Dysphoria Vent - Tumblr Posts
quick little art about dysmorphia and how i don’t know what i look like
Bottom dysphoria is, and has always been, my worst dysphoria. It makes me feel physically sick. Even with a prosthetic, I feel so incomplete. Can’t wait for phalloplasty.
Redraw of my first post.
I’m angry again. I hate how my voice in real life sounds nothing like what it does in my head. I feel like a ten year old boy, and look like one two. Mean while all the other guys around me look fifteen. I know that I have it much better than most other transsex/ gender people, so I should probably stop complaining. I have a supportive family who’s willing to pay for my hrt and surgeries, I have a prosthetic and can use urinals/ male bathroom safely, and I pass almost one hundred percent of the time, even if it’s as someone much younger than me. I know I sound like a whiny teenage guy lmao.
This is less about my dysphoria and more about intrusive thoughts which often end up triggering my dysphoria. They often tell me that I don't deserve junk that I need to have in order to be happy and healthy, and constantly remind me that my current dick is fake. This often triggers my already shitty bottom dysphoria. My dysphoria often makes me feel that even after surgery, my dick will still be fake compared to that of cis guys.
Frankenstein’s Monster
Tried to draw some pastel gore.
The quality is kind of bad, sorry about that. Krita is not cooperating with me right now so I had to use a different program to animate it.
I feel like I’m running out of time. The longer I wait to start my medical transition, the more dysphoric I get and the more hopeless I feel.
I’m in this photo and I don’t like it.
My biggest problem in my life right now is my bottom dysphoria. Relationship problems? Fuck it. Not where I want to be in my career? Fuck that, too. I would die happily if I could be post-op right now. I’m so fucking done with living with this.
I need testosterone.
Edit circa 2022: it’s alright guys I got my t now lol lessgo
Made a little comic. Sorry for being inactive for so long. More post coming soon.
Voice dysphoria be like
Another comic from your boy, this one’s a little sus. It’s been a long 2021.
can you cool transgenders put this in your pretty tiktok slideshows please i’ll even tell you my tiktok @ if you ask nicely
anyway i don’t think i can handle another “just wait a few more months”
"I just need to get through this week" and before you know it you've spent your whole youth just getting through this week
I'm filled with feelings cause y'know.
FUCK
Image description: A drawing of a monster that's similar to a human except it's arms and torso are covered in lumps under it's skin, it's eyes are empty spirals and the back of its head is drawn out into a point. It's drawn with sketchy lines and has it's right hand on its heart and is looking to the left, showing you it's profile. Around it's leg and left arm it has bloody bandages. Around its chest a bandage is wrapped so tight it's bending the ribs inwards.
It's ears are long and pointy and it has a wide smiled.
Its fingers are sharp and its hands are big, its fingertips, joints and nose are all scribbled over with black. It's skin is white and on its right side it's got a shadow of red behind it.
In the second image is the monster accompanied with the text "I GOT OUT"