In Memoriam - Tumblr Posts

Saul Leiter passed away last night. It's kind of crazy to hear that since he's one of my favorites. I'm glad to see a personal article about Saul on the NYT Lens Blog from Tony Cenicola, his former assistant. DVDs for Tomas Leach's documentary about Saul, In No Great Hurry, start shipping worldwide in two days. I guess I'll be buying a copy of that and dedicating my next set of NYC color photos to Mr. Leiter.

Now you're just somebody that I used to know

This is a little thing I made as a memorial to Toriyama-sensei following his recent passing. 🕯️🙏

I hope he continues to create great stories in the afterlife, because I'd love to enjoy them the day I get to travel there too. 📚 Thank you for all the years of joy you brought us through all your wonderful worlds and characters, Toriyama-sensei, we will never forget and will never stop honoring and loving your art! Cha-La Head-Cha-La! ✊✨

P.S. The verses of "Cha-La Head-Cha-La" that I included in the artwork are in Spanish because that's how I listened to DBZ growing up, so writing them in English wouldn't mean as much to me. 💖 The pencil also says "Legend" in Spanish because I think he has certainly earned the title! ✍🔥

(I honestly owe SO MUCH to Toriyama-sensei... my art wouldn't be the same without him!).

70 years ago today, on the 6th of August, 1945 - 8:15 Hiroshima:

“In less than one second, the fireball had expanded to 900 feet. The blast wave shattered windows for a distance of ten miles and was felt as far away as 37 miles. Over two-thirds of Hiroshima’s buildings were demolished. The hundreds of fires, ignited by the thermal pulse, combined to produce a firestorm that had incinerated everything within about 4.4 miles of ground zero.

To the crew of the Enola Gay, Hiroshima had disappeared under a thick, churning foam of flames and smoke. The co-pilot, Captain Robert Lewis, commented, “My God, what have we done?”

http://www.hiroshima-remembered.com/history/hiroshima/page9.html

“Japan, the one country to have suffered nuclear attack, has taken the lead in opposing nuclear weapons. I strongly urge you to keep it up.” -Dalai Lama

Thank you Professor for Shoshana Zuboff, Andrea Dworkin, Simone de Beauvoir, Simone Weil, Hannah Arendt and Giorgio Agamben. You will be deeply missed, supervisor of my future Phd on the Philosophy of Law, always extremely supportive and kind. You taught me how it is important to search beauty in this world and surround yourself by it.

"In gratitude to all the animals that have served"

Paying our respects. My town has a small war memorial for all the dogs, horses, pigeons and other animals caught in wars they had nothing to do with.

Local children have painted stones and made little stick crosses tied with woollen poppies.

For Julie

I got word today that an old friend just died of cancer - and not just an old friend, an old girlfriend. At the time, those closest to us thought we'd end up marrying, but in the end it was not meant to be.

She saw me, and experienced me, at my absolutely worst; in a spiral of self-destruction in the years before I finally got sober. I put her through hell, and yet she was always there for me.

I will be forever grateful for the joy that she brought me, and the fact I was able to set things right with her years after we broke up. I was given the opportunity to make amends for the wrongs I did, and the inferior man I'd been to her.

You were taken far too soon, sweet girl. Fly free ❤️

And now his watch is ended, Peter Vaughan 1921-2016

“𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜 𝐬𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞. 𝐈 𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐢𝐦 𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐨𝐟 𝐚 𝐝𝐨𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚 𝐡𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐛𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐡. 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐢𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫. 𝐈 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠. 𝐇𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐢𝐚𝐧𝐨. 𝐇𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐭. 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐡𝐢𝐦 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐞. 𝐈 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐠𝐨 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐞 𝐩𝐮𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐧 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐠.” Lisa Marie Presley duets with her father in 2012. In memory of Lisa Marie… February 1st, 1968 - January 12th, 2023 ❤

Arwen’s Dream gown

1. Circe Offering the Cup to Ulysses by John William Waterhouse (1891) 2. In Memoriam by Evelyn De Morgan (circa 1898)

THIS ONE’S FOR YOU ELLWOOD!! 🔥🔥🔥 I KNOW YOU’RE A KEATS FAN!!!! 🗣️🗣️🗣️

Please reblog this I had to draw historically accurate military uniforms and I’m still not sure if this is the correct Light Brigade one 🐎

(A study of La Belle Dame Sans Merci)

FUNDRAISING CAMPAIGN IN HONOUR OF MY SISTER’S BIRTHDAY!

Today, July 3, would have been my sister Mariam’s 22nd birthday. She was with my father in Gaza and went missing in October, with no one being able to locate her since. We consider her one of the many beautiful martyrs that became buried under the rubble and are unable to be properly accounted for.

Mariam was the most important person in my life, I miss her every second of every day and it is important for me to use the love I will always have for her into helping the people I can right now.

To honour her memory this year I am hoping to raise money for 3 specific gofundme campaigns:

Dina and her children (CAD)

Noor and Alaa (euro)

Ayman and his family (USD)

These are all fundraisers with very few donations, and ones I have personal connections with. From today until July 31, I am hoping to raise as much money for them in Mariam’s memory.

General Donation Overview:

I use ‘€’ for the currency in this post, but it is the same equivalent for $ USD/CAD (€25 is $25 etc) depending on what gofundme you donate to

Make sure to send your proof of donation directly to me (through asks or messages) and make sure the date, amount and gfm are visible. If applicable, please also send me a mailing name/address

Every TWENTIETH (20th) donor will receive a handmade Palestine themed item (must be comfortable giving a mailing name/address)

For every €1,000 raised I will donate €20 to each fundraiser (all I can afford right now, but amount is subject to change as my financial situation changes this month!)

