that sometimes Draco wondered how was he even alive by now but this was Harry, he lived and breathed for others. He gave his entire soul to everyone else, gave each and every different bit of him to every different person and he loved doing it. Many times Harry had cried wanting Everything to just stop even after it all had, to make it stop but harry would bleed than to see other's in pain. He would suffer and suffer but wouldn't want anyone else to be hurt if he were there.
"I'm weak Draco - "
" no - look at me Harry - you, you are the strongest person to ever walk these halls. You wake up each day, you walk to those classes, you make others laugh, you give all of yourself to another, you love everyone else even after everything that has happened to you. There's not even a single person in this entire universe who can stand up like you have. And you are much more than this, you deserve the best Harry- you're not weak, weak are the one's who's lived without love but you Harry, you've lived in love and loving others your whole life. You- you Harry are the sweetest, most amazing, the strongest person ever, don't let anyone else tell you otherwise, yeah ? " Draco ended with kissing Harry's eyes affectionately that were filled with tears. Draco couldn't bear to see the broken shell of a man harry, and he would walk on fire to make sure Harry knew this.
" yeah " Harry gave him a choked whisper before leaning his head over Draco's chest, listening to his faint heart beat and just being in his presence. Draco smiled at harry and ran his hands through his hair whispering coherent soft whispers of assurances. Harry Only listened. For once he didn't wanted to talk, but just listen to how loved he was even if he didn't felt that way. But he knew even if the world didn't love him, he knew who did and he was right there with him .
" I can't believe he's missing again- we should just create a search party for him now " Ron harshly Whispered to Hermione.
Hermione was walking ahead of Ron looking for Harry but immediately halted when she softly passed by and saw Harry and Draco sitting there just chuckling about something. Hermione fondly smiled at them, mentally capturing a picture of them as a secret only she knew and walked back off to Ron..
" I think he's fine, Ron, lets go back " Hermione told him
" what- how do you know ?" Ron asked quizzically, more confused at Hermione's strange smile.
" because- I just know.. he's more than fine " Hermione shrugged smiling at the mental image of Harry and Draco.
" you're a strange women mione " Ron sighed but walked back to the dorms with her.
That night Harry, Draco and Hermione slept more peacefully than they had in over a while, knowing that even if the world is broken, there's still love, even if it is in the little jars stored away in the corner of all the world, there still was love.
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Sorry for such a short prompt..
Day 20- safe with me | Day 22- I'm yours
I'm yours
prompt used - falling asleep on other’s shoulder | fluff| Day 21
“ potter “ draco nodded as harry walked with notebooks in his hands to the staff room, being morning it was pretty empty
“ malfoy “ harry nodded at draco and sat down in front of him
“ how’s the morning coming along ?” he asked with a warm smile occasionally drinking his coffee after having it miss this morning due to an eventful morning.
“ well there was a mass murder in the bathroom this morning but other than that really pleasant" harry gave him a little head tilt with a little smile.
“ really ? what was the mass murder of ?” draco chuckled leaning back in his chair to listen to harry’s interesting morning story
“ mosquitoes. apparently my very attractive irresponsible husband left the window open and it welcomed the entire narnia of mosquitoes “ harry answered
“ oh well, i’m sure he did it by mistake but rest in peace to all those mosquitoes” draco chuckled
“ how was yours ?” harry asked smirking
“hm, well eventful. It’s our anniversary so breakfast in bed before work and well you know the rest. Love these anniversaries “ draco bit his lip before giving harry a wide grin
“ ooh anniversary, what have you planned ?” harry narrowed his eyes in a sneakish way
“ oh just a bit of this, a bit of that. surprises you know. Don’t want to go about spilling the beans. Its a secret between me and me” draco smirked and finished the rest of his coffee
“ potter, malfoy, to classes “ Ms. Mcgonagall walked by announcing them to cut their chatter and they did so. The rest of the day harry and draco Passed by each other a lot offering each other small smiles.
" sir is it true that it's your 6th anniversary?" A student asked in Draco's class abruptly.
" well I don't see how it's in the reference to whatever I've given you to write about " Draco answered searching for the voice
" cut them a slack Mr. Malfoy, they're merely being curious like everyone else including me " Harry walked in from the back door Grinning
" well If that is the case- yes it is true. It will be my 6th anniversary as of now " Draco raised an eyebrow at harry
"professor forgive me but if it's your 6th anniversary then you must be giving them something really special right ?" Asked the same voice but it was no lie that the entire class was curious.
" yes but I think it will be about time you focus on your work while I give Mr. Potter a word about interrupting my classes " Draco raised from his chair, Harry following him outside.
" how may I help you Mr. Potter ?" Draco asked in a professional way.
" well- I just came by to inform that today's meeting have been moved forward " Harry told him.
" well that works in my favour " Draco tilted his head in surprise but not entirely surprised , he expected It if anything.
" I must say your lover sure is a Lucky person " Harry smiled
" I think your husband is as equally lucky " Draco smiled. Lingering in the moment for a smile, Harry walked back off to his office with a little grin.
When the day came to an end, harry was busy stacking things up over his desk and drawers when he heard a little knock on the door and saw Draco leaning over the door.
" 2 minutes " he smiled. Harry looked up at the watch on the wall before he walked towards Draco and dragged him inside.
" 1 minute "
" 10 seconds "
" 2 seconds "
And then Harry pulled him closer, closing the door behind him and kissing him over the lips.
" I missed you " Harry mumbled against his lips
" you saw me an unusually lot Harry" Draco smiled not moving an inch apart
" well I missed my husband " Harry said as he gave him a chaste kiss again to show how true his words were
" in that case, I missed my husband too but I think I like professor potter better, he's got a- well nice ass " Draco chuckled creating a little space to grab Harry's ass just a little
" lucky for you, we're both the same people or you would've been a dead man " Harry chuckled intertwining their finger's together
" like the mass murder in the bathroom this morning ?" Draco laughed . Joining along in the laughter, Harry nodded.
" come home after 15 minutes, get dressed and follow little white notes okay. See you soon babe " he spoke so fast that Harry barely understood a word but he left faster than he had spoken leaving Harry excited and confused.
Just like Draco had said, Harry returned home 15 minutes later, freshened up, got dressed and finally started finding little white notes. The first one he found quite easily right over the mirror.
" find me where you know I hate those little rings "
Harry thought for a moment, wondering about wherever he hated the rings but Draco loved them. And suddenly just then his eyes fell upon the glass of water, a coaster beneath it. The ring Draco hated, water rings. He immediately ran out to the living room and looking over the coffee table.
" found it " Harry Whispered to himself picking the little white note from beneath the coaster. He went one after another notes, taking his time to solve the riddle and swearing Draco for the most part for doing something like that.
He finally reached the last note reading it only one and figuring it immediately
" meet me where the green had never looked so good and the storm had never raged "
Painting Harry reached the Richmond hill, London, a patronus waiting for him right there. He followed the little light, leading to Draco who was staring over the hill enjoying the view. He must've crushed a stick Because immediately turned around
" damn you're slow" Draco chuckled as he saw Harry
" hey I got confused with the 2nd and 3rd one, I figured the last one pretty easily, also 6 years into relationship you should know that I'm shit at riddles " Harry told
Shaking his head with a little smile Draco continued " you remembered ?"
Harry furrowed his brows with a little surprised smile " what? You thought if it were the 4th date, I wouldn't remember it! The green never looked so good and the storm had never raged? It was the easiest one, I remember everything draco. You told me that night that green-"
" is your favourite colour because of my eyes-"
" is my favourite colour because of your eyes" they said simultaneously. Smiling at the verbal connection Harry enclosed the distance between them.
" your eyes still just as beautiful as they were that day " Harry Whispered smiling.
" they still vary colour everyday " Harry added
" well If you could only see you from my eyes. You'd understand why it does it everyday " Draco smiled putting his arms Around Harry's waist, fondly looking in Harry's eyes which glowed with little yellow freckles because of the reflection of the lights Draco had decorated the place with.
" thought you said it's a pureblood thing ?" Harry frowned putting his arms around Draco's neck
" it is. But it varies colours because each day I look at you in a different way than I have before. One for each day I have loved you so long " Draco smiled. With a flick of his wrist, Draco turned on the slow music, I'm yours by Jason marz playing slowly over the radio.
Harry was left speechless, finding it hard to describe in words how much more he loved Draco but he suspected that even if Harry's eyes didn't change colour each day, Draco knew that Harry loved him in ways he'd never loved anyone else and probably would never love anyone else more. Smiling Harry put his head over his shoulders and started swaying. lightly to the music.
" I remember this song playing from the car parked not far from here " Harry Whispered
" I think it suits well for both of us" Draco mumbled tightening his grip around Harry's waist.
Harry smiled knowing Draco was smiling just like he was. 6 years of being together yet they loved each other just like they had loved one another when they first confessed their I love you's, the same way when Harry was away for the first Christmas, the same way when Draco was banished from malfoy family, the same way when Harry was away for a mission for 2 months, the same way when they loved each other during and after the first fight, the same way they had felt on the day of marriage and had promised to love everyday till death part them. In a way just like million others this song was also Just their own and they found it quite nice to having been a part of something they chose to belong to even if it also belonged to the rest of the world. In trillions of moments, the song by Fate had played in that moment but they were 2 simple boys having no choice bought together by fate, and had they never regretted it.
And for the second time in the entire life they spent together, in the moments of revelation, the song played for the second time
" and the world said we'd never make it through " Draco smiled staring up at the sky at the stars, Harry's head over his shoulders, his face nuzzled in Draco's neck, cuddling comfortably.
Harry hummed in response, his arms hung loosely around Draco's body. It was not long after when Draco heard Harry's light snoring. Smiling to himself, Draco retrieved the blanket, covered both of them us and slept peacefully, just like he did for the rest of his life for he never loved anyone like he did Harry, he didn't had to. He was enough; more than enough if so.
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Day 21- little jars of love | Day 23- ten times Harry fell for Draco
32. Reasons to not be in love with draco malfoy by harry
Prompt used- caressing the other's back | ANGST/FLUFF | UNREQUITED LOVE | HURT/COMFORT | Eighth year harry finds it hard to admit that he infact loves draco ..
" is it so bad harry that you like him ? " Hermione asked as a sad look dawned upon her tanned face
" what-no- yes- i mean- I don't like him. It's just he has changed so much and it seems unrealistic " harry covered up his tinted face by entailed more into his book
" sure harry, we believe you " Ron sarcastically responded.
" Ron- harry, you know it, you're lying to yourself and what if Draco have actually changed so much. I mean he apologized to me for everything he ever did. That has to be something and it was a genuine apology-"
" apologies doesn't change what he's done. And I don't like Malfoy " harry persisted almost agressively.
Hermione sighed looking at Ron, an indication for him to take the lead.
" mate, I hate him just as much as you do but she's right you know. You can ignore your feelings for how long! One day you would have to face them-"
" so what you want me to just go upto him and ask him out on a date? How blinded can you be ? I will prove that he hasn't changed. I will prove it " with that harry stormed out of the common room to the court yard to be under the sun and complete the rest of his work.
The problem was harry was immensely crushing on draco but it was so hard for him to believe that he'd much rather look for his flaws, it was easier as harry would like to put it. But it was so hard for him to actually look for a single flaw in draco after the war because he had changed completely. Long gone were the days when he used slurs like mudblood, in fact he himself was sending letters to the ministry over and over for stop discriminating against werewolves, muggle borns, squibs, and half bloods. It seemed too good to be true but harry knew he was genuinely doing it but his fainting heart didn't wanted to wake up one day and know that draco had not changed at all, so he chose to still finding his flaws.
2 weeks later upon constant teasing by Ron and Hermione about his research to find something suspicious or something flawed about draco, he realised he was standing in front of a lake which was completely dry. There wasn't even a single flaw and his heart could only take so much.
