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Manchmal schaue ich mich geradeaus im Spiegel an und erkenn mich selber nicht.
Also, ich erkenne schon das es ich bin, aber irgendwo zwischen Augen und Spiegel und Gehirn muss da wohl etwas verloren gehen, sodass ich mir selber so fremd vorkomme. Gestern sah ich noch ganz anders aus. War ich nicht hübscher gewesen? Sah ich denn nicht jünger aus?
Ich drehe dann meinen Kopf, und sehe eine familiärität in der Kurve meiner Nase und der Spitze meines Kinnes und das beruhigt mich. Ok, denk ich mir, es ist offensichtlich mein Gesicht, aber was ist denn so anders daran, dass das was gestern normal war mich heute zum stolpern bringt.
Meine Nase sieht gleich aus. Meine Haare haben immer noch die selben Wellen und meine Lippen können sich in den selben krummen Lächeln formen, den ich seit Jahren lächle. Meine Zähne, meine Haut, meine Ohren - nichts verändert. Meine eine Augenbraue ist immernoch nicht dem anderen gleich, und so gehört es sich auch. Die Pickeln von gestern sind auch die Pickeln von heute; ob es ein paar mehr or ein paar weniger sind, fällt mir nicht auf.
Ahh. Die Augen also. Die Augen müssen es sein. Alle meinen doch immer, anhand der Augen einer Person kann man ihnen in die Seele sehen. Doch meine Seele muss wohl heute nicht zuhause sein, weil als ich mich über dem Waschbecken vorlehne und mich näher im Spiegel mustere, starrt mein Spiegelbild blank zurück. In meinen Augen erkenne ich keine Emotion wieder weil ich es nicht gewöhnt bin an meinem eigenen Gesicht Emotionen zuzuordnen, sage ich mir, nichts ist mit dir falsch.
Aber wer bist du überhaupt?
Bist du deine Ohren? Deine Nase, dein Mund? Wirst du in den Augen anderer definiert durch deine Haare, deine Wimpern, dein Kinn? Bist du dann auch deine Fingerspitzen, oder deine Knie? Bist nur dein Gehirn? Bist du die Augen, wohinter sich eine Seele versteckt in der hilflosen Hoffnung du wirst sie nicht suchen? Bist du nur dass, was andere in dir sehen? Ist es denn egal, wie du dich selber fühlst, was du selber siehst?
Wie Existenziell, denk ich mir, und nimm ein Schritt zurück.
Ist doch egal, endscheide ich mich. Soll es doch egal sein, was ich weiß und nicht weiß. Wenn ich doch nicht verstehe, was mit der Information zu tun ist, wenn ich doch selber es nicht verstehe, dann sollte es egal sein, wer im Spiegel zurückschaut.
Vielleicht ist es nicht, dass ich mich heute zum ersten Mal neu sehe, doch nur, dass ich mich heute zum ersten Mal so sehe, wie ich eigentlich gestern war.
First time I watched GOT Arya’s S5 arc really made me frustrated bc of Jaqen H’ghar . Like, when they were at Harrenhall, he was this mysterious, charming guy who’s clearly super intelligent and extremely dangerous and has a interest in Arya (not in a romantic way ffs).
But then what we meet in S5 is this plain, uninteresting guy who barely seems to even acknowledge that Arya exists. None of the traits that made him fun or interesting are there - just a blank slate. I was super dissapointed, until I realized...
...That’s the point.
Can someone please help me figure out the joji song that fits a post ADWD/Season 6 Theon best???
specifically for a Wall AU Greysnow/Snowjoy fic I’m working on.
Damn I know nobody asked for my unpopular asoiaf/got opinion of the day but tbh I really dislike SanSan. Like to me it’s just as creepy and fucked up as Littlefinger/Sansa because both times a little girl is manipulated and her emotions twisted by men 15 years older then her using her fears - because intentional or not, that is what Sandor is also doing.
Anyways single!Sansa Stark supremacy-
I need to stop treating tumblr like twitter
Why are all the Jon Snow ships weirdly incestuous. Like damn y’all over there fighting over it he’d father fuck his aunt or his cousins why are you all tryna make this guys dick go to a family reunion????
My favorite part about the asoiaf fandom is that everybody has spend years theorizing about who could be a Targaryen based off only small bits of proof and when grrm was like “here you go have Aegon!!” Everybody said “fake”.
