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Okay, the "Brazil" at pile 2 kinda of caught me
Channeled Messages - Traits Of Your Soulmate!
Piles: 1-2-3 4-5-6
Disclaimer:
this is a general message so not all that is mentioned may apply to you/your person, take what resonates!
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I feel like your soulmate is someone from your past. This doesn't only apply to your current waking life, this may be someone you know from a past life or someone from the dream realm. Your soulmate has the most angelic energy. They bring peace wherever they go. I'm getting the message that some of you who picked this pile may work with the Greek God Apollo or are interested in astral travel or shifting. Your person has a bright yellow aura. I also feel that your person may be into foreign music or they may be a polyglot! rainy, dazed, free, child, ship, sail, ghosts, young, journal, kite, fromis_9, love, sleepy, frog, turtleneck, president, frame, glasses, brick, country, india, tulum, minneapolis, highway, plus, notes, music, sticky, gold, ice cream, wales, four leaf clover
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I feel like like your soulmate is the physical version of a chai latte! I know that may sound weird but they have a calming, magnetic, cozy energy. They may wear beige often. I also feel like your soulmate is very clumsy, I'm seeing ink bottles spilled on paper. This person is also a huge animal lover! They may have a pet turtle or a pet named turtle. I also think that this person looooooves pasta so much that they literally eat it multiple times a week.
whales, plaid, plisse, open, knit, wool, maple, orange tabby cat, kristen, california, brazil, pierce, slay, jumping, airplane, drives, dust, flowers, sushi, kintsugi, novels, poetry, virgina woolf, museum, kryptonite
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I feel like your person loves the snow. As a kid they may have wanted to be in the winter olympics. This person is super outgoing but they may use their outgoing personality as a shield. They may really like sonny angel toys and may have a large collection of them! This person could also love watching daily vlogs or healing vlogs. They're also very studious and math may be one of their favorite subjects! cloudy, snow, peace, green, jumbo, lights, blink, rose, waste, glasses, vision, braid, mosquitoes, mountains, sled, porsche, nantucket, lima, yellow, surfing, corners, ikea, polka dot, grapes, beabadoobee, posie
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I'm immediately feeling that this person loves the color pink. They may have or may have had multiple cats. Some people may judge this person because outwardly they may look immature but they actually have so much depth and are extremely intelligent! This person may use really sweet, sugary perfumes similar to sweet like candy by ariana grande. I'm also seeing that this person is an avid gamer and may really like dungeons and dragons or street fighter!
stuffed animals, suede, long, juice, stay, socks, nothing, frost, yes, dungeon, prom, violets, fraises, france, ghost, garden, keep, lock, race, seaside, tyler, chrome, seasons, popcorn, like or like like, lovely, music, chasing
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Your person has total Rory Gilmore vibes regardless of their gender. They may wear striped long sleeve shirts and flare jeans a lot. They also really like the marauders from harry potter. Their favorite food is soup, more specifically clam chowder? This person loves going to concerts/movies and they may keep their concert/movie tickets pasted in a red journal. pancakes, sociable, snakes, ring, right, map, facing, dress, horse, turkey, love, tidal, cross, breathe, mantra, west, vibes, running, salon, juniper, resting, also, miso, yogurt, chambers, register, wash, above, charlie, tiger
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Your person loves taking selfies lol. They are always taking pictures and they may even be an influencer. I'm also feeling that they love having quiet time, they find being alone and being quiet so relaxing. This person may collect vintage items and may have a vintage scarf that they tie to their bag. This person also really loves brownies lol. They have a very calming presence and they'll help you learn how to reflect inwardly! holding, four, poles, moist, jungle, ranch, halsey, notion, falling, number, erase, data, samsung, princess, quality, cyan, random, coarse, hiding, shiba, lemon, pricy, bait, madison, wisconsin, logic, bread, pumpkin, lavender
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Major Arcana - 9. The Hermit
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Astrological sign or planet - Virgo
Element - earth
Key meaning - healing and self-exploration
YES card
time to go alone, to break with conversation and find our soul’s path
