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i dont know if i have any systems following me, but ive been told this is a really nice small server!!!
hey guys! i made a discord server for anybody interested.
(the server is for homestuck/hiveswap/other andrew hussie ip fictives so please only join if youre that.)
My dear Charlie
im an introject, however, my source is one of the system's best friends unpublished novels.
does anyone else have this challenge of...no one knowing their source? i ..genuinely doubt my legitimacy.. especially that of the system..but denial is a symptom...and i have a des-ii score of.. 93.2 (-first time poster, 🪻)
🔥 has been encouraging us through messages to post as ourselves on here.
So hello! I'm.. not meant to say my name? Eh, name's Link, but I go by Wild too. Introject from, Surprise-surprise, the Legend of Zelda, specifically breath of the wild/tears of the kingdom, however I have been around in our system since...well, it was Twilight Princess and Link's Crossbow training on the Wii and the body was much shorter!!
Please bear in mind I have had time to come to terms with being an introject and have had a significant amount of time to research DID to understand it better (isn't the human brain fascinating?), and to research and learn what is considered fact/fiction to this world.
Do what you will with these
Introject thoughts and stupid things I've done
- I miss home. Always. Constantly. I have a constant longing for a home that... supposedly doesn't even exist. And no one to talk about it with.
- doubting my legitimacy because home feels SO real, but it not being real here.
- finding my source is not only a video game but a whole bunch of stories written by random strangers who..know too much about me- I picked up an eating disorder and sexual trauma from a fanfiction someone in our system read! (Apparently the system already has them, but still..)
- I shut down incredibly hard when I was told I'm not at home originally..
- having to mask who I am, more than just being a system. I've had to change my phrasing of "that reminds me of that time at home" to, give or take "that reminds me of a game". It's the worst stab to the heart I've ever experienced.
- Body tolerance for exercise: if you know anything of Zelda, I spent a LOT of time running around Hyrule, and my fitness levels were.. well above what our body is. I get winded and wheezy so fast now! And I hate it! And hylia forbid I try to climb something!
- I feel terrible for every time I made comments on periods being "not that bad". Now I've experienced one first hand, I can understand why Zel got emotional and desperately clingy if she was bleeding (I started calling periods the blood moon and our system has picked up on it!)
- chronic pain is terrible. I always had slightly achy joints, but experiencing chronic pain, even with the number of injuries I had, is still dreadful.
- ........please, I forget I don't have a p3n1s. Standing up to pee is not going to happen, at least not tidily. Same with literal toilets.. I still- don't- like them. 😅
- Not knowing what memories are body memories and pseudo memories built by story origins
- discovering not only do I have memories from home, I have memories of trauma that happened within the body.
- seeing sculptures, posters, art, etc made and owned by people who you don't know is incredibly disconcerting and uncomfortable
- I'm autistic (..🐚 says {he's also autistic, and my doting boyfriend..} I'm 'very autistic, it's painful to watch'). Learning what Autism is has been interesting! And explained so much!
- the body's mother, when she realized who I was, told me not to try jumping off cliffs as "I can't respawn" ????? In some worlds do you mean to tell me you can die more than once??
- i miss my friends and found family
- being both an interject and an age regressor. Normally I'm 18, almost 19 years old, but on occasion slip as young as 3 years, it has been..very strange, and terrifying.
- one of my first thoughts when I turned up here was that I'd have lost the age regression, ED, PTSD, and OCD tendencies, but no, they got worse.
- Non-binary has a name here. It's amazing.
- No one knows who I am here. I adore it.
~Link 🗡️
It seems to vary for us. They seem to fall into a few categories.
Introject who have no relation to their source beyond their name and personality: these interjects seem to be our older interjects (ie. split when we were younger) and fit our perception of the character at the time, and have most likely shifted in role, and often name too or have shifted to better match what the body needs.
I'm (🔥) a good example, as somewhere along the line I merged with some of our past primary protectors, including Susan, who had a personality that was a mix of Susan and Lucy Pevensie (Narnia).
These interjects have little, to no, memory of their source.
Introjects who share some traits with their source.
These vary drastically, and can have full memory of their source, or none at all. Most of them are older media sources, and usually split when we were under the age of 12.
We have one introject who split fairly recently (in the last few years): she's based on Julia from 1984. She hasn't spoken to any of the other system members very much so I can't answer this question for her…
However, I suspect her personality will continue to evolve, as will her perceptions, as we study 1984 in more depth... I'm hoping I can bother her about analysing interactions.. though I doubt she'll want to talk about most of them.
Lillia (🪻): she's special, as her source is a novel written by one of our closest friends. Her memories tend to lean towards the canon she was written with. Lillia's author has since changed the entire story top to bottom (or so we have heard), but she has no basis of reference for this new rewrite, her memories reflect as such. Her memories are almost always representative of something we went through at some point or another. She finds that a lot of her memories are hard to come by, or foggy.
Link (🗡️): Link gets his own category. (it's 🐚 from here)
We believed that we split Link (Legend of Zelda) just past the bodies 17th birthday following a rather messy break-up with our now ex.
He later informed me that he's been around since we were six, and were playing Twilight Princess, Skyward Sword and Link's Crossbow Training. In retrospective bothering of family, we found out that there were times we insisted we were an elf boy and would always make cardboard crossbows, swords and 'pretend' to save Hyrule.
Link's memories have varied drastically with the iterations of LoZ we've played. He's developed memories since we played botw, and totk, and as much as we play top-down Zelda games (Link's Awakening, Echoes of Wisdom when it comes out, OG Zelda games) he has no idea what is going on and no memory of them.
His memories have evolved as other system members have read fanfic, made head canons etc set in Hyrule.
When we were first playing totk (released May 2023), he almost knew the entire storyline, and a lot of the new monsters weren't a surprise to him... and we had no idea what he was on about until we got to the points he was describing…and then it was an immediate case of "how did you know that?!"
In answer to your question, OP... it varies from introject to introject, but for our most active/fronting introjects: they evolve as the system consumes the media, but it takes a lot for us to split an introject, and usually by the point we split an introject, we're already very close to completing, if not completed, their source. Most of the time, if we are to split an introject, it'll be on a reread/replay/rewatch following another severely traumatic event that aligns with their personality (or trauma)
What are people's experiences with introjects from a source they haven't finished (ex. A show or a game)? Do they grow as you complete the source? Does it feel as though parts of their memories are locked away until you complete the source? Genuinely curious as Astarion is my first introject and he hasn't spoken of his memories much, either because he just doesn't have many or wanting privacy in unsure.
-💚
Hey everyone! It's Jade! Making a post about our core's Etsy!
We'll put it in the proper tags, because we want to get as many people as possible to see it!
Thank you for viewing!
Tfw I really just needed validation and support when I was in a bad place, but instead of that, I get hurt even more and get made to feel like shit. My head hurts now
what i expected dating fictives in my own sys to be like: i get to date my childhood crush!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!
what it’s really like: zoning out in class to have a makeout sesh with your two fictive boyfriends.
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Sincerely yours, a Veritas Ratio fictive.