But he didn't wanted to give up, so during one of his charms lessons, harry took his quill and paper and started writing.
" Reasons not to be in love with draco malfoy "
" ugh.. scratch that " harry mumbled to himself unimpressed
" reasons not to be in love with draco malfoy"
" reasons to hate draco malfoy "
" reasons not to like draco malfoy "
Harry frowned to himself watching the paper, then dipping his quill in ink again and continued writing, only he couldn't. Stuck for minutes, harry looked across the room to see Draco smiling Kindly to a broken handed Neville and writing his notes for him. Harry groaned to himself, " bloody perfect git "
And then he wrote,
" draco malfoy - an absolute prat "
Impressed by himself harry closed his eyes and let himself ponder over every flaw he could muster and desperately failing but he needed something. One damn thing.
But found none.
He placed his hand over the paper once again and started
" 1. The prat have the most fucking Adorable smile. And he doesn't deserve it . It's illegal to have such an adorable smile "
Harry almost smiled at what he wrote but considering his circumstances he refused to. He looked up at Draco once again and continued again.
" 2. The idiot have the most beautiful fingers, bet it's stolen. They're the most fucking annoying thing ever and I can't bloody stop staring at it "
And with that Harry's motive unknowingly changed. He started writing about things about draco that annoyed him.
As week went on harry had listed almost 10 things he found annoying about draco.
" they're not flaws harry " Hermione pressed her lips in thin line to keep herself from laughing.
Blushing in embarrassment harry took the paper away " you wouldn't get it "
And as he started leaving he heard Ron laugh.
And he went back to the courtyard and going through the list once again.
" 3. The git have perfect annoying stormy eyes which makes you dream but also take you somewhere only both us could be "
" 4. He's unbelievably kind to everyone, even filch, how could anyone be this damn kind. Stupid "
" 5. He's got brain. Like actual great brain. He's intellectual, he's fucking smart. Like nobody asked you Smarty pants to be this damn smart "
" 6. He Knows exactly what he's doing. Like the other day in the great hall when he left the tea bag for far too long in his cup of tea, he poured a little of his tea into another cup, added ginger and lemon to his own cup and then some water again. Annoying as fuck "
" 7. He sits by the tree in the courtyard just staring at the damn sky and sometimes even draw it in his little doodle pad covered in leather, with a little blue stone right in the centre. Also half filled. God knows what he draws. Would be pretty fantastic though, considering how much time he spend drawing them and painting it. Hilarious to see him being focused. Idiot "
"8. He visits the professor Dumbledore's grave and just sit there crying. Don't know why I wrote it, just needed to. I understand him.
" 9. He talks with madam pomfrey about potions and their Ill effects. Again trying to be smart. He did help Seamus though after he fell from his broom sometime ago, guess he's got brain afterall "
" 10. He's bloody perfect. His damn face, beautiful as fuck, his nose looks like Micheal Angelo himself carved it on his face, his jawline, fuck, his skin is pale though but the way his skin glows when he's sitting in the courtyard doing something and the way he have a perfect blush. Who's blushing can be perfect ? But damn it, his blush is damn perfect as if something had put on natural flower colour upon his face and the way he have a specific smile for each occassion. The nervous smile, the grin, the quizzical smile, everything just super perfect. Stupid beautiful perfect prat "
Harry sighed understanding Hermione's point but he knew what he had written. This was everything he didn't like about him. Every single one of them, well not everything maybe but most of them.
Harry looked up, keeping the paper in one of his notebooks, to see Draco sitting on one of the pillars seat and reading something.
" prat even looks perfect reading " harry mumbled to him rolling his eyes yet couldn't help his curiosity for what he was reading because he wore probably the most perfect smile harry had seen. He hated to admit but maybe, draco was flawless, at least to him but he didn't wanted to admit. He was determined to find at least one flaw so he could prove them wrong, more him than anyone else. He just needed something flawed in him to convince himself that he wasn't desperately falling for him as his friends liked to say. One flaw, that's all he needed.
Harry kept all of his books inside his rag and decided to just walk around the halls before he'd depart to the common room but just as he had been exiting the courtyard, one thing he didn't wanted it to happen, happened.
" hey, po- harry "
Harry closed his eyes, breathing in before turning around to draco with a warming smile.
" what do you want Malfoy?"
" uh- draco- but nevermind. I wanted to actually ask you something, I mean I shouldn't, considering you still hate me but it's purely theoretical " Draco rambled giving harry a rather nervous smile. Fucking perfect again, harry thought.
" I- I don't hate you Malfoy, old habits die hard kinda thing you know " harry assured himself more than draco.
Draco pressed his lips in a thin line pondering on about what harry had just said.
" you wanted to ask ?" Harry impatiently said
" right- I- I've heard you taught defense in 5th year, including the patronus charm, i- since you've taught a few people I was wondering if you could tell me if people like me can- you know can cast one " draco scratched the back of his neck nervously, the same blush returning to his face again which harry always thought was probably the same shade as that of a cherry blossom..
" what do you mean by people like you ?" Just as the sentence had left his mouth, he realised how wrong had it sounded. Of course he knew what draco had meant but why did he had to ask him and embarrass draco ?
Draco inhaled the air surrounding them, closing his eyes as if he was gaining confidence for what he said next " I meant death eaters "
Harry suddenly felt like his tongue was in knots. He knew the answer but he couldn't reply and while draco looked at harry hopefully, his hope started to die out little by little as he watched harry standing quietly. His eyes suddenly turned from normal grey to something that was clouding him within himself, as if he was now concealing himself, like he was upbraiding himself.
" never mind- think I got my answer. Thank you po- harry. It was great help " draco voice sounded more harsh than it had sounded lately at and harry at once knew had broken draco's heart but before he could've undid his fault, he had scrambled away quickly and harry remained there waiting to get his voice back.
And when it finally did, it had started to rain, harry too scrambled away. Strange how the weather has been perfectly fine when he had first sat down in the courtyard and now it pouring down heavily after the misconception with draco.
Draco's smile was slightly dying out a little bit, and harry knew why but everytime harry ran after draco to correct his mistakes, he was tongue tied. Why was it so hard for harry to simply tell the truth ? Why couldn't he ?
In the mean time After harry had told Hermione and Ron about his faulty interaction with draco, they had stopped teasing and encouraged him to fix it as soon as possible.
It wasn't until during one of the defense classes, things took a better turn.
" now, you all have already learnt about how boggart works. It easily takes shape of what you fear the most but here what we have is pieret, it's a twin of a boggart but it is unusually different. A pieret not only senses your fear but induces in you the pain you'd feel when you're faced with your worst fear. Taking an example, if someone fears death, they would feel nothing Because death feels numb. If someone is afraid of lets say lizards, they'd feel irrational. You must be wondering then if you are faced with a boggart, then Also you'd feel the same thing, the answer is no, we predict what we'd feel, not actually feel while upon being faced with a pieret, it would heavily cast on you the feeling to the point where it may get hard to make sense of anything. However the defense against it is just as simple as that of a boggart,infact it is the same. Riddikulus. Now I would want each of you to clear your head and try not to think of your worst fears and then upon your turn with a blink of an eyes, say the spell and then sit down " the professor explained, not even stopping momentarily for asking students anything, as if he wanted to get done with the lesson. Frankly, everyone wanted the same.
The pieret however turned out to be more stronger than the boggart. Few students had to sit down to relax after their turn. When it finally came down to harry, he cleared his head and tried not to think of his worst fear . He saw the shape twisting and turning into someone very familiar, a scene very familiar. Before harry could cast the spell, the feelings had started to run frantically inside of him. He thought he mumbled something but nothing happened, voldemort was still standing, in his victory. Harry had lost the fight, resulting in huge massacre, everyone disappointed and then suddenly it had gone, now there stood a beautiful pink lily.
Harry immediately collapsed on the ground, breathing heavily.
" drink this " the professor commanded and he obliged, feeling the sensation dying out immediately.
" I need to go " harry hoarsely said and ran out of the room to the washrooms. He reached the same washroom moaning myrtle still resides in but somehow absent currently and he was glad.
Not for long. He soon heard the door open and close and someone walking inside. Harry was about to hex whoever had Walked in until he saw draco had appeared, looked devastating.
" it's only me. We don't want Same things to happen twice" draco announced. Harry immediately lowered his wand, still breathing heavily and becoming very aware of what Draco had said.
" I'd never used that spell again. I wouldn't ever "
" i know " draco gave him a small smile. Harry looked at Draco for a few moments before he sat down against one of the toilet doors, draco cautiously making his steps towards harry and sitting down next to him.
" why are you here ?" Harry finally asked, his knees pressed against his chest, looking up at the ceiling.
" wish I knew " draco responsed aligning himself in the same position as harry and staring up.
Harry hummed, not knowing what he should've answered.
" it's weird " draco suddenly said, a small laugh escaping his lips
" what is ?" Harry asked looking at Draco slightly turning his head to him, watching him staring far ahead.
" how both of our fears are the same "
And he finally turned to harry, with a deep pained expression painted in his dream filled eyes.
Harry quizzically stared at Draco " him gaining victory ?"
" yes and always letting people down. Disappointing them. Having no hope "
Harry was rendered speechless. Until he knew he needed to throw up. He immediately bashed through the door in front of him and puking into the toilet, emptying whatever was inside his body. He suddenly felt a hand on his back caressing him and faint encouragements reaching his ears. When harry was finally done, he leant back pressing his head against the door sighing. Draco's hand has left his back but harry still wanted them there, he didn't know why, but he just wanted that.
" any better ?" He asked. Harry nodded.
" here " draco passed him a bottle of water. Harry rinsed off the smell off his mouth, then drank some of it before flushing the waste away and going back to sitting in the middle alley with draco facing him.
" who do you feel you let down ?" Harry asked frowning at Draco.
Draco looked taken a back by Harry's sudden enquiry but soon comforted himself and began speaking " everyone. I just feel like that even after everything I'm trying to do, after trying so hard to be nice, helping everyone, trying to become a better person, I would still let people down. There will always be Someone who would want to look at my flaws and throw them in my face that no matter what I do, I'd still be draco malfoy the death Eater. I'm always afraid of letting them down, my parents, teachers, the ministry, my friends, classmates, you "
Harry stared at Draco long enough, understanding exactly how he must be feeling but feeling guilty at the same time for doing exactly what draco is fearing but once he had spoken it loud, harry wanting to seek his flaws was thrown out of the window, he just to hug draco right now and tell him that he's doing great.
" I don't hate you draco- I never did. I know you think I do, but I see you. You're trying really hard to become the better person and I can see It happening. If I were you I don't think I'd be able to do that but you, you're brave and confident and courageous to do this everyday. I could never "
" you'd never need to do all that. You already are everything you just said. You don't even need to try " draco gave him a little shrug. Harry's lip immediately turned into a sly smile, realising draco see's him that way, even if it was partially true.
" but you're different. Everyone already praise me, they've always done that. You, you're rising.. that's something much more braver than anything I'd ever done in life"
" are we going to sit here and actually assure each other how we're both doing great " draco joked. Harry immediately broke in a small laughter with draco. Being there with Draco right now was the most perfect thing harry could've ever dreamt of. How could he had possibly thought of wanting to hate draco ? It seemed irrational. Harry was driven by his hatred to find something in draco that didn't even exist and it's not because draco was perfect but because he was working on his flaws. Perfection had never been about being flawless, it has always been in redeeming your flaws. Harry laughed for as Long as he wanted with draco, never wanting this to end. It was a therapy and harry was glad to be a part of it.
When finally the laughter died out harry smiled at draco, picking up his wand and casting the patronus charm.
