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Poem: Solo
She danced around the room,
looking people in the eyes
as she twirled past them,
never meeting the same gaze
twice. In the flashing lights,
spinning late into the night,
she was untouchable,
her tears dripping like sweat,
catching light like diamonds,
slipping, unseen, to the ground
as she kept gliding forward,
spinning late into the night.
j.p
Poem: Solo
She danced around the room,
looking people in the eyes
as she twirled past them,
never meeting the same gaze
twice. In the flashing lights,
spinning late into the night,
she was untouchable,
her tears dripping like sweat,
catching light like diamonds,
slipping, unseen, to the ground
as she kept gliding forward,
spinning late into the night.
j.p
Poem: Solo
She danced around the room,
looking people in the eyes
as she twirled past them,
never meeting the same gaze
twice. In the flashing lights,
spinning late into the night,
she was untouchable,
her tears dripping like sweat,
catching light like diamonds,
slipping, unseen, to the ground
as she kept gliding forward,
spinning late into the night.
j.p
This scene lives rent-free in my head as an internal reaction meme and is what my brain sounds like screaming at god to stop playing God and take me out instead of making me fight all of these existancial battles to understand 🌈 the power of living 🌈 or some gay shit like that
Having a self is a heavy burden
How do you let go of someone who doesn't want you to?
EL
*auron had a gang War going on and rookie was in the middle of it but they had a trick up there sleeve, they helped take down a few guys and ran to hide for a bit auron was worried that they would get hurt and told them to get out but rook didn't want to leave him here alone, but he wanted them safe as they argued they were surrounded by goons and started fighting while auron trys to tell them to leave so rookie looks at him with a sharp look*
(it's like the dance in the episode but with auron and y/n more romantic and salsa)
Y/n: 🎶I see you're driven by your detestation
Your every step is stoked with animus
You need a different type of motivation
Or there's no way that you can handle this🎶
*punched a guy and kicked the other as auron shot the one behind them as he pulled them closer*
Y/n: 🎶I know you're thirstin' for vengeance, auron
You're out for blood
But you'll only stand a chance if you're out for love Out for love, love
Think of who you care about
Protect them and be out🎶
*auron picked them up and started dancing while fighting making sure that their eyes were on his*
Y/n: 🎶For love, love
You're gonna fight without gloves
Long as you're out for love🎶
Y/n: 🎶Fuel yourself with the fear of losin'
That somebody who's your reason to live
Harnеss your heart and you can't help choosin'
To fight with all you can give
*on different sides of the room and slowly stepping toward each other*
Y/n: I know you'rе thirstin' for vengeance, auron
You're out for blood
But you'll only stand a chance if you're out for love
*hold each other's hands and smirks together as the dance up the stairs kicking and shooting the enemy*
Y/n: Out for love, love
Think of who you care about
Protect them and be out
For love, love
You're gonna fight without gloves
And when that push comes to shove
Yeah, you just might rise above
Long as you're out for love
*finally ends it with a dip and kissed them*
Auron: I am so lucky I have you in my life rook
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Hope you like it ✌🏻
💙💙💙
Loved it so much
Chapter 22: Mint Chocolate Ice Cream
Synopsis: Everything was perfect, or at least you thought it was. What happens when you break up with your 7 boyfriends and have to deal with the aftermath of it all?
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You find yourself seated in Namjoon's car, if you were being honest, you'd never expected yourself to be here again. It causes anxiety to bubble to the surface, you can't help but feel a little nervous being around him again. You're not doing too well trying to hide your unease from him, he hesitates before slowly reaching over the console to gently take your hand in his, his thumb rubbing small circles on the back of your hand. "Jagi. It's going to be okay. Don't stress yourself out, we're just going to get some lunch and just hang out. Like how we used to. Alright?"
You let out a shaky breath before nodding. You had to remind yourself that you didn't need to overthink it. You remind yourself that you've done the same thing with the others, but it just feels more nerve racking knowing that you're out with Namjoon.
It doesn't take long for your nerves to calm however, when you're pulling up to a familiar restaurant. Your eyes instantly lighting up at the sign for the restaurant coming into view. Namjoon quickly rounds the front of the car to help you out. "I take it you like my choice for today's lunch?" A grin on his face that highlights his dimples. You're nodding your head furiously as you step out of the car, already dragging him towards the entrance.
