It Never Stops I Am A Black Hole, Nothing's Ever Good Enough And I Can't Be Happy With Less, Because

It never stops I am a black hole, nothing's ever good enough and I can't be happy with less, because everyone else is someone's favorite, everyone else can be someone's number one, why don't I get that, why not me

i feel so fucking filthy and disgusting and my home is a mess and i am fucking putrid but i don't have the energy or motivation to do ANYTHING about it so I guess I'll just!!!!! Fucking!!! Be filthy!!!!

"Why do you vent about your relationship issues so much? Isn't that just selfish??"

I do it because it's been the only thing on my mind for the past several weeks, and I'm tired of pretending like I feel happy about my friendships.

Every time I build a genuine and happy connection to someone, something goes wrong and it always ends up with me no longer being friends with them, either by them cutting me off or me doing it myself to save myself the heartbreak.

At this point, I should cut all of my friends out of my life and die alone, because I know I'm going to lose them too.

It's genuinely so tiring having to think about that all of the time, I mean, I literally landed in the mental hospital after I threatened to kill myself because I felt unloved for Christ sake.

I hate being like this so much. WHY CAN'T I JUST FUCKING HAVE A MEANINGFUL FRIENDSHIP THAT ACTUALLY LASTS???

sighs dramatically . i need more than i have i want more than i am i have so little to give yet am so hungry

I do but it's to cope with BPD and it helps with drowning out the noises (kinda) :3

if you use music to cope with anxiety, depression or to help with your ADHD (like me) reblog, I'm trying to prove a point to my teacher

This but instead it's just the most random bullshit either that or my negative perception of relationships or myself lmao

I hate disassociating during class. I go from “the mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell” to “I’m not real, none of this is real, we’re all dead somewhere or in a simulation.”