" my mom's patronus was a doe, mine's a stag. Snape's patronus was a doe too " harry told a pained looking draco until he finally reiterated Harry's words in his head and then it hit him
" he was a death Eater "
" he was " harry replied giving him small smile " a patronus isn't based on discrimination. It doesn't segregate between death eaters and wizard or the bad and the good or the rich and the poor. Patronus is based on a happy memory. I suppose why you'd think death Eaters can't cast a patronus is because they've never known true happiness. If you've ever felt true happiness in your life, you can cast one. There's both light and dark inside of us, it is what we chose to act upon, that's who we are. You're not a bad person draco, you never were and i know one day you'll be as to cast it. I'd liked to help if I can in anyways "
Draco stared at harry In surprise, his expressions changing to one filled with hope and turning into a smile.
" I'd like that " draco responded nodding.
" then we'll practice the spells whenever you'd like" harry smiled before he started putting things in his rag, after hearing the bell to finally get up to leave.
" draco "
" yeah"
" thank you . I- this was different- and just thank you " harry smiled hanging his rag on his shoulder.
Draco smiled nodding at him, getting up himself.
With a deep breath harry finally turned around to leave, smiling to himself, thinking of how he could just burn the list now.
" harry- you dropped something "
Harry turned around to see Draco holding a piece of paper.
Fuck.
Draco furrowed his eyebrows as his eyes fell upon the words inked on it. Harry immediately hustled in his bag to look for that one specific sheet. No, no, no,no ...
Draco looked up at harry quizzically " reasons to .... "
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Draco looked up at harry quizzically " reasons to not be - harry- what ? "
Annoyed draco shook the paper in his hands
" draco - it's not what you think I promise-"
" no- it is exactly what I think it is. You've literally written not to like me or more in your words, reasons to hate draco malfoy " draco bellowed with disappointment
" draco I swear- just let me explain- "
" what possibly can you explain me with this ? Huh? It clearly states why Someone shouldn't like me- you know- I - I just need to know if it's written by you ?" Draco's voice quivered with possibly the pain of listening a predictable answer
" I - draco- just please- it's not what you think-"
" is it written by you or not harry ?" He raised his voice demanding an answer
Harry looked crushed more than he could've anticipated. He knew saying the truth will hurt him and hurting draco right now was definitely not something on his mind but it was exactly what he was doing standing there quietly, waiting for an explosion.
" harry- I just- I just need to know if you've written this, please " draco's voice sounded more shaky.
Harry more so than ever wanted to dig a hole right here and bury himself 6 feet under, away from wanting to tell the truth but he knew he was doing more harm than good.
" y- yes " harry spoke shortly, sighing.
Draco bit his lip controlling his emotions, trying to not to just sob in front of someone who wanted to hate him.
" I thought you were different " draco whispered.
" let me-"
" good luck potter" draco interrupted, throwing the paper over Harry's face and storming out.
Harry remained there listening to the hustling in the corridor until the door completely shut and he was left with, silence. Silence which right now seemed too loud.
And as harry expected, draco completely cut himself off from everything. He wasn't seen for Long in courtyard and if he was, whenever he'd see harry he'd scramble away. If he was in the halls, and almost on the verge of facing harry, he'd turn around and walk away and in classroom, he chose the furthest seat from harry and departed much more early than him. He was avoiding, ignoring harry to be more precise and was doing a pretty good job at that. However as days went on harry found himself much more guilty of his initial steps. It wasn't so hard for him to actually believe that he liked him, at least back then he had a chance but right now draco won't even look at harry and what hurt the most is what draco had said about harry being different. It came like a howling wind knocking on Harry's door every night, taking him on a guilt trip. Everything that harry could think of to fix things with draco seemed like a doomed idea when he did the absolute worst he could've imagined of.
But harry knew better than to give up, so, he came back to his home, the treasure which led to most of his discoveries, the marauders map. It seemed like intrusion but something was better than nothing. So he spread the marauders map over his bed and started looking for every possible place he could see which would lead him to draco. It took him almost 15 minutes to find draco, the kitchens. Frowning to himself, what a strange place to be at school, he picked up his map, pulled the invisibility cloak and ran as fast as he could to the kitchen. As he started approaching the kitchen, he slowed down his speed in order to not scare draco if he were outside. When he finally reached the door, he saw draco getting out of the kitchen smiling, with a small muffin in his hand.
Harry carefully pulled off his cloak and cleared his throat to get draco's attention which he inevitably did however as soon draco saw harry, he rolled his eyes and started to walk away.
" Draco- wait " harry yelled
" please " he spoke out loud again cautiously following draco. He saw draco's shoulder rise and then fell and then he finally turned around
" here to give me another page for reasons to hate me, or wait is it a book this time ?" draco sneered
harry huffed " its not- i'm sorry for what happened in the washroom the other day-"
" oh yeah, you are ?" draco raised an eyebrow at harry in a mockery
" what- of course i am-"
" well it still doesn't change anything, viola on that harry " draco shrugged his shoulders at harry
" what do you want me to do then? It wasn't intentional draco, but you're just not ready to listen to me "
" if i do listen would it still change the fact that you were trying to find faults in me or finding reasons to hate me?" draco asked his expressions dissolving a bit
" i-no "
" there you go then " draco threw his hands softly in air to prove his point
" but-"
" harry, tell me what would you feel like if i did exactly what you're afraid of ? if that day in the washroom i had told you that you are a disappointment, that you have let down people? what would you feel like if i try to corrupt something that you had tried so hard to build up? how would you feel to see that the one person you thought was different, the person you thought understood you, the person you're most guilty for treating them wrong your entire life, the person you tell your worst fears to does exactly what you fear, tell you that you are infact never going to change because guess what people like you never change ? tell me how would you feel if you were me and I was finding flaws in you for whatever reasons when all you had been trying to do is trying to fix them ? tell me how would you feel ? "
Harry stood their dumbfolded unable to think of how to tell him that it would feel like shit. Unable to think of any possible way to explain draco that he would feel like a complete disaster, a complete disappointment. How could he tell draco when he had slapped harry metaphorically for ruining everything for him. But all he did was remain quiet, not because he was speechless but because for once he wanted to be sensible, because he deserved this, because if he were him, he'd want draco to think exactly what Harry's thinking right now. Because harry had screwed up so bad that he deserved nothing but this.
" thought so " draco clenched his jaws in pure annoyance before he walked off from harry, once again with disappointment washing over him a cool breeze.
What draco had said to him had effected him so much that in the next few days harry himself avoided Draco Just because he couldn't stand in front of a man who possibly hated him right now, who he had hurt in worst possible ways. But even if it was wrong, it inevitably made harry more infatuated with draco, how suddenly draco grew so unbelievably attractive to him, everything about draco just seemed so beautiful and harry was doomed all because he knew he couldn't have him. Because you're doomed when you're in love. The only problem was, harry was in love with someone who truly hated him.
" look harry, If I don't know anything else, I know one thing that you need to fix it, no matter what it takes. You can't sulk here, hating yourself for whatever you did. That page basically was the reasons to love that guy, he probably didn't even read it, if he had I swear he would've laughed " Ron encouraged harry once again on a fine Saturday while walking back off from the quidditch pitch.
" look Ron, I appreciate you trying to meddle in with my issue but draco clearly hates me, I think it's better that way. And honestly I wouldn't had forgive anyone who would've done the same to me " harry sighed
" it's anything but true. And it's not because we've been friends for so long, it's because I know you never hold grudges. I know it because you're in love with a git who basically infested his love in bullying you " Ron had never said something more sensible in his entire life and harry blamed it upon Hermione being his girlfriend now. It wasn't usual of Ron to talk about things in a genuine way but maybe it was hurting him to see his best friend hating himself more than he had ever hated himself over some boy he knew he desperately wanted.
" ro-"
" fix it harry.. you'll never be happy if you don't " and with that Ron ran off. And harry once again was left in his Asylum of his thoughts which ran wild with the aftermath of Ron's words. It was hard to know what made him happy anymore but what he did know is that seeing draco smiling while he read something In the courtyard made him happy, seeing draco during his lessons made him happy, writing out the list made him happy, watching him made him happy, the day in the washroom was the happiest he ever felt until he screwed it up and he knew what didn't make him happy was knowing that he has hurt draco with injuries that could only be remedied by harry.
It was during the evening when Draco was sitting in the great hall when suddenly Someone came to him and dropped a note in front of him.
" follow the notes to reach the end of the treasure.
1. He's a complete douchebag "
Frowning to himself draco stood up to find whoever dropped the note to ask what the note was about, or who sent it or whatever it meant but the one who had dropped the note had vanished in the bunch of students.
Draco had just made it past the great hall and took a right when someone gave him the note and ran away again.
" 2. He is definitely not smart "
Scrunching his face in ultimate confusion draco saw a little arrow on the bottom, pointing forward. So he moved forward, the notes still in his hand.
He had almost took a turn when someone dragged him forward again and gave him the note again,
" what? Who are they from ?" Draco asked annoyed with the mystery man who was sending him these
" follow the arrows " he said and ran off again.
Sighing draco opened the next note and read
"3. He's a moron "
" well don't know who it is about but whoever Sending It,sure is " draco mumbled to himself and moved forward according to the arrows.
Next he met with a girl just on a turn and again ran. At this point draco didn't even try to ask. He opened the note and read again.
"4. Because he deserve it "
Sighing draco took the turn and reached the end of the hall once again, meeting another boy who handed him the note. Draco without a doubt took it and read it, finding it a little amusing how organised the whole treasure thing he was on,was.
" 5. Because he screws up everything and surely is not a romantic"
Draco raised his eyebrows frowning, now more curious to know who it was about.
The next note he met with was on a intersection between two halls, leading somehow draco felt like was the courtyard. The girl handed him the note, pointed behind her and ran off like the rest.
" 6. Because he's the most scaredy pants ever who can't confess these out loud "
" nice one " draco said with an amused then immediately looked up to see if nobody had seen him talking to a note.
He followed the direction again and met with Someone with a note on a far left, definitely leading to the courtyard.
" 7. Because he's the least careful person of all "
" are you sure these are for me ?" He asked the only boy who had not ran.
" absolutely " and then he too walked away .
Draco followed the direction once again and met with Someone on a right for the courtyard.
" 8. Because he definitely is an absolute wanker who doesn't know how to dress up "
Smiling to himself he walked to the next girl standing just on the entrance to the courtyard. He happily took the note from her and read it.
" 9. Because when he should've apologized a thousand times, he didn't "
Frowning Draco looked up to see the girl was gone and harry was waiting at the centre of the courtyard, with a note in his hand.
" so these were all from you ?" Draco raised an eyebrow at harry, crossing his arms in front of him.
" 10. Because in the moment when he should've explained what that page had meant, he didn't. Because he didn't try enough. Because he couldn't just bloody damn accept the fact that he was in love and is pretty sure doomed either way " harry read from the note then handed it over to draco.
Draco sucked the left of his cheek waiting for harry to explain himself.
" I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry-"
" oh shut up " draco impatiently said, a little smile fighting to curve over the corner of his lips.
" what are these ?" He asked.
" look at the last note " and draco did and read out loud
" reasons to hate harry potter by harry potter- this is ridiculous " draco shook his head.
" Draco Lucius Malfoy, allow me to read this to you " harry requested like a gentlemen..
Rolling his eyes draco nodded.
" 1. The prat have the most fucking Adorable smile . It's illegal to have such an adorable smile "
" 2. The idiot have the most beautiful fingers, bet it's stolen. They're the most fucking annoying thing ever and I can't bloody stop staring at it "
" 3. The git have perfect annoying stormy eyes which makes you dream but also take you somewhere only both us could be "
"okay what is this? The 2.0 version of reasons to hate you ?" Draco asked sighing.
