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pac,, general financial tarot reading
pile one,,
you're very generous with your money but that can backfire very easily. watch who you trust with your money. not everybody is your friend or worth giving money to. you might have recently discovered something new financially. something like a better way to manage your money or a tip on saving. after hard work, there will soon be a sharp increase in your funds. you could possibly be starting a new job or career path. you're still a bit too trust in with your money and may be a heavy impulsive spender. make sure to think rationally and protect your money.
pile two,,
there's a lot of positive change. you're finally going after what you want and are passionate about. you may be investing or working into stocks. someone may have used you for money/ is currently using you for money but you're now realizing that you deserve better and this will end negatively for you. you're finally putting yourself as a priority, especially financially. as a result, you're being rewarded with new jobs, gifts, and more money in general. you're too stuck in the past. even if you struggled with money in the past, you won't forever.
pile three,,
currently it may feel like you're reaching for scraps financially but there's better things coming. have faith in the universe and any deities you have belief in. there could be inheritance or sudden positive karmic changes. instead of being negative and upset about the money you don't have, learn to appreciate the money you do. try to see the bright side of things sometimes. there's nothing wrong with keeping your money safe and close but don't be scared to spend it sometimes, even if it's not on a necessity. if you're unable to get a job or you aren't currently able to make an income, you might wanna try manifesting. make sure you have the right mindset to manifest though.
Pac, who's your soulmate?
Your soulmate is someone who overthinks a lot. When they see you, you might notice them trying to fix their hair or make sure they look nice. You mutually make each other feel complete. It's like they're fixated on you. They just wanna hold you as their own. Like "you're mine". It may seem a bit possessive but they just wanna hold you and keep you safe. There's no negative intentions with this. They're a hard worker and wanna make sure you don't have to work as hard as them. They might take you out and buy you gifts. I'm getting that you may be really stressed a lot currently or at the time you meet your soulmate if you haven't yet. They notice/will notice how stressed you are even if you try to hide it. They wanna take away your worries and help you relax. Maybe with a massage or words of affirmation after work. They could also let you vent a lot. They like giving you presents and surprises. Maybe throwing surprise parties for you. It seems like they're trying to break down your boundaries a bit so they can give you gifts and I'm getting they wanna give you " everything you want." They don't think you'll really accept the gifts otherwise. They could have had a bad past or have tried to be some type of "player" but now they're trying to focus on you and change. They're someone you can really trust and open up to. They're a non-judgemental person to talk to especially if you're looking for practical advice when you're mind is clouded. They're very trust worthy and they'll build your relationship off trust and love.
Music could be significant, especially lofi and/or classical music. Your soulmate is extremely fair and morally correct. They could study a lot of social problems and try to keep their awareness up. They're very stubborn and won't back down easily, especially if it's something they believe in. They might be a bit trapped in their own mind. Like they imagine people out a certain way and expect them to be like that in reality. They may rely on material things and sexual things to cope with trauma and to keep themselves "protected." They could have had traumatic experience with a father figure. They try to cope with things that are overall unhealthy for them. They also worry too much about their reputation and try to portray themselves in a "strong" way. Could also struggle with toxic masculinity. Even with that, they've been doing everything on their own. They do know how to take care of themselves (somewhat) and others but they often choose not to in fear of being hurt or used. They've worked hard for what they earned and aren't ready to give it up that easily to just anyone. They're scared of saying too much about their emotions or opening up. This person could very much have other options but you're actually the person for them (the lovers card). They're not used to feeling this rushing wave of emotions and they aren't exactly sure how to deal with it. It's like they wanna be tough but have this tiny little soft spot for you that they can't get rid of. It might make them uncomfortable? Like they wanna be all cool and edgy or whatever but they can't because you and they don't know why they feel this way. They're friends are what to watch out for though. They could be bad influencers or sabotaging.