receiving mentorship or advice from someone wiser than ourselves in order to keep progressing in our chosen path
♦ Qualities of the card - guidance, illumination teaching by example ★ Associated object and location - a lamp, a staff, a hight path, a sign, a lighthouse
❂Upright meaning
opportunity to take time away from the routine to consider your option or advance a personal project
enjoying solitude - you need space to process your thoughts and feelings
you need mental space to connect with your inner wisdom
don’t rush into your next project - take time to sit and think things through
home - avoid making big decisions at present
relationship - take time to invest in your current relationship or to work in your relationship with yourself; period of being single - it recommends space apart so that you can ultimately grow closer together
career and money - represent unemployment or self-employment for a period of time
health - worry and stress literally eat us from the inside out; you are doing too much to the extent that you are at risk of health issues and concerns
❂Reversed meaning
feel alone and unsupported
you should ask yourself if you are avoiding help
accepting the role that you find hard to let go of due to habit or stubbornness
relationship - you’re on the path to reconciling with an ex or old lover
family and home - you have taken your solitude too far -you have an important role to play in your family, you need to support your loved ones and show them your affection
work - not being afraid to ask for help when you need it
health - is rarely a sign of anything serious to worry about
you haven’t learned from past experiences
❂Reflections
+ 7 of Wands = standing alone, advocating your beliefs
+ 9 of Wands = need for protection
+ Queen of Swords = independence
Major Arcana - 10. The wheel of fortune
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Astrological sign or planet - Jupiter
Element - fire
Key meaning - fate, change, intuition
MAYBE card
something great coming
strings being pulled for something to happen
♦ Qualities of the card - cause/effect, cycles, chance, changes in rotation ★ Associated object and location - a wheel, a bicycle, an elevator, games of chance
≛Upright meaning
unexpected offers
news arrive in force
if life has been difficult recently, a turn for the better will come
listen to your intuition
manifest your wishes
home - unexpected change in your living arrangements
relationship - an ex-partner pr love interest comes back and you will decide if this relationship will succeed; your luck will be changing;
career and money - news that will improve your situation; do not be afraid to take a chance, luck is on your side
health - you will notice vitality and an increase in health
≛Reversed meaning
bad luck
the benefits of the upright will come, just that it will take a little longer to move you forward
you’ve hit a snag and things are slowing down
try not to worry too much - relax and let these difficult times pass
≛Reflections
+ 6 of Swords = moving on
+ 9 of cups = wish come true
Major Arcana - 11. Justice
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Astrological sign or planet - Libra the scales
Element - air
Key meaning - balance, perceptions, objectivity
MAYBE card
focusing on the mind rather than the emotions
bringing balance
finding harmony and bringing things to a new stable ground
♦ Qualities of the card - balance, law, rightness ★ Associated object and location - scales, a sword, a blindfold, a courthouse
⁑Upright meaning
a time when past errors or imbalances can be redressed
be the judge in your own life
justice will be done and order restored
actions and consequences
influential people favor you now
there might be hard lessons to learn - the right things will happen in the end
home - legal issues concerning propriety are resolved
relationship - take care of your emotional needs; find a balance between work and relationship; you have found a soul mate but they are trying to stay balanced
career and money - you might be tested at work but the outcome is positive; job interviews and negotiations are successful
health - remind yourself how to treat your body well, because the Justice card does not give multiple warnings
⁑Reversed meaning
relationship and money issues spiral out of control
you are treated unfairly - bad advice from a trusted individual
find your voice and stand strong to your values
losing a legal battle
rejection
inability to communicate
lack of balance
someone is giving you an unwise advice
⁑Reflections
+ Ace of Sword = clarity of thoughts, success
+ 2 of Swords = a pending decision
Major Arcana - 12. The hanged man
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Astrological sign or planet – Neptune
Element – water
MAYBE card
safely – he knows he cannot fall
sacrifice
prepare to make the sacrifices he can move on
“hang in there” and stay calm while things are not going as planed
