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My personal favorite story
These are stories that I personally really enjoy. It's all about muscle theft. I would like to introduce them to you. Unfortunately, the author of these novels appears to no longer be writing :(
1.Desperate Husbands https://www.pridesites.com/omelissokomos/clarence591/desperate-husbands.html
2.My Father's Child https://www.pridesites.com/omelissokomos/clarence591/my-fathers-child.html
3.Taking the Good https://www.pridesites.com/omelissokomos/clarence591/taking-the-good.html
4.Second Chances https://www.pridesites.com/omelissokomos/clarence591/second-chances-00.html
Fun fact đš
Second chanse(s)
Accordint to Adrien/Aspik he used the second chanse 24,913 times.
If we count at least 1 minute (and I think this is the least) between two skips, it took 17 days (17. 30069444 days)
If we count 4 minute, 59 seconds (this is the most time what he could use) it took 86 days (86. 21512731 days)
So, Adrien spent 2 month try to save his love. Maybe he isn't ad Aspik, maybe he is dump as Cat Noir, but this is his role:
Use his heart and never give up.
PROTECT.
Whump The Musical Day 1: Cats (Second Chance)
Fandom: The Bad Batch
Summary: After everything, Crosshair still doesn't know what to say to his brothers when he sees them again.
Note: This story takes place at the end of Season 3 episode 4, A Different Approach
There the Marauder was. What now, Crosshair thought to himself. What does he say to them? Will they even want him back? Not knowing how his brothers would react to seeing him again, was unsettling.
As Crosshair landed the ship, Omega ran towards the door. She was so ready to see them again. They were her family. The men were also his family. Yet he had hurt them, over and over. Some of it was his chose, some not.
That didn't matter. A million things ran through his head. With nothing to say, the clone walked towards the door. It's now or never.
With every step, his fears started to invade him. What if they didn't give his a second chance? They had betrayed each other. They left wounds that didn't heal easily on each other's hearts. Some were scarred while others were still bleeding.
He could hear them now. Even if Crosshair couldn't understand what they were saying, he knew they were happy to have Omega back.
Batcher stood beside him. She rubbed up against his leg, trying to provide a sense of comfort to him. The hound walked out with him onto the ramp.
Watching his brothers tense up at the sight of him, hurt. It hurt more then it should have. There was a time where he wouldn't have cared; where he may have even smiled. Now it felt like someone had grabbed his heart and lungs and held them hostage.
Once apon a time, Crosshair had tried to give them a second chance. He offered them a way into the empire, a place he once believed in. He didn't expect to be forgiven.
"Crosshair." There was so much distrust in Hunter's voice. It looked like he froze, like he was faced with an enemy he didn't know how to defeat.
Wrecker didn't say anything at first. Instead, he looked him up and down. It looked like had been though a lot. Of course he already knew about the burn scar on the side of his head. But it was more then that. He looked tired. The man watched as Crosshair's hand shook. He took note of the fact that he looked sick and had lost weight since Kamino. Even through all the clothes, Wrecker knew.
After everything that had happened, everything they had put each other though, maybe it was time to bury that hatchet. The man looked back at Hunter and shook his head gently. Hunter did always have a difficult time trusting people.
With everything they had lost, losing Crosshair wouldn't help them. They had already lost one brother, he wouldn't do it again. In the end, Wrecker had always loved him, even when he was shooting at them.
Turning back to Crosshair, Wrecker started to speak. "Hey" he said. The sniper didn't say anything.
Unsure if what to say, Crosshair just stood there. Wrecker looked deal in thought and Hunter looked as if he may kill him.
Crosshair and Wrecker made eye contact. Neither man broke it. They both saw the fear and pain the other carried.
"I believe in second chances." Wrecker smiled softly. "I want to give you one. You're my brother, Cross. If you'll take us, I'd be happy to have you back."
The man stood there. For the first time in a while, he took a step towards them. Crosshair felt like he was going to cry. After everything he had done to them, to the people around him, Wrecker was so ready to take him back. He wanted to give him the second chance he didn't think he deserved.
No he knew he didn't deserve it. Crosshair had killed innocent people. He had done terrible things. He didn't deserve the kindness that Wrecker looked at him with or the sympathy he had in his eyes.
Their oldest brother sighed, "alright." Unclenching his fist, Hunter tilted his head towards the Marauder. "Come on. We have your gear in the ship."
"Most of your toothpicks too!" Wrecker joked.
Crosshair walked up to him. Standing in front of Wrecker, his eyes started to water. Without enough time to stop him, the man wrapped his arms around his big brother. He sobbed into his chest, holding him as tight, if not tighter, then when they would hold each other in the worst moments of the war.
Surprised, Wrecker held him. Hunter, who had been walking back to the ship, snapped his head up. It wasn't often that Crosshair cried. Some of the anger that had built in his heart, dissolved.
"Let's, give them a moment" Hunter said as he stopped Omega from running over to the others. Batcher ran up to her and Hunter just looked at her. As they walked to the ship he said, "tell me about the hound."
Minutes went by. Wrecker just held him. Every now and again he would whisper something reassuring.
"I don't deserve this" Crosshair finally made at words though his sobs.
"It think you do. You didn't deserve what happened to you, even if I don't know what it is. But, let us help you heal."
As Crosshair started to breathe easier, he loosened his grip on his brother. Looking at him, he sighed. "Where did you learn that?" he half joked.
"Echo actually" Wrecker kind of chuckled. "Welcome home Cross."
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Second Chances {M}
Summary:Â Work. One of the most important things to him. It kept him company at night, it was all he thought about, all he put his attention to. His work had become the mistress within your marriage. Years after you left him youâre back with only one goal in mind. Get him to sign the damn divorce papers. Yet you shouldâve known that your husband wouldnât let you go that easily.Â
Jeon Jungkook x Reader Genre: Angst (but like not angst? like. intense longing??? IDK) | smut | fluff Word Count: 14,439 Warnings: Explicit Sexual content A/N: This was supposed to be a story about rekindling of love. Idk how it turned out like this. Stupid Jungkook for making me like this.
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âListen, I - â I turn to him, eyes ablaze with fury, hands clasped into fists as a current of conflicting moments and broken chances cloud over my memory. âListen? Iâll listen to you when youâve proven to me youâre worth listening to.â A chance to turn. A chance he breaks with a desperate kiss - and in those lingering seconds of utter bliss, everything in our world was rightly proven.
My Heart Bleeds Poetry #33 Charlene Pablo ( via @inevitable-realities )
True Art
I stumbled into the darkness,
Scarred from betrayal and hurt,Â
Until I was given a heart.Â
This cascaded me into the sunlight.
Life and love were a gift,
Bestowed from the ones far up above.
I for once had a start.Â
Chanced upon myself,
Was a piece of oh-so-humble life,
And that my friend,
At least to me,Â
Is something of true art.Â
- (d.n.k)Â
Weekend Mornings || Miguel O'Hara x Pregnant Wife Reader:
WARNINGS: Fluff and a worried Mama O'Hara but nothing bad happens!
SUMMARY: After waking up, you got a little worried when you couldn't find Miguel beside you.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This is my first imagine in a really long time, so there might not be a lot of details but I do hope you like it either way! Also, I apologize if the translations are wrong and please feel free to correct me if they are wrong.
MASTERLIST: Feel free to check out my other works! :)
"Morning, mi vida," you hear your husband speak gently behind you, before he kisses your shoulder. His hand slips underneath the warm blanket protecting your body from the cold air, gently caressing your swollen belly.
You hum back softly in response, your eyes remaining firmly shut as you refuse to open them just yet, still feeling quite sleepy.
Throughout your pregnancy, you are the type of person who loves to sleep in until nine o'clock in the morning during the weekends, but you can't say the same about your husband who always wake up at dawn. It becomes a small routine for the two of you. As soon as Miguel wakes up, he immediately pulls you into his embraceâ if not already or if you had unintentionally moved away from him during your sleep âand spends some time cuddling you while he admires your baby bump. Sometimes, Miguel will even start talking to the baby if he feels them kicking.
As always, you find yourself drifting back to sleep in Miguel's embrace. You're not a heavy sleeper, but the calm silence and Miguel's comforting touch lull you into a peaceful slumber within a few minutes into the cuddle. There is just something about being wrapped in his strong arms that makes you feel utterly safe and content, as if nothing in the world could disturb it.