You have a very soft and caring energy to you. Not in a people pleaser way (at least mostly not) but more in a sincere and laid back way. You may be taking time to heal and focus on work or school currently. Your soulmate tries to hide their feelings a bit with a cold persona. In reality, they're really really in love with you. They love how nice and perfect you seem. They wanna provide mental and emotional stability for you. They also wanna know more about who you are as a person. They may be straight forward and a bit blunt when it comes to you. Like the main love interest from"Marry My Husband." I got the queen of swords and king of swords for you two. This is a connection where both parties better each other and learn. Not only learning through experience, but also learning directly from each other. They're scared you may leave them for other options or that you're already with someone who you think is better. They're very protective of you, especially when it comes to who you hang around. They think some people you surround yourself with aren't in your best interest and could be causing you harm. They wanna keep you away from them and have you more to themselves. Your friends may make you do all the work in the friendship or exclude you. I'm also getting using you for entertainment. Soon, the friendship will end so there's no means in sticking around to watch as it happens. They see obvious commitment issues from a fear of being left/abandoned. However, they also see this making it difficult for you to leave toxic people behind. They wanna let you know they're here for you and will take care of your emotional needs in any way you want from them.
PAC, what you're doing right vs wrong
one two three
Pile one,,
Right:
currently you're working on yourself and dedicating time for yourself. you're analyzing the past and improving based on what you did wrong before. this mental health journey is really significant for you. working on your personal hobbies and talents is really helpful right now and could be a way you are dedicating time for yourself.
Wrong:
right now you are pushing people away and ignoring the people that genuinely care about you and are in your best interest. you're fearing change and actively refusing to improve or change at all. you're also holding yourself to this incredible standard. you're letting yourself rely on others too much/letting others rely on you too much and it's making you/them weaker. you have to get out of your head and make changes yourself.
Pile two,,
Right:
you're taking a rest, especially from people. you're holding yourself back from dealing with a toxic masculine person (could be any gender ofc). this person is negative for you and it's best to keep your distance as you're doing right now. you're doing something new, a big change from how things usually are for you. you're finally taking this leap and moving forward.
Wrong:
You're currently being a bit lost in your own delusions. You keep settling for people who are less. You let people treat you terribly and still only give them the best. You don't give yourself enough credit and you have really low self esteem. You're always knowingly letting people use you. You're ignoring your mental health flaws and pretending like you're done healing when you aren't. it might be tough but you have to keep going. i guarantee you got this.
Pile three,,
Right:
you acknowledge your flaws and mental health struggles. you are able to understand how you are and why you're like that. you may often psychoanalyze yourself, especially your trauma responses. you're learning more about yourself and are studying your behaviors. doing this can help you be able to solve the problems you have.
Wrong:
Even though you know what you have to do to fix the problems you deal with, you don't take action. this could possibly be because of depression. you're so used to living the way you are now that you don't find a point in helping yourself. you're also being overgenerous with people when you don't have enough to give to others. you could be letting people vent knowing you're not in the right place. it's best for you if you just tell them you need a break or need help. if they still demand from you, they aren't good to keep around.
PAC, how will you unlock your fs's heart?
P1 P2 P2
P1
First off, making your partner feel safe and/or actually keeping them safe. Also going on dates. Your fs could struggle with trusting people. They like how you make sure they're alright financially but allow them to remain independent as well. I feel like you may be rich or more financially stable when in comparison to this person so they feel like they're living a life of luxury with you. They're glad you recognize your own flaws kind of like it's a hidden part of you.
P2
One of the reasons they'll fall in love with you is because you're very fair but less in a "harmonious balance" way and more in a "chaotic nanno" way. You're also very emotional mature or balanced. You know how to manage your emotions and seem mostly calm. You're independent and don't need others to fight your battles for you. It's not just to impress, you genuinely prefer to deal with your own issues. You stand out to them. I'm getting that you shine brighter than others to them.
