You Know Its Getting Bad Again When Its Harder Not To Relapse, Every Little Things Annoys The Shit Out

you know it’s getting bad again when it’s harder not to relapse, every little things annoys the shit out of you, you want to crawl out of your skin, the distractions don’t help anymore and not even your favorite special little treat makes your day better

(CW: GENDER DYSPHORIA AND SUICIDE)

I fucking hate being trans so much it physically hurts.

I will never be able to wear clothing without feeling uncomfortable about it because my boobs still show under them, I can't sign any fucking papers without crying about having to put my fucking dead name, and it doesn't matter how many times I correct people, nobody will see me as a "real boy" and I fucking hate it.

If God really does exist, I fucking hate him for doing this to me. In fact I'm glad he doesn't because I would start throwing hands right the fuck now, fuck him honestly

I know damn well there's gonna be people telling me "but I believe you're a real boy 🥺", and to those motherfuckers, this ain't about you, so I don't wanna hear it here.

And the fucked up part: I don't think I'll be able to turn 18 given my mental health and the situation I'm in regarding therapy, so I'm practically stuck like this until i finally kill myself from the stress of just being alive. It's fucking hell for me.

I don't care if this comes off as "rude" or me " overreacting" or any of that shit, I can't take it anymore. I just need to get this off my chest.

That's all.

Going from the most happy you've felt in months straight to the worst you've felt in years is going to fucking kill me.

I can't stand this shit anymore. Why can't I have normal feelings? Why do I have to feel the most extreme emotions?

i get so angry when someone finds out I have bpd and they all of the sudden are sexually attracted to me PLS MAKE IT LESS OBVIOUS YOU GET OFF TO THE CRAZY GIRL STEREOTYPE

PIR Culture is going through everything again and them creating a new callout doc still using year old evidence and having to cope with everything again! Because the internet is built off of anti-recovery. They say a year isn't enough time to get better. They still call you a groomer. And the people you hurt are still mad a year later. I so badly want to put in my pinned DNI if you're anti-recovery but I know if I did I'll get harrassed for it :( --✨🌊

Real honestly, and it's genuinely frustrating to deal with.

It's like they don't actually want you to change, and that they want a reason to basically make another person's life hell.

I never thought I'd say this, but maybe YandereDev was right when he made his "hate and shame" video (yes I know he did some genuinely bad things that he needs to be held accountable for), because it's probably the most accurate depiction of cancel culture as of 2024.