Day 2

day 2 ✅

tomorrow I will start this diet plan 🩷

has anybody tried chia pudding? I prepared it like ten minutes ago and now it has to sit overnight in the fridge, is it good/does chia actually help with snatching your waist?

TW: ED Rant

I absolutely hate what I've done to myself. I was so, so close to being the smallest weight I've been since middle school. I was seeing so much progress on such short time. And now I'm heavier than my highest weight I've ever been in my life. God, I don't even know what to do with myself anymore. I just can't stop shoveling absolute garbage into my mouth. My body looks grotesque now. I don't even know what I'm looking at when I look in the mirror. I'm a fat fucking pig who deserves absolutely nothing.

Tomorrow is my little brother's birthday party and I know I'll hate what I wear because it won't even matter the outfit I choose cause my body is fat and nothing will look good on me and there'll be so much food and candy and cake but I won't eat it. I'm done feeling this way I'll get a job soon and I'll get to skip all the meals I want, just like I did before. And I'll try even harder this time I'll restrict even more

(not my pic)

why I want to become skinny

1. I HATE MY BOOBS SOOOO MUCH OMG

they became so big because I gained weight, I feel so ridiculous because I'm a blonde with big boobs and a mediocre face and it's driving me crazy

also they ruin every outfit, because they are not nice boobs, they are fat boobs so they just make me look a hundred times fatter than what I actually am, I hate them so much

(manifesting an A cup)

2. to let that specific person know that I am able to lose weight and she isn't.

she's obese, we are not friends anymore because she's a fucking finger in the ass, she's rude, she thinks she's better than anyone else, SHE EVEN CALLED MY MOM A WHORE AND A SLUT BECAUSE MY MOM SAID (to me in private) THAT SHE THINKS SHE'S A LOSER (she's right btw)

and she even fucking risked my life by giving confidence to a fucking creepy man on the bus we were on, all of this just because she's desperate for cock and she hates the fact that she's 21 and still a virgin (there is literally nothing wrong with this but pop off dainty queen)

I hate her so much, I'm not usually fatphobic but she fucking deserve it, she uses any kind of excuse to not lose weight, if gluttony was a person it would be her, she's so fat I'm so lucky to not be her, I mean yeah I let myself go but I'm still able to see my ribs at least while she can't even sit properly on a chair

so yeah I hope one day she'll be able to see how thin and skinny I have become 🎀🩷

3. I need new clothes and I want to dress like I dream of !!

next time you think you'll "just have a little bit" remember that processed foods are engineered to *create* cravings, not to satisfy them

while I lose weight I also want to grow my hair <3

I already do hair oiling but on some really rare occasions, I need to start doing it twice a week

here's what I've learned about hair oiling for all of you that wants healthy and long hair 🎀🩷

- do it twice a week (never oil everyday)

- let the oil sits for 30 min/4 h (never leave overnight)

- put the oil evenly on all the scalp (don't exaggerate with oil!!)

- massage in circular motions (don't wear tight hairstyles when oiling your scalp)

- rosemary oil is great for hair growth (it should be diluted with other oils to not be too harsh on the scalp)

- if you want a super fast hair growth, you can do 5 min scalp massage everyday without oil (turn your head down to let the circulation do its work)

hope this helps a little 🩵