P1
They're in love with you because you're able to remain being yourself regardless of backlash and hate from other people. You probably are good at making people feel better even if you're not doing it on purpose. You provide good insight for people when they need help with making important choices. You may have gone through some terrible things, maybe even with this person for some. If this person was wrong before, they wanna prove that they're better now. If not, they wanna show they can be better than how you were treated before by other people.
pac,, what should you do to move forward?
pile one,,
the first thing you should focus on is healing your trauma or any negative past you've been holding onto. during this time it would help to accept help from others and be open to assistance even if you're scared of opening up. healing your inner child could be very significant. you have a lot of work to do regarding your mental health. neglecting and ignoring your mental struggles won't make them go away. you probably like to imagine others caring for you but you need to be the one to care for you. opal (the jack stauber short) may also be significant. having a healthy routine even if it's just focusing on one specific thing would really make a large impact on you for the better.
pile two,,
i feel like you were probably bullied. you were treated as weird or excluded in some way. like fire drill (Melanie Martinez). you spent a long time feeling weak. it's time to actually stand up for yourself. friends and possibly romantic partners even have treated you wrongly in the past. you should be using these past experiences to your advantage instead of beating yourself over it. how do you wanna be different now? what people do you wish to attract now? how can you avoid things like that happening again? you are very intuitive but you don't use your spiritual abilities to help yourself. trust yourself more often. you don't have to act tough or hard to protect yourself. just protect yourself like you wish others did back then.
pile three,,
this pile feels less amused. like kind of tired. you could currently struggle with depression. you've felt like you had to fight your entire life. not just others, but also your own emotions. you don't allow yourself to feel. you probably grew up in a chaotic environment where you felt it was best/safer for you to not feel at all and developed that mindset early on. you need to balance your mood and emotions. you also need to let go of this fighter mindset. i'm getting fighter by jack stauber and dollhouse by Melanie. you have to take care of yourself and your own feelings. like in that one best american girl scene (mitski) where she started kissing her hand. you could also use music a lot to cope as a way of escapism.
pac,, which people should you cut off now and why?
(i randomly felt like I had to do this reading for some reason)
pile one,,
this is most likely an ex partner or crush. you're holding on to this. I'm not sure if you're doing this because you still love them but you have to let this person go. they've already done you wrong in the past. there's no reason you should allow them to do it again. they most likely had problems with infidelity in the past. you keep just thinking about the feelings you've had towards them in the past and how they could make you feel. potential means nothing if it's not taking into action. this person would not put their energy into giving you what you want and deserve. you shouldn't give your energy into them either. you need to stop carrying any burdens they made you carry. they aren't your responsibility and they need to care for themselves.
pile two,,
this person/these people made you feel owned and weak. not necessarily weak but like you're under someone else's control. this was most likely a group of people. friends or family. you could have recently already cut them off. this left you feeling much more free but you still have healing left to do. the song for this reading is the fine print. i forgot which game it was based on but it could be significant as well. now the only thing stopping you from being as free as you want it yourself. you let their words stay in your mind. it's not your fault that they couldn't recognize your worth but you don't have to forget your own worth too. you need to cut them off completely, including their words and what they "taught" you about your own self.
pile three,,
you have workplace issues. it's not that you can't do your job. it's just that people at your job put so much work and stress on you. you're trapping yourself here because you're scared you won't find another job and you'll sink into poverty. you're putting up with this because of your fears. you have to trust that you'll be protected even if you quit. you're overworking yourself here and it's unhealthy for you. your health is more important than your money and job. even if you're scared and don't feel like just quitting would be the right choice, you can always look for a job first. none of the excuses you can make are anything besides fear. just take a deep breath. you need a break or a better workplace. you'll make the right choice. stop stressing over it. take a moment to relax now or as soon as possible.
pac,, how can you be more confident? what's holding you back?
pile one,,
instead of focusing your energy on others, focus more on yourself. focus on yourself like you're your own crush (I will- mitski). stop settling for people that aren't what you're looking for. if they're bad to you then don't keep them around. they're what's holding you back. you deserve what you want. you have a more negative perspective. if you were less pessimistic, at least towards yourself and your own efforts, it would significantly improve your confidence. you need to let go of this idea that confidence means always feeling good about yourself, never having bad days, and having a mild superiority complex.
