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This fucks me up, because so much of personality is adaptive responses to how our brains work, right? I can’t wrap my mind around what this AU would be, and it makes me deeply uncomfortable but somewhat wistful to imagine as a real-life possibility, but I’d read it. 

(Although, if each body kept its physical brain and brain chemistry, that brings up thorny questions of where one’s consciousness resides and how it actually would be swapped...since the brains have physical neural pathways that we develop over the years, and different parts of the brain developed more than others, right? the mechanism by which we have all our thoughts? so would the connection patterns of thoughts get transferred over to the new brain but find certain pathways really unfamiliar?? how are memories even encoded??? someone get a neurologist, help!)

Also interesting to contemplate: the role gut flora play in influencing moods!

Okay but here’s the thing about bodyswaps

It’s usually explicitly one’s consciousness or literal soul being switched around, right? It’s not your actual, physical brain and brain chemistry

So what if one person has clinical depression and the other doesn’t? Someone’s probably got ADHD, is on the autism spectrum, has OCD or anxiety or PTSD. And maybe some of that follows the original owner, because they’re used to dealing with in unconsciously, but whoever replaced them is getting the brunt of it

Focusing on the physical aspect of bodyswaps is cool and all but let’s see some more on the psychological too?

On the one hand, this was stunning and I’m hugging this affirmation to my metaphorical chest. On the other...this assumes that the major concern, for the kid struggling to turn in an assignment, is the grade. I can assure you that it’s not (or not for many of us).

The smartest kids who still don’t seem to comprehend that 60% will help you not fail? They know that. They are not scared of a bad grade, or not only of that. They’re scared of disappointing their professor and of the threat that they might not really be all that smart. A bad grade earned because of a late assignment isn’t as threatening as a bad grade earned by a bad paper. One is about their behavior, which theoretically can change; the other seems to be an indictment of their capabilities, which are less fluid. (This is flawed logic, because turning in assignments consistently late would indicate a deficit in life skills, but it’s hard to see that when you’re in the weeds.)

I once turned in a paper so late it got me a C+ for the whole class - my only C ever - but I didn’t mind so much, because <i>at least my professor still thought I had good ideas in my paper</i>. At least my paper was honest and well researched.

So unfortunately, this inspiring post wouldn’t have really helped me, when I was stuck in that mentality. It wouldn’t have mattered if my prof had explained to me that I could bump up to a B- in the class if I turned it in two days earlier but 5 points worse. I was completely willing to sacrifice the grade for his good opinion of my scholarship, and for my own intellectual curiosity and pride in the assignment.

What might have helped is if he or someone else had sat me down and said “featherofeeling, I’ve seen the work you’ve done in other assignments, and I know you’re a good writer and capable of research. What I need from you now is to demonstrate that you can fulfill requirements, including sacrificing quality for timeliness if necessary. I probably won’t remember these topics in 6 months anyway, but I’ll remember your presence in my class.”

Certainly no one was obligated to tell me that, and no one really did; but if someone had wanted to help, it’s that kind of advice that might have gotten through.

A reminder that turning in assignments for partial credit is better than not turning them in at all. It is. Even if you think you’ve done a bad job and are ashamed of your work, or it’s way overdue, you take whatever you can get. Partial credit dramatically improves your grade over a zero, and I’m always astounded by how often even the smartest kids don’t really comprehend that. 60% is worlds better than 0%. Even 10% is going to help you. Letter grades are misleading and are not created equal. “F"s are mathematically valuable. Turn that late assignment in.

last July I decided to record my thoughts on the miraculous ladybug movie

, here you go

(prepare for the most massive text block of your life)

Why is the lighting so harsh all the time????Marinette's speaking v singing voice is soooo. Different

AND WHY DID GABRIEL HAVE LONG HAIR AT ONE POINT BURN IT

And also? Why do they have a ginormous portrait of them in MOURNING CLOTHES.

careless whisper playing as chat takes ladybug's hand is the most correct ever

Also, Adrian is me coded fr

Chat is chaos incarnate

WHY TF DOES CHAT LEAP AWAY LIKE THAT

Adrian get your life together why does a girl make you smile this much you JUST met her

stHAP WHY DID THEY MAKE ADRIAN SO BBGGabriel????? Singing?????

