Transsex - Tumblr Posts
Been feeling like shit lately. I mean, more than usual. Thought I should draw a vent so at least something productive comes out of this.
Bottom dysphoria is, and has always been, my worst dysphoria. It makes me feel physically sick. Even with a prosthetic, I feel so incomplete. Can’t wait for phalloplasty.
I personally get very uncomfortable when people call me “transgender” instead of “transsexual” or “transsex”. I have nothing against non-transsexual trans people or people who don’t want to use the term to describe themselves, we all deserve to be called whatever label fits us. I get very angry at people who say that me calling myself “transsex” (which is the accurate term and my literal diagnosis) because I am uncomfortable with referring to myself as “transgender” is somehow toxic and transphobic.
Every trans person who wanna bring back “transsexual” instead of “transgender” are brave and great. Every trans person who wanna use “transsex” to underline that it isn’t sexuality or has nothing to do with gender roles, is great and lovely.
Redraw of my first post.
I’m angry again. I hate how my voice in real life sounds nothing like what it does in my head. I feel like a ten year old boy, and look like one two. Mean while all the other guys around me look fifteen. I know that I have it much better than most other transsex/ gender people, so I should probably stop complaining. I have a supportive family who’s willing to pay for my hrt and surgeries, I have a prosthetic and can use urinals/ male bathroom safely, and I pass almost one hundred percent of the time, even if it’s as someone much younger than me. I know I sound like a whiny teenage guy lmao.
This is less about my dysphoria and more about intrusive thoughts which often end up triggering my dysphoria. They often tell me that I don't deserve junk that I need to have in order to be happy and healthy, and constantly remind me that my current dick is fake. This often triggers my already shitty bottom dysphoria. My dysphoria often makes me feel that even after surgery, my dick will still be fake compared to that of cis guys.
Frankenstein’s Monster
Tried to draw some pastel gore.
The quality is kind of bad, sorry about that. Krita is not cooperating with me right now so I had to use a different program to animate it.