pile two,,
your romanticism of your sadness and mental illness is holding you back. you most likely have depression and low self esteem so you learned to live with it instead of learning to heal it. finding some hobbies or something you're good at would increase your confident. you could have grown up thinking you didn't have any specific talent or had to be good at everything so you didn't find just one thing that made you happy that you could do. there's something you know you have to led go off. you have to work on your mental health and emotional regulation. positive affirmations could help a lot. also make sure to calm yourself in a healthy way when you get overwhelmed.
pile three,,
so you're most definitely a creative. you've been working towards better confidence and bettering yourself overall. there's something new bringing balance in. you just have to trust. this feels like it could be something you've been working to manifest for a while. continuing being creative and confident in the art you created will make you more confident as a person. the way you've been moving forward is very strong. just keep pushing through and don't give up. taking breaks is okay and doesn't mean giving up. if you've been thinking about starting something new artistically, especially music, then take the leap. don't do it for other's approval. it's your art, your business.
pac,, what do you need to hear right now?
pile one,,
it's okay to take self care moments. you don't always have to focus on what you have to do at the moment. just trust that you'll be able to rest without negative consequences. you should celebrate yourself and your achievements more. stop focusing so much on the bad parts of the past and tearing yourself down for it. if you're not doing that for the positive parts too, what's the point? keep looking for your passion.
pile two,,
your hard work will pay off. don't give up or waste all of it. if you continue doing well, you will be rewarded. i'm getting the image of working on a garden. it is guaranteed to get better so there's no need to stress as much as you do. you've been working on your own without much help. you'll be able to help other people once you get your reward but make sure you save some enjoyment for yourself.
pile three,,
you have a choice to make. keep continuing on the way you are now and remain focused on the past or focus on yourself and work on self-improvement. you'll be pushed in the right direction. this could be through adding a new problem to your life to get you to realize something. like a tower moment. don't worry too much though, it'll work out.
pile four,,
you could be moving on from someone right now. either a close ex friend or partner. you've been doing amazing. you realized how easy it is to move on now that you've actually tried. i'm currently playing sue me by sabrina carpenter too. you've been enjoying this new-found freedom. you realized you've been holding yourself back this entire time. you're learning and working on your emotions and mental health. stop fantasizing about how it would be to be close to them again cuz it's not happening.
pac,, general emotion reading
pile one
there could be people talking bad about you but you're learning to not care about them. like you're completely unfazed. there's a new change about to happen and the mfs are just gonna be like "damn 🤕" and will switch up fast asf. this will bring positive emotional changes cuz they really thought they were doing something. keep the aggressive confidence you have. you're lifting your emotional burdens while you also focus on goals you already have in place.
pile two
instead of ignoring the problems you're going through because you're scared of intense feelings. if you just calm yourself down and analyze the problem without overthinking or stressing yourself out, it will be so much easier to solve. to learn independence, you also need to learn the emotional management part. be more confident in yourself. you can solve your issues if you try.
pile three
you're trying to act like everything is fine and acting like your own idea of strong when you're on the edge. you feel easily attacked. you're working on yourself now. it would be best to take some alone time or moderate isolation to reflect so people don't influence you in anyway. it would help you allow yourself to be vulnerable. surround yourself with loyal people who allow you to be vulnerable in front of them/with them as well.
pac,, what is holding you back?
꒰ pile one ꒱
you're held back by this act or show you put on for validation from others. you act like you don't feel anything. you try to be calm and confident but it's okay to not be like that all the time. you have to stop worrying about others so much. you shouldn't care that much about what anybody else thinks about you. you should base your own self worth of how you actually feel without influence from other people. it's okay to not always be strong. dont be so obsessed with material things. money and items are comforting and all but there are more important things.
꒰ pile two ꒱
you have these really intense boundaries. possibly from a parental figure or someone you really looked up to. you have issues trusting people and opening up. you're choosing to ignore them or you're approaching them in the wrong way. you have to approach your issues gently and slowly. it won't all disappear instantly. you might only be able to handle rough or aggressiveness from others and yourself but it's okay to be and feel soft sometimes. you may also be attracted to pile one.