After an hour of cuddling and making sure you're not on the very edge of the bed out of a fear that you might fall off it because it has happened once and Miguel wouldn't leave you alone for weeks after that accident, Miguel gets out of bed. Knowing you'll still be asleep for a few more hours, he quietly gathers his belongings and prepares to head to the gym but not before pressing a kiss to your forehead.
Miguel slipped out of the bedroom after that, careful not to wake you up with too much noise, gym bag in hand.
. . . .
Your eyes slowly flutter open as you stretch your arms to the side, instinctively reaching for your husband, only to furrow your eyebrows when you don't feel his touch and look over to find it empty.
Assuming Miguel was still at the gym, you dismiss the worries of his absence. However, as you take your phone from the bedside table, you realize it was past nine o'clock, a sense of unease appears in your stomach. It was unusual for Miguel to be at the gym for so long since he is always consistent with his routine on returning back home by half past eight. Peeling the blanket from your body, you carefully slide out of bed, a hand cradling your eight-month-old stomach protectively.
Your heart was racing with concern as you quickly check the empty bathroom, finding no sign of Miguel there. You hurriedly went out of the bedroom and down the stairs, your footsteps making loud noises. Hurriedly, you dart out of the bedroom and descend the stairs, your footsteps echoing loudly in the house. As you enter the living room, your senses are greeted by the scent of pancakes and the sound of sizzling from the kitchen.
Instantly, a wave of relief washes over you, calming your worried heart. Despite the scent and the sounds coming from the kitchen, you feel the need to see Miguel for yourself, to reassure yourself of the love of your life's safety. Hurrying to the kitchen, you find him there, flipping one of the pancakes over with a spatula, and a sense of peace settles over you as you realize he's safe and sound.
Miguel looks over to you with a frown. "Mi vida, ÂżquĂŠ te dije de bajar corriendo las escaleras? Hay tantos casos de gente que se cae por las escaleras yâ" he begins in a scolding and worried tone, but it fades into silence as you approach and envelop him in a tight hug. Although confused, Miguel senses your need for reassurance and wraps his arms around you, holding you close and soothing away any lingering worries with his touch.
"I thought something happened to you," you sniffle in the hug and Miguel's grip on you tighten slightly as he immediately understand the reason for your worries.
In the third trimester of your pregnancy, Miguel made sure to minimize his missions, only going on them to assist the trainees or if there was any emergencies when necessary. Despite being relieved of the measures he has taken for you and the baby, the fear of something happening to him during his duties as head of the Spider Society lingers in your mind. You understand and respect his role as a hero, but the mere thought of him sustaining any injury on a mission fills you with dread. A single wound is enough to disrupt your sleep for days, as the concern for his safety weighs heavily on your mind.
"Nothing will happen to me, mi vida," Miguel speaks gently, his voice laced with reassurance as he lovingly strokes your cheek, wiping away the few tears that have escaped down your cheeks. "I promise to do everything in my power to keep us safe and to return to you, always." He swears to you, his gaze unwavering as he looks down at you with a determined yet assuring expression.
You sniffle again, finding solace in Miguel's words. It has a calming effect on your heart, and your breathing gradually turning back to normal. Resting your head on his chest, bask in the peaceful silence that surrounds the two of you. There's no need for words to fill the air as the simple touches between you and Miguel speak loud enough for both of you to understand.
The sweet moment is abruptly interrupted by a burning smell that filled the kitchen. "ÂĄAy, coĂąo!" Miguel cursed under his breath, remembering about the forgotten pancakes, swiftly moves to turn off the stove before the food has a chance to catch fire.
Grimacing at the sight of the burnt pancakes, Miguel turns to you with a sheepish expression. "Eggs and bacon?" he offers as an alternative since it's one of the quickest meal he can whip up for you.
You hum and nod, liking the idea of eggs and bacon. "And orange juice?" you question, your stomach grumbling in hunger at the thought of the delicious meal.
Your cheeks turn pink in embarrassment, but Miguel just chuckles, finding your reaction endearing. "Anything for mi reina." He replies back affectionately, planting a kiss on your cheek before heading to the fridge to retrieve the eggs and raw bacon.
Translations:
Mi vida, ÂżquĂŠ te dije de bajar corriendo las escaleras? Hay tantos casos de gente que se cae por las escaleras yâ = My love, what have I told you about running down the stairs? There are so many cases of people who fall down the stairs andâ
Mi vida = my life
Mi reina = my queen
Cece has updated. I repeat, Cece has updated!!
A Second Chance PT 9
Summary: After the loss of his daughter Miguel wants nothing to do with kids that is until he impulsively offers his pregnant neighbor a job at the Spider-Society.
Tags for this chapter: Grumpy x Sunshine, Double life, Secret Identity, FLUFF, Vulgar language, Miguel x reader, Spiderman 2099 x reader, them being awkward, Reader going into labor......8.8k words
AND BEFORE Y'ALL SAY ANYTHING YES IK I TOOK FOREVER AND I'M SO SO SORRY!!! There's not really much to say other than I started working my school load got worse and when I finally got to writing and wanting to edit I was sick really bad for damn near a whole week. BUT I'M HERE NOW AND I'M PRESENT! I tried to let y'all know I'm alive by answering some anon asks, comments etc. Another thing Idk if it's because the tag list is too long but for the past 3 or 4 chapters as the tag list grew Tumblr was giving me a major problem uploading the chapters. And I know we only have one more chapter after this but unfortunately, I can't add any more of you guys. So if you want to get notified for the last chapter and future stories that I have you'll have to follow me and turn on notification. I'M SORRY LOVELIES.
Disclaimer there will be descriptions of a woman going into active labor. (Nothing too vivid) Although everyone's labor story is different and of course, people who have been pregnant will be able to explain and give a better description. I have not been pregnant before so I don't have a proper understanding of what really happens during that time. Just wanted to give you guys a heads-up and apologize if I got anything wrong. Mwah<333
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You stare at Miguel in horror as he slowly closes his eyes.
âM-Miguel..?â Your voice is so small you can barely even hear yourself. Immediately you place your fingers on his neck to check for his pulse. You meant it with every fiber in your being that you wouldnât know what to do if you lost him. You want him there with youâŚyou need him.
You let out a strangled cry when you managed to feel his pulse. You look at Lyla as you wipe your face. âL-Lyla where are they he's still alive but he needs to-â
âThey're on their way, it has to be through a helicopter the roads wellâŚyou knowâ You nod your head before you gently begin to stroke his face with one hand as the other rests on your stomach.
You can hear the helicopter coming from a distance. So you place a kiss on his forehead before Ben helps you up as the paramedics emerge from the helicopter a few feet over. You watch as they slowly begin to load Miguel onto the stretcher that they have. Gathering the information that you need from the paramedics to locate him you wait until Peter gets help before allowing Ben to take you home.
As much as you protest against it he didn't allow it. Nor did Lyla. All you wanted to do was go straight to Miguel but that wasn't even an option. Their reasoning âMiguel would kill us if he found out we allowed you to walk home by yourself, especially after all thisâ
Once reaching home you try your hardest to calm yourself down for your sake and the baby's. You quickly grab your hospital bag just in case and fill it up with snacks you plan on staying by his side for as long as you can before you are forced to leave.
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Finally making it to the hospital and given today's current events everything is a mess. Doctors are running everywhere, patients are overflowing the hallways, there's clearly no room for them. You gently cradle your stomach as you take in your surroundings there's bloodâŚ. everywhere. Some people are screaming out in agony while others try their best to apply pressure to their wounds.
You make a beeline for the front desk and ask for Miguel OâHara. It takes a few minutes for the receptionist to find Miguel but when she finally does you have to try to keep your cool when she says you can't be allowed to see him. You blurt out that he's the father of your child and she looks at you up and down before giving you the directions to his room.
You decided to go by yourself because you knew the Spiders were busy. You know that they have bigger things to worry about andâŚit just doesn't seem fair. Plus you're positive that they'll get here eventually. He is their boss after all. You have to count even numbers in your head to keep yourself focused. This is the only way that's preventing you from crying. You just can't believe that it has come to this. Ben almost died, Miguel almost died and so many innocent people got caught in the crossfire. None of this would've happened if it wasn't for your ex.
None. Of. This.