♦ Qualities of the card - suspension, higher values, sacrifice ★ Associated object and location - a gent’s tie, a spider in a web, dew hanging on a tree
✥Upright meaning
hanging around
you may have made sacrifices and you will see rewards
you may expect delays to travel plans and other projects
your project needs time to evolve(use this time to develop a perspective on your work and your ambitions)
try to see things from a new angle
home – waiting and delay may affect remodeling or house moves; try to invest your time wisely while you wait
relationship – you are unable to get the commitment you need from your partner; you may be unwilling to commit; now is the time for you to consider taking a step back to calculate all of your options
career and money – hold back on signing contracts or dealing with legal matters just now; trust your instincts
health - a need for a second opinion in medical decisions
✥Reversed meaning
rigid thinking
you might need to revise your expectations
you are stuck doing the same old things
a sacrifice you have to make
you are having difficulty making decisions
✥Reflections
+ 2 of Wands = reversed - delays to plans
+ 3 of Wands = reversed - delays to travel
+ 8 of Wands = delay with moving and communication
Major arcana - 13. Death
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Astrological sign or planet – Scorpio
Element – water
Key meaning – transformation and change
MAYBE card
whatever is worth having will be saved but what is irrelevant will be taken
abandonment and loss
end of a minor cycle and beginning of a new one filled with other challenges or conditions
let go and heal even if it’s painful
♦ Qualities of the card - transformation, change, elimination ★ Associated object and location - a dead insect, a fossil, something broken made into something new
❈Upright meaning
time of fast and deep transformation
an opportunity to let go of whatever you no longer need
a break with the past(from relationships and friends that no longer satisfy you)- the only way forward
home – you need to find a new home
relationship – a relationship ends; a period of necessary separation; in friendship – there will be an opportunity to reconnect when the time is right
career and money – career change; ending of a business partnership; new opportunity on the horizon
health - if you desire to feel well, your entire body and senses must be focused on that healing in order for that to change; end of a disease, or inapplicable circumstances
❈Reversed meaning
you might feel anxious and stressed, unable to understand what is happening rather than being accepting
relationship - you are holding onto an unhealthy relationship. ; for those who are single, this card reversed is a sign you need to learn from your past
family - firm signal that something is not right
work - stagnation and lack of satisfaction; you are likely, not happy in your career, yet you aren’t doing anything to change it
health - a signal of some medical trouble, continual struggle - a health problem that is chronic or slow-burning;
❈Reflections
+ 10 of Swords = endings
+ 4 Aces = beginnings
Major Arcana - 14. Temperance
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The Temperance card often comes up in a reading when you need to learn or understand the concept of all things in moderation.
Astrological sign or planet - Sagittarius
Element - fire
Key meaning - moderation, reconciliation, healing, and angelic guidance
MAYBE card
♦ Qualities of the card - Tempering, patience, combination ★ Associated object and location - a cake, a recipe, a cocktail
❂Upright meaning
you are dealing with a potentially volatile situation and you need to temper your thoughts and actions to find balance and harmony
accepting both sides of a situation and be guided by what feels more natural to you
beginning of a spiritual journey to you
learn to relax and take things as they come
home - running a household, dealing with demanding children or partners
relationship - a stage when you can reach a new level of trust; if single - being guided to a new partner; a need for balance between both individuals
career and money - dealing with difficult or highly sensitive individuals; be the diplomat and you can work a miracle
health - indicative of mental health and can do not ignore signs or symptoms of anxiety, depression, or overindulgent behavior
❂Reversed meaning
imbalance and unfairness in the relationship
problem with money
struggling with change
difficult old memories can resurface and you feel held back - try to look at what you need now in the present
you are impatient when dealing with others or trying situations
you are feeling stagnant and unable to finish projects
learn to slow down
❂Reflections
+ 2 of Coins = weighing up a decision, money flow
+ 6 of Cups = harmony
+ Page of Cups = magical thinking
Major Arcana - 15. The Devil
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It shows that there are unhealthy aspects of your life that you are likely ignoring.