꒰ pile three ꒱
you have such sweet wholesome energy. someone took advantage of you, though. they made you think they were trustworthy and then betrayed you. could have been a close friend. maybe even an entire friend group. this left you feeling lonely. you don't fit in because you're not around the right people. don't blame yourself for being "too awkward" or anything like that. you don't need to be everybody's friend. be your own friend first. you don't need the people you're looking for. they aren't like you and you shouldn't have to change who you are.
pac,, inner child messages
pile one,,
your inner child is proud of you for working hard. you could still be wanting the same dream as when you were young. this could possibly be art or music? be careful to not overwork yourself. they want you to be happy while doing what you want, not treating it like a task or chore. they love how independent you are and how you don't need other people to feel happy. it's like you don't care about the gossip around you. your a hard worker and you've been doing this on your own. pat yourself on the back a bit more often.
pile two,,
your inner child loves how caring and nurturing you are. they love how good you are with emotions, especially the emotions of other people. you could have had childhood wounds from a mother or parental figure. they see you making things happen "like magic." even if you take care of people all the time, you still wanna be taken care of as well. you just want those feelings to be returned since you never experienced them as a child. you could also be hoping for this in romance. you could have watched lots of romance/shoujo anime as a kid.
pile three,,
they love your cool relaxed energy. it's just so unbothered. you could have been treated as too dramatic or a crybaby when you were younger. maybe even bullied? most likely bullied or seen as the "weird kid." they love that you're smart but they notice you're a bit of a downer sometimes. you have strong walls put up because you're scared of being hurt. so you are tough and unbothered but only because you're scared. you could be studying something or be focused on school. you're focused on doing good for your future but haven't really planned your future at all.
pac,, how can you be more independent right now?
૮꒰ ˶´ ꒳ `˶꒱ა ♡ pile one
to be more independent, you might want to live in a more secluded way. isolation could work well for right now. sometimes it's better to be alone to learn things by yourself. let yourself enjoy things more. being independent means you're responsible for keeping yourself safe, healthy, and entertained. you could have an artistic hobby that you should focus on. work but also take care of yourself. remember to take breaks. keep yourself comfortable and don't overwork. remember to speak up for yourself, as well.
૮꒰ ˶- ༝ -˶꒱ა pile two
you have to let yourself sit in your emotions a bit more. you have a bad habit of detaching yourself from how you feel. this could be through dissociation. celebrate your own achievements more often. you could often rely on praise from other people. learn life skills like cooking. also find motivation. if you listen to a burning pile by mitski, then that's confirmation. work on your mental and emotional health before making any drastic changes, especially childhood trauma and being used emotionally in the past.
૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა pile three
let yourself be more playful. you could have had a rough childhood where you had to mature or develop too quickly. you should take care of yourself like you wish a parental/adult figure had before. let yourself ask questions and be curious. you could have some people around you that are toxic. probably friends. they give you bad advice and are overall not good for you. you feel inclined to listen to them and do what they want/say. don't be scared to decline their offers and ignore their advice. you also might want to try non-s3xual age/pet regression.
⠀ʚ ︶ㅤ۫ㅤ۪ㅤ𝖼𝖺𝖿𝖾 𝖼͟𝗈͟𝗆 𝖺𝗆𝗈𝗋ㅤֺㅤ֢ㅤૂ
˚ ༘ ♡ ˚ What odds are against you right now? ๋࣭ ⭑
🐰 pile one ୨୧⠀
the main things against you right now are things that you're causing yourself. you refuse to leave toxic situations and people and just leave yourself there as a way of emotionally harming/punishing yourself. you also don't acknowledge the good things you have/do. you only focus on the bad things and use bad situations and people to hurt yourself even more because you think you deserve it. you overwork and overthink yourself to the point that you don't even have the energy to try to convince yourself to stop sulking. try to be more optimistic and work less. there are more important things than working. you can't enjoy a fulfilling life if all you do is work through it without any time for enjoyment.
🥞 pile two ୨୧⠀
you have issues with letting go of the past. it's hard for you to focus and to manage your emotions. you could have bpd or bipolar disorder? either way, emotional management is difficult for you and small inconveniences trigger your anger issues easily. you have to learn how to manage that and not take the small things so seriously. you could have trauma that caused these issues,, especially if you have had father issues before or emotional abuse/reactionary abuse. you can seem immature sometimes because the way you react completely based off emotions. remember to take time to think about what actions you should take instead of what you want to do or feel like you have to do.
