burned0utstar

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vent blog | Tw: sh, ed, suicide, sa | trying to heal | asks open

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When He Says He's Not Good But He Literally Teaches Me How To Play Guitar, Kisses My Scars, Makes Cute

When he says he's not good but he literally teaches me how to play guitar, kisses my scars, makes cute little Keychains, has a stuffie, kisses my nose and wore his hoodie so it would smell like him when he gave it to me.

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burned0utstar

9 months ago

I actually didn't think about him today.

Which is funny and good I think.

But now that I do think about him again, I still miss him.

But it hurts less.

And I am less angry too.

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burned0utstar

9 months ago

I try to fill the void he left with anything that could kill me.

I'll die before letting myself fall in love again.

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burned0utstar

9 months ago

I won't see them?

I won't get to meet them?

This was the only thing I've been living towards to, and now it will never happen?

I don't know what to do now.

I need them.

I need to hold and hug them, I need to see and feel them.

How can I keep going now?

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burned0utstar

9 months ago

Honestly, even when if he leaves me I'm still so grateful to have met him.

Like, he showed me new music, motivated me to start being creative again, helped me accept my scars, went to concerts with me and showed me what I can have.

I was so down when I met him, and I'm really doing better now. Thanks to his influence.

So even if he leaves me, I'll still have a friend and a life.

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burned0utstar

9 months ago

He had a wild night and slept with someone. I shouldn't feel bad, because we are in an open relationship, and I'm not angry or jealous, but...

But like, I want to be enough for him.

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