STOP it right now (his whole villain song is sendingggggg meede)

You know what I love how Marinette loves her dad

Marinette's emo song goes hard

I know this is, like, a show about magical powers and whatnot but I really like how they show the destruction of the fight and how, even while helping, damage is done

DONT THINK I DIDNT SEE LUKA I DID I WAS CHEERING HIM ON IN ANY SCENE HE WAS IN

HEATHENS. ABSOLUTE HEATHENS. WHY MUST THEY BITE THEIR ICE CREAM

The banter as they fight is killing me oh my god

And before people ask who I ship in the weird love square, it's just the two of them with the banter ladybug and chat noir have.

IDK WHY IT GOT SO COMPLICATED BUT IT DID AND IM CONFUSED. they are LITERALLY the same people, different fonts.

*breath has been stolen from my body* THE WALL OTS LITERALLY FANFICTION WRITING ITSELF

Also, /gen, how old are they? Because I know in the series they're like 14-15, but in the movie the animation really does make them look younger idk. I think it's around the same?

GEEZE when Marinette claps back she does so brilliantly

$$$picture of dead spider, could have been spiderman$$$

If a) chat noir gets akumatized or b) they don't end up together I will riot I have seen both happen and I have already suffered!!!! I've paid my dues!!!

IM SORRY THE WHOLE HAND THING WHERE IT SHOWS THE PROGRESSION THROUGHOUT THE MOVIE I HAVE DIED DEAD OH MY GOODNESS I HAVE PASSED AWAY /VPOS

Chat is so goofy frOH MY GOD NO NOT THE DOIBLE DUMP SHUT UP AND SHOW YOUR SECRET IDENTITY ALREADY

Also the earbuds?? As a symbol for Adrian's mental state??? Pretty smart ngl

There's only half an hour left Marinette needs to stop singing and get this fixed!!!

Why is hawkmoth like that???? He went from some silly goofy villain with a dark past to me angst machine who only cares about joining his wife like, yes that's his motive in the series but it's much more sane? I guess?

NOOOOO CARLESS WHISPER IS HIS RINGTONE?????

adrian oh my god stop being angsty AND DO YOUR JOB

Plagg has my whole heart fr

Sad we didn't get to see a slow transformation for chat tho

the suspense oh my god stop it

THEYRE TOO YOUNG FOR THIS YOUR HONOR GET YOUR GRIMY LITTLE HANDS AWAY FROM MY BABIES

damn got them with the force

OH MY GOD THIS MAN KNOWS THAT THEY ARE CHILDREN AND DOES. NOT. CARE. LIKE SIR???

what the heck oh my god OH MY GOD THE REVEAL ITS TIME

literally only half of the mask is gone when he recognizes adrian this man needs to spend more time with his child.

If hawkmoth has a redemption arc I will be waiting in line to punch him. Take a number I will gladly do so. Just lemme at him.

How does his cat ears stay on?

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD THE REVEAL

why is the wife not in her glass case she's gonna decompose!!!!

I love checking my statistics. It's like a little game.

Yesss little graph show me those numbers. This will not at all have bearing on how I feel for the next hour.

GIRL a ceiling fan?? Imma eat that like it's the most delicious graham cracker

*CHOMP*

you know what we dont appreciate "last christmas" enough as a song. like, most christmas songs are bops but that one? timeless. i listen to year year round (no i dont but i absolutely should). universal, i literally just saw the most magnificent hannigram edit to it. it's just so under appreciated. i have found my new roman empire

Oc Time!

Meet Gizmo! Her real name is Juliette but prefers the name Gizmo. She has vitiligo, has ADHD and is a feral woman!

Careful around her, she will jump you if she wants to reach her best friends and that gonna hurt!

I talk and ramble often. I talk too fast and can’t get my words out fast enough. I’ve been told I’m random my entire life.

My randomness, rambles, and jumping to different convos and forgetting the original topic is my normal. Sometimes I wish I could not speak at all because my friends are talking about a class, but I still can’t stop talking about a joke we said 5 minutes ago. I can tell I annoy people. My voice is hard to reign in.

I wish I could stop being something people want to get away from and not talk to.

just realised that the reason I like poetry so much might be because I genuinely enjoy literature but, thanks to ADHD, I'm hardly ever able to finish a book (not to mention a whole book series, I legit never finished a single one)

and poems are usually a few paragraphs long at best

hi people of tumblr, any recommendations for stim toys? you may have seen my previous post a month ago about them but those were from somewhere else and because of how we got into a fight and they were mean, they took it away.

help an autistic adhd person out please.

what type of stim toys do i need to make sure that everything’s okay and doesn’t go wrong?