Astrological sign or planet - Capricorn
Element - earth
Key meaning - enslavement and temptation
NO card
♦ Qualities of the card - attachment, ignorance, reversed or blinded perception ★ Associated object and location - a bicycle lock and a chain, a padlock, a trailer hitched to a vehicle, a goat or other animal with horns
۞Upright meaning
what started positively has reversed and now you are seeing a situation for what it is
greed, temptation, and materialism
you are stuck in a situation that isn’t making you happy - you need a change
you are too attached to material things and ignoring your spiritual side
home - living with domineering people; negative people may drain your energy
relationship - difficult relationship(controlling partners, codependent partners); money or property issues keep you tied to the past; not being able to trust your own judgment(blinded by past deceptions)
career and money - bad financial contacts; unsatisfying careers; you should watch carefully for anyone offering you a hand up at this time(do not be tempted by taking the easy road or shortcuts)
health - hidden health issues often of internal organs or silent diseases such as diabetes, high blood pressure, or mental weariness
۞Reversed meaning
time to acknowledge how you may be trapped and to begin to search for the light
the decision you need to make will be easier than you think
a situation is not quite as drastic as your first thought
past experiences have taught you well and you’ve faced the fears that were holding you back
Reflections
+ 2 of Swords = being stuck
+ 3 of Swords = conflict and betrayal
+ 8 of Swords = restriction
Major Arcana - 16. The tower
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When the Tower shows itself in your reading, consider it as a blessing in disguise
Astrological sign or planet - Uranus
Element - fire
Key meaning - destruction and enlightenment
NO card
♦ Qualities of the card - sudden change, acceleration ★ Associated object and location - lighting, a bright flash or sudden shock, a practical joke, a ruined building
✨Upright meaning
sudden change, inevitable due to forces beyond our control
what you build next can have more foundation
home - abrupt change to your circumstances; a property you hoped to move but does not materialize
relationship - a secret comes to light which may be shocking; intense physical or spiritual attraction; be honest with yourself and your partner
career and money - change; a person in a position of power makes tough decisions
health - clears out all the possibilities for you to heal wrong, leaving only the possibility that the final outcome is that you will be well
✨Reversed meaning
taking responsibility even when you are blameless
you have held on to a career, project, or relationship that is not strong enough to stand the test of time
you should not give in and just start again
opportunity to rest
there is something that you are avoiding
Reflections
+ 3 of Swords = sorrow and pain
+ 7 of Swords = loss
+ 5 of Cups = loss and upset
Major Arcana - 17. The star
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Lucky you! If the Star card is coming up in your reading then you should feel just a little bit special.
Astrological sign or planet - Aquarius
Element - Air
Key meaning - hope, guidance, inspiration, creativity
YES card
♦ Qualities of the card - vision, hope, a guide ★ Associated object and location - a star in any form, a twinkle of light in a mirror
⭐Upright meaning
starting to appreciate everything life had to offer
your efforts are appreciated
your hopes and dreams just might come true
home - inspired to create beauty and style in your home; if you have your eye on a dream home it will come to you
relationship - destined to be with someone; time to find a soul mate; other relationships are calm and harmonious
career and money - money luck; work you do begins to pay off
health - a great time to think about making a positive change in your health
⭐Reversed meaning
giving up too easily on your projects - lack of confidence in your intuition and have low self-esteem
feeling alone just now without the support you need
your dreams seem unattainable
Reflections
+ 3 of Coins = creativity
+ 9 of Cups = luck and a wish come true
+ Ace of Wands = creativity and inspiration
Major Arcana - 18. The moon
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Astrological sign or planet - Pisces
Element - Water
Key meaning - illusion, dreams, crisis
NO card
card of duality
something very important is about to surface
something hidden comes to the surface, things are starting to make sense
♦ Qualities of the card - fear, illusion, dreams, the unconscious ★ Associated object and location - an incense-filled room, a piece of silver, a sign saying “dream”
🎇Upright meaning
a crisis of faith and a period of emotional vulnerability
a time of deep emotional conflict
the struggle is private rather than shared
home - second thoughts about a move or home improvement projects
relationship - confusion, and disappointment - someone lets you down
career and money - you may need to protect yourself from other’s negativity; money matters are stable but you want more satisfaction from work
health - issues with mental health(for people that are diagnosed with mental issues such as depression, bipolar)the Moon is a reminder to keep taking your medication
🎇Reversed meaning
your needs are not expressed or recognized
going back to old ways of coping with the past
you can trust your instincts again
making decisions is less difficult because things seem more clear to you now
Reflections
+ 5 of Coins = insecurity
+ 9 of Swords = anxiety
+ 7 of Cups = fantasy and possibility
Major arcana - 19. The sun
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Children being born, questions of prosperity are answered, an abundance of wealth and recovery from illness are all implied by this card.