Specific Donation Amount Rewards:

€5-24 donation - you will have my never ending love and support :)

€25 donation - you will receive all of the above AND I will send you a handwritten message in a card with this medieval Palestine flag print design on it from @werewolf-transgenderism! (support Miles on inprnt here!!)

To receive this you will need to be comfortable send a mailing name/address for the envelope. If you want a different name/something specific in the card let me know! (I will send anywhere)

€50 donation - you will receive all of the above AND be entered to a brand new copy of either the book Men in the Sun by Ghassan Kanafani or The Butterfly's Burden by Mahmoud Darwish

2 winners will be chosen, book choice will be first come first serve for the winners. You must be comfortable giving a mailing address (I will ship anywhere)

€150 donation - you will receive all of the above AND a handmade Palestine themed item (without having to be a certain donor number)

Gofundme Goal Rewards:

If Dina’s fundraiser reaches $2,000 CAD - I will attempt to cook my way through The Gaza Kitchen (I have an older edition) and document my journey/share recipes

If Noor’s fundraiser reaches €2,000 - I will start a virtual book club for books by Palestinian authors (if this happens I will figure out logistics later)

If Ayman’s fundraiser reaches $2,000 USD - I will learn how to crochet (I don’t know how) and will document my journey/giveaway all my (bad) creations :)

That’s it for now, sorry it’s so much info in one post!! You guys raised over $11,500 USD for the fundraising campaign I did in January to honour my father’s birthday and I am hoping this fundraising campaign for my sister can come close to that. As always, please let me know if you have any questions :)

I cant sleep but

the birds aren’t singing yet.

I try and count the seconds between

cars passing on the road near my windowsill

17, 18, 19, 20..

I don’t feel reassured by the silence

because there’s so much noise in my head.

there’s a voice in my head that isn’t mine

taunting me

saying over and over again,

“he’s dead, he’s dead, he’s dead.”

I tried to wake my wife up

I told her,

my voice shaky,

my eyes filled with tears,

she said, “Casey, shit happens like this all the time. I’m trying to sleep.”

I felt nothing before,

now I feel less than nothing.

how many times can I allow my heart to be broken?

not just by others,

but by me as well?

I don’t recognize the person I have become.

It’s 3:30 in the morning.

I feel like a ghost.

I force the loneliness and despair out of me,

but it’s thick like tar.

I file this loss, this pain, this grief, with the other ones.

I don’t know how much more I can take.

there’s a secret door in my chest that leads to my heart where I keep the key.

I return it, close the door, and feel numb again

I wanted to cry for him

I wanted to cry for me

I really hope God knows how angry I am

How full of resentment I am.

everyone kept telling me that it would get better

I light a cigarette and wonder.

I wonder where 34 years went.

wasted, wasted, wasted.

I guess I spent too much time playing god

instead of praying to god but please,

I can’t handle much more.

no one should have to carry this much pain.

I will suffer but you have to trade me.

give me back some of the good memories

and I will shoulder the burden of loss.

let me be able to smile when I miss them.

I’ll do anything.

just let me remember.

20th May 2002 ~ for my beloved cat Scully 🐈‍⬛

Today is the anniversary of my cats birthday. Scully was born on 20th May 2002 and i had her with me half of my life. She died few days before new year, on 29th December 2022.

Most people will never understand the bond and love some of us have for our pets. Because for me, this adorable little cat was more than just a pet.

She was my best friend and my family. She was more family to me than my biological family. I had her by my side during the darkest times of my life and she literally kept me alive. If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be here today. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her. I miss and love her with all my heart and that will never change.

My forever cat & my best friend ❤️‍🩹 always

I just had to get it out of my system. 

21 years ago today, the shuttle orbiter Columbia and all seven astronauts she carried disintegrated on reentry. They were roughly fifteen minutes from landing.

Sometimes I watch the mission control recordings of that morning. It's a reminder of what —of who— we've lost on our path to the stars. it's a reminder that things can go so wrong so quickly in spaceflight.

HOBAUGH: Columbia, Houston, we see your tire pressure messages and we did not copy your last. HUSBAND: Roger, uh—

The loss of Columbia was the nail in the proverbial coffin for the shuttle program. NASA kept the other three orbiters flying without incident until 2011, but... we were supposed to go further. The shuttles were meant to be the dawn of the new age of spaceflight. We were meant to keep new shuttles, better shuttles, flying higher and higher for thirty more years. We were meant to get back to the Moon by 2011, and Mars by now. And instead, the swans of the space age were grounded. We're making a halfhearted, direly underfunded push for the Moon only now.

CAIN: FDO, when you expecting tracking? JONES: One minute ago, Flight.

I hope all this waiting has been worth it. I hope the contractors that NASA has been forced to buy spacecraft from (instead doing everything in-house like they always have) did not cut corners. I hope we make up for lost time, and we get to touch the sky again without losing anyone else.

CAIN: GC, Flight. GC, Flight. FOSTER: Flight, GC— CAIN: Lock the doors. FOSTER: ...Copy.

Lock the doors. The most horrible sentence in spaceflight. It means no information leaves the building. It means the emergency protocols are kicking in. It means the mission is over because everyone died, and now all we can do is try to figure out what happened so that it doesn't happen ever again.

I hope I never hear that phrase spoken in my lifetime.

Thunder on, STS-107.

h. gaunt and s. ellwood, 1912, preparations for a ball

(save their poor hearts)

they are forever choosing each other 🥹

guys i present to u at last!! GAUNTWOOD KISS!! WOAAAHHHHH

i need to find time to sit down and do a proper illustration sometime