Tired Of This Shit - Tumblr Posts - Page 2
Me, on roblox, talking with someone about how immortality work: so you can’t die but—
Them: yeah I get that part but your characters are immortal. That’s OP.
Me & my alt, dressed as Jonny & Nastya: Yes but it’s too a point, immortals die too. They’re not privileged assholes forever.
Breathing

My president Kim Nam Joon once said that “the struggle is to go insane whilst trying to be sane”.
Depression is a bitch guys. My confession today was supposed to be calm and collected. But I feel murderous and drugged. I'm tired of side effects and taking endless pills. For anxiety and for depression. Each of these pills have their own side effects and they sometimes clash and i am the person who suffers.
Starting 2020 i decided to go the right path and seek help. I was tired of crying myself to sleep. I had entertainment depression and we were more than acquainted, super close. In the beginning she would visit here and there but she started moving her clothes into house slowly. I mean im nice i kept being nice i will just keep quiet if she needs me to be quiet and sleep if that is what she wanted. I wish she didn't required that i eat so much at the expense of my budget but yeah. She stood by me. I met a few friends who wanted to be close to me and i decided to ditch her she never said anything at all. She just have me some space and allowed me to be myself.
So my friends only lasted a few fun weeks and i started missing depression my long time close friend. So i called her up and it turns out she never left. She was just here with me all along waiting. The girls i became friends with were clowns and so i came back home to my close buddy who had never left.
I have known her since i was in primary school maybe sometime around 10. My life was highly unstable with too much relocation and feelings of being unwanted and not being able to fit in. She welcomed me and gave me a place. Where i fit in and allowed me to wallow on my misery. She looks at me with eyes that are never filled with judgement and allows me to condemn myself and agrees with me whenever i feed myself lies, or maybe it's her talking, I have no idea. Sometimes I can not tell us apart.
In 2019 however she became too comfortable and or maybe i became too much for her to such an extent that she called her cousin from out of town to visit in my own house without my permission. So one day all of a sudden Anxiety introduced herself to me. I said but we have met before, i hate you and she just laughed and took a sit. She made herself comfortable in my own home and together they took so much space that i became a slave in my own house.
So every day i was struggling with making decisions about everything. I went to celebrate my birthday in a beautiful country in Asia and anxiety decided to tag along uninvited. The worst thing about her is that then she brings all her cousins and nasty friends to the party. Lack of confidence, low self esteem, self doubt, self image issues and then energy has left the chat, then sleep has left the chat, and then everything automatically looks and sounds off.
Well that became the most difficult year of my adulthood. Such that when 2020 came i was ready to start afresh. But then again I had no idea what 2020 had in store for the world I just wanted to seek help for myself and try to start afresh.
I started therapy and knocked of anxiety, said hello and bye to panic attacks, nightmares, weight gain and weight loss now hallucinations and dizziness.... it's a never ending story of my life filled with drama Sometimes i feel like the main actress of a sad movie and a high budget box office hit super sad movie.
Will the story ever end? How? I can't wait to find out, hopefully soon....
I hope to keep holding on until then...
😘😘😘😘💜💜✌✌✌
Well my confession today is kinda weird...
Im so jealous of seeing other people happy with their parents... u know. I was watching a BTS clip and V was talking to his dad so happy telling him he was on his way to Norway asking him if he was jealous .. i laughed & i swooned, i was genuinely happy for him cos in that moment he looked so happy and it spread through to me as well but then my laughter turned bitter very fast.
I want that too... the relationship with my father. To call him out of the blue and tell him that im doing this or im going there... that this happened to me and m excited... i want someone to share great news with whom i know is genuinely happy for me like my dad or my mum.
But then again my life is not a bed of roses... that is not portion... i do have good news but i have no one to celebrate with... and sadly i cry alone whether its good or bad news cos either way its sad 😭😭😭...
Its a sad life tbh🤷♀️🤷♀️🥱 m just hanging in here
I want to die, insomnia is widely misunderstood, people think it means you cant sleep, it means its incredibly hard to sleep, not impossible, maybe not widely misunderstood but misunderstood
People also say depression has an "empty" feeling, and thats exactly what I've been feeling! People sometimes think that depression means you cant be happy (me, I was uneducated ok!), but it doesn't, it means your more regularly sad and more regularly feeling empty, im so tired ima do sleep now, bye!

Also almighty french bread loaf
Unlimited femboy but no Phoenix or unlimited Phoenix but no femboy
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I met a human today. Humans are annoying. Never stepping out of my room again.
“I’m rather tired of the skinny bitches, douchebag boys, and homophobic adults that think I care about their opinion”
gender nonconforming nonbinary and hella gay. and tired of seeing others correct people who Actually Get My Gender Right anyways. also tired in general dawg i've had some long days
I’m ace, aro and tired
Reblog if you are also LGBT+ and tired