You know he said that this isn't your fault but as you pass by taking note of the amount of injured people and the amount of people covered in dust from the fallen buildings you are slowly starting to think otherwise. You try to blink back your tears as you finally reach his room. Taking a deep breath you enter as you exhale. From the distance, you can see there are bandages wrapped around his left arm, his forehead, and even his abdomen. Slowly you pull up a chair next to his bed holding onto his hand before gently brushing his hair back. As you examine his features you take note of his busted bottom lip and the lack of color in his face.
You hate thisâŚyou hate this a lot. He's like this because of you all of this the pain, the suffering everything is because of you. You place a gentle kiss on his forehead before deciding to give your doctor a call. Granted you are sure that she's probably busy but you want to check in to make sure everything is alright with the baby.
â˘Â°~°â˘
Each day for the next 3 weeks you stayed in Miguel's room for 5 hours. You couldn't help it not being there with him not knowing if he's going to be okay not knowing if he's making progress. Not knowing if he's going wake upâŚ.
You hate every minute of this.
You hate that as each day goes by you're dealing with the horrible aftermath that your ex created. It's in the news, and the newspapers, multiple streets are still closed off because of all the debris that still litters the roads. Itâs devastating how dreadful the city of Nueva York has become although not many people voice their opinions you can see it all around you. While you go to the grocery store and go to and from the hospital then the Spider Society. You can tell that people are visibly shaken up by the attack and each time you do you feel yourself slowly being ripped apart.
Pausing in your tracks you stop staring down at your stomach as you feel her moving around. She's been moving around way more than usual, it feels like but your doctor said that it's normal around this time.
You've been trying to keep yourself busy by helping out at Spider Society in any way that you can but they don't really allow you to do anything. You can tell that everyone feels sorry for you as you walked along the halls, saw their small smiles and felt the reassuring touches on your arm. Deep down inside you know that they know who Spinebreaker was to you. Maybe they are just too scared to say anything.
You are pulled out of your thoughts when you feel a breeze as a doctor passes by. Holding your stomach you gently begin to walk towards Miguel's room. You're 37 weeks pregnant and honestly, you're just ready to meet your baby girl. On top of all of that the stress and your constant worrying about Miguel, Peter and the rest of the Spiders, and just everything else. It's not making things any easier.
â˘Â°~°â˘
You sit in Miguel's room across from him crocheting socks for your baby. Is it selfish for you to hope that he wakes up before she gets here so you won't be alone? You're scaredâŚ.really scared that you'll have to do this all on your own. Although it's still early your stomach has dropped. It's not completely low but it's lower than it was this morning. Since Jess just had her baby you've been asking her any questions that you could think of so you could be ready.
You let out a deep sigh as you stretch your neck. Deciding it's time to take a break you put the yarn down on your lap and sink further into the chair as you begin to rub your stomach. You're hungry again but the last thing you want to do is get up. Your stomach is grumbling or at least you think it is. You decide to hum a song that your mom used to sing to you when you were younger before closing your eyes.
You don't know how long your eyes were closed but when you open them you watch Miguel's fingers twitching. You think nothing of it because his fingers have been twitching before over the past 3 weeks. But the longer you stare you realize that it's tapping to the beat of the song. Beginning to sit up straight you quickly begin to hum the song a little louder. You gently sit on the bed, careful not to sit on him. You begin to stare at him before placing a gentle hand on his face as the other one rests on your stomach. The minute his eyes flicker open you can already feel your tears fighting to break through. Too scared to speak and too scared that youâll end up scaring him in the process you sit there quietly stroking his face as he begins to rapidly look around the room.
âY-Youâre okay just in a hospital. Everything's okay nowâŚ.he's gone. He can't hurt me or anyone anymoreâ You watch as he opens his mouth presumably to speak but nothing comes out.
âIt's okay take your timeâ
You watch as he slowly manages to bring a hand to rest on the opposite side of your stomach.
âAre you guys okay?â
Quickly moving your hand thatâs on your stomach to rest on his you rapidly nod your head.
âY-yeah weâre okayâŚ.hungry but okay,â You say in between short laughs.
Watching as he slowly begins to move you give him some space as he sits up. You begin to stand so you can help him prop up pillows behind his back but he waves you off and moves over patting the bed so you can sit. Happily following orders you take a seat as you begin to wipe away stray tears.
âIâm sorryâ
Immediately your eyes meet his and you look at him confusedly. âPlease donât apologize to me otherwise Iâm going to be crying for the remainder of my pregnancyâ And of course, he doesnât listen.
âIâm sorryâŚâŚfor leaving youâŚ.both behind for so long I-â You cut him off with a shake of your head as your tears begin to fall all over again.
âWeâre just glad to have you come back to usâŚ.itâs been hard without youâ Miguel looks at you then his eyes dart down to your stomach before he slowly begins to take off the bandages on his abdomen as the sun peeks through the curtains. He takes a peek checking to see if there are any wounds and to your surprise his stomach is bare. As if nothing ever happened. You quietly watch him as he begins to assess his wounds. Not sure of what you should do you let him do his thing. But you feel like you should call a doctor or nurse in here.
He begins to roll his neck and stretch out his arms and legs as popping and cracking sounds fill the air. âHow long?â You rest your hands under your stomach before you find the courage to answer him.
âUhâŚit's been 3 weeks Miguelâ A beat passes before he speaks again and with the look on his face you know that it isn't anything good. You open your mouth to speak just as he begins to rip out the IV from his arm. A loud sound from the machine fills the room Miguel pays it no mind as he begins to get off the bed.
Slowly you begin to get off the bed. âMiguel wait you can't just-â
He cuts you off.
âLet's go didn't you say you were hungryâ You stare at him in bewilderment. âI-I mean yes but you can't just-â Before you finish your sentence nurses and doctors run into the room and immediately begin accessing Miguel and coaxing him back into his bed. You step out of the way so they can do their thing.
âI'm fine just get me my papers so I can be dismissedâ
âNo you were just in a coma for 3 weeks we need to check to make sure-â He cuts them off with a brush of his shoulders.
âI'm fine just let me goâ
You watch as the doctors begin to fix the IV and the nurses begin to assess his woundsâŚthat uh no longer exist.
âSir you can't just leaveâOh your wounds areâŚ.â
âYeah I know my wounds are healed, can I go now?â
You get surprised when one of the doctors turns to you. âCan you please convince him to stay?â Your eyes dart to Miguel and you guys stare at each other for a bit and before you can even say anything you watch as his shoulders sag and he lets out a sigh.
âFine but make it quickâ
â˘Â°~°â˘
For the next hour, Miguel's doctors and nurses check on his vitals, his heartbeat, and his blood pressure. They even called in the physical therapist so they could do a few exercises with him just to make sure everything was okay.
You both are currently walking to the parking lot in silence. You try to follow him as much as you can but he even slowed down for you and you still can't manage. Keeping your hands under your stomach as you watch him walk only a few feet in front of you a small smile emits on your face. You're just really happy that he's back and for the most part, he seems to be doing well.
You look down at your stomach before you decide to slowly rub it. You wonder to yourself how big could you possibly get.
âWhat are you over there smiling about?â When you look up you see that he has his hand out for you and that he stopped walking. You reach for it and he intertwines your fingers together before you both start slowly waking again.
âNothing I'm just happy you're here I really missed youâ He looks at you briefly and squeezes your hand.
âI missed you tooâ You walk in silence and by the time you reach your car, it takes you both 2 minutes to decide who's going to drive.
âDo you even remember how to drive?â
âI was in a coma, not 6 feet underâ You roll your eyes as he gets into the driver's seat and the ride back home falls in comfortable silence. When you finally reach your place you stand there shifting your feet as you look up at him unsure of what to say. Prior to all of this, you both shared something, exchanged three words, and a kiss. You told him you loved him and he said it backâŚdid that actually mean something or was that all in the spur of the moment. Deciding to do what you do best you start up a conversation in hopes of getting over thisâŚuh awkward state.
Here goes nothing.
âDid you grow you look tallerâ
âYou look healthyâ
You pause realizing you both spoke at the same time. âIf by healthy you mean big sure I gained weight in these past 3 weeks''
He sighs before he answers, rubbing the back of his neck with his right arm. âWell, it looks good on youâ You give him a small smile before you begin to fiddle with the doorknob.
