Take Care Of Yourself - Tumblr Posts

Just had a mental breakdown and I dyed my hair black and honestly like- I regretted it at first but I’m like- not upset about it anymore. I genuinely feel so much better. Like- I think sometimes I just have a really hard time grounding myself and reminding myself like…why I’m still here…and like, I need to do something to remind myself that I am an Actual Person and that my feelings do Actually Matter, and for whatever reason I think dying my hair just does that so well. It’s like. Yes, I am a person who can think for themself and make decisions based on their needs and emotions. And that is so amazing.

Anyways I hope you all are taking care of yourselves, eating a normal amount of food and drinking a normal amount of water, getting enough sleep, and doing things that make you happy, because life sucks, but it can be a little less sucky sometimes, and I think everyone should be able to experience the not-suckiness as much as they possibly can :]

Tyson is here to remind you that you need to love yourself as much as he loves you

After days of sh, porn and EDs being on my timeline

Now it's full of trans fems, thank you to whatever goddess is watching over me right now I think i did need a break from it all<3

Anyway this is now a queer people appreciation post

Ily queer people in whatever fashion that may be

Also shout out to trans fems for making me smile rather than hate myself<3

Now go say something nice about yourself everyone I dare you, actually say 10 nice things about yourselves

After days of sh, porn and EDs being on my timeline

Now it's full of trans fems, thank you to whatever goddess is watching over me right now I think i did need a break from it all<3

Anyway this is now a queer people appreciation post

Ily queer people in whatever fashion that may be

Also shout out to trans fems for making me smile rather than hate myself<3

Now go say something nice about yourself everyone I dare you, actually say 10 nice things about yourselves

After days of sh, porn and EDs being on my timeline

Now it's full of trans fems, thank you to whatever goddess is watching over me right now I think i did need a break from it all<3

Anyway this is now a queer people appreciation post

Ily queer people in whatever fashion that may be

Also shout out to trans fems for making me smile rather than hate myself<3

Now go say something nice about yourself everyone I dare you, actually say 10 nice things about yourselves

Remember to drink water, eat well, do something active, and you are loved and cared about ❤️

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Made myself go to a hot yoga class & it was HOT. I think I died and was reborn in that class lol. I used to do hot yoga consistently but have fallen out of it over the last 2 years (read: alcoholism, depression, drug addiction).

I’m all for finding what works for you and hot yoga is my thing. There’s something about dripping in sweat & heart pounding…but focused on the breath. The breath really is everything. I find a surreal peace in my mind. I can tune out my mind and the world and just stay focused on my breath. The here and now. It’s so much easier to focus on my breath when I’m on the brink of death (lol) in a class than it is in real life. Yoga has taught me so much about body awareness and how much of an impact our breathing has on our nervous systems.

I read this quote: the true measure of success is a calm nervous system. SO TRUE. As a self proclaimed ADHD poster child who “lives life on overdrive” (again, my therapist) — all I ever want is to feel calm.

Honestly, most of the time you could describe me as a wind up toy that just goes and goes and goes and goes, the song gets distorted and it starts to move all wonky, and then it crashes.

Anyway the class was what I needed. A sign. I needed to return to myself a little bit.

Started my day off with a super nutritious breakfast. I always feel like if my breakfast is solid then it sets the tone for the rest of the day. Like if I’m eating candy for breakfast, then I know my ass is going to be a lazy blob or a hot mess for the day lol

I also made myself get ready today, go on a long walk with my dog (she was the goodest girl) AND even sat down to look for jobs instead of putting it off like I have for months….go me!

Procrastination? We don’t know her!!!

My therapist suggested I write a response to a situation that has been weighing on my mental space for months. I did it & it felt very cathartic. Like the last piece of the puzzle so I can let. that. shit. go. Someone give my therapist a raise!! Jk don’t because I’m broke and can barely afford her.

(side bar: very very very thankful and privileged to not have to work during these early months of sobriety)

Going to bed with a serene feeling in my heart & my body. All I can ask for.

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In a weird place lately, but a good one. It just feels uncomfortable - kind of like getting a new pair of shoes and waiting for them to fully break in. Or wearing a t-shirt that doesn’t quite fit.

I’m doing really well lately. Ok, honestly I feel like “doing well” has a lot of room for interpretation. But as far as my mind and heart go - I’m doing just fine.

Because I don’t hate myself anymore. And this is everything.

