Mental Hospital - Tumblr Posts
Tw: Failed Suicide attempt, Suicidal thoughts, Self harm (hinted), Abuse of Power, Psych Wards, Implied other forms of Abuse, Severe Mental Illness, Forceful Medication (Mentioned)
My time in the mental hospital wasnt fun. Of course no ones reallly is but regardeless. It wasn‘t necessarily the worst, but i have some horror stories. Like when an adult patient came into the childrens ward becuase he was „still in highschool“ and was loudly argued with and then had to be dragged out by the police. Or when i got put in the bad corner for tapping on the wals during quit time and then when i asked for a pen and paper to write down my feelings ,a coping mechanism we had just talked about in group, i was denied and then was left becuase someone else started having a breakdown and asked to be moved to the other mental illness timeout corner so i was less likely to hurt myself ,literally taking initiative and attempting to do the best for my own mental health, and was then called attention seeking for bothering someone when my fellow patient was having a breakdown (the guy who i was asking permission from was just sitting at a desk). What i hated the most was the fact that i wasn’t allowed to say goodbye to anyone because they took me away during quiet time and when i started arguing they threatened to keep me for another week. Sure i have more stories, there was a nine year old who was both suicidal and homicidal, but guess What? She was nice. She had to be put on paper only gowns, lived in the white room, had to be forcefully fed meds, and had been to that specific hospital 5 times alone, and she treated me with more compassion then any of the nurses did. We were friends, i helped her draw, and she confided in me terrible things she had not told anyone about her home-life because i treated her like a human. I never saw her again. The point to this, above all else, is that this system doesn’t work. I felt just as suicidal as I had before but now I was more scared to tell the truth about that because I didn’t want to go back. The people in power have no one to check that they are actually helping and the patients become inmates more often then not. And I know that ill try and commit again, and i hope to god that i‘ll succeed, because i can not go back there again.
Convict prison, which also managed to be a psychiatric hospital
Me in three years.
All the colorings I did in the mental hospital ◟⎚⩊⎚◞
The Radiohead drawing wasn't done by me it was done by another patient who gave it to me :3
I've been placed in the open ward, fuck yesssss
Not under surveillance 24/7 anymore, let's fucking gooooo!
mental hospitals
yall wanna know what's actually crazy? My sister has been struggling mentally recently but my mom won't send her to a mental hospital because she's convinced that my sister and her friend (who I've recently learned is actually her girlfriend) made a plan to both end up in the same hospital together so they could like cut together and do illegal shit together. Like um guys??
(My sister's girlfriend has had a major crash out. drugs,alcohol, multiple suicide attempts, cutting. They're both minors and my mother blames both of them for their problems. If this doesn't tell you what's wrong with society today then idk what does.)