You're greeted by one of your favorite waitresses. "Yn-ah & Namjoon-ssi! Oh it's been so long since we've had the pleasure of serving you." You watch as her eyes widen when you move to remove your coat. "And you're expecting! Oh what a lovely surprise!" You can't help but smile at how genuine she's being. "Thank you Jennie!" She grabs a couple menus before leading the both of you towards your favorite booth.
"Do we need to look over the menu or do we know what we want?" She questions as she watches Namjoon help you settle into your seat. Normally you'd get your usual, but the babies were wanting more. You don't even have to look up at Namjoon for him to know the answer. "We'll take a few minutes to look over the menu if you don't mind." She nods her head and takes your drink orders before leaving the both of you to look over the options. You scan the menu and find a few dishes that seem to make you hungrier, no doubt something the twins would enjoy. You let Namjoon know what you want so that he could place the order for the both of you.
Once he tells Jennie of your orders and watches as the waitress walks away, he turns his attention towards you, eyes immediately softening. "So why don't you catch me up on everything that's happened to you Jagi? What did I miss all these months? I've heard snippets from the guys but not much." You can't help but feel sad for him, having him miss a lot of exciting moments in your life when you used to think that he'd be with you every step of the way, but you remind yourself that he's here now.
"Should I start where I couldn't get out of bed for almost a week because I was heartbroken or when I was neglecting myself so much that I passed out at a hardware store and then found out I was pregnant?" You joke, wanting to try and lighten the mood. You watch as his eyes widen before you're reaching over to grab his hand. "I'm joking Joon. Like yeah it sucked at the time but you know...I've gotten over it. I was just being a little dramatic at the time." You brush it off, not really affected by it anymore.
You watch as he fixes you with a hard stare. "Jagi. I don't ever want to hear you say that you were being dramatic. We ended a 4 year relationship, of course it would be difficult to move on. Everyone copes in different ways and that's how you chose to cope after the breakup. There's nothing funny about it because that's how you were feeling at the time. Please don't brush off your feelings. I'm sorry that you went through that, I'm sorry that I was the cause for all your hurt." You feel a few tears escape, quickly wiping them away. You never thought you'd be able to tell him how you felt or that he'd be here in front of you acknowledging your hurt.
"Thank you Joon. I really needed to hear that." He smiles at you before giving your hand a soft squeeze. "I'm glad I could tell you then. As for the neglecting yourself, did that harm you or the babies in anyway?" You quickly reassure him that you and the babies were fine before telling him all about what you did after finding out, including not wanting to tell Jungkook because you were scared they'd take Bun away from you. You don't even notice the food had arrived until Jennie is interrupting the both of you. "Oh look at you two love birds! So in your own world you didn't even notice the food." Your eyes snap up to her and then to the dishes placed in front of you. Namjoon chuckles before thanking her, choosing not to correct her.
"I'm sorry that you thought we'd try to get custody. I'd never do such a thing and if I ever really did go crazy and thought that was a good idea, I know the other 6 would give me hell if I tried." You smile at the reassurances he gives you. You tell him that you know that now, but at the time you were hysterical and the breakup was still so fresh that you weren't really thinking critically. You watch as he puts some food on your plate, signaling that the conversation was over and that you should eat before the food gets cold.
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After lunch you'd decided to go back to your place, wanting to show him the progress on the twins' room. You watch as he hesitates to step over the threshold as you make your way deeper into your home. "It's okay Joon. Come on." You motion for him to come in, which he slowly does. You watch as he takes everything in, definitely noting the absence of all the photos of them and the knick knacks they'd given you when you were together. He can't blame you for taking down anything that reminded you of them, but it definitely hurts to see zero traces of them left anywhere in your home.
He follows you down the hallway before turning into the baby room. You note the confusion on his face as he takes in the room. "I didn't have a reason for a home office anymore." You say, already knowing what was on his mind. You watch as guilt flashes over his face. "It's okay. I wasn't going to be working for awhile anyway, my friends banned me from finding a new job so that I could focus on taking care of myself and the babies." You notice him nod his head but you can tell that there's a slight shift in his mood now.
You point out a few things in the room that you thought he'd enjoy, the plushies the others had bought for the babies, the bookshelf, and some other items scattered around the room. You tell him the story about how you'd built the first crib with Yoongi's help, and then how Jungkook proved to you that he actually knew how to build a crib with the second one you'd bought. You watch as he scans the little bookshelf you'd bought, and filled with books you had adored as a child. He points out all the animals you associated him and the rest of his lovers with. You also show him all the extra things everyone has bought that you have no idea where to put and that is beginning to stress you out.