" If that day in the washroom you would've read these points, you would've laughed saying that these aren't some flaws, these are the things I notice about you that I love so much but am afraid to tell you "
" and why should I believe you ?" Draco raised his eyebrows
" because- I'm an asshole "
" because you're an asshole ?" Draco almost laughed
" because I'm an asshole " harry chuckled
" because you're an asshole ? And what difference should it make ?" Draco asked almost smiling
" because I'm an asshole begging for your forgiveness.. I know I don't deserve it draco but I would go high and low for you to forgive me. I fucked up and I know, I fucked up too bad but you have to understand that I wanted to burn this letter after we had spent time in the washroom together. You said that it's weird how both of our fears are the same, but Its not weird. I don't think it is. I think it is the most appropriate reason why I am in love with you. It is easier to not love someone when you know that there is at least a single flaw but I searched and searched yet I've found none and I know it sounds bad when I say it this way but it is true, I regret trying to find a flaw in you but the truth is I couldn't find one because I wasn't trying to. You're perfect to me but I'm Afraid of loving you but loving you is the Only thing that has made me happy and one stupid guy once told me that if I didn't fix this I'd never be happy but I don't want to do this because I want to be happy but because I want to prove you that I am an asshole but I want to be your asshole who can tell you each day that draco lucius Malfoy, you are perfect to me in every possible way. I am hopelessly, madly , irresistibly in love with you and I hope one day you are too. So there you go, I'm an asshole because I said all this even though you've got an extremely expression less face right now " harry vented it all in a breath just like he had practiced it a 100 times in front of the mirror before this.
" bullshit " draco replied
" what ?"
" I said, bullshit. B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T " draco emphasised
" I- I don't get it. I just made an entire speech which I'm pretty sure I practiced like a million times in front the fucking mirror, annoyed my friends to know if I had broken their heart would this be appropriate but here you are- seriously bullshit ?" Harry narrowed his eyes in annoyance throwing his hands in the air.
Draco sighed closing his eyes before opening again to continue " its bullshit how you think I already don't feel the same for you "
" bullshit because you - wait what ?" Harry shook his head rapidly trying to wrap his head around the new piece of information
" it's bullshit that you'd think I don't feel the same way about you or how you think you're the only one who's happy to be in love and how you think that you're the only one Afraid of loving " draco pointed finally breaking out a smile
Harry threw his head back grinning " you've got an awful of confessing back "
" well you've got an awful of admitting you love me "
" hm- fair enough " harry chuckled.
Draco bit his lip smiling at harry.
" does this mean you forgive me ?" Harry finally asked
" no "
" what-"
" but I will if you'll take me out " draco added smirking
" i- did you just ask yourself out on a date for me ?" Harry chuckled stepping closer to him.
" i think I just did. If you will " draco smiled
" okay " harry smiled standing almost an inch apart from draco
" okay " Draco whispered smiling
" can I kiss you ?" Harry asked looking his lips
" If you promise this won't be the last time you do it " draco mumbled staring at his lips too.
" I promise " harry replied and then he softly kissed draco, no tongue just a small, light, soft kiss as a mark of a beginning.
And suddenly they heart hooting from around them. Harry immediately broke free laughing.
" what ?" Draco asked confused, his forehead pressed against harry's
" that would be everyone I made to deliver these notes from and my friends " harry mumbled
" well then lets give them a show " draco chuckled and pressed his lips firmly against harry and this time snogging the day lights out him that he could almost trip them over.
" okay too much " they suddenly heard Ron groaning from the crowd making them break free again, laughing.
" I'm sorry " harry finally said
" I know "
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Day 31- would you come back to me | Day32-part 1 | Day 33- cruise to alberobello
32. Reasons to not be in love with draco malfoy by harry
Prompt used- caressing the other's back | ANGST/FLUFF | UNREQUITED LOVE | HURT/COMFORT | Eighth year harry finds it hard to admit that he infact loves draco ..
" is it so bad harry that you like him ? " Hermione asked as a sad look dawned upon her tanned face
" what-no- yes- i mean- I don't like him. It's just he has changed so much and it seems unrealistic " harry covered up his tinted face by entailed more into his book
" sure harry, we believe you " Ron sarcastically responded.
" Ron- harry, you know it, you're lying to yourself and what if Draco have actually changed so much. I mean he apologized to me for everything he ever did. That has to be something and it was a genuine apology-"
" apologies doesn't change what he's done. And I don't like Malfoy " harry persisted almost agressively.
Hermione sighed looking at Ron, an indication for him to take the lead.
" mate, I hate him just as much as you do but she's right you know. You can ignore your feelings for how long! One day you would have to face them-"
" so what you want me to just go upto him and ask him out on a date? How blinded can you be ? I will prove that he hasn't changed. I will prove it " with that harry stormed out of the common room to the court yard to be under the sun and complete the rest of his work.
The problem was harry was immensely crushing on draco but it was so hard for him to believe that he'd much rather look for his flaws, it was easier as harry would like to put it. But it was so hard for him to actually look for a single flaw in draco after the war because he had changed completely. Long gone were the days when he used slurs like mudblood, in fact he himself was sending letters to the ministry over and over for stop discriminating against werewolves, muggle borns, squibs, and half bloods. It seemed too good to be true but harry knew he was genuinely doing it but his fainting heart didn't wanted to wake up one day and know that draco had not changed at all, so he chose to still finding his flaws.
2 weeks later upon constant teasing by Ron and Hermione about his research to find something suspicious or something flawed about draco, he realised he was standing in front of a lake which was completely dry. There wasn't even a single flaw and his heart could only take so much.
But he didn't wanted to give up, so during one of his charms lessons, harry took his quill and paper and started writing.
" Reasons not to be in love with draco malfoy "
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33. Cruise to alberobello
Prompt used - tasting the others smile | this is Definitely not how I expected to write it or how I thought it would've turned out, but I do hope you like it or it'd be a waste | immensely inspired by call me by your name | today's post I'd like to dedicate to @littlebodybigheartttt for putting a smile on my face |
Harry recites a story to the wizard travellers in hopes to impress the boy behind the bar
Fanart taken down because of confidentiality.
Fanart credit - @upthehillart
" I've got one " harry raised his forefinger to grab the attention of the fellow mates on the table
" so a few years ago, I had just started my auror training, probably like 2 months in, I got a call from my boss saying harry I need you in my office right now, I've got a job for you. And that 18 year old me so excited to get a job much before than any of my pals, I ran to the office as soon as possible and when I reached my boss guess what he said, harry I need you to go and fetch me these specific files from so and so person. I was shook for a moment that he called me all the way just to fetch some files from other country which possibly anyone could've done for him but I agreed to go nonetheless. The intercountry apparation was banned for a time there so I flew there. I was transported to a small town on South italy, I thought typical place, typical people but when I reached there, the place was goddamn symmetrical, yes not tall and High or pretty place, symmetrical. Everything so conical and guess what I found out, in a population of 11,000 only a 100 wizards and witches " harry paused to take a sip from his champagne glass, a couple of other people joining along over the table to listen to his intriguing story.
" and then blah blah, got boring fetching those files and such so I hit a bar. A muggle bar as I believe. There I was drinking my beer like quite a gentlemen and then there comes a girl, sat down beside me without asking and take my beer and I look at her like excuse me, miss but I think you've taken my drink, but she just shrugs and drink further so I ordered another for me. And then she goes, you see that couple over sitting by the door, I can bet that they are happily married and will definitely divorce the next year. I ask her how do you know and she goes I just know and then the next thing I know a bartender goes to them and says honeymoon special. I was shook but said it's just a simple coincidence but then she tells about 5 more people and only one of them she got wrong. I kept on saying maybe it's a coincidence, or Maybe she knew but then she proved me she didn't. And then we got to talking like I had never talked to anyone. You know the kind of energy where you just hit it off with someone, she was that person, Only she was the most beautiful girl I had ever laid eyes upon, like a Sin city just walking like every normal person but she had no idea how beautiful she was, like a beautiful summer day " and harry stopped eager to see some reaction
" then what ?"
" then we talked. I thought she was all just Beauty but I had never met anyone like her. She talked of things only one could've thought of. So we were talking on the matter of love and she goes it's all complicated and then I ask her to elaborate. So she does, she says the complication in love lies only in its complexity, and then she goes like we often mistake love to be like a summer breeze that is there one day that takes you away and you enjoy it while it lasts but love, actually is like a dagger, it can pierce right through you, leave you bleeding if you get too close but if the dagger points them, you let yourself them fall over it, you stab them just like you do when it points you. So I ask her what does she think of soulmates or the marriage that lasts forever and she smiles at me and went soulmate is a consolation for a weak hearted that there exists love for you which would be devoid of your insecurities. And I frown, I said that what if it's a perfect relationship, and then she says, there can never be a perfect relationship because if it exists, then the love isn't real and I get confused " harry notices the table filling in more, the bartender giving him a small smile, happy for his victory.
" and she says, my love, love is not a summer breeze, love is like a pandora box fill with paradoxical substances. It's a cold breeze that leads you to the Amazon forest, wide and unforeseen opportunities and problems available, but as you go deeper in the forest you realise for every problem there exist a solution. It's like falling on the dagger and bleeding but you should be intoxicated with the love of the dagger, so you will never die. I was amazed, she said so much reality in those few words. Then I ask her so what about people who say love is magical ? And she goes, doesn't magic exist, but if I were I to say, they find themselves ethereal when they fell over that dagger, the dagger in there you see is poisoned just like every other, yet a few realises and few doesn't and the one who doesn't says love is magical. Then out of curiosity I ask her when the clock hit exactly 12, do you believe in love ? She smiles at me very elegantly, the one she hadn't pull off the entire night, and she says I my friend, am the said dagger "
" seems as if we're there aren't we ?" Someone Whispered across the table.
Harry looked at them, gave them a small smile impressively and begin again " I ask her one last question, do you believe in soulmate ? And she shook her head and got off the stool and kisses her beau. I was rendered speechless, and then she says so long my friend and starts exiting the bar, I felt to myself that if I didn't follow her, I'd be damned, so I followed, Just a few steps away and then call out to her, she turns around and I ask her name and she replies with, my name is what there is in one, but only who fail to love doesn't have and then she says, this is Alex by the way, my soulmate. I turn to my side thinking of what possibly her name could've been and then when I raise my head, she has gone. Not like walked away gone, she had disappeared, with her beau and I stood there yet amazed. And then the next day I go to the bar again and ask about the girl to that bartender I was talking to and he goes, sir I do not know who was with you, all know is you came alone and went home alone. I didn't linger on much, and I called this the cruise to alberobello " and harry stops suddenly finishing off the rest of his champagne. He raises his eyes to meet the boy behind the bar, smiling wickedly at him.
" wha- what happened then ? Did you ever get to know her name ? Was any of it even real?" Someone asks in morbid curiosity.
"I always assumed her name to be Alma, meaning soul, with no other meaning and to this day the cruise to alberobello remains one of my most mysterious epiphanies " Harry chuckled. Groaning everyone dropped the story, intrigued by the story themselves.
It was half past 12 when the bar started emptying out, reaching its closing time and harry made himself comfortable over the bar stool.
" quite a story tonight " the boy with freckled eyes says wiping off the glasses with a dry cloth.
" I did. Travellers always seeks stories as such. Something they've never heard before, and leave them wondering " Harry chuckled finishing off his drink and pushing off the cup towards the boy..
" i must admit, I myself am very intrigued by the story" the boy smiles at harry. Harry looks at him warily smiling, he felt proud.
" I get off in 10 minutes, walk with me ?" He asked as he started taking of his apron
" I wouldn't do anything otherwise " Harry replied and exited the front door, the open sign changing to closed by a wand less magic and harry follows to the back door, waiting for Draco like he always does.
Exactly 10 minutes later, draco exits wearing a light Denim jacket over his black shirt and pants.
" shall we ?" He asked as he pushed his hands down his pocket.
They walk home talking about Harry's story, how it seemed almost unreal, however, they both Would've been doomed fools to not admit that the night had an enigmatic aura to it.
