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I'm too cold to be alive.

-katie, 19:00

If I will allow

My lips

To speak

The words

I should have spoken

Long ago

You would cry

You would try

To take me into

Your arms

And console

My anguished soul

You would rub my back

Kiss my forehead

After that

You would be proud

Of how

I managed

To take the pen

And wrote

A better storyline

For myself

-better storyline,

Katie, 19:50

In another universe

I hope we already met

That we spend time

Talking,

Laughing,

Watching the sunset

I wonder if in that universe

I write poems for you

And if I do

I hope you love them so

For in this universe,

I do write for you

A lot

But my words just wither

In the corner

Frozen in time

Concealed like secrets

Never meant to be unraveled

Destined to stay in the darkness

In this universe,

I am just a writer

Who beholds you with a sigh

Suppress a cry

As I immortalize

Your heart that has always belonged

To someone

In another universe....

Someone in another universe ,

Katie, 24:00

Sometimes my heart is empty

Sometimes it's full of you

And all the moments in between

I cling into a string

With every gust of wind

Gently, I swing

In my mind I hear you sing

And I am lost

Between the lyrics

Oh you are

A song I can't forget

You're stuck

Deep inside my head

A persisting memory

Your voice resounds

I am lost

Between the emotions you evoke

When my heart is empty

You fill it up again

With feelings more profound

Than the last one it kept

The austerity

Of the lines you sing to me

Stops me from running

Mesmerized by the melody

I am not

The kind of person

Who admires

Singers

And all their poignant lines

But for you

I will make an exemption

For you always fill me

With waves of euphoria

That I forget

The chaos in my head

For you silence

The howlings from the dead

I buried beneath the sands of time

Oh you fill me

With your spilling pieces

And yet

I feel empty

Like I can't get enough

So I spread

Myself like a giant sponge

I'll absorb you

All of you

Until every song you sing

Becomes one

With my poetry

-One with my poetry,

Katie, 22:30

What if one day, we wake up and find out that everything we ever had, the laughter shared, the late night talks, even the times when we're too dazed to realize we're falling in love weren't real?That the hand I held in mine, the face that looked divine, the kiss that was more intoxicating than wine were just products of an illusion staged to make us believe there is love? What if there is no love in reality? That the web of magical emotions we think we feel is actually a concept conceived in another universe; a concept too complex to be derived in ours? Would you still be brave to look me in the eyes? And if I won't be able to utter a word would you still trust in promises? Or you would just fall asleep and dream with me. Because in dreams, it is easier to believe in anything. There's no need of a hologram projector to show us an illusion of love. I need to know baby. Love for me is just another theory. Like singularity, white holes and black holes. I would like to know if it's something you would give your time to prove. So we can decide right now whether or not our hearts have a place to call home.

-A theory to prove,

Katie, 20:15

If you can dance

With my pen

As gently

As you do

In my imagination

Be my muse

Stain my notes

For eternity

(if it's not asking too much)

-be my muse, katie, 27th of February 2020

But I loved you,

My darling

When I tied

Your shoelaces

In an effort

To hold

Your pieces intact

In my hands

While the world around you

Didn't seem to care

If you break

Or lose yourself

To the night

I was there

Oh I wish

Your heart

Can remember

Me and that moment

Before February ends...

-that moment before February,

katie, 19:35

I wish life

Would give me

Coffee beans

Instead of lemons...

-katie, 21:00

It's silly.

But it feels like we only wake up so we won't break the hearts of the ones we love.

Katie, 18:00

8th ❤

I am not writing enough. I call myself a writer but don't stain my notes with words as much as I ought to. And tonight, I sit on my bed and stare blankly at the empty piece of paper lying cold on my coffee table. I write the word "He" and stop; unsure if I am now ready to pour out my thoughts. I let out a sigh. If I let my guards down, there are lots of things I can associate with the word "He".

//

"He"

Is what wakes me up every morning, an alarm clock screaming. The light that bathe me with euphoric thoughts that come rushing in a long queue the moment I stir from slumber.

//

"He"

Is the aroma of coffee that fills my head, reminding me of the last time we're in my favorite coffee shop, listening to songs, trying hard to ignore the rhythm of our hearts and the spark we created when our hands accidentally touched.

//

"He"

Is the good morning texts I get, those innocent messages I refuse to read because I am scared to uncover something beneath; say a gift I am not prepared to unwrap but dying to have.

//

"He"

Is the movies I watch, the songs I hum and listen to, the gentle chuckles that resound in my head, stirring emotions in me that are long dead.