🍼 pile three ୨୧⠀
you're being held back because you always dedicate yourself too much to people who don't deserve it or ever give back to you. you're being taught the same lesson over and over without learning it. you can't keep giving people attention when they don't deserve it. you keep letting yourself go through heartbreak over and over again but don't ever notice the pattern. reflect more on what happened in the past (without stressing about it or being depressed about what happened) so you can notice what happened in all the situations. once you find the common factor,, it'll be easier for you to move forward. make sure to reflect more often and take care of yourself. you might have to do this through a diary/journal, photo book, any type of art, or shadow work.
⠀ʚ ︶ㅤ۫ㅤ۪ㅤthank you for readingㅤֺㅤ֢ㅤૂ
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pac,, how do they feel about you?
๋ *ੈ✩‧₊˚ pile one ๋࣭ ⭑
your person feels conflicted. they know they like you but theres something holding them back from taking action on their feelings. the thing holding them back is major because holding back when the lovers card represents how they feel is a lot to hold back. they're scared of things moving too fast and of messing up their chances with you. they care a lot about this and don't wanna lose their opportunity to be with you. their own fear is what's stopping them from coming up even though they want to. since they "can't" move forward with you,, they just watch you from a distance and kinda study you. they think about you a lot but the actual idea of taking action scares them. they could have a fear of rejection when it comes to you.
*ੈ✩‧₊˚ pile two ๋࣭ ⭑
they feel like you have a lot of duality to you/they have a lot of duality. they have a lot of feelings about you but some of them are negative feelings like worry that they need to let go of. it's kind of like they have mixed feelings about liking you. like they feel positive half of the time and negative the other half. this could definitely be new to them. they could be extremely independent seeming. this person could possibly be a woman or someone feminine. this person is probably very loyal. maybe not loyal in general,, but loyal to you at least. they are probably feeling possessive over you but don't show it. even though they can seem possessive,, it's like soft possessive. they still care about you and are safe to be around.
*ੈ✩‧₊˚ pile three ๋࣭ ⭑
they feel like you're kinda "bright"? like a ray of sunlight. you have a cheerful type of personality and way of going about things. if you feel like you're annoying because you get excited easily,, this reading could definitely be for you. you could be extroverted or a class clown type of person. they like your sense of humor. you seem resourceful and original. like you can make people happy out of thin air. they or you could have gone through a lot before in the past and worked your/their way up. it seems like they just want to talk about you instead. they could be reclusive or shy. they might sit in the back of places or something like that where they aren't noticed much. they try to use logic with love more than their actual feelings,, which explains why there wasn't much about their actual feelings.
☀ pac,, what should you focus on this summer? ☀
🌊 pile one,,
this summer you should focus on finding a balance between work and play. keep in mind, this doesn't just mean working your ass off. it means letting yourself relax too when you need to. you may have to let yourself have more fun. you have to learn to congratulate yourself for your major ( and even minor) successes and to not hold your failures above your head. giving yourself praise for doing good is not a crime. you may end up getting a summer job.
🥥 pile two,,
you need to get out more this summer. you could struggle with depression, which could stop you from leaving the house or a fear of taking risks. this summer work to get yourself out the house. you need to take more risks and try new things. possibly for your love life. you might need to see more people. a past lover might have scarred you, but these new people aren't them. you've been through it once so you've experienced the worst already. trust me, you'll live.
👙 pile three,,
if you're in school, you should study more this summer. you might have slacked off really heavily in class and missed out on some information or forgot it. maybe you're trying to go to a new school that has high standards for students. either way, studying over break could be good. don't let other stuff get in your way. personal things could have distracted you in school. well this summer, push those aside. ignore your distractions and start studying. don't overwork yourself.
𝐩𝐚𝐜,, 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐛𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐞 𝐞𝐫𝐚?