Just as they reached Draco's door, he pushes his hands in his pockets tip toeing waiting for Draco to safely reach inside.
" well that's me then " Draco said as he turned around after opening the door.
" I'll see you later then " Harry awkwardly replied.
" okay " Draco smiled
" okay "
" okay "
Harry smiled and started tumbling back his home until he turned just in time to tell Draco one last thing.
" hey, Draco "
" yeah ?"
" you know my cruise to alberobello ?"
" yeah ? What about it ? "
Harry smiled biting his lip
" you are my cruise to alberobello "
And with that Harry vanished in thin air, letting the curiosity killing Draco's cat. Everything Harry had said, Draco used to put it down on little notes and keep it away in a box , a small gesture Remind Draco of Harry if he were to ever be gone but this left him shook. The truth about his cruise to alberobello, was that if the epiphany was even real or not, Harry didn't answer that. The mystery of the story lied within the fact how anyone could've ever remembered something from ages ago, it seemed unreal but harry was a man of many words, anything but a man who would forget. And this Draco knew because of his simple rememberance of bringing him a dairy free product when draco had told him very discreetly that he was lactose intolerant.
Draco tired to sleep it away but the restlessness buried in every nerve of him that forced him to stay awake until he couldn't bear anymore and disapparted to Harry's place.
" Draco, what are you doing here ? It's almost 2 " Harry frowned as he allowed Draco to walk into his own little Land of wonder he called home.
" you asked me on the way back if I believed your story to be real ? Here's what I think, the cruise to alberobello is infact an envisage of an interaction you assumed you had with the girl named Alma who sat next to you on the bar stool with her beau Alex, who you irrevocably found to be like dagger who would pierce you open if you fell for her but you couldn't bring yourself to even try to talk to her, so you imagined all of it. But when you met me, that girl named Alma became me, and I became your cruise you'd want to go on with but are too Afraid of admitting. Correct me if I'm wrong " Draco explained in a breath still standing in the hallway.
Harry frowns before he crossed his arms and smiled " I'm impressed "
" tell me if I'm wrong ?"
" what if you are ?"
" then you would lie because you only said what you said because you knew I'd be the only one who would understand the story "
Harry remained in shock, frowning" I'm thoroughly shook how beautifully right you are "
Draco huffs out air in relief " well harry James potter, then I am asking you to be my cruise to alberobello ? Will you be ?"
" Tomorrow night, 8 pm, Alberta palace ?"
" I'll be there " Draco replied.
" good night then Draco " Harry chuckled.
" Good night" Draco replied and was only About to disapparate when Harry interjected
" one last thing" and with that Harry kissed Draco's lip. There must've been something weird in the air because they both broke out laughing while kissing each other.
" took you this long ?" Draco smiled, his lips still pressed against Harry's and his arms wrapped around his torso.
" I was waiting for you to be impressed with at least one of my stories. I'm not just Beauty you know " Harry mumbled
" well you finally succeeded " and with that Harry softly traced Draco's lips with his own. It must've been so ethereal to be in the moment that draco couldn't stop smiling, and harry was drunk on Draco, and in Prosperity couldn't stop tasting Draco's smile, it could've been kissing but it felt otherwise, Harry was happy anyway.
And next night onwards,he didn't need more stories to attract the boy behind the bar.
This might be considered as a very late submission for @drarrymicrofic " cruise "
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Day 32- reasons to not love Draco malfoy by Harry potter PT.1+PT.2 | Day 34- bath with me
39. Cuddle me in
Prompt used- Leaning on the others side| fluff | tired and stuck because of a mission, harry and draco comes across their past revelations |
" so I contacted the team and they won't be able to find us a back up team until morning. They said everything is mess there, apparently robard is high on some shit so. Anywho, we'll have to find ourselves a place to stay for the night " draco told harry as he chucked his wallet into his back pocket and wand over his belt loop.
Harry swished his wand, drying both of them up before tucking away his wand too " and how are we supposed to find a place in his barren place ?" He aggrieved
" well not my first choice either harry, we've got to walk until we find something " draco commanded as he started to walk forward slowly.
" why can't we just apparate?" Harry groaned following him
" because for one you dumb idiot, you've already been hurt, which by the way are you sure isn't hurting enough and secondly, where would we disapparate to ? We can't get out of here until we're sure it's safe to leave. Obviously robard wouldn't appreciate of us just escaping " draco rolled his eyes
" one, I'm fine. You've already done the honours of bandaging it with a cloth and secondly didn't you say he's high on some shit, he wouldn't know if we disapparated to some place better" harry groaned.
Impatiently draco turned around, halting his steps, exhaling exhaustingly " look I'm just as tired as you are. I too want to just go home and take some damn fucking rest but we can't apparate mainly because they keep a trace on us. They'd know we escaped this place. So please just do me a favour and silently walk with me without throwing another fit "
" whatever " harry rolled his eyes and walked past draco.
Draco cursed harry under his breath, being absolutely done with his bratty behaviour but nonetheless followed him.
They must've walked for almost 25 minutes when they finally found a bus stop.
" we can take a bus to the next more settled place ? What say ? According to the map here, the nearest would be river town" harry read from the map.
" sounds fine to me. When does the bus arrives?" Draco asked as he sat down on the lonely bench on a boring dark night.
" it's 9:15 right now according to my watch, so the bus would come around by 9:45 " harry sighed as he collapsed down next to draco.
" that bloody long " draco huffed.
" well we did miss a bus from 10 minutes ago so "
" if we could've just reached here on damn time " draco groaned, his head thudding back over the back of the bus stop wall.
" doesn't do good to dwell upon what's gone" harry said as he too pushed his head against the wall on his back
Draco hummed staring up at the ceiling, enjoying the momentary silence.
" can I ask you something ?" Harry asked after a few minutes of silence to cut the boredom. Draco had almost shut off his eyes when he lowly sighed, humming for him to go on.
"why did you had to be such a prat back in school ? Like there's nothing wrong with you anymore, you're nice, people like you, but you just bullied the hell out of people earlier! Did you enjoy doing that ?" Harry asked curiously gazing at Draco on his side.
Hearing the question, draco uplifted his head turning to harry" by people you meant you ?"
" me, my friends. Gryffindor's " harry frowned in approval.
" well I didn't bully gryffindor's as much as I bullied you and your friends. I never did it a lot quite frankly but I understand where it's coming from. However I do wish I had a better answer than I was just a stupid kid " draco shrugged
" stupid kid till you were 15 ? Really ? Doesn't seem so! I mean as far as I remember you were really sharp, you still are but still"
" yeah, I was just a stupid kid that's all. Although I did hated your guts, the praise you got for being the chosen one, how everyone just sort of moved away for you to walk upon kind of thing. Which of course was the time I never thought rationally about how it also created some really unrealistic expectations for you. Always thought you had it easy until I heard about you being on the run during the war " draco explained gazing forward with a small wrinkled smile over his face.
" oh yeah, what changed you mind when I was on the run?" Harry grinned curiously.
" I just sort of- I don't know understood a little. A large part of me wanted to just run away which by the way was what I thought back then, I had no idea you were on a mission. Well when were you not quite frankly. Anyways, when the news of you being the undesirable no. 1 Started printing out and how I sat through all the dinners of listening people framing your death, It just occurred to me then that even if I felt you had it all, there were people so aggravated to take all of it away from you. Think I was always a bit jealous until now I'm just jealous of how great friends you have " draco ended with a small smile turning his head towards him only for a moment before pressing his head back against the wall.
" see I always knew you weren't that bad " harry jokingly poked draco sides.
" it tickles, don't " draco chuckled
" if you would've been this nice during the first year, I would've shook your hands " harry said as he leaned a little over draco's side in a friendly manner.
Draco smiled at harry. It was in moments like these that draco remebered that harry isn't the person he always thought he was, it was then when he realised that harry was infact just like him, just a bit different and that maybe, he could allow himself to like him, if a little bit.
" mine is understandable, why were you a jerk ?" Draco asked
" because you were a jerk. You just always had to prove you were better and it just always made me want to put you out. Stupid rivalry " harry smiled, resting his eyes out of exhaustion.
Restless draco too shut his eyes for a few moments when without thinking and without looking he asks " do you think, If things had been right, if we weren't such assholes, you'd want to be friends with me ?"
Harry remained silent for seconds, that draco had almost assumed he had fallen asleep until harry continued " it's hard to imagine that way. You being you, me being me. We would've been terrible friend's but even if we wanted to, I think we would've hit a rough patch where we would've had to go separate ways and I don't think either of us would be able to handle that "
" and why is that ?"
" because what we would've been would not had been ordinary " harry yawned as he allowed himself to lean over draco comfortably, taking draco by surprise but didn't try to push harry away whatsoever.
" we're extraordinary then ?" Draco asked smirking, tilting his head a Little towards harry.
" not we, you " harry yawned again before draco heard his breath fading to sleep. And he didn't try to wake him up again, out of sheer embarassment of blushing at Harry's compliment or out of shock, draco didn't know, he didn't even wanted to.
When the bus finally arrived, Draco only woke harry for a couple of minutes until the got on the bus and occupied the last seats and then allowed harry to sleep again. Frowning to himself, draco realised he didn't feel the weight over his shoulder. He turned his head to see Harry's head over the sleeping person besides them. Unsatisfied, quietly and gently draco made harry lean over him. If draco had only known, harry had smiled in victory at the small gesture.
It took them almost another half and hour to finally reach a motel to stay in, much to their disadvantage Only a single bed.
" come on we're adults, we can share, can't we ?" Harry asked still a bit sleepy from before.
" I mean- i-if that's what you want. I could sleep on the- well- chair " draco stuttered, blushing. Thank goodness for the dark red room.
" nonsense. Just take a side and we'll just collapse" harry sighed.
After much contemplation, they finally decided to share the bed, draco taking the left side while harry got stuck with the right. Tired from the mission and travel, draco had almost falled asleep when he heard hustling on other side of the bed.
" whats up you kicky ?" Draco hummed
"I- nothing" harry sighed but didn't stop hustling.
" what is it ? " Draco asked again, turning towards harry now.
Harry looked at him, pondering over and over whether he should tell or not, until he decided, not much worse could happen so " I need an extra pillow "
" are you sure ? Your neck would probably hurt-"
" it's not for that" harry sighed " you see, I always hug a pillow to sleep, it's embarrassing I know, but I just can't sleep without it " he added.
Draco from 10 Years would've chortled to death but now, he fondly smiled at harry before he sat upright and called the reception for an extra pillow.
" thank you "
" what happened ?"
" yeah- they don't have it. Something about laundry " draco replied, putting off the phone away.
" nevermind then " harry sighed as he turned his back to draco and tried to sleep again.
Draco felt almost thumped by the way harry felt, until he couldn't believe he suggested something so outrageous " we could cuddle for a while. I mean I am a cuddly sleeper so won't be a problem to me. Unless it's awkward for you "
Harry turned around grinning before nodding, kiddishly. Moments later, harry and draco had finally tucked under the sheets, close enough when harry put his arm around the front of draco's and asked " would you do something for me ?"
Draco hummed.
" remind me to seize my moment tomorrow morning before it's too late " harry replied
Draco smiled knowingly " I will "
And then just before sleeping harry whispered " you're shit at lying by the way "
Draco smiled in his half Awaken state, knowing he got caught but for once, it didn't matter. For once, lying was worth it..
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Day 38- set it up, break it up | Day 40- just keep swimming
Would you come back to me ? Part 3
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" But when the tides reaches a high, they are meant to go down and crash onto the surface and when the time came, they crashed. They crashed like the biggest tides in the world to cast a holocaust over anyone who found a way "
" you still have it ?" Draco asked, his fingers wavering over the rough sketch he made years ago of harry himself.
