I Can't Stop Posting On Tumblr Everytime Something Happens Lol

I can't stop posting on Tumblr everytime something happens lol

I just don't know why he's taking everything badly, i can't even joke with him, it's not even mean, he just had to do a cringe dance ugh

I'm feeling bad because of this, I feel bad because I'm already not feeling good, I'm not capable of reacting in a good manner to his emotions

I'm trying to explain to him right now what I feel, because what's making him feel bad is that we're distancing each other

Like I said in another post, when I want to talk to him, he's busy and when he wants to talk to me, I'm busy

When I'm asking him what is doing to leave me in delivery for minutes, he'll take it badly

??? I just don't understand anything, I'm trying to communicate but it's so difficult

I feel like he's getting distant, he told me he feels like we're getting distant, what should I do? It's only the beginning, I don't want to fvck everything up😿 I'm tired and pressured from school ugh I can't do it anymore

TW : MENTION OF KMS

I just tried to kms, it's horrible, my body felt panic when it felt like I could finally do it and end it all but the panic was so big that I stopped

I knew it would happen this week, it's not my first time trying, I'm so scared of dying but yk I'm terribly tired of life

EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING is bothering me

I want to cry when dad's voice is a little too loud while talking to me, is it a curse to be so sensitive ?

Of course, I'm not going to tell anyone about this, just Tumblr and me (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠)

bruh he left me on delivered for 30 mins, I feel alone and sad, because I talk to no one else but him and one of my friends, the list is short, I'm lonely and need someone to talk to

I tried to tell him, I'm not the best at communication but I just want him to tell me what he's doing, his hobbies etc, it's just frustrating that I always feel guilty after

It's killing me inside I just want to be well, but since the 1st of September, I'm just sad and feeling more depressed than everything else

I feel like he's so sensitive and I'm already too sensitive, it's destroying everything because I'm not happy with it

But if I say nothing about him being absent, he would just tell me that he feels like I'm not loving him anymore and that we're getting distant ughh

Is it all my fault ? I feel like there's no issue

It's a bigger venting lol I feel so overwhelmed and sad

He's the man that I wanted but why is everything getting so bad lately

The world is against me (⁠ ⁠･ั⁠﹏⁠･ั⁠)

(I like putting cute gifs after saying the most depressing sh!t lol)

i'm just a kid

i never use my brain

i only use my heart

and my imagination

A stranger came into my DMs to send me horrible messages like: "I'm going to rape you," blah blah blah

I first thought it was a bot but he told me than he was not, then I told it to my friend and my bf and...

Well, my bf sent him threats in a message and suddenly the stranger deleted his account???

Then my bf called me a red flag because I didn't want to block the stranger right away (I wanted to know who he was and why he was sending me these types of messages) ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

After calling me a red flag, he told me I was too busy texting the stranger when I was busy studying lolll it just made me so mad bruh

Mostly he was the busy one texting him if he was sending him threats, and also, I should be thankful he reacted this way but idk

It doesn't make me happy to know that