If All The Words Constantly Storming In My Head Could Be Imprinted On My Skin, Then I Would Be A Walking

If all the words constantly storming in my head could be imprinted on my skin, then I would be a walking proof of how often does your name cross even the farthest reaches of my brain. All thoughts I run when I am alone. My unsupressed yearnings. The gleam in your eyes. Your face popping irrevocably in my memory even when I don't summon it. All the love bursting from my chest, an ocean of tenderness that could drown you if I have the courage to spill it.

The good morning wishes. A proof that even in a hazy state of waking, I remember you. And I take every bit of you, inhale you like the scent of Sampaguita mixing with the morning breeze. The long talks during coffee break. The crazy jests that open a secret pathway to my heart. All these sweet nothings. I would gladly wear them as a badge. A moving poetry of untold emotions swirling me about.

I wish there's a way for all of these to be imprinted on my skin. So I can wear you. Even if it means undergoing the pain of being inked. I would willingly bare my skin for the prick of the needle, endure the feeling of being wounded in the name of art. So I can have you. In this sense, even if you choose to walk away one day, a part of you will remain. A part that I will carry for the rest of my days. A reminder that once, in my youth, I fell in love with someone like you. And in retrospect, nothing could have made life sweeter.

-Wear you like a badge,

Katie, 11:00

Then one day, you decided to become a memory.

(When you become a memory)

Katie, 02: 32

I confess, doubt has been restraining me from the beginning. I didn't really think we can make it. But look at us, we made it this far.

We made it this far to say goodbye.

(Surprisingly, we made it farther than I thought)

Katie, 21:00

All of a sudden I've become numb. I can't feel my heart. I can't feel you. And it drives me insane thinking how this inability to feel is both daunting and consoling.

Katie, 12:55

“People are people and sometimes we change our minds.”

— Taylor Swift; Breathe

Is it possible darling

To occupy your heart

Fill whatever space

There is like a piece

Of puzzle that completes

The entirety of your

Exquisite universe

Before somebody

Else resides

In the depth

Of your winding mind

And tear you away

From the thinnest

Thread that connects

My entire being

To your soul

-Your soul

Katie, 23:00