No one:

Absolutely nobody:

Okay is this why we get diagnoses:

Me, full of feral energy, in the midst of a research high and being chaotic as all get out: Must. Know. All the things! *is focused intently on the one subject to know all the things about* *feels like I'm about to vibrate out of my skin when I hit a stall*

Also me, five seconds later being squirrelly as we leave family friends' house: wait is this what people mean when they talk about ADHD hyperfixations?

No one:

Literally my entire family:

*displays so many adhd tendencies*

*lives in chaos*

*it's full of love and laughter but we're also insane*

Me:

*the only one going to try and get a diagnosis*

Okay but in all seriousness none of us but the youngest ones have it as bad as me so it makes sense. But I'm just saying. If we all got psych evaluations, I'm pretty sure that only one of us and the two year old who's too young for a definite diagnosis anyway would remain undiagnosed with some form of neurodivergence

Maybe my mom but she has more subtle adhd tendencies and aphantasia.

Tbh, this is part of why I am intensely glad we're homeschooled. First off, we don't have to deal with any of the bull the rest of y'all get. Second off, as nd as we are? Some of us would be bullied, and I cannot guarantee that murders would not be committed.

... okay probably not murder but definitely assault. There are too many protective older siblings in this family.

So, I didn't get a diagnosis because my doctor has never made any mental health diagnoses before but we both agree it's highly probable and if I decide I want meds for depression or ADHD she will prescribe them

No one:

Absolutely nobody:

Okay is this why we get diagnoses:

Me, full of feral energy, in the midst of a research high and being chaotic as all get out: Must. Know. All the things! *is focused intently on the one subject to know all the things about* *feels like I'm about to vibrate out of my skin when I hit a stall*

Also me, five seconds later being squirrelly as we leave family friends' house: wait is this what people mean when they talk about ADHD hyperfixations?

Finally, an accurate description of how my brain works!

You wanna know what (my) ADHD is like?

ADHD is deciding you want to work on one of your WIPs so you grab a coffee and head to the library because it’s a change of scenery and it’s quiet, but you already had your AirPods in when you got there, so you spend the first fifteen minutes making trying to find the song that sounds suspiciously similar to the one you’re already listening to before you actually start writing.

Everything is going smoothly and flowing well until you have to fact-check something and while you’re looking for the answer you stumble across a TikTok video you made (because you use TikTok for fact/accuracy checking) and then you start scrolling through other videos you have made and find one that did really well, basically a collection of pictures of your favorite actresses, so you decide to make an updated version and you start alternating between Pinterest, Instagram, and Google to find photos.

Trying to find the perfect photos takes way longer than you expect because you find photos you think would be useful for other projects and you are also having to make sure the photos you chose for this project are the best quality, and during that process, you realize the lighting that is coming through the window where you’re sitting is really good so you snap some selfies and then you go back to looking for photos but then you notice a wholesome interaction between who you assume is a father and a daughter and you just have to write about it and then you can go back to looking for pictures.

At some point, you start thinking about buying a camera because you’ve been wanting one for years so you do about five minutes of “research” (looking up “best cameras for beginners” on TikTok and then doing a quick google search) before adding a camera and a lens to your amazon cart, but then you look at the total and think “that’s a lot of money” so you look up when cameras go on sale because the only sale you can think of is Black Friday/Cyber Monday and it’s currently February and you find there is usually a sale in July/August so you set a reminder in your calendar and move the two items in your amazon cart to your wish list.

After all of that, you switch back to the story you were supposed to be working on and you realize it’s been over two and a half hours, you’ve written 100 words for your work in progress, written a 186-word account of the wholesome interaction you witnessed, got nowhere near finishing the TikTok video you were working on, your music has changed from sad piano playlist to the playlist you listen to when you want to feel like the badass main character, you talked yourself out of buying $600 worth of camera equipment, and you are about to poop your pants from finishing your Dunkin cold brew over an hour ago.

ADHD is also being unaware that you were so deep into the hyperfocus zone until you’re sitting in your car and you return to reality and you remember that other people are not just NPCs.

ADHD is also coming back to edit this because you realized no ADHD person is going to want to read that long of a paragraph (including me) 🤦‍♀️ It still big paragraphs but it’s a bit better now imo

i want to learn so many skills for someone who can't sit still longer than 15 minutes