I Hate Having Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria, It Makes Me So Stressed To The Point Where I Make Myself

i hate having rejection sensitive dysphoria, it makes me so stressed to the point where i make myself sick :/ it’s hard for me to self soothe, and i don’t like bothering other people with stuff like this, so i usually just deal with it, but it’s so stressful

Me normally watching a YouTube video: :)

The video being about someone with my deadname: what the fuckk??? ○_○

Tw: sh

Was just thinking about cutting open my chest and stomach and seeing the blood run out of me.

Really wanted to do it but I know taht I shouldn't so I tried finding reasons not to.

I couldn't find anything and cried into my hoodie and then BAM!

I remembered that I was wearing his t-shirt and it still smells like him and I just cuddled into it and cried and tried to calm myself.

It kinda worked, I didn't relapse yet

Sometimes I forget that I am a whole person. Like, with feelings and experiences.

I don't have to feel only one thing at a time. I am a complex person and I can feel as much and as deeply as I can.

Tw: sh

Sudden urge to cut myself open...

Blade beside me I'm just side eying it...

I want to feel anything else than this...

Ahhhhhhhhh!!!

I need to bite someone. Please? Just wanna nom nom on someone's arm or shoulder or leg to self regulate and to stim.

Just like a cat. Just to show that I trust them and feel comfortable