Indecisive - Tumblr Posts
Why are you lgbtq+? wrong answers only GO
Been doing a self insert on new games I try, and that was my plan for veilguard, but now i find myself creating characters with their romance option, and I have 3 now, and I don't know what to do first. And for once one isn't an elf.
Duality
Two forces, battling in mind.
The actions I have taken,
The actions I have yet to undertake.
Emotions that have run wild,
At last a chance to breathe.
I am enlightened, I am blissful.
The road ahead is dangerous,
The fire of my mind is equally so.
I am indecisive.
fav color?
THAT'S DIFFICULT I never knew my favorite color so I always answer : every color, I love everything !! maybe not colors too flashy (sorry for english I'm french lol), I also like black very much and dark version of colors! IDK (･ัω･ั)
Three options
I accept now that I’m too old, I lived enough and I’m afraid, I say goodbye with this note. I regret making new amazing friends because I don’t want them to lose a friend. I don’t have anything, not even physical health, nobody cares about me, especially my mom, she never really cared about me and I don’t have anybody to guide me in life who I feel comfortable with. My life is already too fucked up to be fixed, I’m gonna see people achieve their dreams while I lay in bed consumed by fear, and I will accept that. Will daydreaming be my only source of happiness? I have three options:
1.- Killing myself, something that I always wanted.
2.- Daydream forever and slowly lose sensibility because there are no experiences to stimulate my life no more. Go crazy as time goes by, and as a consequence, losing my ability to daydream. And finally, after some years, go crazier and die.
3.- Don’t give up and try to enjoy life again and fall in love with everything I ever had a passion for, as consequence feel fulfilled, be happy and help others if I can.
But the thing with this one is: it’s too hard and I feel like a loser already, in a good freely way, even tho it’s also bittersweet, I’m writing this with hot tears running down my cheeks because this is the final goodbye to my dreams, I accept it and I’m gonna be ok, I’m just a little scared about going crazy but I’m more scared if I decide to try and have a life, and my body seriously can’t handle more damage, I’d have a heart attack and die, so option 1 or 2 are looking more appetizing. Another thing is, if I choose option 1 or 2 I won’t be able to stop thinking about “what if I decided to go for option 3” and I’d convince myself that if I had chosen option 3 I would’ve been incredibly successful in every aspect of my life.
Making this blog means I’m choosing option 3.
The urge I have to change my profile picture every few days! I can't be held down by one aesthetic.
"Ohhh what's your aesthetic?"... everything.. I love everything..I will watch Teriffier, Hello Kitty, Barbie life in the dream house, Hellsing ultimate, attack on Titan, The Disastrous Life of Saki K, Monster High, Bratz, Ever After High, Harry Potter, Twilight and the entire Final Destination saga at the same time.. I cannot choose one category of things... I will go from Emo to dollcore in a split second... I am everything.. I'm very indecisive
*anything remotely negative happens*
Me: I'm quitting
Y’all should I pose my traditional art here? I’ve got multiple sketchbooks but idk
its a three way tie between American Idiot, Dark Side of the Moon, And ...And Justice For All, but hey, it took a LOT of work to narrow it down to just three, so this is as close as it gets
Music fans reblog this with an album you consider “your” album… one that is part of your personality, one that means a lot to you, or just one you really like… Mine is The Perfect Shade of Green by Skittish :>
The R+E scene, but EVEN MORE DRAMATIC
My urge to always apologize for everything
Vs
My fear of abandonment and the urge to always people please
The fight of the century, happening now because my partner doesn't want me to apologize and I don't know what to do.
Not apologize obviously because it's whiny but also, when I did something wrong I should apologize???
What??
I'll figure it out, just gonna tell my therapist
i can’t decide whether i should meet up with my friend OR go shopping and maybe buy a cute sweater OR watch ski jumping OR study for my chemistry exam…
Is it bad I kinda want to do Pokemon art again? And Hollow knight, LoL, not even counting my Dnd character list.