This Is Embarrassing - Tumblr Posts
first thing: lofiwithsunny's got some awesome lil soundcloud lofi loops
secondly, i think that 'positive' is a limiting and oftentimes misused word. a 'positive' experience is hard to define, as the nova effect states. something can seem horrible and bad, yet will still be good for you. yet a positive experience will also be defined as and seen as a good experience.
that's about it folks. basically i was writing and then wanted to fact check so i had to search for this one youtube short in which i learned about the nova effect, but i searched the wrong person's channel so once i finally found it i had forgotten completely what i was going for in the long run
Approximately 24 hours out from discovery and I can talk about it a little. There were two things I felt in particular that I was ashamed of:
Jealousy - this lasted for no more than 5 seconds, but it was still the first one I felt. Can you really hate someone if you're jealous of the person they're with, however fleeting that emotion is?
Doubt in my own experience - it hits so subtly, but like a freight train at the same time. If she likes him and wants to marry him, he can't be that bad, right? Was everything I felt and experienced real? Or was it al in my head? Did I invent it all to justify being a bad person?
It's been seven years, and I still don't trust my own brain.
He's getting married to someone I am about 3 or 4 degrees of separation from (depending on your definition).
It's not a full spiral, but there's definitely some things I need to talk to my therapist about. Some emotions that ranged from mild and controlled to shameful.
But generally, I think I'm doing ok. I'm currently eating my feelings at nearly 3am, but I've had worse nights.
Wei Wuxian you are embarrassing yourself and me
I swear y'all if I see ONE MORE landoscar x brocedes parallels edit I'm throwing my phone across the room I can't do this anymore
✨ rules: list your ten favorite characters from ten separate fandoms, then tag ten people!
gonna live life on the edge cause I don't KNOW ten people but thank u always @patolemus for tagging me kisses kisses RULES WERE MADE TO BE BROKEN!!!
It's a very even tie between Theo Raeken, Peter Hale, and Stiles Stilinski from Teen Wolf. Don't try to make me choose.
2. Stanford Pines from Gravity Falls. No one does it quite like him.
3. Thorin Oakenshield from The Hobbit (specifically the Peter Jackson trilogy because I'm uncultured). I have a cardboard cutout of him in my room. It annoys me that he's inaccurately tall.
4. Howard 'Howie' 'Chimney' Han from 9-1-1 (Chim... heart eyes emoji dreamy sigh delighted giggle uproarious laughter) (genuinely every other character is tied second but Athena, Bobby, Hen, and Karen especially are like glowing. blindingly.)
5. Oswald Cobblepot from Gotham (he's JUST LIKE ME FR.)
6. Q from the Daniel Craig James Bond films. GUGAURFDHJ
7. Rose Larkin from The Night Agent.
8. Hannibal Lecter from NBC's Hannibal.
9. Derek Morgan from Criminal Minds (or Garcia, my lawfully wedded wife.)
10. Mac Mcdonald from It's Always Sunny in Philidelphia (OH MY GOD HOW DID I FORGET ABOUT THIS SHOW. All of the gang is tied, actually.)
conclusion: white man apocalypse. genuinely what the frick.
the colorblind one 😈
HOW DID YOU FIND ME , HELLO⁉️⁉️
I just love aizawa so much hes jusst so sillyy :33 likee the silliess XD so soo silly :3 me whenn when me i amm whennn sillyy XD
*walk of shame* this is me migrating from the deceased twitter (was denissponytail) back into tumblr!
i'm arkie, 18yo brazilian, aroace agender (pronouns: it/its, ze/zim) lesbian. i like too many things to list them all off, but i tend to engage more in sports fandom. my most recent obsession has been tennis (regrettably), but i've liked figure skating for about 4 years, and eventually i venture into other sports asw ♡