//

"He"

Is what paints a smile on my lips, the reason why I beam in the midst of a curious crowd. It's insane sometimes, but I feel like floating on cloud nine.

//

"He"

Is the thread that ties me to sanity. The only thing that makes sense when all I can see is chaos and the cacophony is just too loud for me to contain.

//

"He"

Is the journey and the destination. The good night texts that pop on the screen of my cellphone the moment I get home.

//

"He"

Is the home and the love I run away from, thinking I may only be dreaming because reality could not possibly be this mirthful .

//

"He"

(In spite of myself) is the arms I wish would welcome me when I am done running at the end of the day.

//

-He,

Katie, 01:30

You are the blessing I didn't ask for but were given;

You are the miracle I didn't pray for but happened.

You happened. And my love, I've become my best version. Thank you for calming my storm. Now everything in me is pacific. Thank you for taming my demons. Now they kneel and wear golden halos.

Since you happened, the lips that refused to pray started uttering praises to God who made this blissful encounter possible.

Because you happened, I lift my hands up above, call out in the voice of a Seraphim as I feel my wings growing...

Wings that were severed when I-

I renounced my faith in love.

You happened, so I regained everything I ever lost from fear and doubt and wrath.

You are the gift I didn't ask for but were bestowed;

You are the guardian I didn't pray for but were sent to bring me home...

You were sent TO BE my HOME.

-god sent, katie

7th of March 2020 @23:30

"When the road becomes lonely

And the songs you hum

Become the teardrops

That flow between

The lines of your palms

To your poems

And you don't feel

Like you belong

Anywhere anymore

Remember me

Remember the love

We have known

And come back

My heart is always waiting

For you to claim it

Come back to my arms

For I am your hiding place

Your refuge

Your home"

-your hiding place,

Katie, 23:00

Billions of stars scattered

None outshines

Your eyes

Baby they shine

Brightly tonight

As I-

Once again fall

In love

With the beautiful soul

I glimpse

From your retinas

-glimpse from your retinas,

-katie, 01:30

Be the friend you needed when you were lost and broken.

@treisyyy

-katie, 16:00

I want to escape my mind

Before it kills me

;

-sometimes it's the worst place to be in,

katie, 21:00

My heart is a place

Where pain has resided

A barren space

Where violence was incited

There have been

Broken fragments inside it

Scattered all around

So everyone

Who entered

Tripped and fell

And get bruised

Ran away

To seek shelter

Somewhere safe

And warmer

Than the winter

That engulfed me

For...

I was cursed

To make anyone

Who loves me suffer

For I'm not whole

Been in pieces for so long

Then you came

Like a silver lining

Who walked in

Exuding light

That sent worries

Out the door

You touched my skin

That has long been torn

As though you can heal

My still bleeding wounds

You did seal them

With your light caresses

Now they're closing

Oh the process

Is so breathtaking

You knocked on my heart

For oft, I hesitated

If I'll let you in

You'll get hurt

Or wounded

May trip against

My unpolished sides

May collide

With the unspeakable

Darkness I hide

You smiled

And took my hand

Severed the barricades

I've put to separate

Myself from you

You said you don't need it

Trusting your words

I unlocked my heart

So you could enter

And...

To my surprise

You started taming

My storm

Like you knew it by name

I was never a halcyon sea

But you calmed my waves

With songs

I've never heard before

Love, you enthralled me

By the way you closed

My wounds

Called every piece of me

Claimed them as yours

So they slowly gravitated

Like pieces of a puzzle

Finally falling into place

Now I'm whole

And will no longer hurt

For today...

Someone like you came

To meet me

At my worst

Made me better

As you continuously shower

Me with love

Made me believe

My pieces can't pierce

Anyone who gets near

For I am not broken

I am whole

And suddenly.....

I feel whole

For I am loved

And I am home

-a story to feed a starving heart, katie

But we're under

The same blue sky

You and I

Illuminated

By the same stars

At night

Don't think

Distance

Is keeping us

Apart

For we're entangled

In an unbreakable

Embrace

So close your eyes

Feel me

Move with the earth

Beneath you

I'm with you

Always a part of you

Even if you're not

Physically here

We're together

Inextricably linked

To a common destiny

-love in the time of quarantine,

katie, 23rd of March 2020

I don't look at the night sky

If I want to see the stars

I'll stare at your photograph

For they're there

Sparkling in your eyes

(for Jeffry)

-photograph, katie (ana)