" yeah, its just nice " harry replied turning to work again
draco scrunched his eyebrows, never having thought harry would have kept something like that from years ago, assuming he had really just forgotten about them but then again, it might've been because he simply just liked it and wanted to keep it.
" i still do drawings by the way, i've done plenty of scorpius " draco cleared his throat as he sat back down again
" i'm sure they must be great then " harry offered a small smile before fetching the tea for both of them and passing one cup over to draco.
" oh yeah " Draco bobbed his head as he picked up the tea from the saucer and slowly started drinking it.
" that's a nice picture of you and Ginny " Draco pointed to the small frame kept over the fireplace.
" oh, yeah, it's back from when we weren't dating " Harry replied as he too awkwardly drank his own tea, his mind going places.
" you guys looked good together. Even on the wedding "
" but you never came to the wedding " Harry furrowed his eyebrows.
" yeah- I- uh- I didn't. I saw the pictures though " Draco stuttered..
" why did you guys broke up, separated that is anyways ?" Draco asked curiously as he leaned over onto the table.
" well " Harry sighed as he held the cup still in his hand, enjoying the warmth it provided " when we first got together, we thought we know what we were doing. It was all good and games and fun but then we both got burdened into responsibilities. I liked working for DMLE but I had to quit because of the coming baby, Ginny's safety and everything. Then there was one thing after another. If you ask both of us right now, we'd probably you know just say that we don't think we thought all this through, but then there were so many- what do you call that word ?" Harry scrunched his face, his finger in the air as he thought for the Apt word.
" expectations ?" Draco asked
" yes. Exactly " Harry said a little too loudly.
" I know what you mean " draco said as he looked down into his empty cup..
Harry sighed, watching Draco. Expectations was one thing that had possibly ruined everything good ironically in both their lives and neither was aware of how. In the time harry started spending with Draco again, he can feel himself smiling late at night before sleeping, his heart hammering against his chest like right now and the eagerness to see him again, it was all the same like before. The rush, the energy, the spark, but only this time they weren't hormonal teenagers and harry was almost sure he didn't wanted to go down that road again.
" well, It's getting pretty dark. I should go, I mean we should go " Draco abruptly stood up, almost falling behind.
" bu- but scorpius is still sleeping ?" Harry frowned.
" he's not a heavy sleeper. Besides I don't have to wake him up to go all the way back. It's like a minute travel so.."
" well- If that's what it is. I'll see you again, whenever these kids want to meet up then" Harry clapped his hands together, quietly before placing them over his hips.
" absolutely " Draco awkwardly replied and walked into the living room.
" right, see you then" Draco finally said after he had picked up scorpius.
" okay. See you soon " Harry replied and Draco flooed back to his place..
Harry finally released the breath he hadn't know was consuming his down, in relief, or so he assumed.
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" please, I beg you. Can't you do that for a friend " albus practically begged
" I'm telling you albus, I don't know who it was " Ron pestered as he walked with him to Harry's restaurant bar.
" please uncle Ron. I have some really nice chocolates from Chicago, I'll give you it " albus bribed
" o- what? You're not actually bribing me and if you are, you're forgetting, your mom bought those chocolates and she's my sister. So I already have them- Aha " Ron exclaimed
" uncle Ron please. It's really important. Don't you want to see dad happy ?" Albus tried the emotional manipulation.
Ron sighed, stopping in between and leaning down to be on eye level with him " there's one thing you should know albus, I love how you're determined to know who was his first love but it's not my place to tell. Harry and I have been through so much and I've sworn to his secrecy and I'll never give it up, even if someone have to kill me for it. But you should know, there's nothing you can do to bring him back. Harry moved on ages ago and some stories are better buried, alright. I can't see him that crushed again. Do you understand me ?"
Albus sighed, nodding.
" was he really that hurt ?"
" the worst I had ever seen him. He wasn't himself for days. He didn't write back properly over summer, he didn't talk about it. He never did after that. But Remember this, first love stings bad and it was soul crushing for him. And I'm sure you don't ever want to see him like that "
" I just don't get it, why didn't he go back to him after the war and Everything ?" Albus asked as the continued walking
" he did, I think. He never told me what happened that day but I just knew it was over " Ron shook his head. Albus looked up at Ron, sort of respectfully like he had never seen before, mainly because of how great of a friend he was but sort of disappointed that he'd never find out who he loved.
" thanks for dropping him by. It's just been such a busy day and everything" Harry huffed as he wiped off his hands with a tissue and disposing it off, when they entered.
" it's no problem... Although he did seem pretty interested in your ex love life " Ron smirked
" what, I swore to his secrecy. Not yours "
" whatever. You're not such a great uncle " albus rolled his eyes at him and walked through the back doors.
" he does seem pretty interested, doesn't he ?" Harry asked as he leaned over on the counter
" he does. Although I think it's about time he must've been and what do you know, he's not even wrong "
" what do you mean ?" Harry asked completely losing track as of how albus was infact right.
" I mean- look I just look out for you and he's not wrong to want to see you happy again. And I'm sure his ways are a bit out of the box but maybe you should get back into the dating thing you know. And I do know who you're hanging out with recently. I- just think, maybe a second time won't be so bad " Ron shrugged suggestively
Harry blinked, probably out of slight frustration " I appreciate this Ron but I'm fine by myself and I am not going to date him again. Those feelings are in the past, I don't feel for him the same way whatsoever and if that even be, he's in a very different place and I am pretty sure he isn't looking for anything that sort, so you and everyone else can Shut up about going back to him. It's over, he's moved on and so have I "
Ron disappointedly nodded " well I tried. I'm gonna go then?"
" I don't mean to be mad but lately albus is just pestering me so much. Ginny hasn't been such a sweetie about it either and I'm just tired of hearing it you know and you understand me right, I just need some space from all this " Harry sighed
" mate, you don't have to explain to me. Of course I understand you " Ron patted Harry's shoulder before giving it a light squeeze and letting it go when it came for him to leave.
" I'll see you then " harry said one last time
" yeah " and Ron was almost out of the door when he turned around like everyone else lately.
" Harry?"
" yeah ?" Harry raised his eyebrows
" are you sure you've moved on ? Because it doesn't seem like it "
Harry opened his mouth to say something but couldn't. The truth was, did he really knew the answer to it, he didn't know. It was easier not to be sure sometimes but it did gave him sleepless nights.
" maybe second time won't be so bad. Just something to think about " and with that he exited. Harry sighed, pushing his hair back out of his face.
Maybe second won't be so bad after all, but did he really wanted to have a second time, he didn't know.
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2 months later of meeting every weekend without denial, Harry was set to light himself on fire. Metaphorically. It was hard to resist Draco after one point. How could have Harry possibly thought that he won't feel this way again, when this was Draco he was talking about. How could had Harry possibly overseen that Draco was the most handsome, the most intellectual, the most kind, the most interesting, the most understanding, the most likable, the most pleasant, the most elegant, the most perfect in every solicited book to ever exist.
Not Only did it make him awkward but left him excited for every meet. Layer by layer, Draco was shedding off his walls, just like all those years ago and it was becoming incredibly hard to not ruin everything by saying the wrong thing. The problem was, Harry remained in denial of the fact. Either he was trying to cage his heart from all wars or he was trying to refuse himself of being capable of establishing those feelings again.
And the invite didn't help either.
" so pansy is keeping a divorce party then ?"
" yep and I have an extra invite, so maybe if you wanted, you can come along ?" Draco shrugged
And there goes his heart.
" uh sure "
And so 2 weeks later Harry found himself dressed up for pansy's divorce party. And when he reached, of course he should've known, he was going to get crushed. Not Only Harry was left alone to drink alone at the bar but also watched Draco get hit on by a girl somewhere far across him, forcing him to drown into his memories.
" you said you wanted to meet me ?" Harry asked as he went by and sat down next to Draco on the astronomy tower.
" wanted to see you off last time before we went other ways " Draco offered him a small smile
Harry understandably nodded looking forward at the view of the mountain's covered in lush green forest and darkness of 1 am.
They remained silent, letting themselves get soaked in the last moments spent on the top as the stars met the moon and howling of the wind added to their chronicle of moments. It was strange how relaxing it was to be there in each other's presence. He wanted to hold Draco's hands, spread warmth to him but then he knew, they were the past. How it was officially ruined what they had..
" what are you going to do after school ?" Draco asked finally
" i have absolutely no idea " Harry shrugged
" you ?"
" no idea " Draco replied.
Harry looked at Draco. Looking would be an understatement, he was memorising him, again. Moments like these didn't happen often anymore and while it lasted Harry wanted to memorise everything he possibly could. Everything without a reason, until he had one.
" I'm getting engaged " Draco announced
And there it was, the crash. The harmony of music that played in Harry's life took the unexpected sad turn with heavy intense climax. The violins grew much more intense, the piano grew soft, the cello became sweet. And everything, crushed his insides. It was the incapability of his humane body to produce any reaction. But the adrenaline jumped up, his breath became stuck as his heart beat louder against his chest, how his fingers twitched and lastly how he fought tears.
" who is it ?"
" Astoria " he replied.
Harry nodded " I'm happy for you then "
" are you really ?" Draco asked finally looking at his previous love.
" I am " Harry didn't dare to look at him. He couldn't. They didn't talk anymore. They sat for another hour in silence watching the moon shift it's position, the wind blowing the leaves away, the star twinkling brighter and Harry's heart falling in a deep pit.
When it was finally time to leave, Draco got up " you're not going to come ?"
" I'll stay here for a while, you go ahead "
And only with a nod when Draco left, Harry buried his face in his hand and let himself cry in the agony of losing the only person who bought out the best in him. He sat there crying, weeping in his hand, no one to cry with, no one to tell to, no one who'd understand. In the whole wide world, Harry felt alone but then again that's what he was, his whole life. Alone.
Broken once, Harry didn't wait for his heart to be crushed twice. He let himself drown into the understanding that he was all alone and let himself get carried away in the night until he had no more of him left to give and decided to leave.
He had only made it past the door when he heard Footsteps running behind him.
" Harry ?"
" what ?" Harry asked as he turned around
" you're leaving ?" He asked
" seems like it " Harry frowned
" without telling me ?" Draco asked
Harry could've simply lied but there he stood, having absolutely no idea how Harry had felt his whole life. How he wasted away wondering what Would've happened if he had ran back to Draco the moment he left him, how that night on the tower if Harry had told him how he felt. If.
" yes "
" why ?"
" because it hurts less"
Draco frowned.
" it hurts less when you don't know. When something's are better left unsaid "
And Draco finally realised.
" you said you were happy for me ?"
" was I ? Were you when I married Ginny ? I know you came to the wedding, I saw you, you know why, because in a crowd of thousands I still find you but you never came in. You saw me on the altar and left and never came back "
" what was I supposed to do? Come in and congratulate you ?"
" I did Draco. I came and congratulated you. I sat through your entire wedding, hurting myself seeing you getting married "
" and you didn't try to stop it "
" because you wanted it "
" why didn't you fight for me then ? Why didn't you come back ?" Draco asked, his voice crackling
" why didn't you ?" Harry repeated.
But Draco didn't answer, and Harry walked away. His heart heavy, again, by the same person. It was ironic how you can be so Madly in love with someone but more than often they are exactly the same person who hurts you, because that's love. Love is a wonder. Love is a cure. Love is symphony to music but love is pain. It always has been and will always be.
Harry drowned himself in his miseries that night, spending countless moments reading notes he got from Draco ages ago, drinking away his pain in wine, smiling at the presents Draco has given him. There was only a question of why. Why couldn't Harry move on ? It was so many years ago, he had been in love after that, he had dated people after that, he had been married after that but why was it he still loved the only man who caused him the most pain?