âIf you say soâŚI'm just ready for her to be here. I'm ready to meet her, hold her, touch her. I can't wait Miguelâ You place a hand on your lower back before rubbing your stomach.
âIâŚcan't wait eitherâ You lock eyes with him for a brief moment and as you smile at him you swear you catch him doing the same.
âReally?â
âReallyâ
Silence fills the hall and Miguel takes a step closer to you. He takes a deep breath before he takes his left hand to cradle your face.
âListen, I meant everything that I said before-â His words were cut off by the flashing of his watch. Damn, you forgot you got another one from Lyla for him.
You tuck some of your curls behind your ears as you let out a nervous laugh.
âDuty calls I guessâ He sighs before he swipes his thumb across your cheek before tucking his hand back into his pocket.
âI mean you donât have to goâŚsince you know you just got back and all maybe you should rest. You know and start back tomorrowâ You begin to wipe your palms on your leggings as they begin to sweat.
He begins to slowly shake his head as he takes a step back.
âIt'sâŚbeen a while I should probably check and see if they turned the whole place upside downâ
âOh okay um yeah you should go and do thatâ You begin to unlock your door only opening it a little bit just enough so your feet can peek through. âYou know they missed you right?â He scoffs at your words and rolls his eyes.
âYeah rightâ
âI'm being serious we all missed you MiguelâŚso don't ever pull a stunt like that againâ
âYes, I'll try not to die from here on outâ Rolling your eyes as you fully step inside you linger with your hand on the doorknob while resting your head on the door.
âWell Iâll be here you know if you ever need me or anythingâ
âYeahâŚI know. Iâll let you know if anythingâ He gives you a nod before walking away. You wait till he disappears from your line of view before closing the door and the minute you do Lyla emerges from your watch.
âReally that's it?â You pause as you take off your shoes to look at her. âI don't know what you're talking aboutâ
âYou guys haven't seen each other in three weeks. You guys kissed and said you loved each other and that's the best you got?â You roll your eyes at her as you begin to make yourself a snack.
âWell what else was I supposed to doâŚyou know how nervous he makes me. As a matter of fact, where were you that exact push of courage would've been greatâ
âI was trying to you knowâŚgive you guys space. But that clearly didn't work. Now go and call him back so you guys could talkâ You immediately begin to shake your head no. âLyla, you and I both know that man is halfway there and he won't come back just because-â She cuts you off.
âThat's the thing though he would come back just because you askedâ You sigh as you sink into your couch with your jar of pickles in hand. âMaybe another timeâŚ.and I'm sure he really wants to get back to work you know himâ Lyla gives you a shrug before disappearing back into the watch.
â˘Â°~°â˘
A few days have gone by and you havenât really spoken to Miguel since you last saw him. It was to be expected though since heâs been gone for a while. He has checked in with you a few times but apart from that you havenât seen him. Every time you have gotten on the phone it has been...uh kind of awkward and to say you hate it would be an understatement. But to have that conversation of âWhat are weâ over a watch just doesnât seem right to you. Maybe Lyla was right maybe you should've called him back so you could talk things out.
But on the brighter side of things you are now 38 weeks and 4 days and yes you have been keeping track of the days. You meant it when you said you canât wait for her to get here. Her movements have gotten a little bit more frequent or more powerful you should say.
Today you've woken up feeling more tired than usual. You're not trying to freak yourself out but as you looked in the mirror your stomach has definitely dropped really low and that means you could potentially have the baby very soon. You haven't been feeling any contractions though so it probably isn't going to happen today but still, you're so nervous. You've been just doing routine checks on the nursery and your hospital bag making sure that everything is ready.
To say you are nervous would be an understatement are you really going to have to do this all alone? The only person whom you would think to call is MiguelâŚ.but would he even want to come? Especially learning that he had a daughter. Wouldn't this be weird for him? Plus you donât even know where you guys stand since you havenât really had that chance to talk. But you do know you feel the most comfortable with him and honestly you wouldnât want anyone else. You meant it when you said that you love himâŚ.you just hoped that he meant it too.
â˘Â°~°â˘
A few days have passed and you finally made it to 39 weeks. All day you've been experiencing some pains that you were able to confirm with your doctor are contractions. It hasn't been in short intervals like you know it needs to be but you do know that the pains have a little kick to it.
Now in the middle of the night 5 am to be exact and you woke up to a pain in your stomach and lower pelvis.
You've barely been able to keep calm while making breakfast and by lunchtime, the pain is slowly starting to increase. You canât believe youâre going to say this but you think the baby is coming today. Finally deciding to make the decision you decide itâs best to take a shower and justâŚget ready.
You are standing in front of the sink lotioning up, nervous out of your mind as you feel her moving around. The minute you feel a very prominent kick your movements come to a halt the second you hear it. Immediately turning your head to look at the shower in case you didn't fully close the faucet all the way. Feeling tears forming in your eyes you immediately glance down.
Your water broke.
You take a deep breath bracing your hands on the counter. You try not to let your emotions run too high but that's easier said than done. After you finish getting dressed you stare at your watch before deciding to give him a call. You wait patiently for him to pick up as you rub your stomach. It however keeps on ringing and heads straight to voicemail. Letting out a deep sigh you pause for a second deciding to check in with Lyla before calling him again.
âHey, Lyla is he busy right now? Actually donât answer that can you let him know that I'm trying to reach himâ Lyla quickly nods her head before assessing your features. âHoneybun why do you sound like thatâ You begin to rub your stomach as you let out a nervous laugh. âI-I think Iâm going into laborâ Lyla takes in a sharp breath before she starts jumping up and down.
âAhhh oh my gosh it's happening okay okay getting him right nowâ
You call him one more time in the hope that he answers but when it goes to voicemail again you decide to just leave him one. Dammit, maybe heâs really busy then. When it goes to voicemail again you decide to just leave him one.
âHey so I am a little hesitant to do this butâŚmy water broke and I'm having contractions..and you're the only person I thought to call-â You're cut off the second you feel another contraction sneaking up on you. âS-Sorry that was another contractionâŚif you want to come or tag along or whatever then you can I'm going to head to the ho-â You're cut off as the watch turns off. The time ran outâŚ
You grab everything that you need and check once again to make sure everything's ready. You forgot to put the car seat in the car so you have to carry it along with your bag. Quickly grabbing the blanket that Miguel made for her you take a quick glance at your place before heading out. Next time you'll be here you won't be alone anymore.
â˘Â°~°â˘
Miguel is so engrossed in his work that he misses the first notification on his watch. He's currently having a staring contest with the line of canon events making sure that everything is where it needs to be. Heâs been gone for so long that he just knows that he has a lot of catching up to do. It isn't until he feels the vibrations from his watch for the second time and Lyla pops up in front of him he knows that he the was to take his eyes away from the screens.
âIf I were you I would answer the phoneâ
âLyla I'm-â She cuts him off.
âJust answer the phone she's calling you dammitâ Miguel immediately looks at his watch but as soon as he looks it cuts out. He begins to walk away from the screens tapping away till he gets to his voicemails.Â
âŚâŚ..
If he's being honest he didn't even have to listen to the rest of the voicemail before he was out the door. The minute he heard the words âwater brokeâ his webs were already out and he was swinging to the nearest building.
Dammit if he knew it was you he would've answered the phone right away. He would drop everything for you it doesn't matter the time or the place when it comes to youâŚhe'll be there. He just hopes you haven't started driving yet. Although being in this kind of situation essentially brings back both the most painful yet most beautiful moments of his life but the mere fact that you called him must mean that you want him there...right?
â˘Â°~°â˘
Walking very slowly to your car you have the car seat in one hand and your hospital bag on your shoulder. You have to place down the car seat when you feel another contraction approaching. Resting your hands on your lower back you slightly stretch hoping to relieve some of that pain.Â
You close your eyes tightly for a brief second and when you open them you have to wipe away a stray tear. Maybe you shouldn't try to drive yourself in this state. Before you can even go to pick it up you immediately take note of the person you see jumping from roof to roof. It doesn't take you that long to realize that it's Miguel.
A small smile emits on your face as you watch him quickly make his way to you. He takes his both hands to cradle your face and his mask immediately disengages.Â
âAre you okay? Tell me how you are feeling, please. I came as fast as I canâ
You lean into his hands, relishing in his touch and the warmth of his skin. âI'm okay I-I didn't know if you were going to come or not but I'mâŚ.glad you're here. She's coming Miguel and I'm so scaredâ You hold onto his wrist as he leans his forehead on yours.
