Excerpts From My Heart - Tumblr Posts
There's someone in my chest who's bleeding, who's crying, who's longing for someone.
Is it you, my heart ?
Could all of your tears turn into mine ?
If it’s possible, I’d cry for you as well.
Now forgive me, why you have gone so far.
But I still consider you my life.
If you had to go, then why you came in my life.
Listen to my wish, Please do a favour by meeting me.
Come and show me the world, as you see it with your eyes.
I often used to ask God for you in my prayers.
Is it possible darling
To occupy your heart
Fill whatever space
There is like a piece
Of puzzle that completes
The entirety of your
Exquisite universe
Before somebody
Else resides
In the depth
Of your winding mind
And tear you away
From the thinnest
Thread that connects
My entire being
To your soul
-Your soul
Katie, 23:00
Monday 1735
I finally realized it today, you are never going to leave her.
No matter how much I love you. No matter who I walk away from.
You are never, ever going to be mine.
Monday 2009
I need a break from the things that hurt, and it may be only for a little while or it may be longer; but you and I will always find our way back to one another no matter what happens.
I am the one who is always happy to see you, who never has to fake it, who always knows you can do more and wants to know how you will, but-
I am not the one you want those things from, and that is where our magnets flip their poles and the resistance begins.
I'm going to have dinner with someone soon, who is looking directly at me, instead of at a ghost standing over my shoulder; I'll fuck you out from under my skin if I have to.
You and I will always find our way back to one another, but I need a break from the hurt, at least for a little while.
Friday 1946
"Tomorrow" we used to whisper
"Tomorrow" our mantra, our hold on a little longer till we can touch and melt and find release in one another, but
"Tomorrow" is different now, forbidden in a new way
"You don't destroy the things that are good for you" my friend said
"I do. It's what I'm good at"
Because "Tomorrow" is just another crack in the facade now, the acid bath I threw us into
"Tomorrow" is just business again.