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5 months ago

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꩜ haii, i'm honey 𖹭

꩜ my pronouns are she/they

꩜ i am 8teen !

꩜ i am desi (pk specifically) ꩜ i speak english, urdu, hindi, & punjabi ꩜ physically bi, spiritually a lesbian ꩜ classic bastard entp 7w8 ꩜ depression + audhd struggles ꩜ i'm a aquarius (but i don't believe in astrology) ꩜ i love asuka langely soryu. i am her and she is me. thank you for understanding 𖹭 ꩜ i run a jjk sideblog at @cyberhoneyyy ! you can follow me there for more wholesome, thirsty, and non-depressive content.

cw !!! ꩜ i will reblog, interact, and post content some may find triggering, which may include but is not limited to: -physical abuse -eating disorders -self-harm -gore -suicide

NOTE: i am not explicitly romanticizing/glorifying any of these behaviors. i use this blog as a coping mechanism. you will be exposed to the unfiltered mind of a mentally ill teenage bitch. what the fuck else do you expect?

꩜ i fw femcels, lifestyle jirais, misandrists, vents accs, mentally ill bitches, and evil women !! be my fucking friend !!! ꩜ dni if bigoted (racist, homophobic, etc..), zionist, proship, islamaphobic, or if you are a moo deng hater. i do NOT fw moo deng slander ho !! ꩜ i am in therapy as of now, so i am trying to get better. i am safe, for the most part anyway. ꩜ follow me on twt at @/cyberhoneyyy !

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enjoy your stay at LOBOTOMIZEDBADDIE™ central ! /ᐠ˵- ⩊ -˵マ


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1 year ago
Don't Leave Me Alone!
Don't Leave Me Alone!

Don't leave me alone! 💝✨

Uhg, una prueba contundente de que me he estado sintiendo para el hoyo. Muy bonito el gatito pero la neta últimamente me he sentido muy deprimido, siento que me estoy quedando atrás en la vida y no estoy logrando nada (tal vez porque no entré a la universidad a la primera, maybe), siento como que todos mis amigos logran cosas y yo simplemente sigo jugando a hacer dibujitos y hacerme el pendejo para sacar un par de risas, me siento incapaz de lograr algo en esta vida y que solo estoy volviendo a lo mismo una y otra vez... pero pues eso. Quería demostrar un poquito como me siento e hice este gatito

Y pues ya, eso es todo xd


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2 years ago

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Is it normal to grieve yourself?

And still yearn the grief?

To know you'll be eternally hurting,

Why is it such a relief?


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2 years ago

Tw: self harm

Broken mosaic

Broken like a mosaic, this grief is beautiful.

Cold as a grave, this silence is peaceful.

A pain drenched tartarus was what made childhood.

A longing filled asphodel is what makes life cruel.

Sinister evil spirits, they whisper in the dark.

Cold harsh voice, it will shatter up your heart.

The silence kept saying with such delicacy.

But mind kept begging for sincere secrecy.

So close your little eyes, home is full of ghosts.

Hide your own self, it is terrifying to be known.

Shred your skin, once again you'll be filled with relief.

One last cut; an eternity of sleep.


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2 years ago

What a subtle form of self harm it is to love you.

Such a gruesome death to die.

What a comfort it is to be to be loved by you.

Such a torment it is to be not.


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2 years ago

Thorn to my rose

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Thorn To My Rose

In a room full of strangers, our eyes met in secrecy.

With that striking smile of yours, you simply just ended me.

Gently whispered words killed me more than any poison could.

Loved you way too fondly than any lover ever should.

In frightened voice and shaky hands, I was scared to lose you.

In granted lives and afterlife, I was never meant to have you.

What is life anymore, if not just the absence of you?

Had to watch you bleed to death, what is even left to lose?

Once again in life I am terrified to let you close.

You were my known ruin. A lethal thorn, my gentle rose.


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2 years ago

Tw: self harm, self loathing

A girl lies on her bedroom floor.

She bleeds through her eyes and cries through her veins.

I watch her helplessly and let her fall apart.

Everyday she fights long lost battles and dies gruesome deaths.

Her life is nothing but a grave full of dead hopes.

I watch her and do nothing.

Perhaps because there isn't much left of her to be saved.

She is covered in bruises I don't recognize her anymore.

I watch her with curiosity.

Her eyes dark and cold like the night itself, she reeks of misery.

A home full of ghosts, none of them remotedly as dead as her soul.

I watch her mercilessly.

After all that's what monsters like her deserve.

I say, and I stop watching her.

No part of her deserves to be loved.

I say, and I step away from the mirror.


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2 years ago

Dear universe

At 13 I thought that the universe hates me. For it made me tainted and it made me unlovable. Perhaps it was true; or perhaps I was just 13. Now I finally see that there are things that actually love me.

