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... am I doing these right?
If not, it’s still fun anyways.
Now THAT is a fantastic point, thank you
Heathcliff seems like he’s committed some crimes does he not
The enter key on the keyboard is a house
Sorry let me just
WHEEZEEEEE
HYPERVENTILATING
IM NOT NORMALLLL
He has a heart on his chest's left side! A heart patch on his chest! HE HAS A HEART SHAPED PATCH!
A HEART SHAPED PATCH!!!
ON HIS CHEST'S LEFT SIDE!
glowsticks aren’t harmful
Take it from someone who has eaten one (by accident).
They taste funny, tangy, and don’t cause any problems. You could eat one yourself (please wash mouth our or eat smth afterwards) and be completely fine! The only that will suck is the aftertaste
I'm seeing a lot of takes that are very sure Donna is going to die in the last special. It sounds like madness to me, a complete impossibility. Like I get that they're teasing that she might, but of course they would. It's a big finale so it has to have huge stakes.
To have the Doctor reunited with his long-lost best friend after 15 years, to the delight of all (that's us), make it clear how much he loves and needs her, and then... kill her off? One of the reasons bringing Donna back was so wonderful was because it gave the opportunity to fix her ending. We're gonna swap that out for having her die young and not getting to see her daughter grow up or be around to protect her like she promised she would? In the 60th anniversary celebration? We're gonna have the Doctor lose what we've just established means the world to him and have her story end in tragedy (again)... in the 60th anniversary celebration? I just fully can't imagine that the plan for marking this milestone was for the Doctor to be defeated and fail to protect the person he just gave that earnest hand-kiss and "I will get you home". What, honestly, was the point if so?
And then, Ncuti is going to regenerate into a fresh new era (looking fine as fuck)... from a moment of agony and loss? I can't see it. Doesn't track for me.
They set it up so it's a villain he can't beat and maybe Donna dies! Sky-high stakes for a big anniversary special. In the 50th, they undid the destruction of Gallifrey and changed the whole story. Big specials are for beating impossible odds and shocking turnarounds when all seems lost!
Fourteen gets killed, of course, saving her. Then regenerates in the satisfaction of knowing his best friend is safe and with her family. Likelihood of him saying "I'm ready to go" feels high. Then we're off and running with a new Doctor who, mercifully, ISN'T immediately saddled with this new and awful trauma.
WELL , thats A way to save the world
"uhh I'm not homophobic, I just don't like Will 🙄"
Btch you were literally saying that L*nnie was a good father and only sane one in the family bffr!!
he’s in the dog house till further notice
hands in yo pockets, ping facing the world, flying kiss…..
Time blindness is the weirdest aspect of executive dysfunction and so weird as an experience to live with. It’s like you see the clock, the clock says 3pm, you look at the clock again and it’s 3:02, then 3:05, and then you look again and it’s 8pm and WHAT THE FUCK.
You don’t even need hyperfocus. But hyperfocus is like the Warp Speed:tm: version cause when that hits, it’s 3pm and then it’s the next day and why is the sun rising and when did i last eat and oh god i need to use the bathroom. And oh, also, you’re EXHAUSTED. The act of your brain tunnel visioning on something drains you (but that’s another topic).
Time blindness is…. having the general knowledge that today is Wednesday, and you need to do something on Thursday. Thursday is logically tomorrow, but the mysterious void of time is like ‘that’s like next week or something.’ It’s knowing you have to do something in three weeks on the 21st. And as the days creep closer, the 21st is stuck in a constant state of still being 3 weeks away, despite the fact it’s now tomorrow.
It’s wild. ADHD is literally living in a constant state of “There is Now. And there is Later.” and there’s no in between; no dates, no times; no hours, weeks, or months. It’s just Now and Later, and oh god why is is X o’clock already!?
LOVE YOURSELF 結 ‘Answer’ Concept Photos (S ver.) || 2018
So... the interaction with my dad is a good example of difficulties for conversation I think? I should add a disclaimer here that I’m not diagnosed with ADHD or autism, but I believe I may have one or both of these. I also believe that potentially both of my parents may have one or both of these things, but like I said, I haven’t been diagnosed and neither have they. Nevertheless, here is a post about struggling with communication stuff.
Basically, my dad went to the store to get things for a family lunch for tomorrow. I haven’t been feeling well all day (pretty sure it was something I ate), so I set a timer for about half an hour, figuring that if his text notifications woke me, I’d be ready to get up and help him move things in, and if he weren’t back within that time, he’d probably get back soonish, and took a nap.
Oh, boy, that is not what happened.
Yeah, no, for some reason, despite my ringer being on, neither his texts nor my alarm, which I set to a very loud song to make sure I would wake up, woke me. So I woke to the vibration of my alarm about two minutes after it was set to go off to less than pleased text messages about helping him to move stuff, which obviously I had missed by a good twenty minutes. I apologized for it, telling him that I hadn’t realized, and waited a bit. He didn’t respond, and I ended up drifting back to sleep. I know that was irresponsible of me, but I was just so exhausted.
This isn’t the first time something like this has happened, and I’ve always expressed my regret. I really don’t mean to sleep through things. Other times I’ve missed notifications because I was really busy. Regardless, I never just purposefully ignore my parents, and I really do try to be ready to help with unloading groceries from the car or whatever it is they need.
Anyway, this is the part about where taking notes for conversation takes place.
See, my dad has told me multiple times when I was younger not to give him any excuses, just to apologize and move on. So that’s what I’ve been doing. And it’s been hard because despite trying to catalogue what how he says he wants an apology or future interactions or whatever, clearly it doesn’t work that way. In my apology to him this time, I had just texted that I was sorry and hadn’t seen the messages. Later, when he had yelled at me to come downstairs, he demanded to know why I hadn’t elaborated, and I told him: because he said before that he didn’t want excuses.
