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I feel like honestly, the dissociation side of DID is not talked about enough

Most of the stuff I see on other blogs or even in stuff like multiplicitymay is all centered on alters

Like yes there are alters but what about the c-ptsd? The body memories?? The forgetfulness??? The DISSOCIATION???!?!

(Like literally guys it’s called Dissociative Idenity Disorder)

You could cause more harm than you could ever know...

Stay safe fellow systems 💕

-blurry

Please for the love of care and respect to us people who have Dissociative Identity Disorder, don't tell anyone about us having D.I.D without our consent! Plus don't use triggers to make us switch without our consent!!!

Yeah I get that, at first I didn't know anything about CDD other that some random encounters in internet with OSDDID community content and I didn't understand anything of that, when we finally get my medical recognition I immediately entered in a denial spiral, it was one of the toughest denial episodes I've ever had and it took me like another two years and more personal investigation on the CDD to finally start to accept that what I was experiencing was DID because I was scared and the amnesiac barriers play dirty to you

Amnesiac barrier are very wild and strange, and when you combine them with possessive and non-possessive switches it gets worst, it's a very complicated thing that gets very frustrating when you try to understand it, it works in its own patterns but it differs from sys to sys and that makes it difficult to handle and understand your own case, more with denial and blurry in the same table

Dissociation and amnesia works together in this disorder, and it's wild and interesting trying to understand and find a meaning for the patterns and ways to work form your brain an system

I hope things are getting better for you, and I totally related with what you say

Something that I haven't seen a lot to be talked about in the CDD community is how strange amnesiac barriers can act sometimes

One moment you're talking with the others at front and you're aware of the system, and in the other you feel completely alone and stop knowing about the system and alters like 1-3 months and suddenly they pop up again and make appearance just like nothing happened

When this happens is when I usually get into the denial episodes and start thinking I'm faking, but then they return and I'm more confused than ever

Or when you're normal and suddenly you become hyper aware of your system and start hearing alters that you never heard but aren't new, just the barriers didn't let you know them before

This are just some of the most common experiences we have with the amnesiac barriers and I think it should be talked a little bit more, after all is a primordial part of the complex dissociative disorders

If you want reblog and/or comment your own experiences and thoughts regarding amnesiac barriers!

Or for example in our case we focuse more in the dissociative part cause that's something daily for us, we tend to forget about alters because of dissociationg of the disorder

The CDD community has minimized the disorder into alter disorder and that gets into my guts in a bad way, we need to talk more about other things of CDD, bad, neutral or good

My personal hot take

The CDD community is so focused in the alters part of the dissorder that it became bullshit and some kind of annoying, the community ignoring all the things outside alters and trauma is the reason why CDD community can't be taken seriously by CDD systems that don't care about glorifying and making pretty the disorder