Tw Rather Graphic Sui Vent

tw rather graphic sui vent

i want to fucking kill myself

dig blades into my arms

feel the blades deep into my flesh

i want blood streaming down my arms

fire dancing over my skin

rivulets of blood carving rivers into my flesh

i want to feel my consciousness fade out into the dark abyss of nothing

be free from this stupid fucking shitty meat suit

be released from the shackles of existence

life is an infinite monotonous gray canvas

i want to splatter it with crimson and finally break out of this stupid cage

i deserve pain and suffering and eternal punishment

death would be merciful

i want to split open my limbs

carve into my bones

leave giant bleeding gashes in my stupid fucking body

carve out chunks of flesh

watch as i fall apart into pieces

i want to throw myself into a fire

watch as my skin shrivels into darkness

feel the burning agony pierce deep into the core of my very being

i want to stab myself and dig chunks out of my flesh

watch as my organs start hanging out of my body and entrails collect on the ground

i want to gouge my eyes out until all i see is red and then black

i want to feel like my entire world is agony and nothing more

reduce my existence to a single blazing spear of fire

tunnel vision into white hot embers

i want to throw myself off a skyscraper

feel the wind grasp at me

the endless freedom of falling

the explosion of agony

the shattering of my being

split myself into tiny shards

watch as the scales of my fate tip and plummet into the abyss

watch as it shatters into a million fragments of broken futures

i want to feel the thrill of control

the feeling of my spirit flooding my limbs

i want to stop being a puppet pulled by golden strings controlled by the cruel mistresses of destiny

i want to be able to sever the threads of my life

split them with a slash of a blade

i want to slice my limbs into paper thin slices

see the twitching muscle

blood pulsing out a pool of crimson slowly growing

i want to drive nails into my hands and feet

shove a spear into my side

feel blood dripping down my skin

hang as a violent mockery

i want to embed a blade into my skin

lift it up

watch as my skin peels off

i want to just lie down in a bathtub

rest my head against the cold porcelain

lift a blade to my wrist

feel it bite into my flesh

and just

slash

watch as it splits and opens

watch as the blood starts pulsing out

feel my mind start to float away and finally find peace peace peace

i want to tie a cloth around my throat and twist the tourniquet as it tightens and tightens and tightens

as my body feels light and hazy and i feel my pulse throbbing over my whole body as a final desperate attempt to survive but it fails and everything fades into black darkness

thats what true beauty is

the perfect serenity of death and nonexistence

i want to tie a noose and tie it to a hook

put my head in

feel it constraining my throat and just kneel and let myself hang

start floating away as i feel lighter and lighter and i slip into the empty void of nonexistence into true freedom

away from this life away from all pain away from everything in existence

the concept of existence itself is flawed the dichonomy of existence and nonexistence is inherently asymmetrical

to not exist is to never feel pain

i want to make my way up many flights of stairs

go onto the roof and see the sky stretching above me

feel the wind against my skin

lean against the railing

aware of the fragility of my existence

one simple tipping moment as i plummet into an explosion of nothingness

let me die and be freed from this prison of monotony

everything is in patterns and routines

i am trapped on this train hurtling towards jagged shards of reality

let me make my own story

jump off the train into the dark welcoming abyss

let me die

let me die

let me die

the only thing im good at is ruining good things

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pain

misery

kill

torture

suffering

bloodshed

anger

I hate the question where do you see yourself in 5 years like bro fucking dead next question thanks

Not to be incredibly vulgar and nasty or anything, but I’d like to close my eyes and rest my head in somebody’s lap while they run their fingers through my hair

heullo it's me . spotify . I just wanted to know if by shuffle you meant normal style or horrible terrible useless worst style. actually I'm gonna assume horrible terrible useless worst style