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having quick changes of mind is something common in people with OSDD?

i sometimes oscillate, in big waves, through adoring my friends, to seeing other people more like pets. i wholeheartedly care for them, but somedays my opinions feel so different. even on those off-days, i think, "how did i like them so much? they are just [x], [y], or [z]."

i worry that those are my true opinions. but i do not think so.

i can't say for certain i'm really a system. i just want a name to call myself, i want to be able to say, 'this' is what my problem is, there are other people like me,

i want a word to describe myself, i want to be able to have something to explain the loneliness, the looping conversations in my head, the distance between me, the being, and it, the body.

please, i would like to talk with anybody.

sometimes i fear that it is i that is the "voice commenting on [one's] actions,"

i talk to this vague individual and describe to them everything, (and even describe it usually in the past tense).

i've often felt like i just came and replaced whoever was here before.