GUYS OMG I THOUGHT I GAINED MORE WEIGHT BUT I WENT FROM 71.9 TO 69.1 KG AAAAAA I'M SO HAPPY TO BE IN

GUYS OMG I THOUGHT I GAINED MORE WEIGHT BUT I WENT FROM 71.9 TO 69.1 KG AAAAAA I'M SO HAPPY TO BE IN THE 60S AGAIN 😭😭😭

why I want to become skinny

1. I HATE MY BOOBS SOOOO MUCH OMG

they became so big because I gained weight, I feel so ridiculous because I'm a blonde with big boobs and a mediocre face and it's driving me crazy

also they ruin every outfit, because they are not nice boobs, they are fat boobs so they just make me look a hundred times fatter than what I actually am, I hate them so much

(manifesting an A cup)

2. to let that specific person know that I am able to lose weight and she isn't.

she's obese, we are not friends anymore because she's a fucking finger in the ass, she's rude, she thinks she's better than anyone else, SHE EVEN CALLED MY MOM A WHORE AND A SLUT BECAUSE MY MOM SAID (to me in private) THAT SHE THINKS SHE'S A LOSER (she's right btw)

and she even fucking risked my life by giving confidence to a fucking creepy man on the bus we were on, all of this just because she's desperate for cock and she hates the fact that she's 21 and still a virgin (there is literally nothing wrong with this but pop off dainty queen)

I hate her so much, I'm not usually fatphobic but she fucking deserve it, she uses any kind of excuse to not lose weight, if gluttony was a person it would be her, she's so fat I'm so lucky to not be her, I mean yeah I let myself go but I'm still able to see my ribs at least while she can't even sit properly on a chair

so yeah I hope one day she'll be able to see how thin and skinny I have become 🎀🩷

3. I need new clothes and I want to dress like I dream of !!

while I lose weight I also want to grow my hair <3

I already do hair oiling but on some really rare occasions, I need to start doing it twice a week

here's what I've learned about hair oiling for all of you that wants healthy and long hair 🎀🩷

- do it twice a week (never oil everyday)

- let the oil sits for 30 min/4 h (never leave overnight)

- put the oil evenly on all the scalp (don't exaggerate with oil!!)

- massage in circular motions (don't wear tight hairstyles when oiling your scalp)

- rosemary oil is great for hair growth (it should be diluted with other oils to not be too harsh on the scalp)

- if you want a super fast hair growth, you can do 5 min scalp massage everyday without oil (turn your head down to let the circulation do its work)

hope this helps a little 🩵

day 2 ✅

tomorrow I will start this diet plan 🩷

as a young girl I had imaginary friends. as an adult I have an imaginary Russian ballet instructor who shames me for eating and makes me workout for 2 hours a day.

3 ff- cookies, pizza, any sort of packaged sweet

3 sf- cucumber, rice paper, blueberries

dslb: 8 days

dslp: 257 days

dyfkaye: my family is my mom and she's an orthorexic that doesn't want to accept that she has a problem, so yes she knows about it but she doesn't think that is a problem

aycit: I see a therapist smt but we really don't talk about it

hybi: if that means restrict super hard just to see results faster, yes, I've been impatient in the past.

dywtr: I think that anorexia was a problem, but my orthorexia can actually be a good thing to me, so no I don't want to recover

𐙚 ED QUESTIONS 𐙚

3 FEAR FOODS

• 𝐹𝓇𝒾𝑒𝒹 𝒻𝑜𝑜𝒹𝓈

• 𝐵𝒶𝓀𝑒𝒹 𝓈𝓌𝑒𝑒𝓉𝓈

• 𝒫𝓇𝑜𝒸𝑒𝓈𝓈𝑒𝒹 𝓈𝓃𝒶𝒸𝓀𝓈

3 SAFE FOODS

• 𝑅𝒾𝒸𝑒

• 𝒮𝒶𝓁𝓂𝑜𝓃

• 𝒱𝑒𝑔𝑔𝒾𝑒𝓈/𝒻𝓇𝓊𝒾𝓉𝓈

DAYS SINCE LAST BINGE: 10

DAYS SINCE LAST PURGE: I do not purge

DOES YOUR FAMILY KNOW ABOUT YOUR ED?

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ARE YOU CURRENTLY IN TREATMENT?

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HAVE YOU BEEN INPATIENT?

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DO YOU WANT TO RECOVER?

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