Tw: Rants Of Not Being Desired. Block Don't Report

Tw: rants of not being desired. Block don't report

WHY AM I SO FUCKING DISGUSTING? LIKE MY PERSONALITY N EVERYTHING ABOUT ME IS NOT DESIRABLE LIKE WHY COULDN'T MY PARENTS PRODUCE SOMETHING CUTE? LIKE ALL I WANT IS SOME OLDER MAN TO FIND ME PRETTY AND WANTS TO SPOIL ME WITH LOVE N MONEY OR AT LEAST STARE N FLIRT WITH ME LIKE EVERY OTHER FUCKING GIRL IN MY STUPID ASS LIFE, I WANT TO BE PRETTY, I CANTT?? STUPID AS FUCK N STUPID ASS LIFE. LIKE I CAN GET ATTENTION FROM GUYS ONLINE BUT IT ISN'T IRL, PPL ONLINE DONT EVEN SEE MY FACE. IT ISNT AS PERSONAL AS IRL.

People who refuse to understand that cvtting for attention is valid make me so, so angry. Because i'm not talking about someone who does it because they want to hurt someone else/do it as "revenge" against someone to make them feel bad, I'm talking about someone who cvts to get attention because they know something is wrong, but they don't know what that something is and they can't articulate it.

If someone is resorting to cvtting themselves to get you to look at them and pay attention to them and you brush it off as just being dramatic and attention seeking, you're not helping. And usually, a lot of us hide our sh for a reason! Even if we've been clean for a while! I hid my scars for nearly a year because I didn't want anyone to know, but even if I didn't even if I showed someone to ask for help in the only way I knew how, that would've been valid.

Picture under !!

I want to be her but skinnier (I'm not saying she's fat, I'm saying I want to be more breakable and holdable like this).

My fellow annas,

Math is your friend!!! For example, knowing a lb of fat is 3500 cals means that if you "overate" by 500 cals, but you were already in a 1000 cal deficit, you'll just lose weight more slowly and won't gain weight.

Multiplication and division are nice too because, if you have a 400 cal desert but eat it over the course of 4 days, it's only 100 cals a day AND you enjoy it 4 times.

Also if you eat *gasp* 1000-1200 cals a day (ik sooo many) you will lose weight, just not instantly, and it's possible to do this for a really long time without organ failure/hair loss/mood swings/any other bad symptoms you don't want. Even the smallest deficit will add up over time and it'll be easier to transition into maintenance once you reach your gw.

If you do binge, still log the cals. You might find that while your weight went up 3lb, you only went 1000 cals over your bmr, meaning that you gained like 6 OUNCES of fat and the rest is water and bloat.

Also think about time as numbers. Yeah 8 weeks to lose 8kg feels like 4 ever, buttttt it's better than multiple years of binge/strve cycle and no progress (cough cough, ME)

Hope this helps, it breaks my heart to see posts like "I ate 1000 cals today, all my progress is gone 😭" because you deserve to know exactly what your weight is doing and why (also I swear I'm not trying to be preachy about this, I spent my entire teenage years like you all and I'm trying not to also spend my twenties like this too lol)

Stay safe 🩷🤍🩷🤍🩷🤍🩷🤍🩷🤍

Edblr Things

I'm not encouraging Ed's, pls don't start and try to recover !!

I'm on edblr, and I'm not very deep in it I could probably stop if I wanted💀

I'm 135 lbs and I have a fast metabolism.

My bmi: 22.5.

My dream bmi: 16.6

I want a flat stomach and want smaller thighs, I basically wanna be smaller

My goal for right now is: 100 lbs

And I don't have a weigher so I can't exactly weigh myself and I have to go by how skinnier I get.