âYou're going to do so great you hear me. I'll be right there with you as long as you want meâ You nod along to his words; you really don't think you could do this alone.Â
âYes please don't leave me, I need you with me. I don't wanna do this aloneâ When you feel him lean back you finally open your eyes. He helps you get into the car before placing the car seat and your hospital bag in the back. For the whole ride, you focus on your breathing resting your hands on your stomach. Miguel encouragingly rubs his right hand over your thigh. Though you can't help but notice his right leg bouncing up and down. Dammit, you really hope this isn't too triggering for him.
Miguel checks you in at the hospital and waits until you're inside the room to race back outside to properly park the car. A few nurses walk into the room giving you the hospital clothes to change into and once youâre done they begin to check on the babyâs heartbeat to see if you have begun to dilate etc. They are asking you if this is your first child, how long have you been experiencing contractions when it started, and so on. Truthfully you have a hard time keeping up. Everything is happening so fast that you donât even know what to focus on. Thereâs a band around your stomach that allows the baby's heartbeat to echo throughout the room.
âIs it just you or are you expecting someone else to be in here with you?â You turn your head to the nurse and you slowly nod your head. âYeah heâs just parking the car but heâll be hereâ She gives you a warm smile before heading back to work.
â˘Â°~°â˘
Miguel practically runs out of the car the second he gets it in a proper parking place. He wasn't expecting you to have the baby so shortly after he woke from the coma. He's just glad we woke up before it happened. He wouldn't know what he would've possibly done if he managed to miss itâŚhe would've never forgiven himself for leaving you to deliver your baby on your own.
When he reaches back inside right as he's about to go into the room he is stopped by one of the nurses.
âWe can't just let anyone in there are you related to the patient in any way?â He tries not to roll his eyes at the nurse before he opens his mouth to respond.
âWell not exactly but-â
The nurse begins to wave her hand in dismissal. âThen you can't go in there you have to follow protocolâ
âI checked her in, what are you talking about? Just let me inâ He tries to step around her but she just follows him. She has about 5 seconds to move before he loses his cool; he doesn't have time for this.
âSir if you would just-â
âThe mother of my child is in there dammit let me throughâ His voice was stern and strained as he tried not to raise it. The nurse immediately closed her mouth, nodding her head before stepping aside so he could pass. He runs his fingers through his hair before walking into the room.Â
When he sees you there on the bed with your eyes closed and your hands resting on your stomach he gets an immediate sense of deja vu. Heâs been in this situation before and the first time he was here he wondered what in the world was he doing. He was quite literally taking another man's place and he wasnât prepared for it not one bit. But those years and those memories that he spent with his daughter he wouldnât trade them for the world.
Was it a risky thing to do? Yes.
Did he know at that point in time? No.
As he watches you he gets a sense of longing even though heâs been in this position before once again heâs taking another man's placeâŚ.Is this a bad thing to think of right now? Maybe. But he canât help but feel like an imposter again. One thing for certain is that he wants to be here and thereâs nothing that can change his mind about that.Â
He stands next to your bed and begins to gently stroke your hair itâs important that you remain calm. He knows how quickly things can change and he wants to make sure you and your baby make it out of this okay. When you finally look over at him you give him a weak smile and surprisingly he feels himself doing the same.
He takes his thumb to wipe away a stray tear before it has a chance to fall down your cheek. âHow are you feeling right now?â
âIâm feeling okay. Contractions are contractions butâŚ.turns out Iâm already 5 centimeters dilated so..â
âThat's good youâre doing so great you hear me. Let me know if you need anything water, if you want to walk around let me know and we could do itâ You nod eagerly at him before taking a deep breath. As time continues to pass by he remains by your side only leaving once to use the bathroom. To say heâs so proud of you would be an understatement heâs proud of you for being so calm he could only imagine the amount of pain you are going through. Â
Itâs around 1 am and heâs sitting on the couch eating the leftover food he got for you 5 hours ago and the food that you're also forcing him to eat. Since you hate that heâs not eating anything. The sound of the baby's heartbeat rings in his ear. Your contractions have gotten more frequent and a little more painful just based on the sounds that youâre making. He immediately looks up when the doctors come in. They begin to check on you and once your doctor whom he met all those weeks ago looks over at him and gives him a nod. He knows that is time.
â˘Â°~°â˘
âYou're fully dilated Mama I could see her head I think it's time for you to pushâ You immediately begin to cry and you reach out a hand for Miguel right as he begins walking up to you.
You focus all of your energy on pushing. You block out everything only focusing on the warmth of Miguelâs hand in yours. The sweat on your forehead is causing your hair to stick to your forehead. You push and push until you rest your head back on the bed in defeat. You relish in the silence for a second before you quickly open your eyes and look at your doctor.
âD-Did I do it where is she?â You peek and they begin to wipe her down before they prepare for the skin-to-skin contact. She has a full set of hair and there's blood and fluids all over her. But still, you canât hear her.
âMiguel whatâs-â
And then you hear it.
The minute her skin touches yours she begins to cry. You feel a kiss on the side of your head and you go to kiss her head as well. And just like that, your daughter was brought into this world.
â˘Â°~°â˘
Hours have passed, you've been cleaned up and your daughter lays beside you swaddled up in a blanket in the little basket. Miguel has stepped out to get you something to eat..again. When Miguel finally comes back you notice that one of his hands is behind his back. You give him a tired smile and a confused look before speaking.
âNow what took you so long?â You watch as he puts down the food before handing you a bouquet of roses and mint chocolate ice cream.
âWhatâs all this?â He shrugs his shoulders and begins to take out the food for you. âI know you like flowersâŚand I just wanted to get you somethingâ You take a sniff at the flowers before grabbing the food. For a minute you both stay in comfortable silence as you eat. But as you watch Miguel you notice that although his eyes are on his watch from time to time they dart over to your daughter. You can't imagine how this might feel for him. If you were unsure about where you guys stand then this should answer your question. He was in your delivery room watching you have a baby. He was with you from the moment you stepped foot in the hospital you had your baby at almost 3 am and he's been up with you. Not once did he doze off, not once did he complain about it. He was with you every step of the way. You really don't know what you would've done if he wasn't there and you'll be thanking him for the rest of your life.
You look over at him again and you catch him staring at your baby. When he realizes you caught him he quickly goes back to looking at his watch. Letting out a deep sigh you signal him over with the wave of your hand.
He stands on the left side of your bed immediately tucking some of your curls behind your ears. You say nothing as you look up at him with a smile.
âDo you want to hold her?âÂ
âNo, I-â You cut him off.
âI saw you staring at herâŚit's okay you can if you want toâ As you stared at him you could see the wheels turning in his head. Although you don't know too much about his past there's no doubt he's still hurting.
You place a gentle hand on his forearm giving him a squeeze of encouragement. âYou won't hurt her go ahead Miguelâ You watch as he takes a step forward but stops. You give him a nod and he slowly nods back before walking up slowly to her.Â
âIt's been so long since IâI don't wanna hurt herâ His voice suddenly went so soft and gentle almost feeling like a small touch against your ears. You watch as he stops directly in front of the basket staring down at her. He goes to wipe his hands on his jeans before slowly reaching in. You practically hold your breath until he comes in contact with her. Ever so gently you watch as he slowly begins to cradle her. She looks so small in his hands honestly you think he could hold her with one hand if he could.
Miguel slowly begins to rock as he stares down at her. âShe has your eyesâ You let out a small laugh as you begin to fiddle with your fingers. You pause as you remember that you have your camera in your bag. Quickly you lean over to reach in your bag and you grab it taking the picture before he notices. When the flash goes off he looks at you shaking his head before turning his attention back onto her.