"Just leave them at our place. I'm sure the guys have offered for you to spend the night so that it's easier for you to get help and easier for Jungkookie to be with the twins and you. We can set up one of the hobby rooms for them...or maybe we can finally get rid of Tae's room filled with weird things he finds at thrift stores. I'm sure he won't object if it's for the babies. You know how he is about kids." You can't help but feel your heart warm, he always knew how to calm you down. And you'd be lying if you didn't say your heart didn't skip a beat at the invitation to stay over every once in awhile, but it just felt wrong.
"That sounds really nice Joon, but I don't know. The last time I was there we broke up and after I left you invited Jieun to live with you. It doesn't feel right for me to be there anymore." You watch as the smile on his face falls clearly not expecting you to respond that way. You take a few steps toward him so you're facing him. "Maybe when the babies can sleep a little better through the night we can try having them stay with all of you, and I can just go back to Changkyun's so I'm not alone, or maybe spend the night at Jooheon's or Nari's." You try to reason with him.
He lets out a sigh before shaking his head. "No. When the babies are with us, then you have to be there too. If it feels wrong then we'll just find a new place. We always talked about getting something bigger and this would be a good opportunity to start looking." You can tell he won't take no for an answer, you can clearly see the determination in his eyes. You let out a sigh, reaching for his hands, you look up to see him already looking at you. "Can we table this discussion for later? This seems like a spur of the moment thing, you need to think about this and it's definitely something you should call a family meeting for."
He gives your hands a squeeze before nodding. "Yeah. I should probably talk to the guys, I shouldn't be making decisions on my own. We saw how much of a disaster that was the last time I did." After a few more moments of him looking around and you telling him what each gadget does, you find yourself in the living room, ready for your afternoon nap. "Go ahead and take a nap Jagi, I'll just catch up on some work while you sleep." You don't bother fighting him on it, your body ready for the nap.
He settles onto the couch, phone in hand, no doubt to reply to all the emails he couldn't respond to when he was out of the country. You decide to use his lap as a pillow, laying your head on his thigh before draping a blanket over yourself. He immediately runs his fingers through your hair, fingers reaching down to massage your scalp, something he always did to help you fall asleep faster.
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You wake up to your alarm blaring from somewhere behind you. You groan when you try and reach for it on the coffee table to shut it off. "I got it Jagi." You hear Namjoon say as he leans over to shut it off. At some point you'd turned over in your sleep, so now your face was buried in Namjoon's stomach, you realize that's probably why you were having a hard time shutting off your alarm. You bury your face back into his stomach, curling up into a ball (as much of a ball as you could in your current state anyway), wanting to get into a better position. You hear him chuckle before he runs his hand through your hair. "You need to get up Jagi. Everyone else will be here soon."
You shake your head and pull the blanket tighter around you. "Five more minutes Joon." He lets out a sigh but complies. After dinner last night Jungkook had whined about not being able to see you for a bit and that it wasn't fair that Namjoon would be the only one to spend your last day with you so they'd all decided on coming over for dinner. Jin and Yoongi had volunteered to cook all your favorites along with all the foods you'd been craving throughout your pregnancy, so how could you say no?
After a few minutes you sit up before curling into Namjoon's side, his arm going over your shoulder to wrap around you. "What're you doing?" You question as you open one eye to peek at his phone screen. "Just catching up on what's been going on at work. I'd been too busy to since I'd gotten back." You let out a sigh before taking his phone away from him and placing it on the table. "Can you forget about work and just relax for a second?" You wrap an arm around his waist to pull you closer to him. "I see you're still clingy after your naps." You hum in response before going back to closing your eyes, feeling his arms wrap around you.
It had been so long since you'd been able to cuddle with him and you weren't going to pass up the opportunity, who knows when your next chance would be. "How much longer until the others get here?" You feel him shuffle around before he glances at his watch. "Half an hour." You nod before slowly getting up and stretching. You can feel his eyes on you, most likely curious as to why you're suddenly getting up. You extend a hand out for him which he takes immediately. You lead him to the kitchen before you start rummaging through your cupboard. "Are you hungry Jagi? You know Jin-ah will be upset if you spoil your appetite before dinner."