(𝘶𝘴𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘣𝘢𝘥𝘥𝘪𝘦 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘪 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘰𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘰𝘯 💀)
ʚ★ɞ pile one ๋࣭ ⭑
TW,, THIS PILE CONTAINS DARKER TOPICS OF TRAUMA, DISORDERS, SA.
you need confidence. don't go overboard with it though. you may have bipolar or a cluster b disorder which can cause issues regarding overconfidence and/ or confidence. take it how it resonates. you could have had a bad past with sexual trauma. you have to take back your power regarding your trauma. you could try to work for male validation and during this time, it'd be best for you to learn to seek validation from yourself instead of men.
ʚ★ɞ pile two ๋࣭ ⭑
money could be a problem for you. the best thing to do is to understand that you'll be taken care of by the universe, god, your spirit guides or whoever you believe in. it'll be taken care of. have more faith. for now, stop worrying about it. you'll be good. let go of your issues for a bit and let yourself have some actual fun. you could also have some toxic friends that are weighing you down. you don't owe your friends money, advice, venting or anything else. you clearly have your own issues and don't have to worry about anyone else's. take this time for yourself
ʚ★ɞ pile three ๋࣭ ⭑
you're literally the only one holding you back right now. stop self sabotaging yourself. you have to be the one rooting for you. you feel abandoned because you abandoned yourself. you aren't showing yourself any love or care. even if others aren't doing it, you have to. if nobody is gonna do it then that's your job. you could be feeling betrayed by someone right now. choose to let go and be happy. it might be difficult but go where your happiness takes you. if it's healthy and you want it, then go for it.
pac,, who do you need cut off with and why?
🌱 pile one,,
who?
there's a friend (or multiple) that you have who acts like they're all intellectual and therefore superior that you, which isn't true. you've fought with them before already, possibly even multiple times. you chose to forgive them and move on because this feeling they know better than you or that your exaggerating. they don't support you or help you with your issues. maybe the ghosting type of person. either way, absent when you need them the most.
why?
you may have also been warned about this person before. maybe even by this person if they're the type of person that's like "im just so toxic." if you stay around them, you'll keep letting them belittle your intelligence and it'll damage you. they're causing chaos in your life and are toxic to be around. the energy for this reading came out very clearly so this may not be the first time they're telling you this.
🥟 pile two,,
who?
this could be a lover or romantic interest or just someone who likes you. this mf is... poetic? as in weird straight boy poetic. they're super emotional which wouldn't be a bad thing but they make it your problem. they disguise them using you as being emotionally open. they cross your boundaries repeatedly. you're not the only one they do this with. they're just desperate for someone. you probably shouldn't even give them the time of day tbh.
why?
this person is immature asf, but they still know what they're doing. they overthink themselves near to death and make you fix it. this is not something you have to deal with. if you stay around them too long, you'll start absorbing up their issues for them. don't let someone like this take your power away.
🍵 pile three,,
who?
i feel like this person is a girl(?) who can't choose if they wanna commit or go out partying or whatever. they're out of touch with their emotions and are used to just pushing them away. (why do all of my piles have the worst emotionally using people? 😭 do better, y'all.) when they found out you were in touch with your emotions, they decided to fuck with you. this person is leading you on or pretending they're offering more later. they aren't.
why?
this person is gonna use your passion for them to get money or material things from you. eventually they'll betray you. this is not someone you wanna keep around. once you leave, ngl it'll suck, but once you learn to function on your own without anyone else, you'll come out stronger and better than before. you don't owe anyone money, advice, or anything else to deserve love. you deserve love regardless.
pac ☆ what next?
pile one
rn im getting the same energy as when princess carolyn from bojack horseman lectures herself for the first time 😭 like she was known for lecturing everybody else and it was a running thing but she had to do it to herself. you had all this knowledge on smth and it didn't go as planned but that's completely alright. just restart and learn more. could have been a breakup. basically you spent all that time worrying and it's time to just like... not? thinking about it won't make it go away. focus on you. you got this, believe in yourself.