As you sit there and watch them you canât help it as tears form in your eyes you rapidly blink them away before they can fall. He holds her longer than you expect he slowly continues to rock her as she stirs briefly. He holds her for a few more seconds before he goes to put her down.Â
âThank you for thatâ
You shake your head no. âYou donât have to thank me for anythingâ
â˘Â°~°â˘
Two days later you and Miguel are slowly making your way back into your apartment. Surprisingly when you left they worked on the elevator. Since youâve been here the elevator has been broken all those months struggling to walk up the stairs and they finallyâŚ.You watch silently as he begins to unlock your door with the car seat in the other hand and the hospital bag on his shoulder. He hasnât let you carry anything. Truthfully you havenât even lifted a finger apart from holding her. And honestly, you like the sight of him holding her and him justâŚuh being here? The sight of him catering to you once again makes you feel thingsâŚthings that you shouldnât feel at that. It makes you crave it, yearn for it even. Or maybe its just because it feels right?Â
You like this picture of what your little family would look like. You, your daughter, and Miguel. Of course, you want her to have the perfect childhood whatever that may look like coming from just you and her but you wouldn't mind doing this with Miguel. You wouldn't mind him being a part of it.
Your mind shuts off the second he pushes open the door. He holds the door open for you and he puts the carseat down in the living room. As you stare at her you realize that she's awake right now. You begin to wash your hands and get ready to change your clothes and unload your hospital bag.
You walk over to the bag and begin to take things out.Â
âHey, do you mind watching her real quick as IâActually it's fine youâve done more than enough already. Asking you to stay feels like a crime I mean I want you to stay but if you don't want to I mean that's fine too I'm not going to force you to stay or anything-â You pause as you feel a hand on your shoulder.Â
Miguel is towering over you as his right hand slowly grips onto yours pulling your hand slowly out of the bag. âStop it. I'm not going anywhere but you need to sit and relax. You just had a babyâŚ.I was planning on staying the night anywaysâ
You turn to face him. âThe night?â He nods. âOnly if you want-â You cut him off.
âYes,â He raises his eyebrows at your quick answer. âI want you to stayâ He nods and then glances down at your hand that he's still holding. You swallow nervously as he takes a step closer leaning his head down till his breath fans over your ears.Â
âWell if I'm going to stay you have to do as I sayâ Slowly you turn your head to face him and the minute you do you regret it. Your faces are now mere inches apart. âAnd what is that?â Your eyes dart down to his lips then back up to his eyes. He takes a deep breath closing his eyes before leaning back.
âSitâ
Before you even have the chance to respond you watch out the corner of your eyes a red web shooting out from his wrist and the sound of a chair scraping against the floor reaches your ear. He juts his head in the direction of the chair.
âBut-â
âSitâ You slowly sit down and watch as he turns his attention to your hospital bag. You glance over at your daughter when you hear her stirring a smile emits on your face as you begin to take her out making sure she's wrapped up in Miguel's blanket before sitting back down with her.Â
You watch as she begins to look over at Miguel. You know her vision isn't fully developed yet but you can't help but stare at the both of them. âAnd here is your mommy's best friend. When you get older I'll tell you about all of our adventures. And if he sticks aroundâŚ.then he could tell you tooâ You place a gentle kiss on her head and when you look up you catch Miguel staring.Â
âWhat, did I say something?â He says nothing as he shakes his head.
â˘Â°~°â˘
It's now late at night you've washed up and your daughter is sleeping in her room. You've checked if the baby monitor works maybe 5 times you made sure there's nothing in her crib you made sure that she has a bottle ready if needy because you know how much newborns can wake up in the middle of the night. You've pumped your milk already and done all of the things that you need to do on her first night home.
To say that you're nervous would be an understatement. You are pulled out of your thoughts when you hear the doorbell ring. Miguel went across to his place so he can take a shower as well. As you open the door you look in confusion as he has a sheet and a pillow in his hand.Â
âDon't tell me you plan on sleeping on the floor?â You step aside to let him in and he places his things on the couch.
âI'm sleeping on the couchâ You close the door before turning to look at him in confusion.
âYou could barely even fit, do you not remember when I used to patch you up on there? You had to sit with your legs stuck together so we could both fit on there. Just sleep on the bed with meâ He stares at you as he folds his hands across his chest. Silence fills the air as you both stare at each other. Dammit did you overstep? You weren't trying to, you just know that he would be more comfortable on the bed than the couch. And you would be more comfortableâŚ.
Not that you want him to sleep with you or anything, just that you guys still haven't talked and it would be easier if y'all did that in the same room.
âŚâŚ.
Who are you trying to convince? Deep down inside you know you want Miguel next to you. But the question is does he want that too?
âFine. Do you want to create a barrier or anything or-â
Your answer is immediate. âThat won't be necessaryâ He looks you up and down before giving you a curt nod. Yup, this totally won't be awkward at all. You both walk towards your room but you stop at your daughters room peaking your head in making sure she's okay. You decide to leave the door all the way open instead of partially. You hesitantly walk inside her room just checking on the baby monitor just in caseâŚ.
You walk out and you both step inside your room. Quickly you get into your bed trying to ignore the fact that Miguel will be spending the nightâŚ.in your roomâŚand in your bed. You immediately pull the covers all the way up under your chin.Â
He climbs in next to you but he doesn't get under the covers and he doesn't turn in your direction he lies down facing the ceiling with his feet crossed and his hands interlocked across his abdomen. Yep, this is totally not going to be awkwardâŚâŚ.You decide to close your eyes and try to let sleep take you but that's easier said than done when you have this man next to you.Â
Some time has passed but unfortunately, sleep does not take you. At least the moonlight is shining through your window so you donât have to be in complete darkness. Letting out a deep sigh you take a peek opening your eyes only to catch Miguel looking away.
âYou were watching me sleep?â
âI was notâ
âYou wereâ
Miguel lets out a sigh of his own before speaking. âI was not. I simply heard you sighing and I looked over to see what was wrongâ You narrow your eyes at him not quite sure if you believe him. âWell, you looking away immediately like you were caught doing something isnât helping your case. You nervous or something big guy?âÂ
âSays the one whoâs hiding under the coversâ
You begin to prop yourself up on your elbow, your curls falling over your shoulders in the process. âHeyâŚyou already know how you make me feelâ
He then turns on his side to face you. âAnd what is that?â You swallow nervously as you become face-to-face with him. âWell, you make me nervousâŚbut like in a good way you always have even before I knew about you know your secret identityâ
He stares at you for a second before asking another question. âAnd thatâs it..is that all how I make you feel?â You are taken aback by his sudden change of tone. Itâs lower kind of sultry but itâs laced with uncertainty as if he were hesitant to even ask you. Is he asking you what you think he isâŚ
You immediately begin to feel your nervousness increase so much to the point where you have to break eye contact with him.
You're playing with the ends of the sheet for a few seconds before you feel a hand cupping your chin and lifting your face till you're looking at him again.
âLook at meâ
As you stare at him you realize that this may be the night when all of your doubts and concerns about you and Miguelâs relationship can either be washed away or confirmed. This is so intimate here you both are lying on your bed about to talk about your feelings for each other. Yes, you were waiting for this moment since he last left your apartment but were you really ready for it? No.
â˘Â°~°â˘
Miguel's eyes dart between yours as he tries to figure out what to say next. He wasnât planning on doing this tonight at all. Truthfully he doesnât know what came over him but honestly, it was getting to a point where he couldnât hold back anymore he needed to knowâhe still needs to know. He has to know before he gets too attached and he doesnât mean to you he means to your baby girl. Heâs already long gone when it comes to you. That's one thing for sure but now you've brought your beautiful daughter into the world thereâs only a matter of time before he doesnât want to let go. Thereâs only a matter of time before he canât. Itâs been torture speaking to you and not knowing how you feel about him. Yes, you both said âI love youâ but it could've just been in the spur of the moment. He meant it but did you?
Well, thereâs only one way to find out.
He lowers his hand from your chin only to slide it across your face, the ends of his fingers resting in your hair.
âI love you and I've loved you for a long time. I loved you way before I even knew that I did and way before I was ready to admit itâŚand I want to be withâ He pauses searching your eyes for any sign of what might be confusion or maybe even resistance. Miguel honestly wouldn't know how he would place distance between the two of you. He's gotten a small glimpse of what his life would be like with you, him and your daughter. When he finally held your baby girl in his arms it all became oh so real.Â
He wants this life he really does but he wants it with you. All those times when he traveled damn near across the city to find the correct supermarket you were at. When he made sure you weren't going to the supermarket alone. Or in the beginning when he took it upon himself to watch over you every night you worked at the bar. Both during the days that you knew he was there and then the days that you didn't. Not to mention when you both pretended to be together at your yoga class. All these things made him realize just how much he wants to be the man in your life, your significant other, and the father to your child.Â
Dammit finally closing off his thoughts he realized just how loud the silence is and how painful it's starting to become. Fuck he just ruined-
âAnd I love you too Miguel I've been waiting for you to say something andâand I even tried to say something but I never found the right time to do so. Iâm so-â
He cuts you off because he knows exactly what you're going to say. âIf anyone should be sorry itâs me I wanted to say something I tried to but I couldâve tried harder I couldâve stayed but I didnât I leftâ He begins to run his thumb across your cheek deciding to take this opportunity he uses his hand to drag your face closer to his. âAnd do you want to be with me?â Miguel has to try and mask his nervousness before he ends up looking like a complete idiot.
