Am I On 5 Different Medications And Sick?

Am I on 5 different medications and sick?

Yes.

Am I on my way to my boyfriend to get black-out drunk?

Also yes.

My lifestyle is so healthy, yippee!!

When I texted him

I'm overcome by happiness when I think of you btw

And he answered with

You are overdramatic

That kinda hurt...

I texted him😭

I'm so weak, why can't I just not text him???

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry.

I didn't mean to be like that. I don't want to act this way.

I'm sorry I can't communicate. I'm sorry that I try and push you away. I'm sorry. I just want you with me.

I'm sorry that I can't say that to you. I'M SORRY.

I'm so fucking sorry please don't leave me?

I know I'm hard to love. I KNOW.

I don't want to be like this.

I promise I am trying to change.

I promise I can act normal.

Please?

Tw: mention of sh

I just relapsed again... 17 days go to waste but I guess it's fine...

I won't text him, no matter what.

I am scared. He'll get sick of me too.

I'm not going to text him first.

No matter what. I am not allowed to text him

Why don't I feel safe with my safe person anymore?

Why do I feel bad about sending them a text even tho a few weeks ago I would send them 10 audios in a row?

I miss them.