Astrological sign or planet - The Sun
Element - fire
Key meaning - success, good health, and a holiday
YES card
♦ Qualities of the card - expansion, light, success ★ Associated object and location - the sun, a piece of gold, a smiling face
🔆Upright meaning
success, achievements, satisfaction, happiness
if you have a challenging time, every aspect of your life will improve
reunited with an old friend, partner, family member
home - comfortable and secure in your home; children coming into your home
relationship - relationship grows - take a trip to a sunny place to escape every pressure
career and money - success and a position from which you can generate money; monetary gain and growth
health - healthy mind and body in healing as well thriving after illness
🔆Reversed meaning
delay in travel plans but you will enjoy a happy and content period regardless
you are reminded that the sun doesn’t shine every day
Reflection
+ 4 of Wands = happiness, and freedom
+ Ace of Cups = love and nurturing
+ 6 of Cups = harmony and old friend
Major arcana - 20. Judgment
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Judgement can come in the form of your own personal judgment and in that case the card is telling you to be careful how you proceed
Astrological sign or planet - Pluto
Element - Fire
Key meaning - assessment and letting go of the past
YES card
♦ Qualities of the card - decision, calling, resurrection ★ Associated object and location - an unexpected call or visit, a party invitation
🌠Upright meaning
time to come to a decision about the past
you will feel you have acted with integrity and did the best you could
your confidence and wisdom will grow
home - you may be drawn to an old property; consider returning to a place with happy memories
relationships - love shifts into a new phase; the need for reconciliation; single - revisit an old relationship and decide if it is worth trying again; this card comes up after a relationship is already over or about to end
career and money - acknowledgment for your success is coming; thinking about the future and that you need to make some important decisions
🌠Reversed meaning
refuse to learn the lesson that is there in front of you
being in old patterns and not being able to break free
feeling trapped and unable to progress without really understanding why
doubting yourself
cannot make a decision
Reflections
+ 6 of Cups = nostalgia and reunions
+ 9 of Cups = contentment in achievement
Major arcana - 21. The world
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Astrological sign or planet - Saturn
Element - earth
Key meaning - completion, success, rewards, joy
YES card
perfection
blessings for a work well done
triumph overall challenges and conflicts
♦ Qualities of the card - synthesis, wholeness, completion ★ Associated object and location - nature, all 4 elements, the last piece of a jugsaw puzzle
✨Upright meaning
triumph, completion
the reward for your efforts
anniversaries, birthdays, parties
home - a dream home come true; whatever you have worked towards ca be yours
relationship - happiness and joy; you have a relationship that is fulfilling and ling; for women looking to get pregnant, it shows that the timing is also right
career and money - achieving your goals; an award at work
health - healing or defeating illness; a good indicator of mental or spiritual health as well
✨Reversed meaning
you are ready to move but feel blocked or don’t feel you are deserving success
time to redefine what you want and adjust your expectations
perseverance, determination
feeling frustrated
excessive demands from others
opportunity to start again
relationship - there is someone for you out in the world - a good sign because that person is close; for those with an established relationship - slow but positive changes
family - warning for you that your travels may not go as planned
work - a good sign for new work and promotions, you’re going to get what you have worked for
health - physically or mentally, you are likely feeling fatigued
Reflections
+ 10 of Pentacles = families coming together in love and financial reward
+ 10 of Cups = family love
+ 6 of Wands = victory
What does your future spouse find cute about you?
Pile one Pile two
Pile three Pile four
Pile one
Your future spouse finds it cute that you're always eager to learn new information. You may also try to be playful or come across as strong but they don't really see you as physically strong so they find it funny. They find it cute that you try to get aggressive with them when you don't have the physical strength to back it up. This is just playful, so if someone is trying to hurt you and finds your resistance cute/funny, then this is not the person. You have the balance of cute and "violent." Your future spouse finds this cute. You might try to play hit them and they find that specifically adorable about you. The last pile may be for you if you felt drawn to it.
Pile two
Your future spouse notices you are a bit of perfectionist and they see it as cute. They don't understand why you focus so much on little things when they see every part of you as perfect already. You over analyze things often instead of looking at the big picture. Then you over think an the big picture becomes about 70 million other small pictures that don't match up to create the big picture anymore. Basically, you over think and create a new idea in your head of things instead of focusing on the big things. They also find it cute that you have a lot of duality. You can change up from scary to cute quickly or mean to nice or something along those lines.
Pile three
Your future spouse finds it cute how you like making cute little crafts. They also like how you are super romantic. You might make them cute romantic cards or foods. You're a very creative person. They like seeing what you can come up with. They have fun trying to convince you that your work is good even though you're stubborn. They genuinely enjoy what you make even if it's childish/childlike or bad to you. They love how dedicated you are and how much passion you have. You might be an artist. They love how stubborn you are. They find most things about you cute, overall. You could like baking/cooking. DDLC may be significant, especially natsuki.