âI do want to be with youâŚbut you know itâs me and my daughter now so sheâll be a big part of my life and I know Iâm probably reaching but she will remember you I know she will so if things ever go sour between us you can choose to walk out of my life but not out of hersâŚOkay?â
He nods his head immediately if he were you he would have a list of rules for him to follow when it comes to your daughter. But trust he meant it when he said he doesnât think he could ever leave you alone. Not talking to you, not being near you, or even not checking in to see how things are going feels like a crime. It would be torture for sure.
âI swear Iâll do right by you both you have my word and we could go at whatever pace works for you Iâm in no rushâ Â
âYeah that would be greatâŚsince you knowâ He watches you slowly before leaning forward to rest a kiss on your forehead. He stares as the moonlight dances on your features. Your faces are now mere inches apart. Now isnât the time for thisâŚ.He doesn't even have time to react when he sees you leaning forward. He sits there stunned when you place a kiss on the bridge of his nose.Â
He stares at you in amusement as you pull the sheets back under your chin.
âDo you think she'll be okay?â
âOkay with what sleeping?â
You nod your head. âIs she going to be okay all alone in her room? I mean I know the baby monitor is on but still what if she's crying while I'm asleep and I don't hear her?â You're worried he realizes and honestly, he sees himself in you especially when his daughter was born. He felt like a fish out of water when his daughter was a newborn.Â
âTrust me you'll wake up but if it makes you feel better if she wakes up we can bring her crib in hereâ
âI would like thatâ
âNow get some rest it's late I'll wake you up if anythingâ He watches as you nod your head before moving closer to him. Miguel doesn't hesitate to wrap an arm around you pulling you in more to the point where you're practically hugging his chest.
âI'm really glad that you're here with me and her. I don't know what I'd do without youâ He rests his chin on top of yours as he begins to play with your curls.Â
âAnd I don't know what I'd do without youâ
â˘Â°~°â˘
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With Much Love,
Cece
âThe story in which somebody gets to learn better, somebody gets to change their mind, somebody gets to see the world differentlyâis a beautiful shape for a story.â
â Neil Gaiman
If you see this post, please help for even $3 and most of all please share this so he has a bigger chance. His granddaughter only has him for a family, please help him and her.
âWhat did I tell you about distractions?â
âSeungcheol One Shot â
Pairing: Choi Seungcheol Ă Female Reader
Genre: second chance romance
Warning: mention of car crash
Word Count: 3.1K
Authorâs Note: This was totally impulsive, I randomly got this idea when I was returning back home after classes. Hope I didnât end it in a weird way. I had a playlist, I made for this. Do let me know your thoughts because I think racer Seungcheol is veryyyyyy hawt.
Happy reading :)
I took a deep breath, perfectly knowing what was coming for me. five years⌠freaking five years. Iâve been almost waiting for this day every second, anticipating it. But now, the time has come and here I am, inside my car. I took a deep breath, adjusting everything for once. âAre you ready?â
âI need to win. Iâve been waiting for this.â
Once I heard the gunfire, I started driving. I had one thing in my mind, that was to win. I need to win and show how he taught me well. All the memories started flooding inside my brain, âI hope when I will win next time, you would be there standing beside me and cheering up for meâ his words felt like echoing in my ears. I didnât let anything distract me, not even his memories.
âYou need to use all your focus on the road, press the accelerator, and then press break after some time, you can start drifting once you are stable enough.â I nodded at his words. âRacing is not very tough but not very easy, you need focusâ I kissed him quickly while he was talking, âAnd now thatâs a distraction Shashaâ he looked at me, I had his undivided attention, as if I was his everything for now. He leaned closer to me, he took my hand, and placed it on the steering wheel, âyou canât be distracted like thisâ he leaned closer, his one hand was on me, which was holding the steering wheel and another was the on the window, caging me between him.
âone distraction and you lose focus, which means you lose the raceâ With each word he was saying, he was leaning closer bit by bit, and the moment he mentioned losing the race, our noses almost touched. I was trying, to focus on him but I was getting distracted by how his hands were resting on mine on top of the steering wheel, âso,â he kissed me, once âDonâtâ he kissed me again âDoâ and again âthisâ he kissed me again and looked at me, âever againâ and he kissed me pushing me back. his hand was gripping my hand; his other hand which was on the window, reached my waist and pulled me closer to him, he groaned in between the kiss, asking for my permission for the tongue. My hand went to hold him, so that I donât fall back but he pulled me closer again.
âyouâre the only distraction I have right now but I want us in the podium, standing next to eachotherâ he smiled and kissed me again.
I was too focused on the track when this memory flooded in. I was hearing the commentary and keeping track of my and Seungcheolâs car subconsciously. I was feeling better every time I completed one lap. Everything reminded me of how I cheered for Seungcheol whenever he would complete one lap and then continue being ahead of others and finally win. One after another lap, I needed to win. I was putting all my trust in myself and so did my teammates.
âYou are learning way too fast. Youâre not supposed to learn this fast, how am I supposed to enjoy if you learn this fast Shashaâ I could hear him while he tried to match my pace. I couldnât blame him for this, I was always interested in bikes, cars, and speed but never got the chance to learn because my parents were always against it and after meeting Seungcheol, life got better.
Soon, I parked my bike near Seungcheolâs house and got down, I saw Seungcheol, almost throwing his helmet and walking towards me. I couldn't even take one more step when his hands reached for my neck and pulled me for a kiss. His body pressed towards me, and making me almost lean on my bike, but his other hand was on my bare waist, pulling him closer to him. âyouâre a fast learner, and pretty attractive in this racer outfitâ he looked at me, his breaths hitting my face, âdoesnât mean I would lose you to a random guy, with whom you seemed to have fun talking randomly while driving, what did I say about focus. He was expecting me to answer, which I gladly would, because watching this Seungcheol all worked up because he was jealous was fun. âyou need to use all your focus on-
Before I could complete the word âroadâ he kissed me, that was a rough kiss but who was I to complain, I was enjoying it. His fingers doing things to my bare waist, mental note, never wear a crop top then a leather jacket when I am with Seungcheol, he will drive me insane. âmeâ he said in between kiss and kissed me harder again. Whenever he would be jealous, he would make an excuse but at times he would just kiss me to let me know how jealous he gets at times.
âdonât do that again, I donât want you to get into an accident, loveâ
 âAre you saying this because youâre scared of me getting into an accident or jealous to control yourself when I talk to other guys while drivingâ I was teasing him, he knew it.
âI donât get jealous, because I am your boyfriend and youâre mine.â He came closer and decreased the distance between us again, I could feel his breaths again. I was ready to kiss him again but then, he stepped back, I was about to let out a breath because of disappointment, and then he put both of his hands on my cheeks right away and kissed me.
âI get jealous because I love youâ I smiled in between the kiss
The whole thing could be an amazing win. So, I needed to win.
Every time I completed a lap, the crowd cheer felt nice, all the cheering, everything felt very well deserved because of the hardwork I did till now. I didnât realize, it was already the last lap, and I overtook the only car which was infront of me, pressing the accelerator and the finish line was a few meters away, I could easily, reach the finish line in a few minutes. I was focused on everything, my focus was on the finish line, that one line, I wanted to complete, to show my parents that I wasnât some loser.
âYou are not meeting him again, thatâs it.â I looked at my dad in disbelief, had he not caught me driving with Seungcheol four days ago. I was grounded, being, twenty-three and almost having no freedom to do anything.