"Just a little snack. It won't be enough to spoil my appetite. I mean...have you seen me?" You point to your growing belly, a reminder that you were eating for three. He chuckles but let's you continue on your search. You finally pull out two mugs and some spoons before making your way to the fridge. You grab two tubs of ice cream before setting them on the counter. You spoon some chocolate chip ice cream into a mug for him before handing it off to him. He thanks you as he watches you spoon your ice cream into your mug. You can't help but laugh at the disgust on his face.
"I don't understand how you can eat that. It's an abomination, truly a disgrace to human kind." He says while eating a spoonful of his ice cream. You roll your eyes before making a show of how much you enjoy the cold mint chocolate treat. "I bet if you tried it you wouldn't say that." You watch as he scoffs and scrunches up his face. "You say the same thing every time you eat that and then force me to take a bite. My reaction is the same every time Jagi."
You shrug before taking a step towards him, your spoon already being shoved into his face. "Just one bite? I know you'll love it this time." He grabs at your wrist, making sure you can't come any closer with your ice cream flavored toothpaste. "You know I won't. You can't change my mind." He replies, eyes looking into yours, challenging you to try and force him to take a bite. "Please Joonie? It's so good." You bat your lashes knowing just how weak he is to it and he immediately folds, moving your hand with the spoon to his mouth to take a bite. You watch as his face scrunches up in disgust, watch as he proceeds to pretend to gag and you can't help but laugh.
"You claim you hate it, but yet every time I offer it, you take a bite. Just say you love it Joon. You don't need to put up a front, I won't judge you. This is a safe space." You take another bite to emphasize just how good it is. "I don't do it because I love it, I do it because I love you and I like seeing you laugh when I do." He looks into your eyes and you have to look away, his gaze was way too intense for you but you can't help the way your heart skips a beat. Before you can get too into your head, you hear the doorbell go off, signaling the arrival of the others. You smile apologetically at him before you're rushing to answer the door.
Side note: I edited this around 1am. So if there's any spelling or grammar mistakes my bad. I also copy and pasted this off my notes app so hopefully I didn't miss a chunk of text. 💀
I wanted to get something out for y'all to celebrate JK's single announcement. If you haven't yet, go and pre-save Seven!
Let me know what y'all thought. And as usual, pls trust the process lmao.
[Intro: RM] My life is out of love My life is out of love My life is out of love My life is out of love My life is out of love My life is out of love
[Verse 1: RM] I'm just a pack of cigarette I'm going to burn down all the love and the hate, the right, the wrongs Even the goddamn world I've been living in for my whole life Smoking kills, I know It's my business, you b!tches stop, don't talk sh!t Ashes falling like snow I've been changing the flow Time to let go of the past, the memories, the stacks of truth Diaries without priorities I already killed myself out of f**king fears Smoke, drink, people, I know they stink Mix them all together and I put them in the sink I don't do the dishes 'cause it's my f**king script After a dozen years, now the creepiness is back I don't belong here, I write and die and bury love Since you and I believe in different truths So, I don't blame you I don't blame you Love probably fails
[Verse 2: RM] Uh, all you strangers, did you think you could please me? It's been a few months since you've seen me, do you believe me? I'm not familiar, I love it when you hate me No, kiss me, oh see me, don't leave me Just eat me, uh Honesty's always a crime Just tell me if you need a dime But I can't give you my time Can't waste my goddamn time on you You know you were a grime You can fuck my body Can't fuck my mind
This album is so fire fr.
ukiyo | xu minghao
SYNOPSIS. in which you and minghao spend the day together. PAIRING. xu minghao x gn!reader GENRE. angst, hurt/comfort, fluff, established relationship WARNINGS. language alluding to death, reader is in a wheelchair, mentions of an unnamed terminal disease that causes reader to have weakened limbs n feel very weak in general, vague mention of nudity (hao takes off reader’s clothes and gives them a bath) but nothing is explicitly described, descriptions of a hospital, terms of endearment (love), one curse word WORD COUNT. 4311
ukiyo ( 浮世 ) 𑁋 “the floating world”; living in the moment; detached from the bothers of life.
notes: there’s not really a plot to this. it’s just brainrot because i love torturing myself and my heart. i saw pics of the beach of hai cheng mv and immediately wanted to write something sad for no reason.
The late morning sunlight pours in through the small window of the bathroom as you hold a steady, blank gaze at the running water gushing out from the faucet. The sounds bounce off the walls of the bathroom, and you bring your eyes down to your legs.
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