Meanwhile Draco cried himself to sleep, crying for how the day he told Harry he's getting engaged, he had cried before Harry had came and how he had cried right outside the astronomy tower in the pain of losing him. Crying because he knew he gave up too soon. Crying because how much he still loved Harry. Why couldn't he move on ? He'd have had a life after him yet all his life has been meaningless without him. If they say love only happens once, then for him it happened and it have lasted ages. He was desperate to move on but every night he thought to himself why couldn't he ? Had been years he saw him last but still love him. Why ?
But when the tides reaches a high, they are meant to go down and crash onto the surface and when the time came, they crashed. They crashed like the biggest tides in the world to cast a holocaust over anyone who found way.
Draco showed up at Harry's Footsteps with a beer in his hand, his clothes wet from the rain, his body shivering, and his eyes all red.
" what are you doing here Draco ? It's bloody cold outside, get in " Harry urgently said.
" no " Draco commanded
" what ? Let me get an umbrella then , you're soaked-"
" why didn't you fight for me ? Why didn't you keep the promise ? Why didn't you try to stop my wedding ? Why didn't you contacted me all these years ? Why didn't you ever write to me ? Why didn't you come back for me Harry, you promised you would " Draco sobbed
" Draco, this isn't the time. Just come inside and we'll talk this over later-"
" no, I need the Answers. Why didn't you come back for me like you said you would ?"
" Draco, you're soaking wet-"
" answer me harry !! Why didn't you ?" Draco yelled
" why Harry, why ? It have haunted me all these years and I want answers today because If I don't get them now, I never will " he cried, pushing his hair out of his face.
Harry stepped out of the door, decreasing the distance between both of them.
" why didn't you ? Why didn't you keep the promise ?" Harry asked
" Because you moved on, you moron " Draco agitatedly said, taking a few steps backwards
" I didn't. I never did " Harry outrageously replied
" oh really ? Because from what I remember you dated Ginny in 6th year "
" because I was hung up on you. And she knew it. It was spontaneous. I wanted to come back for you but you had done exactly everything that would've ripped you apart from me. I came back for you that night on the tower but you had moved on, you were getting engaged "
" and you never asked if I wanted it ? You selfish prat. I never wanted to get married. I never wanted to have that life but you just never came back for Me, fought for me. You never did. You went on, you moved on. You lived happily when I got stuck with a forced marriage "
" happy ? I have spent my life loving you Draco. Merlin knows why but I have wasted away in loving you knowing you'd never come back-"
" you never came back for me either"
" I did. Don't you dare blame it on me !! I came back for you when the war was over like I promised but it was you who kept pushing me away, getting on with Astoria. You promised me too that after everything was over, you'd come back to me but you didn't and I waited and guess what you never did. I had to force myself to move on. Be what people expected me to be and even if I did fight or would've wanted to fight, you'd had never done that "
" then why didn't you ask me ? Why didn't you-"
" because I couldn't. You looked happy " Harry yelled.
"I wasn't. I never was. How could you even think that ? Actually How the fuck would you even know that !! I was forced into a marriage with Someone who had a dying wish. You said I didn't fight, here I did fight, but I lost over and over again because you weren't by my side. Why would you know what it was like to be a death eater and being gay, my family hated me, the world hated me, Merlins sake I got death threat's !! I was on the losing side harry, always. I never thought you'd make it through the war, I was forced to move on because nobody would've accepted me. When I went to jail, I didn't thought I'd ever come back. I wanted to fight but you were the one who gave up. If you had struck with me for a little while I would've fought my entire life for you but you didn't stay. You have no idea what it felt like seeing you and Ginny in 6th year, it seemed you moved on and I had no one, not even a single fucking one. When I needed you the most, you were not there because you're a self righteous selfish prat. So there you go. I was not happy because Harry James potter you have ruined my life " draco smashed the beer bottle on the ground.
" then who's it to blame ? You gave up too Draco. You gave up very soon-"
" because you made me harry. You made me give up on you, on us "
" and I waited for you.. I waited years after the war for you to realise one day that I'm still in fucking love with you. If that day you hadn't said you were getting engaged Draco,I would've begged you on my knees to take me back.. do you even know how long I cried about it. Forced into a marriage right ? I was forced to watch Someone I loved whole heartedly marrying Someone else and I stayed, you didn't even stayed until the end of my wedding -"
" because I regretted it. There, that's what you want to hear right. I regret it Harry . I regret every decision I made. I regret I didn't fight for you, I regret that I never came back to you, I regret I broke the promise but you're no Saint Harry, if you hadn't moved on or made it seem like you did , I wouldn't had done anything like that. I regret giving us up. There, I've regretted my whole and I regret this very moment but I can't not sleep another night because I can't stop thinking about how the fuck you've hurt me so badly yet here I stand,still in love with you as much as I was the day you left me. You looked after yourself and other's, but you left me, you left me first Harry "
" you've ruined my life and yet I can't hate you " Draco cried in self destruction. Secrets he had held onto for so long, evaporated in the water's pouring down. His tears were running faster than the rain coming down on both of them. What love really is, it's pain.
Harry remained awestruck trying to figure out how to respond, to consume the secrets he had spilled, to reciprocate whatever he had said, understand that he too was to blame but it was too late and Draco was walking away. Too late. Too late.
And harry ran after him. He have wasted away himself in hopes that one day when the time will be right, he'd go back to him like he has promised on the day by the lake and if today was going to be that day, he wasn't putting it in vain " Draco wait "
" what ?" Draco asked exhaustingly wiping off his face.
" you're annoying and you're brilliant. You promised me you'd come back and you didn't, instead you got hitched and I did the same And we're terrible but I've lost you once and I can't do this again. You've ruined my life in worst ways possible but If that what it is, I want to ruin it. You're right, I'm a self Righteous selfish prat and I should've stayed by you, I should've never made it seem as if I had moved on but I too was hurting Draco because somewhere deep down I might've known you'd never come back but right now all I know is that one time my boyfriend told me to seize the day if I had to chance, and when I asked him when would I know to seize it, he told me I'll just know it and Draco today I know it. I'm sorry I didn't stop your wedding like that stupid romantic movies or I didn't tell you how much I loved you or how much I wanted you back when I should've and I've made those mistakes but not today. I've come soo far but I still seek you,I always will Draco. You are my sadness and you are my happiness, because-you and I, it's everything for me and I can't stand that I let you walk away, once again. I can't. I- just can't"
" you're a moron, you know that " Draco asked as he walked nearer Harry
" and you are too "
" and we're terrible at keeping promises "
" we are "
" but I've loved you. I still do "
" I do too "
And there no more left to say but do.. Draco kissed harry, again, years later and it still felt the same. It still gave him the sparks, it still made him feel like he was the brightest star, it still made him feel those butterflies in Stomach, it still made him feel like he'd live forever, it still made him feel like he didn't need the oxygen to breathe but needed Only him, it still made him feel like he was floating, it still made him feel. Everything was the same, yet everything was different. Harry was kissing him with Newfound regret and passion of being apart all these years, with the excitement of being able to do it again but the Romance had never left. It still left their hearts pounding, it still made them stand on their tiptoes to kiss, it still made them feel loved. And they did pour the love mixed with rain, finding in their perfect moment that they had been each other's ever since no matter what changed. No matter how many wars happened, or how many tragedies happened, They will possibly forever be each others and they were fine with it, after all if destiny was a thing, they were always destined to be together.
The next morning, Harry only woke up with a bed side note.
" would you come back to me ? Again ?"
" Draco, it's supposed to be will " Harry smiled as he looked at the man of his dreams standing on the doorway, with a cup of coffee in his hand
" it's would because that's my past asking you to come back. That notes from 8th year me "
" then the 8th year me would want to come back to you " Harry chuckled as he stood up and hugged his new beau.
" I've missed you " Draco kissed the top of his head, his one arm dangling Around Harry's waist.
" I still think it should be will "
" moron "
Lemme go cry in peace now. The best I could do. I have to say, this has been my favourite work of all time and I couldn't leave it with a sad note, it didn't make sense. There's probably loopholes btw. Happy reading.. and thank you for supporting through it all.
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31. Would you come back to me?
Prompt used- doing a pinky promise. This post have been inspired by one of @drarry-is-my-therapy recent reblog and one of @fqirycircle drawing, which is absolutely amazing. TW- ANGST | HURT/COMFORT | Harry's heart had always belonged to the boy by the lake.
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43. Love me like never before
As a request to redo this by @thebusyfangirl , I combined this with my missed prompt no. 43- braiding others hair. I wrote this while playing my Ukulele and I cried at the tune. Hope you like this.
Harry finally catch sight of the only one he look for and give it another try | fluff | mostly ANGST | domestic | hurt comfort |
Harry bobbed his head listening to the music, moving his body in slow rhythms unnoticed by anyone dancing to the songs playing at Blaise's wedding.
It happened an year ago when Blaise had accidentally met harry at the mall and thereafter have remained in touch and infact became pretty good friends. The time they met, Blaise was going through one harsh phase in his life and Blaise likes to claim that harry helped him a lot, not that harry ever understood that.
It was enjoyable to see everyone laughing away as a few started departing and only very close people remained. There was slow dancing and harry remained sat there, drowning on his glass of Scotch, staring away at dancing muses of anatomically humane bodies.
" to what do owe the pleasure of you finally reaching out after 30 minutes long time of longingly staring " harry turned to the man who he was very much aware of having stare at him most of the time.
" believe me mister it takes a lot of time to gather courage but now I did, and reached out " harry shook his head as if it was funny.
" well if you've come here to stare, so let me be bethroned to my seat and you can stare at me then " he raised an eyebrow
" no, I- as much as pleasurable it would be-"
" I'm really sorry I have to go. I'm harry by the way, nice meeting you" and harry fled off without even listening the others man's name because he had finally caught the sight of who he always looked for.
" draco "
" hey " harry greeted
" harry, I- it's a surprise to see you here-" he said
" is it? You weren't at the wedding?" Harry furrowed his eyebrows
" I- I wanted to, really. Just got stuck. I haven't seen you the entire time though. I'd been here for a long time " he answered
" really ? You might've missed " harry frowned
Silence.
" I didn't know you were close to Blaise ?" Draco asked
" oh- yeah. We met Last year, I helped him through his previous divorce " harry replied
" I didn't know you were a lawyer " he said with an amused look
" oh- no, no of course not. I consulted him to a lawyer " harry replied clicking his tongue.
The other man nodded, understandably. He gulped his Scotch, wincing as it burnt his Throat, but then again he had Always been into drinking scotch even if burnt, he liked it's sensation, and harry knew this as if it was ancient scroll he revised every night.
" so where do you work now ?" Harry asked
He clicked his tongue, gulping down his drink before replying " I'm in between. I have given up my practice-"
You were a healer at st.mungo's right ?" Harry interjected
" yeah, right. Someone accused me, I lost the case. Politician's pressure you know, bet one like my father. Anyways, no regrets. I was kind of getting sick of watching all the patients everyday with blood and bruises. I've applied to ivermory for potions post, haven't heard from them" he replied
" why not Hogwarts?" Harry asked
" i- I haven't thought of it. But a few painful memories you know-"
" I understand. If you want help-"
" no, thank you" he replied defensively " I Just. I want to make it on my own if you don't mind it. As much as it would be a great help, I think I want to make a place for myself somewhere with however I am- with the mark if you know what I mean " he added
Harry nodded again, understandably " I still think you're more than just your mark. It doesn't define your life"
" but it does " he sighed.
And silence fell over again. Harry looked warily over the music station
" the music playlist is rather nice" he complimented pointing towards the music station subtly.
" allow me to take the credits for it" harry smiled wittily
" oh really? You made the playlist then ?" He asked impressed
" I did. Played a few of them myself that is " harry proudly said
" my, my. When did you started playing again ?" He asked Thoroughly interested.
" it was uh- well I think - wait- how'd you know I stopped playing ?"