So I’m not exactly where I want to be yet. So what? I am enjoying where I am at.

So people (in my life or not even in my life) don’t exactly approve or understand my life choices. All good - it’s my life, not theirs

I took 5+ grams of shrooms and found myself. Okay that sounds absolutely bonkers when I re-read that but it’s true.

I’ve had some alcohol since that time and I feel completely different drinking. Like I didn’t want to create chaos or hurt the people I love - HELLO WIN! Also, I don’t actually like the way alcohol makes me feel anymore but I acknowledge and recognize when I drink, I am indulging the old me.

Beyond that, I’ve just felt so settled. Whatever happens, I trust in my ability to find a way through. I am the woman in the arena, I am a survivor and I am resilient.

Some of the thought patterns that used to plague me, don’t as much anymore. It’s strange.

I turned 30 and decided now or never.

I think it also goes without saying - but living a life that you enjoy, that brings you peace and security…..wow it changes the game. I try so hard to have sympathy/empathy for those who feel stuck or unhappy.

But if you’re not going to do anything about it, I can’t fucking help you. Because even when shit has been as bad as it has, maybe I wallow sure - BUT I FIND A WAY THROUGH.

What’s crazy to me is this overwhelming sense of gratitude I feel. I feel present in my body.

Okay so still struggling with weed (because like who isn’t, when alcohol is so 1990) but lately I’ll put the damn bong down and eat a meal or take a nap/rest.

A year ago…..I would have died with the bong in my hand.

I haven’t felt as called to write. My thoughts have felt really jumbled and I’ve been really content to just “be” without needing to overanalyze it all.

Ok I always say that I need to get over this concept of “one day everything is going to magically be better”.

But………….everything has become magically better.

I scrolled back to my original posts first out of the hospital and I don’t recognize that woman. I want to hug her and tell her I’m proud of her. That so many people don’t have the courage to look their truth in the face and accept it, but she did. And she continues to.

I want her to know that I believe in her with all my heart. She can do this. She will do this. She will break the cycle and she will achieve the recurring dream of sitting on her deck in the backyard she owns, recounting how she made it through.

She will. And I will. I am!

Taking What You Need: A Guide to Finding Comfort, Hope, and Inspiration

Shaina Tranquilino February 24, 2024

At times, we find ourselves yearning for something more—whether it's comfort in moments of distress, hope in times of despair, or inspiration to propel us forward. The key lies in recognizing our needs and actively seeking what is necessary for our well-being. In this blog post, we'll explore the concept of taking what you need, be it comfort, hope, inspiration, forgiveness, motivation, peace, or any other essential element that contributes to a fulfilling life.

Recognizing Your Needs: Before embarking on the journey of taking what you need, it's crucial to identify and acknowledge your emotions and desires. Are you feeling overwhelmed, stressed, or anxious? Do you lack motivation or hope for the future? Understanding your needs is the first step towards addressing them.

Seeking Comfort: Comfort acts as a soothing balm during challenging times. Whether it's through the support of loved ones, engaging in self-care activities, or finding solace in a comforting routine, taking the time to nurture your emotional well-being is vital. Embrace the power of seeking comfort and allow yourself the space to heal.

Cultivating Hope: Hope is a powerful force that propels us forward, even when the path seems uncertain. To cultivate hope, focus on positive thinking, set achievable goals, and surround yourself with sources of inspiration. Remember that hope is not passive; it's an active choice to believe in the possibility of a brighter future.

Drawing Inspiration: Inspiration can be found in various forms—art, literature, nature, or the accomplishments of others. Explore what resonates with you and ignites a spark within. Whether it's reading motivational quotes, listening to uplifting music, or spending time in nature, draw inspiration from sources that align with your values and aspirations.

Embracing Forgiveness: Forgiveness is a powerful tool for personal growth and healing. Often, the first person we need to forgive is ourselves. Release the burden of past mistakes, learn from them, and allow forgiveness to pave the way for a more compassionate and fulfilling life.

Finding Motivation: Motivation can be elusive, especially during challenging times. Break down your goals into smaller, more manageable tasks, celebrate small victories, and surround yourself with positive influences. Sometimes, taking the first step is all it takes to reignite the flame of motivation.

Cultivating Inner Peace: Inner peace is a state of tranquility that arises from acceptance and mindfulness. Practice meditation, engage in activities that bring you joy, and create a peaceful environment for yourself. By cultivating inner peace, you enhance your resilience in the face of life's challenges.

