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I Am Surprised That I Am Not Addicted From Cigarettes Yet Like I Would Be Smoking Five A Day For A Week
I am surprised that I am not addicted from cigarettes yet like I would be smoking five a day for a week or so and then have two months break....and the circle repeats itself
And there is no evidence of addiction at all ....
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Is it even worth it ?
Is trying worth anything ?
Is trying harder worth ?
Will trying change anything ?
Will any effort change anything ?
Probably not....
Then why try ?
Why put any kind of effort when other side does nothing in return ? When other side puts no fucking effort.
Is living worth it ?
Is death worth it ?
Is love worth it ?
Is anything worth anything ?
Again....too tired to cut
Especially when your younger cousins start asking: "do you have a husband? You are old enough to be married already."
I'm fucking 19 !
When I told them that I am not old enough to get married they changed their tactic.
"Then you should at least have a fiancΓ©."
Geez ... I've been single since day one.... find me a boyfriend then we will talk about fiancΓ©...
Trying to keep someone alive through someone else's chat is hard....
Especially when you need someone who will try as hard as you do ...
β οΈTw suicide/selfharm mention/ventβ οΈ
I am thinking about suicide again
I wanna die because.....
Why I wanna die ?
Maybe just because....
Maybe because I am useless
Maybe because I am not worthy
Maybe because I am not enough
Because I am nothing
Because I don't deserve to live....
I don't deserve to be loved, to love, to exist....
I am nothing and no one ever would love someone like me so why live if anyways I end up dead...
Why live if anyways I be annoying, useless, not worthy, not enough....
No one cares if I am alive or dead ....
No one cares if my arms are covered in cuts and scars....
As long as I have good grades
As long as people see me as a kind, good and clever person ....
No one cares and no one will .....
If so then why live ?
Why suffer so much when you can die
Why be alive and be called a problem
I don't want to live
I don't want to be alive
I want to die
To disappear and never come back