Sui Thoughts - Tumblr Posts
“You need 8 hours of sleep”
Anxiety: how about none
Depression: how about 12
Suicidal thoughts: how about forever
the only reasons I haven't kms yet are delusions of grandeur and the sunk cost fallacy.
i should have kms in 2016 when i had the chance.
there is legitimately a 70% chance i off myself on thursday. Gonna say my goodbyes to the 1 person that still matters to me, drum one last time, probably watch some of my favourite movies then tomorrow I'll go to "get the bus" but actually walk abt a mile down the road to a national speed limit motorway and jump in front of a semi.
I wonder if anyone will mourn me?
was gonna cut and then kms but i got distracted and wrote a whole ass doom metal song and now i don't want to cut.
kill me. Please kill me. I want to die right fucking now. Please kill me this instant. I long for the great release that death will bring. Please kill me. I desperately want to die. I literally can not stand being alive. Please just let me die. I want to get hit by a fucking truck. I want to die. Kill me. Kill me now. Kill me right now. Please kill me. Pretty please kill me. Pretty pretty please with a cherry on top, blow my fucking brains out. I should not be alive. I need to die. I will always be alone. I will die alone. I'm gonna kms. I need to die. Please kill me. I want to die as soon as possible. I hate being sober. I wish i was dead. Like, genuinely, i wish i was dead. I will jiggle a genie's balls and forfeit my other 2 wishes if it means i can die. Please kill me. I should cut off my fucking hands. I should set my skin on fire. I want to die. I am nothing. I am worth nothing. I should have died years ago. I want to cut until i bleed out. I want to cut my face. Please kill me. Kill me now.
Anyway, have a nice day/evening/night. I love you.