Cocsa - Tumblr Posts

This user can’t talk about what happened to them.

This trauma survivor is getting better.

Sex makes me angry. I hate myself for being a product of it. It’s dirty, it’s disgusting that I am inherently associated with it. The fact that people can imagine me having sex or being in a sexual situation makes me paranoid, sick to my stomach. I don’t want to be human, humans are dirty and sex-driven. I want to fly away to a universe without sex. It’s dirty it’s dirty it’s dirty

Can I talk about my relationship but ✨without the paranoia that people are picturing me having sex✨

I wish you knew how much of a horrible person you were towards me; I wish you knew how much of a horrible person you continue to be.

All you people know is how to hurt me in irreparable ways

a rant by cas thats kinda ass :0

i think about killing you more than i should. i wonder if it would ease the pain and make it go away or maybe even bring back what im missing because what you took used to make me whole. 

but anything and everything could happen to you and it would never be enough. nothing will ever fill the void that you have created within me. i want you to suffer to be stripped away of everything that makes you, you.

i want everyone to see the monster for who you are and how you have left me with so many scars. i want you to feel exposed and unsafe just like how you made me feel in my own home, my own fucking room.

i want you to yell and cry, i want you to beg me to stop hurting you, i want you to feel everything that you have put me through. 

i dont mean to sound so fucking bitter and dark but you and the others took all the best parts of me so i think its right to return the fucking favor

i mean what else can i do when you’ve torn me to pieces and feasted on my remains. you’ve conquered every part of my body and i want you to feel the fucking same.