burned0utstar

Finns thoughts

vent blog | Tw: sh, ed, suicide, sa | trying to heal | asks open

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I'm Falling In Love With The Way It Hurts Again.

I'm falling in love with the way it hurts again.

I don't know if I ever am going to get better again.

So much fucked up shit happend to me and I just

CAN'T.

STOP.

REMEMBERING.

I am trying to start living again and it just doesn't work.

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burned0utstar

6 months ago

I miss him.

But not because I still love him, but because I could trust him. Because he made me feel safe.

He is the first and only person I ever told everything to.

And today when I had flashbacks and a panic attack, all I wanted was him to hold me.

Because to me he means safety and trust.

Still.

Even if he is not here anymore.

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burned0utstar

6 months ago

The only thing I was looking forward to is seeing him. But I don't know when that will even be.

Maybe never again.

Maybe I'm just dramatic.

But it feels like we'll never be together again...

I want to be back in his arms. I want to be with him.

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burned0utstar

6 months ago

To love him is to hurt.

The way I ache for him is unbearable and goes through time and space.

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burned0utstar

6 months ago

I wanted us to last.

I wanted to actually try and maybe even succeed.

I wanted to be with him.

I wanted to not be the only one who fell.

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burned0utstar

6 months ago

Tw: sh

Guess who just got broken up with and is on his way to the hospital to get stitches??

Yesss, you're right, it's meee!

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