I just read a modern AU fic where Theon calls Bran “Jailbait on wheels” and I will never be over that
Gendry is not just any himbo he is the himbo
People who say “Theon isn’t a Greyjoy he’s one of the Starks bc his family cast him aside and he grew up in the North” and people who say “Theon is a Greyjoy not a Stark he was just a hostage and his betrayal was justified” are both equally WRONG because both families treated him like shit and he was only part of their family’s to them when it was convenient and neither deserve him.
After last weeks conclusion that Gendry is a himbo I know present my hypothesis that Arya Stark is a chad. Like omg she had nothing to do with the Night King and then to just randomly fuck over a plot line that wasn’t even hers? Fuckboy energy
Ok please can anyone help me out with figuring smth out??? I’m one chapter down and I can’t figure out if I should continue writing this in third Person or go off the rails and write this in second person because I’ve read too many good Theon fics written from this perspective and now I’m tempted.
Like please help me you don’t even need to know shit about writing or anything I just need a native english speaker to tell me if this even sounds good
Can someone please help me figure out the joji song that fits a post ADWD/Season 6 Theon best???
specifically for a Wall AU Greysnow/Snowjoy fic I’m working on.
Me: Ok so is it really not in any way possible for the idea in my head to be transferred onto paper in any other way then me writing it down because I REALLY don’t wanna do that plus it never turns out the way I imagine it and I really want the reader to get exactly what I have in mind wait actually are you sure I can’t just telepathically communicate my story to someone because that would be super helpful for what I’m trying to achieve and-
The scientist I have tied up in my basement, close to tears: Please let me go home.
This submission to my local Krautfest decorating competition fills me with an indescribable level of fear
You might have story parallels between Jon and Arya, perhaps have interpreted Jonsa sexual tension and yes, I’ll admit it, Jon and Dany were canon, but remember; he ditched the Nights Watch to go North of the Wall with TORMUND, so who’s the real winner here
Not to continue being an asshole but to continue being an asshole I’m pretty sure the reason they removed the Young Griff/Aegon outta the show was to remove Jon having sexual tension with ANOTHER one of his relatives
You might have story parallels between Jon and Arya, perhaps have interpreted Jonsa sexual tension and yes, I’ll admit it, Jon and Dany were canon, but remember; he ditched the Nights Watch to go North of the Wall with TORMUND, so who’s the real winner here
If all 50 US states basically already function as little countries with their own laws, languages, food and cultures, why not just get rid of the giant crumbling superpower country that has one of the most fucked up inbalencend power structures and political systems of the western world. Let Ohio be its own country, fuck it.
English speakers: I have a concussion
Germans: I have a B R A I N V I B R A T I O N
diseases in english are like “oh you have conjungitivitistittis. :)”
german meanwhile is like “you have hurty tummy syndrome :////”
h/c trauma fics have ruined me so much that I was genuinely upset when in Enola Holmes they did not discuss the psychological consequences or the ptsd Enola would get after murdering a man.
Hey do y’all wanna read my abstract, weird, slowburn S6 divergence Snowjoy fic -- No? Haha....Unless?
If I’m being honest its more of a exploration of Theon and Jon then their relationship together but hey -- the things we do for love the little gremlin creature living in my head that makes me write things.
Category: M/M
Relationship: Theon Greyjoy/Jon Snow
Characters: Theon Greyjoy, Jon Snow, Sansa Stark, Brienne of Tarth, Podrick Payne, Davos Seaworth, Asha Greyjoy, Yara Greyjoy, Ramsay Bolton, Various Nights Watch members, Other Character Tags to Be Added
Additional Tags: Slow Burn, Slow Build, Wall AU, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Ramsay Bolton is His Own Warning, Implied Ramsay Bolton/Theon Greyjoy, POV Theon Greyjoy, Theon Greyjoy-centric, Implied/Referenced Torture, Mental Health Issues, Mental Instability, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, POV Jon Snow, Jon Snow knows like two things but is very sure about them, Davos is a character not a prop
Summary:
“Jon Snow smells like grime and sweat. The salty smell reminds Theon of the sea.”
Theon goes North, and tries to remember what it felt like to belong somewhere. S6 Divergence.