pile two
you gotta stop trying to be perfect. just because you aren't the best at everything doesn't mean you aren't good or that you shouldn't see yourself as the best 💀 confidence is key. you just have childhood trauma you need to work on. it won't get better if you don't work on it. quit being stubborn. your idea of strength is based off what others think of strength and now what strength is. strength is not hiding emotions. strength is being able to deal with them. there's not much else to this reading because once you work on accepting how you are already, you'll be good.
pile three
i'm hearing "enjoy your gifts." you dealt w someone (probably romantic) who used you for money. like just mooched off all your money and shit. you were (reasonably) hurt but whatever you did, even if it's just letting yourself feel, you're getting your rewards. don't be impatient. you have your own financial independence now and it's your choice to do what you want with it. give from a place where you actually have extras to give. you definitely have a problem w being overgenerous 😶 don't do that anymore. give when you have extra. don't stress over this person, they're literally not all that. YOU'RE all that.
“𝐏𝐀𝐂 𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐓„ what people are you attracting romantically?
“𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐎𝐍𝐄„
yikes 😭😭 no, you can't fix them. stop trying. it's a lot of emotionally fucked up people who are just immature and scared to face their own emotions. type of people to leave when things get tough. im getting like immature little boy energy but of course they don't have to be boys. this is because of smth with you. make sure you do your shadow work. maybe you're used to "saving" people and shit because of your childhood? regardless, you gotta work that out. i believe in you, treat yourself how you wanna be treated and how you want others to treat you.
“𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐓𝐖𝐎„
im getting like kinda over protective energy? i don't think it's anything to worry about but make sure you put up boundaries with these people. they're working through their own issues so be considerate. they've been through a lot 💀 that's why they have to do their inner work. don't rush them on this. make sure you leave behind any extra burdens and are ready before you date any of these people (if you do). a lot of you might not be able to accept happiness for yourself because you're worried it's gonna end or smth like that but just be happy it'll be there in the first place and enjoy it for as long as possible.
“𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐄𝐄„
don't just go for people because they have enough money to help support you and keep you stable 😬 there are tons of other things to worry about in relationships besides money. your money is fine, stop worrying about it. don't worry about who's the "best" and most stable option for you. go for the person you want. you can't logic your way through love 😭 just date who you want cuz you're attracting the "stable" people and not the ones who are what you want. it's just people with money and stability but who aren't good or fun partners. trust me, your money is fine.
⊹ ̟˖ ⁀꒷꒦ 𝐏𝐀𝐂 𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐭 ₊꒷꒦˚‧๑˖
clarity reading; your current situation
꒰꒰ ⊹꒷︶ 𝐏𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐎𝐧𝐞 ☂︎
to start off, i have to acknowledge that you're doing great by saving financially and focusing on your career/finances. however, you completely boarded yourself up emotionally. you experienced some type of heartbreak. likely from a man (not shocked. 😭) since then, you put your walls up. you've avoided every romantic option and opportunity. keep in mind you can love and focus on yourself at the same time. you're faced with a choice; do nothing and suffer or do something and grow. eventually a change will happen regardless, it's your choice if you want to delay it. just remember that being cold and distant is not the person you were or really are.
꒰꒰ ⊹꒷︶ 𝐏𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐓𝐰𝐨 ☂︎
you've made a big decision. you initiated a positive necessary change but you're disappointed. that's because this change is a slower change. it's good to understand that these changes will take time since they're for such long term things. view it as an investment and not a quick purchase. at this time, you might be confused like you're wandering through daily life. the choice you made was regarding a passion. possibly art (music, painting, dance, drawing, film, etc) related. you're leaving behind old ways of thinking that previously held you back. this is a fresh new start for you, don't let old ways get in the way of your passions.
꒰꒰ ⊹꒷︶ 𝐏𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞 ☂︎
okay, on a completely unrelated note you are hilarious. 💀 but back to the topic, you are in a hot mess right now. i probably don't have to tell you that. right now you should be relying on your intuition heavily. this mess could also relate to mental health and/or (romantic or non-romantic) love. there may be conflict now, but if you can survive and sort through everything, it'll get better. once you walk away from all of this, make sure to celebrate your victory. you likely don't reward yourself for your success, but when it's something as large scale as this you probably should at least try to.