" oh- you don't play at the Joe's anymore, so I just figured- no offense- I just thought you had stopped playing " he defended himself
" it's- alright. I did stopped playing there. I picked up an year or two ago.. I'm learning cello now " harry frowned
" that's interesting" draco replied " why is the man by the bar looking at me like he can kill me right now?"
" oh- that- random guy. He approached me " harry shrugged
" still don't like random strangers coming upto you then ?" Draco smiled lightly at slight recollections from the past
" it's creepy sometimes. That man had been staring at me for like 30 Minutes' and when he did finally approach I gave him sarcastic replies, he didn't get it " harry rolled his eyes
" well not everyone can sense your sarcasm potter " draco chuckled
" and I'm glad to have people who do " harry added.
Draco and harry nodded at each other, Falling at loss of words, cautiously choosing their next words.
" yo-"
" yo- "
They chuckled at the moment, draco egging harry to go on first.
" you here with someone then?" Harry finally asked the question he'd be dying to ask.
" no, solo " draco raised his glass as if it was funny " you ?"
" oh no, got no one " harry pressed his lips in a thin line, his hands sliding down his pocket.
Draco nodded understandably.
" dance ?" Harry suddenly asked, nervously.
" wh-"
" there's music, there's a place.. what say a dance ?" Harry offered his hand
Even in a no, draco was reaching for Harry's hand's involuntarily, not touching yet.
" i- I haven't danced in ages" draco plead
" what is dance anyways draco- just Moving feets-"
" just moving feets-"
They simultaneously responded. Draco froze suddenly. He thought harry would forget, he thought he'd forget but he hadn't.
" so?" Harry raised his eyes expectedly.
Draco thought for a moment before giving in and holding Harry's hand.
" the first step wasn't so hard, now was it ?" Harry chuckled as he dragged him to the stage and attaining one corner to dance in.
" it's a couple's song ?"
" we could do hip hop dance if you'd like but that would definitely draw attention and I'm pretty sure neither of us are looking for that " harry shrugged his shoulders in a suggestion.
Draco's expression changed from worried to something that said seriously, you're ridiculous.
Smiling harry got hold of one of draco's hand and fitted other one over his waist, maintaining a valid distance. Draco however stepped a little closer.
In the little dance motions harry allowed himself to stare at draco and to harry He still seemed as if the Angels had carved him themselves, he still looked as mighty as ever, as elegant as ever, harry bet his eyes crinkled when he laughed loudly even judging by the small faint wrinkles at the side of his eyes, His cheek bones highlighted as though they had purposely been made that way only they weren't. His lips looked plump, like they'd just been kissing a plum, his hair maybe a bit longer than harry remebered but it suited him. He was still him, yet everything seemed so different.
As if Draco understood what harry was doing, he looked away, the pit In his stomachs growing larger.
" don't do it "
" do what ?" Harry asked spinning draco, then pulling him in again, forcing draco to look at harry.
" you're doing this on purpose " draco couldn't resist those eyes, he never could and he was a failed man to resist them.
" I'm doing what ?" Harry asked as if innocent.
Draco closed his eyes, only to open them again as the song softly tuned into another. Shaking his head, draco looked away.
" I'm doing what draco ?" Harry tilted his head at draco.
Draco allowed himself to gaze at him again, his eyes immediately locking with those green eyes, they were still irresistible.
" we- I can't do this again " draco sighed heavily. Harry pulled draco a little further In, then spinning him around again. This time though draco tripped a little and harry saved him again. Like he always had.
" why ?" Harry asked as they remained still.
" because we can't " draco answered and resumed dancing after taking position.
" we were kids back then. We didn't know what we wanted, what we said, what we even did, we were foolish draco" harry countered.
" and it didn't work then and so it wouldn't now " Draco firmly stood his ground.
Harry's eyes glimmered as the last of hopes died by seconds " you would never even want to try then?"
" we've tried and we failed-"
" we were stupid draco. I was stupid to let you go, you were stupid enough to let me go too. You can't look me In the eye and tell me for once, you never thought of trying again " harry's voice trembled lightly even after his desperate attempts to sound stern.
" I- it doesn't matter.. Its in the past and I suggest you think of it as a past too " draco swallowed.
Harry shook his head, looking away at the lights at far distance " I can't pretend to forget it even if you can. I was stupid to never call you back, I was and I'm paying my debts"
" yeah you are, how exactly ? " Draco furiously counter backed, his eyes shining in anticipation.
" by you burning my letters. Seeing you all night, seeing you date someone else after me, with you stopping to come at Joe's, by staying late every night, regretting " harry replied equally furiously.
" it doesn't fix everything-"
" and it didn't fix when you kissed theo right in front of me even though you knew I was ready to come out. You can never pin all of this on me. It was as equally your fault as mine " harry firmly said as he harshly spinned draco, and bringing him close enough that he could kiss him, but didn't.
" it doesn't matter anymore- it's the past and I've grown out of it. I've forgiven you long time ago, like any mature Person and I've moved on with life " draco replied looking down at Harry's lip, not moving an inch further.
" you've moved on from me then ?" Harry asked stepping back to get a better look at draco, resuming soft motions.
" I have " Draco replied looking anywhere but harry
It was as if Harry's heart was shattering little by little, like a glass doll was slowly falling and it was just about to hit the surface. He spoke no more but only danced as he regretted his lost chances.
" this song " draco sighed, instantly recognising it.
" this song will end right in 1 minute and you know it too. When it ends I will walk away draco, and you don't stop me, I'll never come back and beg for your forgiveness. I'll know that this song is no longer your favorite, that you don't miss me, thay you don't wish to be with me, that you have after all given up. I'll know you've moved on like you claim you have, I'll know you don't love me anymore, like you say you don't and I'll go " harry whispered and gave draco a last spin, his movements softening than before. That glass doll was locked in a rest state, paused from Falling and all it would take to shatter would be harry walking away and draco letting him. The tunes smoothered down just like Harry's hush movements. And the song finally stopped with the soft roughened end of the vinyl stopping playing on the record player. Harry for one last time looked draco, who didn't look at harry. He couldn't.
" goodbye draco " harry whispered as the glimmer of his tear fell down his cheek and he turned around to walk away, the glass doll finally-
" I don't- stop- wait " draco impatiently Turned harry around. His eyes swimming with the horrors of a broken heart, his lips trembling in fear of losing, again.
" why? After all this time why do you want to try again ?" Draco asked,his voice quivering softly
" because- I don't want to feel this pain anymore like you do " harry sighed as he stepped closer to draco, a sense of cherish running down his body knowing draco had stopped him.
" we never worked out. We fought a lot harry. We hurt each other. We kept ourselves a secret. We called each other things. Give me one reason why we should do it against ? Give me one reason worth it to come back for you ?"
" Because I'm not who I used to be, you're not who you used to be. Because I'd much rather never kiss anybody than not being kissed by you. Because I'd rather sleep with no moon or the stars than living a life knowing you're not by my side. Because I was stupid to let you go. Because I regret losing the only good thing in my life. Because despite everything we were good together. Because in every poem, it's your voice I hear. Because in every eyes, I look for you. Because In every echo I hear your voice. Because there's no home without you. Because I want to suffer but I want to suffer with you. Because if there was one person I would fly to the moon and to the entire galaxy, its you. Because I've lost you once and I can't do it again. Because I want to play my every song to no one but you. Because I knew you'd come today and this would be my last chance. Because the way we met again was special and anyone who reaches to me in a bar, it's unworthy. Because I'll miss you forever with every core, nerve of my body if I don't have you. Because I love you, Always have and Always will. Because anatomically, mentally, psychologically, emotionally, spiritually I'm all yours and I want to be no one else's "
" and I'd let you braid my hair like you always wanted, everyday " Harry shrugged as though it was nothing but he was in tears.
Draco's face quipped with a little side smile as tears emerged in his eyes, those were happy tears and he was glad.
" you had me at braiding your hair " draco chuckled.
Harry chuckled too, crying but chuckling.
" wow, even my vows were not that good " they heard Blaise retort in between their moment.
Harry shut off his eyes " you're unbelievable Blaise "
" if you don't kiss him, I will draco" Blaise's new wife added
" you ruined the moment guys " harry quipped, wiping off his tears.
Draco chuckled Shaking his head, pulling harry closer by his collar " you're a fucking menace" and kissed harry over the lips.
The fireworks suddenly went off but they cared no less for the world right now. They were entailed in their moment of reunion, of casting themselves back together, of finally returning to each other, finally returning home. Their love was no love written in the stars or to be found in any divinations or prophecies, their love was a tragic love story, that they had written filled with pain, suffering, betrayal, heart break and happy ending. No two people had ever been more perfect for each other than them, at least that's what people said afterwards.
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Harry was sat on the ground, Involved with depths into a Disney movie and draco sat behind him over the couch.
" hair tie harry " draco ordered. Without breaking eye contact, harry gave draco the hair tie and he plunged his hair into 2 thin french side braids he had Always liked so much.
" let me see " draco said. Harry only turned for a glimpse before turning around to see the movie again.
" harry " draco sternly commanded. Harry paused the movie and then turned around to give draco the final view.
" mia bella Amare ( my beautiful love ) " Draco cheekily smiled as he leaned down and kissed harry the nose. He moved back a little to see harry furiously blushing. Grinning draco pushed a strand of Harry's fallen out hair behind his ear.
" I love you " harry whispered as he craned upward to kiss his boyfriend.
" I know " draco murmured as he kissed harry over the lips.
" now do mine " draco said in the kiss and immediately jumped down to the ground, harry shifting to the couch.
And that was their typical Sunday.
Or had it always been fate? A destiny ?
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I love all your drabbles / shortfics. They give one of my serotonin shots of my day😭❤️😍
Can you please do prompt no.12 - pushing a strand of hair behind the ear?
You can clearly see I'm a simp for these gestures. And can't wait to read it from your writing. 😍❤️
Lots of love,
And do not forget to take care of yourself amidst all these writing😊😊
Hey @thebusyfangirl I'm incredibly Thankful to you. I notice you reblogging my writings and my posts a lot and I very much appreciate it . Now as for the Prompt request , I have already done it before- draco's clever boyfriend .
Here's the masterlist to all the prompts I've already written.
However I would take a request of redoing the same prompt in a different way, if you want to. I'd very much enjoy redoing it.
Take care.
Imagine a world where Harry’s parents never died, and Voldemort was stopped at the orphanage by Dumbledore. Imagine Draco growing up softer since Lucius never became a Death Eater. Imagine Lily and Narcissa setting up playdates for their boys and Harry and Draco becoming fast friends. Imagine the friendship changing into more in their fifth year at Hogwarts. Ahhh perfection!
After Ginny passed, Harry needed to get away. He planned on a quiet solitary trip to Barcelona but fate had other plans....Draco Malfoy was in the room next to his. Could something still spark after so many years? (I was watching Up and the prompt came to me lol)
I just found out today, through a random ad on my Facebook, that Theory11 made some cool Harry Potter playing cards. You can even pick your house colors for the deck. I went to see what the other cards looked like and they only showed a few. I had to put the Harry Potter and Draco ones together :P I couldn’t help buying a Gryffindor deck as a Christmas gift to myself (I liked the red…even though I’m a Slytherin at heart) lol Can’t wait to see the other cards…especially Snape. (If you want them too, here is the link https://store.theory11.com/products/harry-potter-playing-cards )
My funko pops needed dusting, so I decided to use the opportunity to take new pictures…which I took into Gimp and added backgrounds. I found an image of Hogwarts and the Quidditch Pitch to use. So much fun!
" harry tops in drarry"
Draco: hahahahahaha, nice joke
Harry: excuse me, have you seen my ass. It is absolutely perfect to ride Draco’s broom, but instead they all are obsessed with draco riding my wand, you see, I don't mind him doing it,but I prefer the other way round.
Me: yes harry, true words