To which he said he didn’t want excuses (I was correct), but that he wanted an explanation.
...yeah.
So I tried to give him the explanation, which was that I had been laying down because I wasn’t feeling well, etc. etc. that I already wrote. And he was less than understanding. Obviously, I don’t want to lie to him, but he doesn’t understand that when I say, “I don’t feel well,” it doesn’t mean, “oh, no, I stubbed my toe, time for me to be melodramatic.” Usually, it means, “I have felt like I am one belly jolt away from throwing up my entire guts, and I may or may not be getting a migraine.” Unfortunately, I don’t feel well often, and I suppose he thinks that I don’t feel well a little too often. Rest is really the best way for me to feel better, but he disagrees. So I told him the truth, and it only made him more upset. (I always wonder what he would want me to have been doing instead??? Like willfully ignoring him???)
Anyway, point of this is, that even when you think you have taken enough notes on interaction with someone, it’s best to take a few more. I don’t know what would have made it up in this scenario. Obviously, it would have been best if I hadn’t fallen asleep, so that’s on me, but it doesn’t change the fact that his reaction really hurts, scares me, and makes me anxious about sleeping in general, which is something I have issues with. Additionally, it hurts because it means that despite my explanations over the years that I’m not purposefully ignoring him or my mother, that he still thinks I’m just seeing his messages and going, “haha fuck you,” and ignoring him. Which is not the case.
Interacting with people is hard. And sometimes... they just don’t interact well. I’m still trying to figure out a way to explain everything to him, not just for this time but for the future, and I hope I can.
I don’t know what would have made this interaction better other than the not being asleep parts. I tried to do everything he has said to do when I get in trouble in the past (apologize, no excuses, short and to the point, etc.), but apparently, I’m not going to the family lunch tomorrow. Not my choice.
So, to my neurodivergent folk or anyone who struggles with conversations in general, I write this partially to prepare you about how your note taking won’t always work but also because... honestly? Sometimes there’s only so much you can do. Yes, in this case as with other instances, I’ve made a lot of mistakes. There were things I could have done better, as I’ve said. I’m not denying that I am in the wrong for that. And even though I don’t believe it’s wrong to have a monotone voice, I know that it didn’t help my situation that when my parents get mad at me, I can’t seem to get out of it, which I guess makes me sound disinterested or insincere in my apology.
But it doesn’t mean I’m the only one who could have done better. My father’s refusal to acknowledge that I’m not intentionally trying to piss him off, that I really am feeling sick today (and every time I tell him I am), and that I actually do try to be helpful, especially with this task, doesn’t just hurt me. It also hurts him.
And I know that plenty of kids fake sick or exaggerate illness, but you know what? You know whether your kid is like that. My dad has known me for almost 19 years, and even though there have been times that I have felt worse than others, it doesn’t take away from the fact that if I say I don’t feel well, I mean it. It’s not the difference between a scratch and a big illness, it’s the difference between if-I-don’t-rest-now-this-is-going-to-be-a-migraine and I-would-stand-up-if-I-could-but-I-can’t paired with goodbye-breakfast-have-fun-in-the-sewers and goodness knows what else. You know your kid, so please don’t project your own behaviors at that age or currently on them.
So if you are like me, or if you are like my father, please take this to heart. With every argument, there’s hurt on both sides, sometimes for different reasons, but in my experience, there are ways to address most of the issues so long as both parties are willing to.
And if there were any doubt, I actually did throw up. I threw up after laying on the bathroom floor desperately trying not to. So I guess in the end, it’s probably better that I’m not going to see any family members tomorrow in case I’m actually sick with illness and not food poisoning.
Everyone look at how nice my family town is when it snows! ☃︎⋆꙳•❅*ִ
I can't find a good angst playlist with the vibes I'm looking for!!!
Welp time for playlist #148 on Spotify!
✨✨I made another one guys!! ✨✨(and this time I let the video publish before sticking it up here, so yeah).
For the unaquainted, this is the official start of my series: Turning JJBA characters into WOF dragons. I did a beta run two weeks ago with Shizuka Joestar, but now we're actually hitting up the main JoJos. I'm going to start with each protagonist in order, then I'll cycle back with either JoBros or JoVillains (JoFoes? yeah, i think that's the actual name for them).
I feel like Flameback (Jonathan) turned out worse than Moonflower (Shizuka) in some aspects, and better in others. Like, I think the angle is more unique and it's got a more "realistic background" (i watercolored some mountains and made the sky orange and called it a day), but I feel like I could have made the flame motif stronger (instead of being this nice, but basic gold gradient). The Joestar birthmark being a part of the lineart/not being colored is a mistake. Will I actually color it next time? Maybe! Maybe not! Also, idk if i mentioned this in the Shizuka post, but her Joestar mark is specifically on her flank because one: i thought of it more as of a tattoo she's gotten to "honor her Joestar heritage/feel like she can properly live up to one more") and two: she was facing the right.
Okay, that's all the info I'm delivering now, so see you next time.
Tony : I'm so happy, I could kiss you!
Steve : Um...Neat.
*later*
Steve, lying face down on his bed : I said "Neat," Bucky. Who the fuck says neat these days? It's not neat to say neat but I said it anyways because I'm fucking stupid.
Bucky, reading a book : Don't beat yourself up too much, Steve. Everyone gets nervous sometimes. Remember what I did when Sam confessed his love for me?
Steve : Didn't you thank him ?
Bucky : *closes the book and looks at the ceiling* I fucking thanked him.