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But darling, you may drench the heart with alcohol and it will still feel what you prevent it to feel when you're sober.
The heart may have drunken episodes darling but it will always remember...
It will always remember the things that made it fly in its hazy state of drunkenness.
Maybe, there are things in this universe that you can escape. Love isn't one of them. For it will always rise and persist from every sidewalk crack that you pass by.
So darling stop denying the heart its freedom. Just let it feel what it truly feels.
The heart remembers
(Sidewalk cracks)
Katie, 21:00
Now that I've told you,
Told you what you mean
To me
I can go...
Go where my pains walk
A one way street
Disappearing into
The dark undertow
Of swirling emotions
That drag me below
I can't swim
To the surface
For the weight
Tied around my feet
Is too heavy
I can't speak
For the lump
In my throat
Is bigger
Than my fear
Of being lost
With the miasma
Surrounding me
I am glad
I was bestowed
With a chance
To tell you
Something
I felt a long time ago
I love you
Now that you know
Heard from my lips
That you mean
The universe to me
I can go
Flee with the night
To somewhere
Your heart
Cannot follow
For it's cold
And my heart
Freezes December over
As it dies
With the sun
I can't warm you
So stay
Stay right here
Where the stars shine down
On your face
And wrap you
With the sweet
Confessions of love
I bravely spilled
Oh, I hope
What we had is enough
To sustain you
Until fate decides
To send me home again
To you...
-Where the stars shine down,
Katie, 23:15
What am I supposed to say? Stay? How would I make it sound like I am not begging? My love, I don't know how. I'm not good at this. So if you please, just sit with me. But if you want to leave, just go. Right now. Run far away. Don't look back so you won't see me breaking gently and change your mind. The worst that you can do is come back not because you love me but because you're sorry. In the name of the love that I bravely professed and all the poems that I ran in my head, leave me with my pride and sanity intact.
-If you have to leave...
Katie, 16:00
I believe in the stars
In the wishes casted
At every shore
I ever walked
It's a little risky
To let them-
Stones and dust hold
My dreams
But I trust them
For one thing
They can fall
From miles and miles
To the ground
Just to see me smile
Unlike him
Who won't even care
To hear me pray
From dawn to dusk
For a love
That will never last!
-I believe in the stars,
Katie, 14:00
Back in the day
My heart
Which was badly broken,
It was fine
With the world
Ending in 2012
Now I'm glad it didn't
I'm glad the world
Didn't stop spinning
Right then and there
I'm glad time kept moving
Or our paths would not cross
And I wouldn't have
Fallen in love
With you...
-If the world ended in 2012,
Katie, 24:00
If I can transform
Into a liquid
I want to be the tears
That fall from your eyes
And wash away
Traces of loneliness
From your heart
So you can smile again
After I'm gone
I am willing to disappear
From your world
If that's what it takes
For you to be happy
Forever
(I just want to love you right.)
-Transform into a tear,
Katie, 24:30
Falling in love was never our plan. But all the forces of the universe conspired.
Katie, 11: 15
I am made
To coexist
With love
And coffee beans
Love and coffee beans,
Katie, 18:45
He,
He encompasses all the dreams
That I want to come true
-All the dreams,
Katie, 20:45
He
Does he give you second thoughts
About everything you've known
Love
Time
Chances
Does he make your heart
Clash
With your mind
While sending
Powerful electricity
Through your spine
When you touch
Does the world
Suddenly stops
Does he make you mad
Then swallow
Your pride
Does he drive you crazy
Thinking of him
In the middle of the night
Does he make you want to flee
And at the same time
Stay
In love with him
Does he make you change your mind?
If he does, breathe him in
All of him
Fill your lungs with his soothing ironies
Hold him
For nothing will ever look
Catastrophic
Yet beautiful
Than the one destined
To rearrange the chaos
In your head
Realign your path
Feed your heart
With tales
That will make it
Repair
Its broken wings
And resurrect
The child
The innocent child in you
Who believes
In happy endings!
-Soothing ironies,
Katie, 20:00
Thank you for setting me free. For choosing to let go. For giving up on me. You know how I broke the moment your footsteps died in the hall. Tore my heart out when the truth that we’re finally over dawned. I was desperate, crying for hours over a love I thought would last. For weeks I kept imploring the gods. In grief, I was begging you to come back.
Then suddenly, I was no longer grieving. Suddenly, I was no longer pained. Suddenly, I was no longer mumbling your name.
For in the darkness, he found me. Brave as Lochinvar, he took my hand. Suddenly, I am looking at the sunset. Suddenly, I notice his eyes are golden. Suddenly he becomes my one and only. Suddenly, he means the world to me.
-He means the world to me,
Katie, 20:00