âBecause youâre leaving today in a few hours, everything is ready. You will go study.â
 âI am not leaving.â He gave me my flight tickets, âShasha,, donât you remember how you came injured one time and you lied about it, but come to think about it, you fell from a bikeâ I wasnât even injured badly, I got a few scratches. âI canât see you getting involved in any kind of accident because of racing, so youâre leaving. You canât do anythingâ and I had to leave him without words. Somewhere I knew how things could go downhill if I didnât agree with my dad. He could do any kind of harm to Seungcheol because he knew him and had connections all over the world.
But after I went to Switzerland I started driving, learning with all the hardwork along with my studies. I had one thing in my mind while leaving, and that was to keep the thing alive within myself which was gifted by Seungcheol, because we wonât be having contact anymore. I hated to leave but I had to.
âYou can never do anything in this, itâs something which you are doing under the influence of your boyfriend, and this is what you get.â
I always told myself, I could do everything I wanted to. One good thing that happened after dad sent me to Switzerland, was I got better and better in my driving. And driving on this racetrack was the result of my hardwork; representing one of the best teams in less than two years, was something I never thought of. I needed to prove to my parents today that it was all worth, racing was all worth the whole championship. I was all excited to win this race because the car which I overtook was long gone. Few more seconds and I would be standing on the podium.
âSeungcheolâs car crashing because-â I pressed the brakes, without thinking twice. My whole body went stiff, I couldnât focus on it anymore when I heard those three words âSeungcheolâs car crashingâ. My car, drifted but I couldnât reach the finish line, I got out of my car and ran towards Seungcheolâs car, making my heartbeat fast every second I was taking a step towards him.
I couldnât hold myself anymore and ran towards his car, not caring about other cars passing by at speed. I somehow opened the door of his car and tried pulling him out. Tears were falling constantly. It reminded me of how I was about to get into an accident once while learning and Seungcheol almost crying holding me tight; telling me how he canât lose me ot the thing he loves the most. It felt like I was getting a dĂŠjĂ vu except the fact, it was Seungcheol who actually got into a car crash.
 I couldnât wait for the paramedical team to come, why are they even late? âWHEREâS THE PARAMEDIC TEAM???â I was so annoyed, I couldnât understand, couldnât they see the car crash, and about the car crash I very well know who it could be.
Wish I was strong enough to pull him out âSeungcheolâ I was calling out his name, but there he was stuck inside the car. Soon the paramedic team arrived and pulled him out. I was feeling numb, everything I was feeling for the past few minutes faded away, all the excitement, nostalgic memories, the passion that I had to win. I wanted to be with him, I wanted to see him, on the podium together, celebrating our victory but didnât expect I would be meeting him like this.
Once the paramedic team took him towards the medical room on the stretcher, I was trying to calm myself down.
âIâm leaving with them. Over.â I took off my headset and almost threw it; not caring about anything else, the whole audience, my teammates, everyone was in shock, I could feel my boss threatening to kick me out of the team but I followed the paramedic team in tears.
I was sitting, while waiting for him to gain consciousness. With each passing second, I was worried about him, I was supposed to be worrying about my career, the race, the podium, my boss, my teammates how I let them down, and my own parents whom I wanted to show that I could do this, this is something I wanted to do. I was feeling messed up until I saw him gaining consciousness, I looked at him. He looked lost, âSeungcheolâ
âWhat are you doing here?â the shift in his voice, took me aback, I shouldâve expected this after what I did five years ago.
 âWhat do you mean?â I wiped my tears, trying to make my voice stable.
âYou were supposed to be in the podium, holding that trophyâ he tried sitting up, when I extended my hand to help him, he stopped me.
 âI didnât complete the race.â I looked at him.
âWhat were you thinking?â the authority he had while questioning to me, even my boss didnât talk to me like that âDid I teach you to drive like that and leave the race when you were about to win?â
âSeungcheol, I donât give a shit about the race when it comes to you.â I had it enough, how could he even ask that to me?
âDid I teach you THAT?â I almost flinched, when he raised his voice at me, he never did.
 âBut I couldnât leave you like thatâ The horror I felt a few minutes ago, flashed infront of my eyes; almost making me tear up. This was important for me but he was more important for me. I was learning everything because I wanted to meet him, this was the only way to meet him. I couldnât let myself down when I promised him that we would be standing beside each other on the podium after the race finishes.
âBut you left me.â his words were stern as if he had no emotions left for me. âI didnât want to, I had no other choice.â
âYou left me, Shasha. You LEFT me.â
 âI DIDNâT WANT TOâ and my tears were almost choking me. How do I explain to him, that I had no choice back then but to agree with whatever my father chose for me, that was the only thing I could do for us.
I was shaking my head in denial, I looked at him, five years⌠five years; I waited for him. I wanted to see him, smile at me or maybe I expected too much by hoping he would hug me as soon as he will see me and maybe tell me how much he missed me and how much he loved me. But it felt like I was shattering myself only by expecting too much from a guy whom I loved so dearly.
âYou were the reason, I could bring myself here, I had no other way. I wanted to prepare myself to face you but then, it looked like I was the only one missing you and hoping for a second chance.â He looked at me, I wanted him to pull me closer and wipe my tears.
He sat up facing me, âYou left me Shasha, nothing could change the fact.â
âI had no choice Seungcheol, why donât you understand that? All these years, I was longing for you, waiting for the right time to meet you, tell you everything and I didnât expect to meet you like this? in a fucking car crash where I could see my own life flashing right infront of meâ
âYou didnât have to lose the race for me?â
 âAnd it was okay to lose you?â I questioned him, if he thinks this race was important than him, then I needed to prove him wrong, nothing is more important than him.
âYou lost me once already. You were long gone even before I knew that you had left me. Tell me Shasha, did I really deserve that kind of treatment? I was so broken and there wasn't even a way to find my answers...I didn't know what questions to ask because we were so perfect back then. We were so happy and you just decided to break it all off without any explanation. I didn't need you to lose the race for me Shasha. I needed you to give me a chance.... or at least some answer. Do you have any idea the kind of self-deprecating thoughts I have had since then?â
 âI...I am so sorry Seungcheol. I donât know how to explain what happened. In the simplest of words,â I tried to not choke on my tears, trying to give him the explanation he deserves âMy parents found out about us that day I went back home. I was grounded for 4 days, without internet or phone or email someone who could have conveyed my message to you. Seungcheol I wanted to tell you but the next moment I was allowed to step out of the room was when my dad handed me the flight ticket. They sent me to another country and I had no way to contact you from the other side of the world. I am sorry but I really wanted to tell you at least once that I loved you then. I really did. But my dad could have ruined your career and I couldnât risk your chance at getting your happiness. You had worked so hard for it. So between my love and your career, I chose your happiness.â
âShasha, look at meâ his eyes softened and he pulled me to sit beside him on the bed.
âWhat did I tell you about distractions?â he took a pause âOne distraction and you lose focus, which means you lose the-
I kissed him, and let my tears fall down gracefully. The lingering feeling was still there, I wanted him to kiss me back to tell me that I wasnât the only one still in love with him. I was asking for a second chance for both of us. I pulled myself apart and looked at him. I couldnât read him, like I used to, there was a thick air between us, âIâm so sorry. I shouldnât have- he pulled me by my neck and kissed me.
I felt my lips getting wet, it was his tears. âI missed you, so much my love,â he said in between our kiss, and kissed me again, harder than earlier. We parted after, and we were almost out of breath, âSeungcheolâ my voice came out low, and in another blink, he was kissing me again. He kissed me like he wanted to remind me how he tasted and wanted me and how much he loved me. âI loved you so much, I was losing myself when you werenât with me. these five years, I yearned for you. I wanted you to come back to me, be mine again. But I couldnât find you anywhere until one day I saw you on the big screen, racing just like the way I taught you. I was ready to face you on the race track and today when I saw you, I had no idea how to react. You looked like mine but not mine to lose.â His words had those unspoken emotions, âIâ he said and looked at me, âWillâ he came closer, almost our breaths hitting âloveâ he kissed me âYouâ and another kiss âForeverâ and another kiss, which almost made me fall back, but he was quick to hold me by my waist and pull me closer. My hands went to his neck and he kissed me harder. I just knew, all these years it was hard for us not to break apart and stay in the hope of each otherâs love and that I would never have enough of Seungcheol.
I broke the kiss, âI love you so muchâ and kissed him again
âWhen life gives you a second chance, give it your best shot.â
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