Taking what you need is a personal and empowering journey. Whether it's comfort, hope, inspiration, forgiveness, motivation, or peace, prioritize your well-being and actively seek the elements that contribute to a fulfilling life. By recognizing your needs and embracing the resources available to you, you pave the way for personal growth, resilience, and a more meaningful existence. Remember, you have the power to shape your own narrative and create a life that aligns with your deepest desires and aspirations.

I know a lot of us here feel burnt out and sad. And I am saying this to myself as much as I am saying it to all of you. You’re worth so much more than what you can produce. You have value in this community just for being you.

And even if you can’t write or draw now, everything you’ve created in the past is still so valuable. In fact I encourage all of you to go through your fav’s writing tags and reblog something old. Maybe you’ll find something that’s new for you. Share things you’ve created in the past. They still matter!

I know there’s a lot of not great things happening and it’s stressful and sad. And yes this is corny but I think we can all find empathy and understanding with each other, we can lean on each other.

And of course take the breaks that you need, you’re always welcome back here, be it 6 days or 6 months. Don’t let the .01% that focus on numbers, or sending hate, or creating drama ruin something you love. Turn off anon if you have to. Don’t make yourself accessible to people who just want to hurt you.

Sending love and hugs and warm soup and puppy snuggles to everyone 🖤🖤

Sometimes, I feel bad about not doing all the things I should’ve done. I feel bad about my ADHD and my habit of procrastinating. I feel like I’ve wasted too much time. But, then I remember that the time wasn’t wasted. I spent it doing something that made me happy, made me smile, feel better. And I think it’s important to sometimes take the time to do the small things, like watching that episode or reading that chapter, or scrolling for a few minutes, something that makes you feel good. And to remember that you aren’t wasting your time while you’re doing it.

Me, reading a fic: this is bad for my mental health

Also me: *keeps reading*

Take your time, even small things can take very long, specially if done with love and care.

Don't beat yourself up!! <3/p

MY BRAINS BEEN SOOO EMOTIONALLY & MENTALLY DRAINED AND EXHAUSTED IM SOSOSOSOSO SORRY A SMALL COMIC LIKE THIS IS TAKING SO LONG TO GET OUT I'M TRYING MY BEST I PROMISE ITS JUST BEEN A BIT DIFFICULT

Pootis thinks it’s good to take a break once in a while!

"but what if they start to like me, it takes time" don't. don't take that road. take it and you won't come back sane and happy, believe me

Every relationship has its boundaries, you break some you make some.

It's a mutual understanding.

Life is crazy. Never thought I will be doing this but you are someone I can't stop thinking about but given the situations our lives it was better for me to just stay away, as it was affecting you in a wrong way.

I was a friend whom you misidentified, I was a friend who always cared for you genuinely.

I was and will always be your friend but not the way you want me to.

Still check you every day hoping you are doing better.

I pray for you I care for you

Big hug 🫂 🤗 ❤️

Take care.

Yours turly :)

U could make a direct move, respectfully.. but u didn't.. despite having all the relationship experience one needs in a lifetime.. u did not.

U were always overly private and u sugar coat it as "boundaries"... While u.. u little shit.. u never respected anyone else's fucking boundaries.

I mean.. the level of hypocrisy.

Real footage of me after a long and exhausting school day..

Song of the day:

thoughts

sometimes i forget that humanity isn’t inherently evil. children share toys and form friendships and no one has to teach it. but then i remember that. i one teaches children to hit eachother or cry when things don’t go their way. but that’s the amazing thing about people— sorry if i’m rambling— we learn on our own. the human brain is incredible, each part is essential and none can work without the other. but that’s the way that people work too, the average person needs others to function. organs in our bodies form groups we call systems, and people function the same way. each individual person is an organ and our families, our friend groups, hell, our countries are the systems. each person has value naturally because if even one person is gone, then the history of the world is changed forever. no matter how small, we each have an equally important role to play. no part is less valuable.

you are an organ. organs don’t always have a vital function, and they don’t always work properly. but, no matter how “insignificant” the organ is, the body feels it’s loss the same. this might be a bad analogy, but it’s something that i think about a lot, as someone whose really interested in biology. different organs cause different damage, but even something as “useless” and commonly removed as the apendix is missed by the body after surgery. just food for thought.