Pile four
Right off the bat, I'm getting that they love how unique you are. They like seeing how unpredictable and "crazy" you act. It's like you always keep them entertained or busy. I'm hearing that you keep their hands full. They find you crazy in a cute way. They think you being as emotional as you are is cute, especially considering how you act all crazy all the time. You're very emotional and you enjoy expressing how you feel, even if the ways you do so are seen as odd. They find it cute that you throw little "tantrums" and have little mood swings. They think it's cute that you get cranky and need naps all the time. They find you being so protective/possessive adorable as well. You may use yandere stuff to cope (like #bpdyandere or something). If you felt drawn to another pile, especially pile one then check them.
pac,, what should you do to move forward?
pile one,,
the first thing you should focus on is healing your trauma or any negative past you've been holding onto. during this time it would help to accept help from others and be open to assistance even if you're scared of opening up. healing your inner child could be very significant. you have a lot of work to do regarding your mental health. neglecting and ignoring your mental struggles won't make them go away. you probably like to imagine others caring for you but you need to be the one to care for you. opal (the jack stauber short) may also be significant. having a healthy routine even if it's just focusing on one specific thing would really make a large impact on you for the better.
pile two,,
i feel like you were probably bullied. you were treated as weird or excluded in some way. like fire drill (Melanie Martinez). you spent a long time feeling weak. it's time to actually stand up for yourself. friends and possibly romantic partners even have treated you wrongly in the past. you should be using these past experiences to your advantage instead of beating yourself over it. how do you wanna be different now? what people do you wish to attract now? how can you avoid things like that happening again? you are very intuitive but you don't use your spiritual abilities to help yourself. trust yourself more often. you don't have to act tough or hard to protect yourself. just protect yourself like you wish others did back then.
pile three,,
this pile feels less amused. like kind of tired. you could currently struggle with depression. you've felt like you had to fight your entire life. not just others, but also your own emotions. you don't allow yourself to feel. you probably grew up in a chaotic environment where you felt it was best/safer for you to not feel at all and developed that mindset early on. you need to balance your mood and emotions. you also need to let go of this fighter mindset. i'm getting fighter by jack stauber and dollhouse by Melanie. you have to take care of yourself and your own feelings. like in that one best american girl scene (mitski) where she started kissing her hand. you could also use music a lot to cope as a way of escapism.
pac,, what do you need to hear right now?
pile one,,
it's okay to take self care moments. you don't always have to focus on what you have to do at the moment. just trust that you'll be able to rest without negative consequences. you should celebrate yourself and your achievements more. stop focusing so much on the bad parts of the past and tearing yourself down for it. if you're not doing that for the positive parts too, what's the point? keep looking for your passion.
pile two,,
your hard work will pay off. don't give up or waste all of it. if you continue doing well, you will be rewarded. i'm getting the image of working on a garden. it is guaranteed to get better so there's no need to stress as much as you do. you've been working on your own without much help. you'll be able to help other people once you get your reward but make sure you save some enjoyment for yourself.
pile three,,
you have a choice to make. keep continuing on the way you are now and remain focused on the past or focus on yourself and work on self-improvement. you'll be pushed in the right direction. this could be through adding a new problem to your life to get you to realize something. like a tower moment. don't worry too much though, it'll work out.
pile four,,
you could be moving on from someone right now. either a close ex friend or partner. you've been doing amazing. you realized how easy it is to move on now that you've actually tried. i'm currently playing sue me by sabrina carpenter too. you've been enjoying this new-found freedom. you realized you've been holding yourself back this entire time. you're learning and working on your emotions and mental health. stop fantasizing about how it would be to be close to them again cuz it's not happening.
𝐩𝐚𝐜,, 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐛𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐞 𝐞𝐫𝐚?
(𝘶𝘴𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘣𝘢𝘥𝘥𝘪𝘦 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘪 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘰𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘰𝘯 💀)
ʚ★ɞ pile one ๋࣭ ⭑
TW,, THIS PILE CONTAINS DARKER TOPICS OF TRAUMA, DISORDERS, SA.
you need confidence. don't go overboard with it though. you may have bipolar or a cluster b disorder which can cause issues regarding overconfidence and/ or confidence. take it how it resonates. you could have had a bad past with sexual trauma. you have to take back your power regarding your trauma. you could try to work for male validation and during this time, it'd be best for you to learn to seek validation from yourself instead of men.