The darkness holds me still and grief kisses my hand. The demons in my head tell me it'll be fine. And hunger kind of always stays along with this unbearable ache. Longing lingers like a lonely child and sinister thoughts eat me up inside. Years of misery and wishing to be dead. Screams of terror and weeps of fate. But dear universe I wont complain. For dear universe I still am loved.


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2 years ago

If life is a cold, harsh night

You are the moon that makes it bearable

For what other thing would thrive?

Even in the most monstrous forms of dark?

If to love is to rest

Then I will perceive death for you.

For what greater form of rest do we know?

Than to lie in the cold, dark earth forever?

If to long is to grieve

Then I shall make home of a funeral

For what harsher grief it is?

Than to irreversibly lose someone


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2 years ago

Your eyes that once looked like home

Now look like weapons that killed me.

Your face that once spelled out love

Now spells out grief to me.

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You once were my cure from humanity,

Now I guess I was never meant to heal.

What once brought out the best in me,

Now brings out the poet in me.

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Your soul that once meant beauty,

Now means emptiness and vain.

Our love that once made us soulmates,

Now makes us strangers again.

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Your fictive touch, my anxious rush,

Now I know how grief feels.

Your gentle words and brittle oaths,

Now finally I let you ruin me.


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2 years ago

You were scared to ruin me

I assured you that you wouldn't

The unsaid truth was this:

I was already ruined

Long before I met you

Long before I knew how to love

And even before you became my home

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But you left and it felt like death

Everyone said I'd get used to it

The cruel desire was this:

I don't want to get used to you

I don't want time to heal me

I always want you to be

An unbearable ache that kills me

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My mind is being held hostage by you

And even in grief you feel like home

The maddening question is this:

Will you love the monster in me?

Will you love me at the end of the world?

Will you simply just love me?


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2 years ago

I fell for you gently as leaves do on a dreary autumn evening.

You continued to bloom delicately as you were the sweetest child of spring.

Unnoticed for years, my world has been touched by you.

In running away from home, I found a home in you.

I fell for you, like hades fell for persephone

And I am falling, like moon falls around the earth still.

I write this with my love, hoping that you might see this too.

I share this with the world, but really it only ever was for you.


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2 years ago

Green eyes

Green eyes more altering than the phases of the moon itself.

Warm green of honeydew when life strikes with kindness.

At crucial times, a poised snake; cautious and still.

A lurid shade of poison ivy, a secret to unveil.

A sea green touch when victorious. A glory to be held.

A lover's touch, an emerald flush. A fondness to be felt.

A steady green of summer leaves, at humour and sheer delight.

Anger darkens them cold and harsh, to the almost black of woods at night.

An endless chase of grief and despair, a helpless shade of teal.

A bleeding heel and olive green. Your eyes they haunt me still.


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2 years ago

Unguarded

I'm sorry I let you see me unguarded.

Let you see my darkness, left you forever haunted.

I'm sorry I killed you with my insecurities.

The atrocity, your ghost is keeping me company.

I'm sorry If I ever dared to make you cry.

For even the skies could fade at the blue of your eyes.

I'm sorry I could never quite be adequate.

You deserve everything and I'm so horribly limited.

I'm sorry I dreamt of us, peaceful under the moon.

A fever dream for someone who only knows how to ruin.

I'm sorry I blamed everything on the distance.

I can't get you to love me without this deafening silence.

I'm sorry I ever thought that we were binary stars.

Always said "I understand" even with a shattered heart.

I'm sorry I didn't listen to my obscene thoughts.

When they precisely said that misery was all I brought.

I'm sorry my hatred wasn't loud enough to hide yours.

A wreckage cannot be loved. I should've hidden my scars.

I'm sorry I ever let you see the real me.

I'll stay constrained just so you won't leave.

I'll hide myself a little to help you breathe. 


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1 year ago
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Hey guys & gals & non-binary, Charmed Witch here!

If anyone or someone you are close to is dealing with overwhelming trauma or need some support, check out this Youtuber's channel if you like.

Blessed be. 🌒🌕🌘


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7 months ago

[From: Yuri Ayato]

[To: You]

[S☆icidal dream]

[From: Yuri Ayato]

(S☆icidal dream)

[Sudden advice from Yuri-kun: Don't walk down the dorm corridor at night if you don't want to give up your miserable life. I like to walk in the dark and if I bump into you, I will kill you right away, do you understand me? Of course I want to kill you anyway, but Akemi asked me to refrain from this idea for now...]

[Why am I walking down the corridor at night? It's none of your business! I want to go for a walk! Your job is to be careful with me, unless of course you want me to mutilate your body so that even your mother in the morgue cannot identify you.]

[From: Yuri Ayato]

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3 years ago
I Try To Forgive You. Why Cant I Forgive You

i try to forgive you. Why can’t i forgive you </3


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