3 Ff- Cookies, Pizza, Any Sort Of Packaged Sweet

3 ff- cookies, pizza, any sort of packaged sweet

3 sf- cucumber, rice paper, blueberries

dslb: 8 days

dslp: 257 days

dyfkaye: my family is my mom and she's an orthorexic that doesn't want to accept that she has a problem, so yes she knows about it but she doesn't think that is a problem

aycit: I see a therapist smt but we really don't talk about it

hybi: if that means restrict super hard just to see results faster, yes, I've been impatient in the past.

dywtr: I think that anorexia was a problem, but my orthorexia can actually be a good thing to me, so no I don't want to recover

𐙚 ED QUESTIONS 𐙚

3 FEAR FOODS

• 𝐹𝓇𝒾𝑒𝒹 𝒻𝑜𝑜𝒹𝓈

• 𝐵𝒶𝓀𝑒𝒹 𝓈𝓌𝑒𝑒𝓉𝓈

• 𝒫𝓇𝑜𝒸𝑒𝓈𝓈𝑒𝒹 𝓈𝓃𝒶𝒸𝓀𝓈

3 SAFE FOODS

• 𝑅𝒾𝒸𝑒

• 𝒮𝒶𝓁𝓂𝑜𝓃

• 𝒱𝑒𝑔𝑔𝒾𝑒𝓈/𝒻𝓇𝓊𝒾𝓉𝓈

DAYS SINCE LAST BINGE: 10

DAYS SINCE LAST PURGE: I do not purge

DOES YOUR FAMILY KNOW ABOUT YOUR ED?

𝓝𝓸

ARE YOU CURRENTLY IN TREATMENT?

𝓝𝓸

HAVE YOU BEEN INPATIENT?

𝓝𝓸

DO YOU WANT TO RECOVER?

𝓝𝓸

I've been thru so much, I fucking deserve to be skinny

ariana, my biggest thinspo since I was a child 🩷🩷

a mistake I made today

(I'm not cutting my calories too low like I used to, I'm swinging between 800 and 1000 thanks to the hello kitty diet.)

yesterday (well technically, two days ago since now it's 2 am) was day one of the diet, and it went perfectly, I had to eat 800 calories, I did it in 3 balanced and healthy meals, I was satisfied.

but what happened today, where I had to eat 100 cal more?

I didn't think about volume eating and balance

for breakfast I tried chia pudding, and for lunch I had cucumber sushi.

both are low in calories, right? right

for dinner I had a "wrap" with hummus, carrots and other things.

all of that was more than 500 calories, which means that I wasted more than 1/2 of my daily calorie intake only for dinner!

and the worst thing is that the wrap was not that filling.

but apart from that I'm still very proud, I didn't binge, I didn't eat anything else that was not in my meal plan, I drank 2.5 litres of water.

I already did meal plan for tomorrow and I divided my meals all around 200 cals each, and I choose lots of low cal food that I can actually eat in big portions.

oh and also I got very hungry today because I basically didn't eat protein which is a very bad thing to do, but don't we all learn for our mistakes? 🩷

can't wait to wake up tomorrow, not just because I'm hungry asf, but because I want to see how my body reacts to these slightly differences in my diet, from one day to another.

also I'm paying attention to eating super healthy food, no chemicals, no additives, no ogm, just organic and plain food that makes my body feeling good and full of energy (I actually need it both because I'm sick and I'm renovating my room by myself)

mealspo ⭐ (226 cal)

TW: ED Rant

I absolutely hate what I've done to myself. I was so, so close to being the smallest weight I've been since middle school. I was seeing so much progress on such short time. And now I'm heavier than my highest weight I've ever been in my life. God, I don't even know what to do with myself anymore. I just can't stop shoveling absolute garbage into my mouth. My body looks grotesque now. I don't even know what I'm looking at when I look in the mirror. I'm a fat fucking pig who deserves absolutely nothing.

Tomorrow is my little brother's birthday party and I know I'll hate what I wear because it won't even matter the outfit I choose cause my body is fat and nothing will look good on me and there'll be so much food and candy and cake but I won't eat it. I'm done feeling this way I'll get a job soon and I'll get to skip all the meals I want, just like I did before. And I'll try even harder this time I'll restrict even more

(not my pic)