ʚ★ɞ pile two ๋࣭ ⭑
money could be a problem for you. the best thing to do is to understand that you'll be taken care of by the universe, god, your spirit guides or whoever you believe in. it'll be taken care of. have more faith. for now, stop worrying about it. you'll be good. let go of your issues for a bit and let yourself have some actual fun. you could also have some toxic friends that are weighing you down. you don't owe your friends money, advice, venting or anything else. you clearly have your own issues and don't have to worry about anyone else's. take this time for yourself
ʚ★ɞ pile three ๋࣭ ⭑
you're literally the only one holding you back right now. stop self sabotaging yourself. you have to be the one rooting for you. you feel abandoned because you abandoned yourself. you aren't showing yourself any love or care. even if others aren't doing it, you have to. if nobody is gonna do it then that's your job. you could be feeling betrayed by someone right now. choose to let go and be happy. it might be difficult but go where your happiness takes you. if it's healthy and you want it, then go for it.
pac,, who do you need cut off with and why?
🌱 pile one,,
who?
there's a friend (or multiple) that you have who acts like they're all intellectual and therefore superior that you, which isn't true. you've fought with them before already, possibly even multiple times. you chose to forgive them and move on because this feeling they know better than you or that your exaggerating. they don't support you or help you with your issues. maybe the ghosting type of person. either way, absent when you need them the most.
why?
you may have also been warned about this person before. maybe even by this person if they're the type of person that's like "im just so toxic." if you stay around them, you'll keep letting them belittle your intelligence and it'll damage you. they're causing chaos in your life and are toxic to be around. the energy for this reading came out very clearly so this may not be the first time they're telling you this.
🥟 pile two,,
who?
this could be a lover or romantic interest or just someone who likes you. this mf is... poetic? as in weird straight boy poetic. they're super emotional which wouldn't be a bad thing but they make it your problem. they disguise them using you as being emotionally open. they cross your boundaries repeatedly. you're not the only one they do this with. they're just desperate for someone. you probably shouldn't even give them the time of day tbh.
why?
this person is immature asf, but they still know what they're doing. they overthink themselves near to death and make you fix it. this is not something you have to deal with. if you stay around them too long, you'll start absorbing up their issues for them. don't let someone like this take your power away.
🍵 pile three,,
who?
i feel like this person is a girl(?) who can't choose if they wanna commit or go out partying or whatever. they're out of touch with their emotions and are used to just pushing them away. (why do all of my piles have the worst emotionally using people? 😭 do better, y'all.) when they found out you were in touch with your emotions, they decided to fuck with you. this person is leading you on or pretending they're offering more later. they aren't.
why?
this person is gonna use your passion for them to get money or material things from you. eventually they'll betray you. this is not someone you wanna keep around. once you leave, ngl it'll suck, but once you learn to function on your own without anyone else, you'll come out stronger and better than before. you don't owe anyone money, advice, or anything else to deserve love. you deserve love regardless.
pac ☆ what next?
pile one
rn im getting the same energy as when princess carolyn from bojack horseman lectures herself for the first time 😭 like she was known for lecturing everybody else and it was a running thing but she had to do it to herself. you had all this knowledge on smth and it didn't go as planned but that's completely alright. just restart and learn more. could have been a breakup. basically you spent all that time worrying and it's time to just like... not? thinking about it won't make it go away. focus on you. you got this, believe in yourself.
pile two
you gotta stop trying to be perfect. just because you aren't the best at everything doesn't mean you aren't good or that you shouldn't see yourself as the best 💀 confidence is key. you just have childhood trauma you need to work on. it won't get better if you don't work on it. quit being stubborn. your idea of strength is based off what others think of strength and now what strength is. strength is not hiding emotions. strength is being able to deal with them. there's not much else to this reading because once you work on accepting how you are already, you'll be good.
pile three
i'm hearing "enjoy your gifts." you dealt w someone (probably romantic) who used you for money. like just mooched off all your money and shit. you were (reasonably) hurt but whatever you did, even if it's just letting yourself feel, you're getting your rewards. don't be impatient. you have your own financial independence now and it's your choice to do what you want with it. give from a place where you actually have extras to give. you definitely have a problem w being overgenerous 😶 don't do that anymore. give when you have extra. don't stress over this person, they're literally not all that. YOU'RE all that.